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So yes i said ten days but you can think mother nature for the reason i am back. It snowed last night and i had nothing to do but sit and the house and be bored. So yes i adding another chapter but i am not sure when i will be back the next one. I also would like to take th time to talk about JO and Gabriel. I would like to point out they are very important characters in the story and you might end up loving them as much as you love Dean and CAs. If i tell a story from their pov you should read it because you never know what the busy bodies are up to or witnessing or planning. Plus they have their own side romance you might like too.

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Chapter 11: Cas

Have you ever seen any of those High School based shows. You know those shows You know the one's where there is a group of friends who stick together threw whatever. The one's where there's the guy that's in love with his best friend and they end up together. The one's where everything is great, they live in a small town, dress very fashionable, and have the time of their lives. Well if you didn't you know then you should know its complete bullshit. Nothing on TV is true. People in Hollywood write those shows as a sick joke to unsuspecting teens like me.

They lied and both of my brothers lied. Yes both of them. Both of them told me these great stories of how much fun they have had. Balthazar had the most awesome four years of his life so far and Gabriel of course just couldn't stop talking about how every day was different from the last. They pretty much promised me that the next four years would be the best. Okay yes Gabriel is only a year ahead of me but still he promised I'd have fun. I would meet new people, make new friends, and hook up with a bunch of different girls. Instead I realize I like boys and girls, I haven't made any new friends due to fact that I can't leave the side of my supposed best friend, and the only girl I have hooked up with dumped me because I was preoccupied with my best friend. I really liked her and if it wasn't for JO showing up I think we would have stayed together, but I can't blame her. I had a choice. I could have go to my girlfriend who was fed up and talked her down or I could have stayed and talk to Jo about something that might never happen. I don't have to tell you what I did. You already know but I will tell you this, Yes is sucked she dumped me but somehow I don't regret it, even though he still hasn't talked to me. Yeah High School is amazing. It's fucking perfect.

I was prepared to just be his friend. Yes I have always had a crush or whatever you called it on him, but I knew I would get over it someday. I was just happy being his friend, but he had to go and ruin it. He had to go and fuck up everything for me. Let me stop I am to blame also. I let him kiss me I let myself fall into his arms on New Year's and the times before that. I let myself get closer than I should have. I just knew he liked girls only though. I just knew it but now I am not so sure. I want to talk to him but I can't. He acts like I don't exist unless we are around people. I guess it rises to many questions he doesn't want to answer. So because of that I have spent the last month trying to get his attention but he just blows me off. I hate this and I hate myself for letting me get like this. I should have known better.

In High school you are supposed to make new friends and meet somebody and fall in love. Balthazar did both. He made tons of friends and fell in love his senior year. They broke up because they were going to different colleges. Gabriel is kind of doing the same thing. He has other friends but hangs with mostly me. I think because we're brother oh and he fell in love with a girl. But Jo isn't exactly returning the feelings but it's only a matter of time for when she does. I started to fall for someone and it's a big disaster. I had to be the good looking baby brother who falls for a guy who has a girlfriend and I'm supposed to be the smart one. Yeah right.

Well all things aren't that bad. My brother and Jo want to see me happy. At least Gabriel for sure. Jo I am not so sure about. Our talk the other day was left me equal satisfied and confused. Look the reason I feel that way is because I'm not sure how she feels about me and Dean. I think she is on the fence and frankly so am I. Yes I have had a supposed crush but now that I have the chance to ask him about his feelings I don't know what to do.

I like Dean, I do but I have spent the last few years' content with being his friend. I didn't want to ruin a friendship over something he did while he wasn't sober. Yes my I hear that people do stuff while under the influence that they want to do while sober but that is for drunken people. Not for when they are high off weed. Okay he was drunk the last time but I don't know what to do. Part of me want's to try and ask him while another part of me is scared. I'm scared he will reject me and I can't take that. He is the only person outside of my family I have feelings for that are strong enough to make me feel some type of way. Don't get me wrong I do care for Meg. I want to see her happy and what not but I can move on from her, him not so much. I like to think that if he wasn't here she would be my first love.

I-wait Gabriel and Jo are interrupting my thoughts. I am standing outside of Dean's front door on the porch and I can hear them going back in forth. Even threw concrete walls I feel the tension between them. I have to stop my own thoughts to hear them.

"How many times do I have to explain this" I hear Jo say. It sounds like she wants to choke him. I understand her pain. Sometimes my brother can have a one track mind.

"Now Cotton please don't be upset with me." Cotton, it must be because of her hair. He really gets on my nerves with this she has hair of cotton candy thing,

"Stop calling me that." There really isn't any force behind her statement.

"I just don't understand how having them meet here will help. Wouldn't a public place be better?" She says nothing as I hear her make a scuff sound with her mouth. I don't have to be looking at her to know what kind of facial expression she is making. I have seen it plenty of times before. Her mouth is twisted, and she has equal parts rage and lust in her eyes. It's actually quite funny when you see and think about it.

"You can't be serious." She finally says.

"Please." I bet now he is giving her some kind of please don't be mad at me look.

"Fine" she says after she takes a deep breath.

"Oh thank you so much Cotton." I have a feeling that name is going to stick.

"Look if Dean meets him in a public place, than he can walk out the door at anytime. Like as soon as he see's him, but here he can't."

"Because…"

"Because for one Dean will be in his room, there is only one way out. Second Dean can't risk a storm out without raising to many questions. My parents aren't here but they won't be gone for long. They aren't away this time. It would be just his luck they come home in the middle of something. He has no choice but to be calm." Jo says this as if it is her millionth time say it.

"I don't know. I think you are giving Dean to much credit. IS he really that smart. I mean come on he doesn't think things through."

"I think this time he will."

I'm not so sure. No offense your cousin is that smart. IF it was Sammy yeah but Dean no I doubt it."

"What-" Now this is where I interrupt. I have a feeling he was about to set her off and I need them focused on Dean and me's situation. It might sound selfish but I really need their help to fix whatever is broken.

"Cassie" Gabriel says as I walk through the door.

"Hello everyone." I say as feel the tension in the room. "Hope I'm not interrupting."

"No everything is fine." Jo says a little too well. She must not know I heard her and Gabriel pretty much arguing a few seconds ago. I'm not going to much too much thought into it. I'll assume she only lied because she wants to move along. I guess if she hadn't than Gabriel would have us here for an hour talking about god knows what.

"So" I say feeling awkward. This isn't like out normal hang outs. We all have the same agenda. Should I get straight to it or should I socialize first.

"Big Day Cassie. Are you nervous?" I can always count on my brother to read me.

"A little. I don't know how to start." I say as I look down at the floor.

"Don't be." Jo says as she steps into my personal space. "I bought pie. Dean is up stairs eating like half of it. He is relaxed. So he should be in a good mood and if we are lucky he won't want to blow it so fast." She says as she rubs my shoulder with her hand while giving me loving and supportive eyes. At least that is what I want to believe. I am still not sure how she feels.

"Oh so you admit that Dean is-"

"Gabriel shut it." She says as she turns around with such a nasty tone. I can only image the look she is giving him at the moment. He actually looks kind of scared.

"So what should I do." I ask helping it would distract them.

"Dean just went up to his room." She says as I notice Gabriel take a seat on the couch. Her look must have been so powerful that he sits down with a look on his face saying he isn't going to talk to anymore. I should learn that look, it could come in handy.

"So I should just go up and talk to him."

'Yes"

"Okay" I say even though I have no idea what I am going to say."

"Good luck." She says. Gabriel must really be scared if he didn't say anything.

"Thanks I say I a climb the stairs. I really have to learn that look.

So here I go. I start to walk up the seventeen steps that will get me one step closer to knowing the truth. It shouldn't be this hard. I have walked up these steps countless times, sometimes I ran. I can do this I have to do this. My mind is telling this at me, my heart is racing beyond any measure. I have no idea what I am going to say or do when I see him. We haven't exactly been alone together since the last time well you. God I am so nervous and I think I actually might puke once I get to his door.

Once I am at his door I realize that I can't do it. I can't talk to him. I know him. He will refuse to talk about. Suddenly I wish I had some pot. Maybe that's what I should do. Yes that is what I will do. I will run back home grab some out of my stash and bring it here for us to smoke. Then maybe we can get somewhere.

"What do you think you are doing?" Gabriel says as I try and run down the stairs. I should have known that he and Jo would just stay down stairs.

"I can't do this" I say as I give them a pleading look. I thought I could do this but I can't. It's wrong and it seems forced.

"Bullshit" Jo says as she and Gabriel block the top of the stairs.

"Please. Maybe we can do this tomorrow or next week, but I am not ready." I look at them and they say nothing. They each give me an eye roll before they look at each other and than look at me.

"Sorry baby bro but no dice."

"Come on." I pleaded again.

"No Cas, this has been going on long enough." Jo says as she folds her arms.

"You just learned about it." I point out.

"Don't try and flip it on my cotton. I believe the same damn thing and I knew pretty much before you did."

"That doesn't make sense." I say.

"It must certainly does." He says as if I offended him.

"How-"

"We are getting off topic. Nice try Cas, but you are getting your ass in there and you are not coming out until you two have come to a mutual agreement rather good or bad. It's time to put this thing to rest." She says this as if she isn't expecting it to work out.

"I have no idea on what to say to him, what if he turns me down."

"Unbelievable" Gabriel says like he is shock this time. "You are a Novak Damn it we always get what we want." I think he is more so saying it to Jo rather than me. "On top of that you have those crazy blue gorgeous eyes that I hate you for and on top of that he has made the first move. I think it's safe to say he wants you. You just have to make him know it."

He has a point, Dean has always made the first move. It might take some time but I'm sure I can get him to admit how he feels.

"I still don't know what to say." I admit.

"Just go in there and do what feels natural." Jo says as she gives me kind eyes. I think she is starting to understand my nerves.

"Translation go in there and take control. Show him who is boss. Throw is high strong ass down on the bed and finsh what he started New Year's."

"Ill" Jo says as she gives him the same look I am giving him.

"What?" he says as if he doesn't know what was wrong.

"Fine. I'll do it."

"Not so loud though." Gabriel says giving me a smirk. Now I know I have to go into Dean's room. It's the only way to keep him from creeping out Jo.

"Here I go as I turn around and walk straight into his room. I don't knock or say anything. I just silently step into his room. He doesn't notice me, he has his back turned as he sits at his computer next to his window.

"Hello Dean." I say. With inseconds he turns around and jumps. I must have scared him

"Jesus Cas, knock much." He says as he holds his heart. I bet it's beating fast.

"I'm sorry." I say as his body stiffens.

"So what are you doing here?" he asks as he looks at the ground.

This is ridiculous. There is no talking to him. He will just deny it. I'll just do what Gabriel said.

"This" I say I charge up to him and pull hip by the waist. I crash my mouth in his and slip my tongue between his teeth. At first he tenses up but then he relaxes as he kisses me back. I feel his hands creep up my chest as I feel intense energy pas threw our bodies.

"The fuck Cas" he says as he pulls away and steps around me.

"I was kissing you." I say as I turn to look at him.

"Why?" he says pretending not to know. I know he knows. Why else would he be acting so strange all of a sudden.

"Please do not pretend you don't know why. Dean you know very well."

"Cas I really don't." Is he really trying to make me feel crazy. I know I did not imagine anything. You couldn't image what I was.

"Dean, please don't do this. We have kissed in the past and we need to talk about it."

"Cas buddy if you need to know why I supposedly kissed, do you think that kissing me again is such a great idea." He says acting as if I am making things up. I think I might need some air. My blood is starting to boil.

"Stop it!" I yell.

"Stop what?" he says with most nonchalant face.

"Stop acting like this is nothing. I think there might be something here. Whether it be feeling or lust but there is something here."

"That's bull shit. I don't lust after boys. Sorry pal. I have a girlfriend and so do you. I don't think she would like it if she knew what you were doing here." He says with a slight attitude.

I have a good mind to just walk out and never talk to him again, but Jo and Gabriel are probably still blocking the steps.

"So this is bull shit." I say as I charge him again. I slam his body against the door and kiss him with such hunger. IT's like his tongue is the first thing I have eaten in weeks. I press my body into his as I keep him against the door. I am stronger than him. I can hold him into place if I wanted too. As he kisses me back I run my hands up his leg and feel his bulge.

"You are such a liar." I say as I break free of the kiss.

"Cas" he whispers as I keep my body slightly against his.

"Shh" I say as I slip my hand inside his basketball shorts and take hold of his erected cock. He throws his head back I start to gentle stork it. "Stop fighting it." I say before i place a small peck on his neck.

"I'm not" he says in a small moan.

"IT's okay Dean." I say as I stroke my hand up and down. HE brings his head down and locks his green eyes with mine.

"IT's not." He moans.

"It is" I say as I start to twist my wrist as I move up and down. "I like you and you like me."

"You do." he says as he throws his head back again. Did I mention I picked up my pace. I swear I can hear the bones in crack in my wrist.
"Yes and never be afraid to kiss me or anything else."

"Butt" I think he is about to cum. His body is starting to shake a bit.
"Shhhh no buts. I want you and you want me. Nobody has to know it will be our little secret." I say just as he cums all over my hand.

It takes a minute before he can compose himself and look at me. I stand in front of patiecly. I have never done that before and I have no idea where that came from, but il iked it. I like givng him pleasure. This new secret could be fun.

"Nobody." He says as he finally looks at me.

"Nobody" I say before I pull him into a kiss.

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