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I know that some of you expressed confusion over the last chapter. I hope this clears up some of that confusion.

Emma awoke before her alarm, stretching her arms high above her head. She rolled to her side, coming face to face with Jay. She smiled. He looked almost child-like, curled onto his side, one arm tucked under his head. Emma sat up, stretching again, before her senses returned. Jay was still here!

She shook his body, sending him into a shocked-style of wake up that no one likes. "What?" he muttered, staring up at her.

"What are you still doing here?" she asked, checking the time. "My parents will be up any minute. You have to leave."

Jay shook his head and rolled over. "There's still time. Go back to sleep."

"Jay!" she cried. "Get up and get out!"

Jay rolled again until he was facing her. He rubbed the sleepiness from his face, giving Emma a dumbfounded look. That look turned into a smile as he reached out, grabbing her around her small waist and pulling her body down until she was tucked against him.

"Okay, this is not happening, Jay! We discussed this! Now get up and please, please, get out!" she moaned, trying to wriggle her way out of his clutches.

Jay turned her over. "So that's it then?" he asked, staring into her face, which he thought looked way too beautiful for first thing in the morning. "Thanks for last night, now get the hell out of my room? I never figured you for the love 'em and leave 'em type. Let me sleep for ten more minutes and then I'm gone, okay?"

"Not okay. If Snake, or God forbid, my mom, come down here and catch you in my bed, you're toast. And then I'm severely grounded. Do you want them to get the wrong idea?" she asked.

"Oh what? Like we're dating or something?" Jay joked. He held up his hands. "Fine. Pay the toll and Jay is bye-bye," he said, tapping his cheek playfully.

Emma leaned forward to kiss Jay's cheek, hoping it would send him on his way, but at the last second, Jay turned his head, planting Emma with another shell-shocking kiss. This one was much less passionate, but still managed to make Emma question her ways...almost.

Jay felt her pull away and held her body tightly, not wanting to leave her bed just yet. Why couldn't things ever go the way he wanted them to? Why couldn't Emma just be one of those girls who melted with one look, throwing all of their ideals and morals away for the first chance at some play? Because that's not Emma. That's not the girl you're falling for. Jay shook his head, hoping to get those crazy thoughts away.

"Can you please leave?" she asked, much more sincerely this time. "We have school and I have to get ready. You have to get home."

Jay smirked. "Let's save some time and get ready for school together. We can conserve water and shower together?"

Emma rolled her eyes and sat up, clutching the blankets around her to keep warm. She turned back to Jay, giving him a pleading look. "I let you spend the night, against my better judgement, but it's morning now. Go home, Jay. Go home and figure your life out and never, ever come back to my place expecting to get some action in the middle of the night again! Now...get out!"

Jay knew the gig was up, so he reluctantly got out of bed, put his shoes back on, grabbed his hat, kissed Emma on the cheek, and crawled out the window.

Back in his car, Jay drove back to his apartment deep in thought. Well, that didn't quite turn out how I thought it would. It was so much better!

FLASHBACK

They reluctantly broke away from the kiss, still holding onto one another, more for support than for comfort. Jay's knees felt shaky. He rested his forehead against Emma's, taking in the scent of her perfume, realizing he loved how she smelled. Had they really just kissed?

"That was...unexpected," Jay said.

Emma pulled back from Jay, narrowing her eyes. "I thought that's what you came here for?"

"Well yeah, but I never expected you to surrender so easily."

Emma nodded her head, untangling herself from Jay. "Well no one's surrendered just yet, Hogart. Let's call that a moment of insanity. But my senses have returned and so I guess we're done here."

Jay caught her wrist, swinging her back to him, clutching her body against his. "Just where do you think you're going?"

Emma shook her head. "You should go home. I'm not doing this. I can't do this. I love Sean. And despite what you say or think, Sean loves me. But beyond that, Sean trusts me. I won't betray that."

"You already did."

Emma took a deep breath. Jay saw her struggle with her infidelity and pondered on how to handle the situation. He could do one of two things; help Emma by walking away, or stay where he was and make her decide just what she really wanted to do.

"You're right," she answered quickly, before Jay even had time to choose what he wanted to do. "I don't know why I did that. I shouldn't have. I'm sorry if I lead you on or..."

Jay cut her off, deciding that even he couldn't be that much of an asshole. "Hold on there. You didn't lead me on. I shouldn't have asked you to cheat on Sean. It was wrong...of me. Not many women can resist the old Hogart charm."

Emma smiled weakly at him, licking her dry lips. "So no hard feelings?"

Jay put his arm loosely around her shoulders and lead her to the bed, where he sat down and she sat next to him. "So..."

Emma crawled up to the head of her bed, sneaking under the covers. "So tell me, Hogart, about this break up with Mia."

Jay gave her an incredulous look, but before he knew what was happening, he was dishing the dirt on everything in his life, from his break up with Mia, to his recent family trauma, much to his dismay.

"So how come you're back?" Emma asked, suppressing a yawn as she leaned back into her pillows.

Jay, lying at the foot of the bed, rolled to his back. "Someone would have wanted me to graduate and do something better with my life."

"Someone?"

Jay stared at the ceiling, choking back tears, unable to believe he was this emotional, especially around her. Emma's foot stretched out under the covers, shaking Jay.

"You okay?" she asked.

He nodded his head, but refused to look at her. "My grandma."

Emma found herself smiling, sitting up further, but still unable to see Jay. She got out from under the covers, lying down on her stomach and peering at Jay. "You said would have. Is she okay?" Emma whispered.

Jay squeezed his eyes shut and quietly answered, "No. She died this summer."

Emma saw that Jay was trying to suppress his emotions, but a lone tear had fallen out of the corner of his right eye. Emma reached out to take hold of his hand. "I'm really sorry."

Jay finally opened his eyes, knowing that she knew he was crying, unafraid to have her see him this vulnerable. He looked at her, holding her hand tightly. "All she ever wanted was for me to get my shit together and make something of myself. I couldn't even give her that. All I did was cause trouble and be an embarrassment for her. She had no choice but to kick me out, and it broke her heart. I'm an ass, Emma. An ass and a disappointment."

Emma shook her head. "No. Look what you're doing now."

"So what? She'll never get to see it. She died thinking that I'm a loser, just like my dad!"

"But you're not a loser. It took a lot for you to come back to Degrassi, especially since everyone, including me, was betting against you. But you've held in and you're doing well. That's something your grandma is very proud of."

Jay looked at Emma with curious eyes. "You think she knows?"

Emma smiled. "You don't?"

"I don't get the whole God and heaven thing. I'm not really the religious type."

Emma shrugged. "You don't have to believe in God to believe that people who love us and are gone can still see what's going on. I think she's somewhere thinking that her grandson is very brave and nothing even close to a disappointment."

Jay found himself wrapped in Emma's arms, his head on her chest, as he wept like a baby. He'd never allowed himself to do this, not even when he found out his grandma had died. But suddenly he felt safe, here with the unlikeliest of people, wrapped up in Emma Nelson's arms. No one had ever seen this side of Jay and he began to wonder why he chose to reveal this to Emma.

"I should get going," he announced, wiping his face with the back of his hand.

Emma stopped him from getting off the bed. "You wanna stay?" she asked shyly. He raised an eyebrow. "So you don't have to be alone?"

Jay smiled. "You trust me?"

Emma nodded, crawling back under her covers and holding them up for Jay. "I trust you completely."

END OF FLASHBACK

Jay pulled into the parking lot of his apartment building. He turned off the car and sat there, gripping the steering wheel. He'd gone to Emma's with one thing on his mind. He'd left there with the realization that his whole world had just changed.

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