Chapter 11

"Aaaaaaaaaaaaaauuughmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!" I scream while bursting into Rose and Lissa's room. I just. I like. Why? Rose and Lissa stare at me expectantly. "I almost kissed Adrian," I admit in a defeated voice. Lissa squeals, which I am used to by now. I start pacing. "I didn't mean to! It all just happened so quickly! I mean sure, we were flirting and," I mumble the next part," talking about when we were naked together, but I mean like that doesn't insinuate that we should make out… Wow, that didn't even sound convincing in my head. Also, it was weird. I had this dream about him the night before, and told the dream Adrian that I would be in the library in the morning and he showed up at the library, which is weird because he doesn't seem like the kind of guy who would go to the library for fun." I know I'm talking a million miles an hour, but I just can't stop. I keep telling myself that I shouldn't be with him or get close to him, but I'm starting to forget the reason why.

We sit and chat about Adrian and Christian until I calm down enough and Lissa says she has to go. Once she leaves, I stare at Rose with a mischievous yet knowing smile. "Dude, what? Why are you looking at me like that?"

"Don't act like you don't know. It starts with D," I say, hinting.

"What, like dick? Oh my god, did you see Adrian's dick? Was it big?"

"No, you asshole. We haven't even kissed yet. I'm talking about Dimitri! And you literally can't lie to me. Profiling makes it really easy to tell when people are lying."

"Oh…" She begins. She lets out a troubled sigh and a crease forms between her eyebrows. "I, uh, like him. A lot. And I think he likes me, but he's always so professional and always acts a little cold." Her talking falls off, deep in thought and very unlike Rose. Her frown just keeps saddening.

"Hey, you know what? Why don't I read your future? You're gonna see Dimitri later, so I could tell you how it goes." Her eyes light up, but then she squints a little and I aid, "It's one of my many secret gifts. Give me your hand." She reaches out gingerly, still unsure. I roll my eyes and start to glow.

"I don't understand. Why are you quitting training on me?" A mad Rose inquires, hiding her disappointment. Dimitri looks at her longingly, conflicted as he turns away. Rose sees and steps forward, letting her hand grasp his shirt and gently tug him back over. Is this in the library? "It's because I don't know if I can control myself much longer. You make me crazy, out of control, and I can't let that get in the way of my work." He says this while Rose keeps tugging him towards her, slowly, as if not to frighten a scared animal. Her back is against the wall now, and she simply says, "Then what are we going to do?" At that, Dimitri's eyes go wild and his lips are on hers within seconds. Greedily, hungrily, anxiously, as if they have everything to lose but just don't care. She wraps her legs around his hips and he moves her to the couch. Rose moans. I come to my senses and abruptly yank my hand away, ending the glow. What the fuck did I just watch? I feel extremely dirty right now, as if I was watching them on purpose. Ew.

Rose must have seen the grimace on my face because her face falters and she puts her head in her hands. "No, no, don't worry. I just didn't really feel like watching porn." Her head flies straight up with a look of shock or surprise or happiness. Probably all three. "What are you waiting for? I just left him in the library. Go." She looks at me for a second, as if for confirmation, second-guessing herself. Which is so unlike her. I stand up and drag her off her bed. "Goooooooo!" I yell while shove her out the door and slam it after. Look at me, Reilly the matchmaker. If only I could figure it out for myself.

Next Day

"Is there any way we could find more about Ciro?" I try not to sound desperate. It doesn't work. Dimitri looks at me with his typical stony face.

"The Castille's are high up in the moroi world. He would probably be living among the queen. I could take you there some time, if you'd like. Or you can just talk to Eddie." I ponder that. Nope. That would be too weird. What would I say? Hey, Eddie. I know we don't talk that much, but what do you know about Ciro Castille? Why? Because he might be my father, making us related. Yeah, no. I sigh. Dimitri and I part ways and I walk out the door. Directly into Eddie. He stumbles, losing his footing, then turns to me.

"Oh, hey. Sorry, are you okay?" I try to be nonchalant, but it still comes out awkward. He sheepishly rubs the back of his neck.

"Yeah, I'm fine. No worries." Now or never. I could ask him now, or just… what? Just what? I have to ask him. No, but that would be so awkward. No, I can't. But If I want answers…"You okay?" He says after clearing his throat.

"Who are your parents?" I blurt, and then automatically slap a hand over my mouth. He looks at me in a funny way.

"Well, my mom is a Dhampir. Her name's Rachel, she's a kind of a doctor for guardians. She used to be a guardian but then broke her wrist fighting and it never healed properly. So now she treats guardians with remedies and stuff specifically catered to them. And my father isn't in the picture." His jaw ticks. I can tell he doesn't want to talk about him, but I need him to.

"What about your dad?"

"I kept his last name. Why, I don't know. I think he just wanted to show everyone how powerful and appealing he was, so he knocked up my mom and left. He's high up in the government now. His name is Ciro. You may have heard of him." All of the sudden, a million images hit me like a ton of bricks. My mother and Ciro. Sitting on a bench. Laughing in the kitchen. The face strikingly similar to Eddie's. I don't know what happens next, because I black out.

I'm baaaack! Sorry I haven't posted in so long, I was at the NJCL at Emory for a week. If any of you are a JCLer, make sure to message me because I might have seen you at convention and that would have been cool. Anyway, I just wanted to write a chapter with a good make out scene. Cause I had this fling with this guy named Chris at the NJCL (We made out/second base in the woods for 45 minutes) and he didn't even text me. At all. And we were texting/hanging out the whole entire week because he's like a legitimately cool guy but whatever. Still a little salty. But anyway, I hope you all liked this chapter! Eddie has a sister whaaaaaaat? Don't forget to review and follow and stuff. I'll upload really soon. Thanks for reading!