"Ladies and gentleman, welcome to the 2009 Pacific Coast High senior graduation!" The principle, Mrs. Beck announces to the crowd. I hate ceremonies with a passion but at least I have Nick and Kelsey by my side. Kelsey and I have been dating for I think 5 months now and while I am thrilled to be graduating, I have a knot in my stomach but it's not from anxiety, something bad's going to happen, I just know it.

"You ready to be an adult Jace?" Nick askes me

"I guess though I feel like something bad's gonna happen." I admit

"You're probably overreacting, it'll be fine." He tells me

3 hours later

I walk around the parking lot while I pull out a cigarette and light it. I smoke only because it helps me keep my stress down and it lets me forget the horrors of my day. As I hold the cig in my mouth, I pull out my mp3 player, put in my earbuds and play Cold by Crossfade.

"Looking back at me, I see that I never really got it right! I never stopped to think of you! I'm always wrapped in things I can not win. You are the antidote that gets me by, something strong like a drug that gets me hiiiggghhh!" I sing as I take a puff as I see Nick come over to me and I turn down my music.

"You came out only for a smoke or because the school is too crowded?" He askes me

"All of the above." I tell him with the cigarette in my hand

"I'd tell you not to smoke but I'd be a hypocrite if I did. Plus I'm glad we gave up on our athletic careers. It's too much punishment and after what happened to Wade, our pact has not been broken yet." Nick tells me as memories of Wade come back to me.

(Flashback ~ Jason~ Senior Year ~State Championship game)

"And it looks like Pacific Coast is on the verge of scoring for the eighth time today. McCafferey behind center, snaps the ball and hands it off to Johnson. Johnson taking off and oh my god that's a helmet to helmet hit from Kevins."

"Personal foul, helmet to helmet, number 33 defense, half the distance to the goal, number 33 is disqualified."

"Get the medics! Someone hurry!" I yell as I run over to Wade's fallen frame and I take off his helmet but as I cradle his head, I look at my hands and they are covered in blood. His blood.

"Wade, wake up please!" I plead to him though he was not getting up and I cry into his chest.

(End Flashback)

"I still see his body at night when I fall asleep. He was too young to die." I tell him softly as I continue my cigarette

"His death affected us all though we're the only ones who remember it." Nick tells me as he smokes a cig as well.

"Where's Jack?" I ask

"He didn't come. He's still trying to get over his break up." Nick tells me as he takes a puff

"I wish I didn't come. Everyone's asking me 'Where's Wade? Is he still in the hospital?" I tell him

"Take it easy Jace. People can be assholes." He reassures me

"I need to find Kelsey." I tell him as I put out my cigarette

"I think she's by the field." He tells me as I get up and go to find her. I walk a bit as I look for her and soon I hear her voice and someone else's.

"Where's Jason?"

"Oh that worm that I was quote unquote dating? I could care less if he was here or even alive for that matter. All that I care about is you, Michael Kevins." After that, I run back to the parking lot and jump in my truck before speeding home. As I pull in, I run through the door and head to my room and lock the door before jumping in bed and bury my face in my pillow. She never loved me, she used me. She used me for her personal benefit. Why does everything happen to me?