A/n: A BIG thanks to StarRose2011 for helping me out so so sooo much! And cotedepablo911, too! And I swear I'm working on your songs but it's been so hectic the past few months...

Disclaimer: My apologies to Disney, I totally just jacked this scene. You can have it back. I promise. Soon. I do not own any rights to Mulan or CA. Props to Christina for rockin' this song.

Reflection

Annie glanced in the window of the kitchen as she made her way to the guest house. Danielle was sitting at the kitchen table with Chloe and Katia. Chloe was working on what looked like home work and Katia was coloring. She smiled at the peaceful little scene.

A car passes by on the street, making it hard to see in the window; instead she catches a glimpse of her disheveled reflection. Earlier that day she was on an op gone wrong. Her hair was a rat's nest and probably wouldn't look normal for at least a week. There was a bruise blossoming on her cheek bone and a hand print starting to take shape on her neck.

She had broken a heel on one of her better pairs of shoes and was now walking barefoot. The dress she chose to wear that day was all wrinkled and probably had a tear or two in it. And to complete the outfit, a pair of shredded pantyhose.

She sighed and walked to the guest house and into the bathroom. She splashed cool water on her face.

Look at me you may think you see
Who I really am but you'll never know me
Every day it's as if I play a part
Now I see if I wear a mask
I can fool the world but I cannot fool my heart

Annie thought back to her family in the main house. She couldn't stand lying to them. It was as if she wasn't herself when she was around them.

Dani noticed it, too and it worried her.

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

Two years ago none of this would have happened. If she had never ran off to Sri Lanka then she wouldn't have had her heart broken, wouldn't have joined the CIA. She wouldn't be the girl she is now.

I am now in a world where I
Have to hide my heart and what I believe in
But somehow I will show the world
What's inside my heart and be loved for who I am

Annie doesn't have as much of a voice in her job as she'd like, and she knows this. But by nature she's very opinionated at what they want her to do. And to extent she can complain, but as soon as she steps up to that line, she's gotta back down, because if she crosses that line, she could lose her job.

Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?
There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why

She wished she had someone she could run to. Someone who understood her. Someone she could down a tub of Ben&Jerry's with. Someone she knew she could trust. Someone she's known forever.

Someone like Danielle. Someone who could give her stupid reasons as for why she's doing what she's doing.

Why must we all conceal what we think and how we feel?
Must there be a secret me I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that I'm someone else for all time
When will my reflection show who I am inside?

If only she could tell Danielle…

If only she didn't have to keep this godforsaken secret…

If only she didn't have to act around her family…

If only she could be… herself…

When will my reflection show who I am inside?

A/n: I'm sorry it's taken so long for me to update. I feel really bad. But I promise I'm working. I'm trying to finish my Criminal Minds story so I can focus on Covert Affairs.

But it's hard. I've been really stressed. My life was torn apart two months ago and I have yet to fix it. And to top it off; my dog killed himself last Sunday.

Hopefully I'm starting therapy soon. It'll take time off of my writing time but I won't be as depressed.