Back to Bella's POV. I know I'm so mean. I'll be posting the rest of Edward's point of view next. That is if my roommate doesn't freeze me to death.

Chapter 11: Dreaming

It seemed I was in the middle of a riot. It looked like I was in a combination of a mall and a circus. I was looking at myself. I must be dreaming.

"Alice" I saw myself scream.

"Izzy we have to get out of here." She said with a worried look on her face.

"No Ally."

"Izzy you're going to get killed!" She said fighting to get to my body.

"More! We need more!"

"More what?" She said still fighting the crowd.

"Shoes!"

Now I know I'm dreaming. Alice cleared the path and she and I went shoe shopping in the circus mall.

All of a sudden I was in a peaceful, calming surrounding. I've been to this place before. The sun was shining and the grass was warm. The trees formed a perfect circle around me. I was in Edward's meadow.

I looked over and there he was in all his glory. Sparkling in the sun, like the first time he brought me here.

I reached out to him. He came over and sat down. Then he picked me up and put me in his lap. As I laid there against his chest I began to realize it felt so right in this spot. I looked in to his topaz eyes. I knew I wanted him. I want to be with him forever. This was way more than a crush. I love this man, truly and deeply.

"Edward..." I said trying to form words after he dazzled me.

"Yes my love." he said staring back at me.

"I love you."

"I love you too, my angel"

All I could do was stare into his topaz eyes. I knew he meant it. I lay there, in his arms for so long.

I was pulled out of my dream world by a bouncing on my bed. I opened my eyes to see Alice. Stupid hyperactive vampire pulled me out of the best dream I ever had.

"Good morning Izzy! How did you sleep?" She asked still bouncing on my bed.

"Alice? What time is it? When did you get here?" I asked still dozy.

"It is 7:30 am and you have to wake up. I got here last night. Edward called and said he had to go hunting, so I came and took his place." Alice said as she ran to my closet and picked out my clothes for the day. We have been doing this same routine for so long. The only time I get to pick out my own clothes is when she is hunting. At first I had a huge problem with being Alice's personal Barbie doll, but you just can't tell that little pixie no.

I knew it was hard for Edward to be around me. That's one of the reasons we would never be together. It was too dangerous for me.

Alice seemed to know what I was thinking because she said "It wasn't because of you. With all that is going on lately, he hasn't had a chance to hunt."

"Plus he is going to need his strength today." Alice added slyly.

"Why would he need strength for school?" I asked grabbing my shower stuff.

"He is going to break up with Dillon today." Alice said finally picking the perfect outfit for me.

I walked out of the room and into the bathroom. Why would he be breaking up with Dillon today? I don't like her, but I know Edward does.

As I turned the shower on it hit me. Yesterday started to catch up to me. He has to break up with Dillon because the wants to keep her safe. He doesn't want the Volturi to think she is me.

I stepped into the hot shower and tried to let the water sooth my muscles.

I don't think it's fair to either of them. I just want to see Edward happy. If that meant he had to be with someone else besides me, then that's what I want to happen. I already know I can't live without him. So I accept his choice in girls to keep him in my life. Even if that just means he is my friend.

I got out the shower and headed back to my room. I grabbed the clothes Alice laid out for me. I don't mind getting dressed in front of her anymore.

"Edward wants to be early he will be here in five minutes." Alice said.

"Are we picking up Dillon today?" I asked.

"Yes, I told you Edward has to break up with her. That is why we are going to be early." Alice said.

"He is going to do it before school?" I asked.

"Yea, I'm afraid she isn't going to take it very well." Alice said. "Now hurry up. Today is not the day to make Edward pissy."