Chapter 10: Denial

Blair POV.

"I believe we are all in denial about the people we love"

"And I am sorry about the other day Blair," Rosalie repeats, "Sincerely. I just, get frustrated at our lifestyle and when another inconvenience is brought up, well, I guess I direct the anger where it shouldn't be."

Rosalie and I have been shopping this morning, a mission for her to make up with me regarding her attitude about my new powers. I am touch by apology. Sudden burst of anger are not something that I of all people should be holding against someone. I have spent the past couple of days with Carlisle, practising control over my powers. It's exhausting, but I want to have full control over my powers, so I don't risk putting the Cullens in any danger.

"Rosalie, please, I understand. You were looking out for your family," I say as I place our shopping on the dining room table.

"You are family now," Rosalie smiles.

I smile back, and began leafing through the bags. My thoughts are dominated by Edward and our kiss. I haven't seen him since. He told Esme he was going hunting for a few days and took Emmett with him. I don't know what our kiss meant but I can't help but wonder if there is something more to us. We have both been so involved with our heartbreak that I wonder if we've missed that there could be something more to us.

"When did Edward say he'd be back?" I ask Rosalie suddenly.

Rosalie looks up with an amused smile on her face, "Hopefully soon. I want to see Emmett."

I nod.

"It's not surprising you know," Rosalie says, "That you an Edward feel some attachment to each other."

"I know," I admit, "I just like having him near."

"He's gotten very protective of you. It's almost endearing," Rosalie teases.

We begin to sort through bags, laughing and joking. I feel good despite the Edward thing. We are having so much fun that I don't even notice that Emmett in the doorway.

"You're back!" I state with probably too much enthusiasm, hoping that this means Edward is back too.

"Wow! Yeah, hi Blair," Emmett says with a little confusion, "I missed you too." He jokes.

I smile embarrassed, "I was thinking for Rosalie's sake. She's missed you."

Emmett smiles knowingly, and wraps his arms around Rosalie, "Of course she has."

Rosalie slaps him lightly, "watch it. Hey, where's Edward."

"Went straight to his room," Emmett says looking at the bags, "get me anything?"

I excuse myself from the dining room, not that the love sick couple pay any attention. I walk to Edwards's room, the door is open. He is sitting on a chair talking to Alice. I hesitate. And decide it's probably best to come back later.

"Blair!" Alice says, "Edward's back."

I cringe, before plastering a smile on my face, "I heard. I was coming up to say hey." I say as I enter the room. Edward looks up, his face holds no emotion.

"Blair," he nods, "How are you?"

"Um, I'm good. How was hunting?" I ask, taken aback by how nonchalant Edward is acting. As if nothing has happened.

"Good," he says.

Alice, who has been looking back and forth between the two of us with an expression both concerned and amused suddenly stands, "I'm going to see what Rosalie brought," she announces and bounces out of the room after shooting Edward a knowing look.

I watch Edward tense up as she leaves, something she thought has upset him.

"What?" I ask.

He shakes his head as he stands and makes his way over to the book case, "It's nothing."

"Nothing?" I ask, "Edward, we have to talk?"

"What would you like to talk about Blair?" Edward asks as he busies himself reading the spines of his many books.

"You're kidding right?" I say in disbelief.

"I don't understand," Edward pulls out a book and begins reading the cover, ignoring me.

"You're going to make me say it, aren't you? Never picked you for playing games," I say feeling a familiar irritation in arguing with a stubborn male about our relations.

"What games?" Edward looks up from the book, an amused smile on his face, making me feel crazy and juvenile.

"Forget it," I mutter and walk out of the room.

I'm halfway to my room, set on forgetting the kiss and joining Edward in his denial of it ever happening when I bump into Alice.

"Everything ok?" she asks.

"Sure," I say stepping around her and continuing to my room. Alice is hot on my heels, and follows me in without asking.

"I'm not going to ask what happened between you and Edward," she begins making me stop dead in my tracks and turn to face her.

"We were just bickering as always, nothing new," I say coolly.

"No not about just before. I mean a couple of days ago," she says.

"Excuse me?"

"I've had visions of you staying with our family. Nothing spectacular really, just pretty much more of the same, until the other day. Something happened to make my visions change," Alice tells me, raising her eyebrows.

"Why would it change?" I ask, "Is it bad?"

"The future is dependent on our actions in the present. You and Edward... something happened between the two of you to make me see you two differently," Alice smiles.

"What did you see?" I ask.

"I saw the two of you, together. Happy. In love. Something I never thought I see either of you achieve. Not true happiness anyway," Alice says.

I sit on the bed sighing. Edward and I together? I would be lying if I said the thought hadn't crossed my mind even before the kiss, but only in the way when you're feeling lonely and your thoughts turn to the only candidate to help fill that loneliness. But together happily? In love? I didn't think my heart could love another after Chuck. And if it could, does that mean that what Chuck and I had wasn't love? What about Edward and Bella? Would either of us be willing to relinquishing the thought of our one true love for each other?

I guess for the moment it didn't matter anyway. Edward had clearly chosen not to take it any further.

And maybe that was for the best.