Leo, Jordi and I race in our wheelchairs to the service elevator, laughing our heads off, I win but I'm pretty sure they let me. Leo reminds of that guy Ruben who has pot brownies for us. The others are meeting us on the roof. I think about asking Jamie to join us but I know she wouldn't want to.

"Hey Ruben." Leo says as the middle-aged man lets us into his room, even though it's more like an entire floor.

"Hey, Leo, Jordi. Who's this?"

"I'm Alice, Leo's girlfriend, it's nice to meet you." I shake his hand.

"Come on in guys." He welcomes us and we sit around his fire pit. Who the heck has a fire pit in their hospital room? "So what are you in for Alice?"

"I came in with amnesia and internal bleeding in my liver, I was in a coma, then I my kidney failed, I had a transplant, got HIV from a needle they used and because of that I got cancer. I started chemo today."

"That's pretty , you came to the right guy." He goes into his kitchen a brings out a plate stacked with brownies.

"Thanks Ruben, you're welcome to join us, we're having a party on the roof for Alice's birthday." Jordi says.

"Nah, you kids go have fun." He hands the plate to Jordi who puts it on his lap, we say thanks and goodbye to Ruben, and we go and meet the others on the roof. We leave our chairs at the bottom and I use the hand rails to help me get up there. I'm nervous to try a brownie but at least if something goes wrong, I'm in a hospital. Leo, Dash and Jordi have smoked it plenty of times, I'm sure Kara has too, but I'm guessing Emma hasn't and probably doesn't want to. We get up to the roof and the guys are already there waiting.

"Finally! I'm dying for a smoke. Wait are those brownies?"

"Yeah sorry Kara, Alice isn't into smoking." Leo says.

"At this point I'm so freakin' deprived, I'd settle for herbal tea. Give me one." Kara grabs the plate from Jordi and starts scarfing down a brownie. Leo helps me get over to the couches and we sit down together in each other's arms next to Dash. Kara hands the plate around, everyone takes one except for Emma, then the plate gets to me. I start to have second thoughts.

"I thought you wanted to try it?" Leo says.

"I'm not sure I want to anymore, like I do but-"

"She's scared." Kara says.

"I'm not scared, okay maybe I'm a little scared."

"What if you just had half of one?" Leo says.

"Okay." I take the smallest brownie and rip it in half. "Should I be doing this? I literally just started chemo." I take a bite anyway.

"Yeah it's fine, I did it, it actually helped with the nausea and stuff." Leo says. I keep eating.

After a while it starts to hit me, it doesn't feel that different to how I normally feel, I'm just way more relaxed and a little giggly. Leo and I are staring up at the sky.

"I like the clouds, when they move and stuff." I laugh at myself.

"You're totally stoned." Jordi says.

"Come oooonnnn Jordi. I'm not the only one of us who's a little... fizzy."

"Fizzy? Yeah she's stoned." Kara laughs at me.

"I want a snack." I sit up and lean my head on Leo's chest giving him puppy dog eyes.

"Oh and I suppose I'm the one who has to get it?" I nod, he puts his hands on my cheeks, "Fine, only because I love you." He kisses my nose.

"I love you, you beautiful bald boy." I flop back over the couch when he stands up. "Make it chocolatey, or salty, or both." He goes downstairs. "Is it normal to be this hungry?"

"You have the munchies. Just have another brownie." Kara lies down on the ground.

"Excellent idea Kara with the haira!" I reach over for another brownie.

"Don't you think you've had enough?" Jordi stops me.

"You're such a killjoy." He moves the plate out of my reach and I flop back annoyed.

"I feel kinda weird now." I close my eyes. "I'm just gonna close my eyes so maybe I won't-" I suddenly lean over the edge of the couch and hurl all over the floor.

"What the hell is going on?" I turn around and see dad standing there with Leo, just before I pass out.

"Leo she has cancer, you think you'd know better, you've had chemo too, you know how rough it is. What made you think this was a good idea?" Dad's angry.

"I'm sorry, I-"

"No, forget it, I don't wanna hear it." I keep my eyes closed, pretending I'm asleep. "If you wanna spend the rest of your life getting high, then leave my daughter out of it." I wait until I know he's gone, I open my eyes and I'm in my room again.

"You heard all of that?" Leo takes my hand, I nod. "I'm sorry, your dad's right, we shouldn't have been doing that, it's not for everyone."

"It's not your fault, I didn't have to try one."

"Do you regret it?"

"No, I mean, I regret my dad finding out. What happened after I passed out?"

"Well, your dad yelled at me and the others a lot, then we tried to carry you down the stairs but I couldn't, with my leg so Jordi and Dash went to get some nurses with a gurney and they got you down here, you threw up a lot more, they hydrated you and then you woke up. You still high?"

"No I don't think so, just tired, and hungry."

"I got you that snack." He pulls out a little packet of chocolate covered raisins.

"Oh my God you're my hero!" I snatch the packet from him and scarf down the entire packet in two minutes. "Where are the others? Were they in trouble?"

"Emma got yelled at for letting us do it, Jordi, Dash and Kara are under room arrest." I look over and see Kara in her bed on her phone, she gives a sarcastic wave and smile.

"Why aren't you under room arrest?"

"I am but, I wanted to make sure you were alright."

"Time's up, Leo." Nurse J shouts from the hall.

"Gotta go, love you." He kisses me.

"Love you."

"Don't you mean, I love you, you beautiful bald boy." He mocks me as he walks out, Nurse Jackson passes him and comes in to check my vitals.

"Is my dad mad at me?"

"No, he's mad at Leo. Which, frankly, I don't think is fair. Leo doesn't make your choices for you."

"I know, it was my choice and it was wrong."

"I'm not the one you should be telling. Dr. McAndrew, your patient wants to talk to you." She finishes up and gives me a look. Dad comes in, looking kind of upset.