Chapter Ten

"I cannot stand this freakin' tension anymore!" Joe cried one morning. The two of you are going to talk outside and sort this out.

"Joe it's freakin' raining dude," Nick wailed.

"Well then talk quickly!" Joe pushed the pair of them out of the tour bus and locked the door, shooting them a mean glare as he did so.

Kevin and Nick banged on the door loudly, screaming for Joe to opening but Joe was sticking to his word.

"Maybe we should talk," Kevin suggested.

"I don't want to talk; I want to go inside so I don't get pneumonia!" Nick cried.

"Well to be honest I'm sick of this," Kevin threw his arms up in despair, "I'm sick of us not talking,"

"There is a reason why we're not talking, Kevin, I didn't wake up one day and realise that I wanted to give you the silent treatment,"

"You must know how I feel about you," Kevin's voice was calm and collected, but Nick could see the emotion spilling over his eyes; he wasn't sure if it was the rain or not, "After everything, after all our history, you must know…"

"You know this is really rich coming from someone who told me that they didn't want to be with me anymore," Nick spat

"I NEVER said that!" Kevin cried, pointing a finger at Nick, "You know I never said that Nick so don't you dare put that on me. I was scared, I told you how I felt about this situation, I was so god damn scared Nick,"

"Well your little speech last week seemed more heartless than heartfelt to be honest," Nick's nostrils flared angrily.

"I ended this because I wanted us to be safe, I didn't want to be the person to break your heart because you deserve more than that, especially after what you've been through," Kevin snivelled.

"Gee, what a gesture, how fucking considerate of you, well guess what Kevin you did," Nick broke down, "We've been a couple for years, it wasn't difficult hiding it, ok so what, now Mom knows, big deal?"

"And believe me if it gets out, who's the one going to go to prison Nick, Me! That's who," Kevin's chest was bursting with rage; he didn't know quite how to put it into words.

"After two years!" Nick screamed, "Two years and you decide to end this now!"

"I STILL LOVE YOU!" Kevin bawled at him, "My feelings for you haven't changed at all!"

"I've never stopped loving you Kevin, I knew I loved you the moment you lay down in bed with me after I got back from the hospital, I knew then," Nick wept, indicating towards his broken heart, "I knew, and I know you felt it too, that's something you cannot deny,"

"I did," Kevin agreed, nodding his head, "What about you? You think you didn't play a part in this?"

"Of course I did," Nick ran his hands through his hair, "But I didn't give it all but just cos I was scared, I knew we could have got through it together no matter what happened,

The rain was falling down hard by this point; the two of them had left the bus without coats or jackets. Kevin's blue shirt was sticking to his body and Nick's white v-neck was soaked through.

"I didn't want us to get in trouble,"

"I don't care about that, Kevin, we've denied for years that we've been sleeping together, why decide to stop denying it now?" Nick almost screamed at his brother, why couldn't he see what was right in front of him? "Tell me now," Nick gestured towards him, "I want to know now exactly how you feel for me, no lies,"

Kevin breathed for a second, gathering his thoughts, "I love you, Nicholas Jonas with all my heart, I have never felt so strongly for someone before and the only reason I ended this was to keep you safe, I had your best intentions at heart and I realise now that I was stupid to ever let you go and mess this up. I don't know how to express this is any other way. You are my soul-mate, my lover and my brother and I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have you in my life," Kevin sobbed, his body shaking, "You go…"

Nick shook his head, pacing around in the car park for a moment, "I love you with my whole soul, you are my brother and we seem to have that special thing going on. But you hurt me, really, really bad and I'm willing to forgive you –,"

"I will fight for you until the day I die, Nick!" Kevin shrieked.

"Fight for me then," Nick threw his arms open wide, "Fight for me, because I am sick of being the fighter Kevin, you want me? Come and get me, you call the shots," Nick walked away, hands shoved deeply in his pockets.

"No!" Kevin cried after him, "No Nick we are NOT done talking yet!"

"Oh we are SO done talking Kevin!" Nick called over his shoulder.

Kevin's fast pace caught up with Nick and he grabbed his brother's wrist, "This isn't over, it's not over,"

He swung Nick around to face him and planted a huge kiss on his brother's lips, holding his jaw, fingertips massaging his neck and hairline as his tongue darted in and out of Nick's mouth.

Nick relaxed into the kiss, moaning against Kevin's lips in a light gentle buzz.

"This is it," Nick cried as he pulled away reluctantly, "No more fights," he pressed his forehead against Kevin's, "No more tears," he kissed away at Kevin's cheeks were his tears had fallen.

"This is it babe, it's you and me forever, this is it," Kevin whispered against Nick's skin, resuming their passionate kiss, letting the rain fall down on them hard and thunder could be heard in the distance.

From inside, Joe let the bus door click, signalling that it was open, but Joe knew they'd be outside for a while, talking, laughing, and getting to know each other all over again.

He looked out of the window that dribbled with rain, seeing his two brother's kiss passionately; he knew that everything was going to be alright.