The Music of the Heart
I gulped nervously, "What exactly do I need to know?" I asked. "Isn't it going to be just your father and brothers? I mean I know they are over bearing and intimidating, but wouldn't it be better for me to be myself? They won't judge me that quickly will they?"
"Unfortunately they tend to do exactly that, but don't worry mon ami! We will help you along the way and we will get you onto Kyoya's families' good side!"
"Yeah, that means we get to make you over again." Said the twins grinning devilishly. "We brought you a whole bunch of dresses too."
"No. I'm performing not hanging out with them, I need to look professional." I straightened my blazer.
"Oh didn't I tell you? You're having dinner with us. Just so you're informed. My stepmother and sister will be there as well." Kyoya said looking up from his laptop. My jaw dropped.
"And you didn't tell me this earlier because?"
"I didn't want you to worry dear." He smirked. 'Damn bastard.' I muttered under my breath. "What was that darling?"
"Nothing at all sir." I winked at Tamaki who looked positively scandalized. He coughed delicately into his hand.
"Um Kay? I have a lot of stuff to teach you before tonight…so you may want to get started."
"I don't need it! I have my American charm on my side, they won't be able to resist." I smiled cheekily and Kyoya gave me an 'Oh, brother' look, I gave him a little pout but threw up my arms giving into his stare down "Oh fine, but just know that I think is ridiculous." I grumbled sitting down in a plush chair at Tamaki's table. Tamaki looked at me and smiled in an ironic way,
"You know if you cooperate, you could be done a lot faster." Hmph. I took a piece of chocolate and popped it into my mouth. Kyoya took my wrist.
"Please? I love you. Cooperate. They're doing this because they love you too." He pointed to Tamaki and the twins; he gave me a quick kiss as he exited the door with his laptop under arm.
"I think we're going to have to do your eyebrows again." Hikaru said turning my head this way and that. I was tempted to bite his hand.
"Stop touching her you doppelgangers! You can do your make up stuff later, I think that behavior is a lot more important and needs a lot more work." What the hell? Was this pick on Kay day or something?
"You guys know I can hear you right? And I have better behavior than I use around you." I said irately looking at the three boys. "Besides who are you to decide if my manners are good or not?" My phone buzzed in my pocket. I read the text. 'Cooperate Katrina, I'll see you later love.' I sighed fine. "Proceed."
"Okay stand up and now turn." I turned awkwardly on one leg, trying to balance my weight on a crutch. "Hm."
"Hm? What does 'Hm' mean?" I asked as Tamaki came over to and adjusted my shoulders and tapped my back to make me stand like I had a very large stick up my ass. "There. Keep your shoulders relaxed, back straight, chin up! UP!"
"Okay, okay…I feel pompous doing this you know." I said my chin in the air.
"Sh! It's not pompous, its confident." He circled me like a hawk circling his prey. Gee I wonder if the hosts had to go through this when they first got collected into the host club. Or were they hired? Maybe they were drafted… "Kay? Are you listening?"
"Oh no, sorry what was that?" Tamaki muttered under his breath. 'This is going to take longer than I thought.'
"Walk please." I took one leg forward, and then swung my crutches, making little click sounds on the tile. "Hikaru, Kaoru!" he snapped his fingers and the twins appeared behind him in a moment.
"Sir!" they saluted.
"Watch her walk, do you see what I see?" the twins cocked their head to the side in unison.
"I think we do." Hikaru walked over to me. "You sort of clump along." He said pointing at me.
"Yeah, you have to float, if you don't it upsets your whole look, you'll look frumpy." I gasped. Geez, they were going to go tougher on me than I thought. After a full twenty minutes on walking (who'd a thunk that I was that bad of a walker?) I had to them to get it over with already.
"I'm on crutches! Give me a break!" I exclaimed as we hit the twenty minute mark.
"Well, I suppose it'll do." Tamaki said.
"Thank god! I was about to punch you in the face."
"No! A girl never says she was going to use violence to solve a problem."
"But you use violence-"
"But the boss is not a girl." The twins said pointedly. I sat down on the couch exasperatedly.
"Do we want to start over on the whole posture thing again?" he asked seeing me slump. I straightened up immediately. "Okay so that was your demeanor, how you present yourself before you start talking. You also have to be able to make conversation."
"How am I supposed to make conversation with you rich people?" I asked. No really it surprised me that I was going o have to. "Cant I pretend to be deaf, or mum?"
"No, you're a singer smart one." Kaoru said plopping down next to Tamaki leaning back against the plush couch.
"Hey! He gets to slouch!" I exclaimed.
"You shouldn't yell." Tamaki chided. I think he was enjoying torturing me with rules and manners. "Pretend you're acting! You're playing the part of a rich lady, or the perfect wife."
"The perfect wife really? Am I supposed to go into the mindset of them too?"
"You can, but you know that there isn't a script so improvise, you got this." He said reassuringly probably one of the nicest things Tamaki had said to me all day today. It was a surprise that he could be so good with the rules as normally he was happy go lucky let it go kind of guy. "Now, when making conversation, you shouldn't yell, cuss, or refer to explicit or inappropriate things." He said his violet blue eyes staring deep into my soul.
"Well, darn, I had the best sex story ready." I joked, but I have a feeling they thought I was serious. He continued to read off the things that I could and couldn't do, don't fidget, make eye contact, be polite, try not to address the staff too much they'll see it as an insult, be delicate, don't engage in gossip, this'll be easy for you, don't gloat, at least you can PRETEND to be interested, don't blink excessively, compliment the dinner, compliment their outfits, just compliment things okay? And don't voice your opinion too much, and note they won't expect you to make conversation about business, so that won't be too much of a problem,-"' I cut him off.
"Can't I just say I'm deaf or can't talk or something? They aren't going to check!" I exclaimed exasperatedly, not ready to drop my brilliant idea.
"Um, Kay, Kaoru already you you're forgetting you'll be performing. You have to be able to do both." Haruhi said looking up from her math homework.
"And is suppose this was easy for you?" I snapped knowing that she came from a 'commoner's' background.
"No this was just as hard for me, and when I was trained they thought that I was a guy, now come on I think they're almost done, right?" she looked to him, but something told me that she had a little death glare on.
"Yeah, look there are only two more and then we can go on to mannerisms okay?" I grumbled.
"Fine." He continued, happy that he got to finish. I bristled at the last two, but I didn't stop it hoping that I got to hurry and finish this maybe I would actually have time to prepare what I was going to perform for them. They went through everything I could possibly do and gave me how to react and everything. It was about an hour and a half later after they had told me what to do and another half an hour for me to demonstrate it. By the end of about three hours I was a lovely polite, young lady, who never said anything out of place or did anything wrong. I spoke quietly and was demure, and hell I even knew the use for every for that was sure to be set on the table. Tamaki and the twins sat back and watched me, Tamaki smiling particularly largely seeing how all his hard work was paying off. My forehead was soaked in perspiration from everything they had had me doing and how hard I had to focus to do anything. Tamaki stood up and I sighed inwardly.
"What am I doing wrong this time?" I asked.
"Nothing, you're perfect, ravishing, I was just going to tell you to smile." He said a small smile playing on my lips. Something about him was infectious. The way he was so happy. It kind of rubbed off on you, even though sometimes it made you want to punch him in the face. I smiled taking on his grin. "There." He pressed my shoulders back a little. "Now you look like a queen. And…..we can take a break." HALLELUJAH! "But just a reminder, these are the hardest rules for you. Only speak when spoken too, and refrain from voicing your opinion." I narrowed my eyes and bowed sarcastically "Of course my lord. You're not different. You're a rich bastard like the rest of them!" and ran off to the music room (or as fast as I could go on crutches) and slammed the door locking it so I could be alone. While I felt slightly satisfied about how I was able to do this it only made me more upset. My dad had always told me to act like myself, and I wasn't being myself. It pissed me off that I was happy about it I shouldn't be. I banged on the piano. Damn I'm so confused. I'm proud that Tamaki is proud of me, and I know I'm doing this because Kyoya loves me, but if he really loved me would he be making me do this? I took out my electric guitar. (Like a nerd I have to play or at the very least listen to music when I get depressed.) I did feel better and in this song I realized that I was important, and that I was myself and Kyoya loved me for it, but I was going to try to be perfect not just for him but to show myself I could do it. I wanted to know. There was something amazing about the way that they lived, it was so close to my world and yet so far away. I unlocked the door, leaving it wide open for them to hear my song apology.
Whatever you do I'll do it too show me everything and tell me how, it all means something and yet nothing to me, I can see there's so much to learn its all so close and yet so far, I see myself as people see me oh I know there's something bigger out there,
I wanna know can you show me? I wanna know about the strangers like me, tell me more please show me, something's familiar about the strangers like me, every gesture, every move that he makes makes me feel like never before why do I have this growing feeling to be beside them? Ooo these emotions I never knew of some other world far beyond this place. Beyond the trees above the clouds I see before me a new horizon, I wanna know, can you show me? I wanna know about the strangers like me, tell me more please show me something's familiar about these strangers like me
Come with me now, come see my world where there's beauty beyond your dreams can you feel the things I feel? Right now you take my hand, there's a world I need to know, I wanna know can you show me I wanna know about the strangers like me…
"That was stupid and immature of me. I'm sorry." I apologized to Tamaki who looked sad at what I had told him. "I know you were only trying to help." I felt childish, that I had overreacted like that.
"It's okay; we know you were under a lot of stress. I could never stop loving my daughters!" He exclaimed hugging me tight. I rolled my eyes but hugged back.
"T-Tamaki, put me down please I can't breathe." He put me down and blushed bright red.
"Sorry Kay." I smiled.
"It's fine." I went through a surprisingly quick makeup session (considering it was Hikaru and Kaoru) they did basic makeup, and made me look beautiful per usual. I squeezed Haruhi's hand tightly and thought over and over to myself, 'you'll get your revenge, you're doing this for Kyoya' and other things to distract me. Then they pulled my hair into a skin pulling tight bun on the back of my head, which they let me take out after a little bit thank god. They were planning for what it would like for the performance.
"Oh hey Kyoya, you wanna see your girlfriend squeal while we pluck her eyebrows?" damn. My brows were sure to b red for a long time. I started to shake my head frantically. "Stop moving Kay!" Kaoru said as he bent over to rip another hair out of my skin.
"Haruhi, your hands got warmer for some reason." I said squeezing them tighter. "And bigger." I commented doing anything to try to distract myself. I jerked up, as Hikaru pulled out another hair. I couldn't stand it anymore. "iPod please." I fixed it in my ears. "Proceed." I struggled not to move my feet and tap my toes to the music. Finally they were done and I opened my eyes looking up into onyx concerned ones.
"Are you okay?"
"Kyoya! I didn't know you came!" I thought it was still Haruhi. Well what the heck! He chuckled. And rubbed his hand.
"You have a good grip. Poor Haruhi, could hardly take it." I looked over to her who was nursing her hand.
"I'm so sorry Haruhi! You should have said something!" I said standing up to go and apologize.
"It's okay, but you would have thought you were having contractions or something." She gave me a wry smile. Tamaki's phone buzzed, and he checked. I looked at him curiously.
"It's a text from dad." He said gesturing to the phone. "Says he wants you to do a recording of whatever song you want, but he needs it by tonight."
"TONIGHT? I don't think we have time for that Tamaki." I said. "I needed to know way earlier."
"We have a recording booth." Hunny said brightly from behind me on the top of Mori's shoulders. "Yeah- over there." He pointed to the booth that I never noticed."
"You could do it now." Haruhi shrugged. "I don't think the school will mind."
"But none of us know how to do the recording thingy." Tamaki said dejectedly. "And it has to be at least two songs."
"I know how to burn CD's I could show Mr. Laptop over there how." I gestured to Kyoya. He nodded. "Great we're in business." The club crowded into the booth and watched as I set my crutches to the side and handed Kyoya my iPod. I skimmed through the music. Trespassing, Cuckoo, voiceless track I instructed to him who put that into the music player. I put my iPod back in my pocket and put on the track with his voice in my ears so I could sing along. I closed my eyes. It was just me in the booth. My hearing was fuzzy. I could barely hear myself. "Cue music." I listened for the entrance carefully.
Feel like I'm having a meltdown, I feel like I'm losing control, They tell me that I'm a danger to myself Now the crazy train is ready to roll. Oh! I was getting into it feeling the music pulse through my veins. Walk that walk like I don't give a fuck you've got the right to turn it up and get down. Electric shock no I can't get enough. Cuz tonight we're taking over the town. Hey! I wanna lose my mind like a maniac. And cross the line never looking back. We're on the loose getting crazy and we've gone, cuckoo! Gonna party till they take us away The notes rolled off my tongue, like there was nothing else in the world just me and the music. The fast pop music swung by faster than I knew I was already to the end. The powerful hidden meaning that was in a lot of Adam's songs. I grasped the mic and sang full of emotion, gotta get out of this straight jacket whoa! Cuckoo! Gotta get out of this straight jacket whoa! Chorus once more. I ended the song strongly. Feeling my voice echo inside the booth. I waited three seconds to hear a very distant voice say "Clear." I took the headphones off, and shot a quick text to him saying the classic Michael Jackson song smooth criminal. We finished the rest of the music astoundingly quick and burnt the CD, giving it to Tamaki to give to his father. I walked out of the booth tired but elated all the same. I always got that same rush of feeling whenever I performed. Kyoya met me with a water bottle that Mori gave him to give to me.
"Where are the others?" I asked taking a grateful swig of the water.
"They're out there listening to the music. I don't think I've ever heard anyone sing with so much verve." He kissed me gently. "You have an odd choice in music."
"No I don't, I just listen to what I believe in." I said.
"Well whatever it was I liked it." He smiled as we walked out together, and I was bombarded with questions from the hosts. Even Haruhi.
"Hey hey hey, take it easy! One at a time." I leaned over to Kyoya. "What's going on with them?" I whispered in his ear.
"They don't know how one person can sing so beautifully." He whispered back sending a tomato toned blush onto my cheeks.
"Jeez Kay, I think you've been holding back on us during club hours." Hikaru said sounding thoroughly impressed. "Yeah, you need to sing more of that music." I smiled thanking god that they liked it. I could only hope that pleasing the Ootori's could be this easy.
"That was amazing Kay-chan!" Hunny exclaimed. "You looked so happy in there! I only see that look when you're around Kyo-chan normally." He smiled, and I blushed.
"Amazing." Mori said looking very pleased.
"Oh my god Kay, I think that you were in a whole different world. It was spectacular! How did you learn to sing like that?" I again got bombarded with questions of that sort after Haruhi reopened the flood gates with her comment.
"Look, I'll talk about it on Saturday if you text me the question, but Kyoya and I have to go if I want to be ready to perform." I smiled and waved at everyone. Getting good luck hugs and wishes from everyone. Tamaki picked me up and spun me around.
"You're going to do so well! Oh I know you are, and I'll give the CD to my father right away..." he rambled on not hearing my protests, before Kyoya growled in a dark voice.
"Put my girlfriend down." Tamaki put my down and back away slowly retreating to his corner of woe.
"Oh no! It's okay Tamaki! I'm sorry I just don't like that very much." I gave him a little hug and he came out of it immediately.
"See mommy our daughter forgives us." He smiled and told me good luck. Kyoya carried my violin after I strapped my guitar to my back as we crutched to the limo.
"The twins will meet us there with my outfit and touchups." I said entering the car careful of my ankle.
"Sounds perfect." He smiled, but I knew that it wasn't his real smile. His real smile could light up the empire state, and this was just his host smile.
"Are you okay?" I asked quietly. "Have I done something wrong?" Kyoya laughed and pulled me close.
"Who are you and what have you done to Kay O'Reilly?" he asked sarcastically in a sweet way. "I'm fine; I'm just getting worried that's all."
"For what it's worth I'm worried to." I said sending him a nervous smile and squeezing his hand. He smiled back. A real one this time. I scrolled through the classical music, trying to find out anything I could play for them. Finally finding the perfect selection of around five songs, (I had others on standby as well just in case) we got out of the limo. I hurried back to my apartment where the twins had apparently already set up shop. They stopped Kyoya at the door.
"You don't get to see her until we're done." They stated firmly. Kyoya rolled his eyes but complied anyways. He needed to get ready too after all. Hikaru was prepping my outfit, while Kaoru did much longer makeup prep on me. I knew that the little makeup they put on me earlier was too good to be true. After making up my whole face, and pulling my hair back into that teeth wrenching bun. Finally they were done and let me slip into a black dress. Nothing too fancy, it was nice sleeveless, and long, but left me the freedom I needed. I gave them a hug after they had finished packing up all their stuff.
"Thank you so much! I don't know what I'd do without you." I smiled.
"No prob, we love getting to make you up." Hikaru and Kaoru said mischievously in unison. They showed themselves out and they passed Kyoya who was apparently coming down the stairs. "She looks good. But don't press her she's nervous." I heard them tell him. I tuned my violin nervously. I was too nervous to even be mad at the twins for telling him I was nervous. He opened my door where I practiced bowing over my piece. Just above the violin, not actually playing it.
"You'll be fine." He said squeezing my shoulders. "They'll love you're music." He turned me around to face him and his eyes widened. "You look lovely." He said. I knew he was sincere but there was something disappointed in his voice. I breathed out. "Are you ready?" I nodded and he picked up my violin and put it in place. I started to hyperventilate. "Shhhh shhh shhh. Breathe, you're fine. They won't be able to resist your American charm." He said slyly making me smile despite myself. We talked until it was time. He left me to go join his family. I was behind the door to the music room trying to calm myself. I sucked in a breath. And pushed open the door. For one terrifying moment everything that Tamaki and the twins taught me disappeared from my mind. Then like a great tidal wave it all came flooding back. I carried myself with confidence and crutch floated over to where my seat was and where my violin sat.
"I'm Katrina O'Reilly." I introduced myself smiling gently. I heard a whisper commenting on how my neck was unfashionably bare, but I ignored it and continued. "I am going to be playing my violin for you tonight and I'm hoping that you enjoy it." I smiled and sat down bringing the violin to my chin. I bowed low and slow, a beautiful melody. I played it note for note with my eyes closed, afraid to see their reactions. It was like being in the booth again. Just me and the music trying to block out the world. I waited a few seconds, I knew that there was something in the distance, but I started the next song anyways, I kept going song after song until I got to the last one. A spirited song, that made me move my fingers faster than I ever had before. I bowed fast and furious a couple of bow strings snapping from the frequency. I bowed my head to a shower of applause. I smiled thankfully, and put my violin away. We were lead to the dining room. Where I sat down next to Kyoya who sent me a smile along with a confirming nod.
"I think that music was just spectacular." Said a smiling woman at the opposite end of the table from me. "You're fingers moved like lightning one the last piece." She complimented.
"Why thank you miss." I said shyly, not used to too much praise.
"Don't be modest that was heavenly!" she exclaimed again smiling from ear to ear. "Wasn't it Father?" she said addressing a man with a goatee, wearing glasses at the head of the table.
"Yes, for a girl, it was quite remarkable." He held his hand out to a servant telling him to stop pouring the wine as he picked it up and swished it around. "Tell me where did you learn how to play like that?" His glasses glinted over, so I couldn't see his eyes.
"I taught myself, but I got a little bit of help from the music teacher from my old middle school."
"A private institution?" Akito asked. I shook my head gently.
"No, a public school." I said quietly, addressing Akito.
"Ah, I see." Kyoya's father, Yoshio said, taking a small sip of wine. "Are you a commoner?" he asked bluntly. I was shocked.
"Well, I wouldn't say commoner, I came from a middle class family. Certainly nothing by your elegant standards sir." I said controlling my temper surprisingly well for a, Irish girl. "The architecture of the manor is outstanding." I said, before taking a dainty sip of my ice water.
"We don't need to hear more about the house, I am more interested in what else you do. Kyoya brags of your many talents." The OLDER older brother said, in a manner that was at least trying to be friendly. I couldn't decide whether or not he succeeded.
"Oh, it isn't anything all that wonderful, but I do play numerous instruments…" Fuyumi leaned forward excited.
"Do tell!" I smiled.
"I play, the violin, clarinet, piano, though I think that Suoh plays much better than I, flute," I sent a teeny smile in Kyoya's direction, "a bit of cello, and I also sing."
"How extraordinary!" She exclaimed, "Do you do anything else?" thank god for Fuyumi otherwise I would have drowned in all the pressure. I could feel all their eyes on me anticipating my answer.
"Well, I am an actress, and I hope to join the Ouran drama production, and I am also a dancer." I heard Mrs. Ootori cluck disapprovingly at that. 'Hmph, like a prostitute I'm sure.' I pretended I didn't hear her.
"How impressive." Yoshio mused finishing off his soup course. The food was coming out at an alarming rate, I could hardly keep up. "Do you hope to have a future in that business?"
"No." Kyoya answered quickly even though I sent him a surprised look, almost hurt. "Well, she's considering it, but she doesn't think it'll happen."
"Actually, I am planning to go into the business. The headmaster is sponsoring me." I sent him a glare that wasn't detected by anyone else. "Music is my life, and Mr. Suoh, has helped me try to reach my dreams."
"Oh that's just wonderful! That a girl who didn't think it would work out, is now able to reach her dreams, I think that you are a top notch musician." Fuyumi applauded me. "I believe that more people should follow in your footsteps."
Mrs. Ootori took a sip of her wine. "Yes, it's so extra ordinary that a plain girl such as yourself was able to rise above your station to be able to perform for us tonight. Tell me, how did it feel for a commoner to be in our elegance? Hm?" My eyes widened. That was surely an insult; she called me plain and a commoner. She acted like I had no right to be with the likes of them.
"Well, I do live here, and though I would rather live in a more simple fashion I've grown used to it." I said taking a sip of my water to calm myself down.
"That's right you are Kyoya's maid aren't you, how strange that he allowed you to do this for us, it's so generous of him, shouldn't you be doing laundry or something?" I waited for Kyoya to say something but he just looked down and ignored it.
"Actually no, it's not strange and I did this off of my own accord. He may be my employer but he's under no circumstances has control over me, my life, or what I do." I said sharply and defiant.
"That's funny I thought you would be embarrassed to appear in front of us. After all showmanship is scandalous, a bunch or harlots I say, if I were you I would never do this for a rich family like the Ootori group. You must be embarrassed to perform for someone so above you, am I correct? After all you are merely a servant with a stroke of good luck." Mr. Ootori said smirking a little bit; he raised his eyebrow as if asking me if he was wrong.
I pushed my chair back violently shaking the table. I glared at them, my intense gaze focused mostly on Mr. Ootori and his wife. I felt Kyoya try to press on my shoulders and calm me down, I glared at him and shoved his hands off me.
"Don't touch me. I can't believe that you didn't say anything." I hissed in his ear feeling the tears start to hitch in the back of my throat. I turned back to face the table. "Yes. Yes I may be a maid yes I may work for you, but that does NOT mean you are better than me. NO! You're not better than me at all, from the way you've been treating me I would say that I am far above you." They looked shocked. Clearly no one had ever spoken to them like this before. I started to walk away but then I turned around to face them one more time. "And to answer your question Mr. Ootori, I am proud of who I am, and I am proud of what I do, and NO ONE can take that away from me, not even rich bastards like you, who can go to hell for all I care." I turned around and stormed out, actually making fluid movements with my crutches. Slamming the door and brushing past and maids running to my room and throwing myself on the bed. The tears were streaming down my face and I sobbed into my pillow. I just singlehandedly ruined any chance I had of impressing Kyoya's family. Hell I just ruined Kyoya's chance for happiness. Screw me I didn't care that I could get kicked out, I was just very worried for Kyoya's sake. I can't stand bastards like them and he tried to get me to calm down? What are you saying Kay you love him. There was no way that we could date now, no way that he would ever want me. STOP PITYING YOURSELF DAMN IT KAY! I knew it. It was far too good to b true; he was too perfect to be real. I pulled out my acoustic guitar and tuned it slowly. I've been a bitch all day, not wanting to cooperate with Tamaki or the twins, to just being moody all day. I acted like a child, but Kyoya's family really pushed me over the edge, and it hurt that he didn't do anything about it, but deep inside I knew that I still loved him. His family probably hates me, but that doesn't change the fact that the two of us love each other.
I began to strum my current favorite song, by Adam Lambert of course. I sang, my tears stopping, my breath no longer hitching in my throat like I knew it would if I actually tried to talk.
Cold as ice, and more bitter than a December, winter night that's how I treated you.
And I know that I, I sometimes tend to lose my temper and I cross the line, yeah that's the truth.
I know it get's hard sometimes, but I could never leave your side no matter what I say
Cause' if I wanted to go would have gone by now but I really need you near me to keep my mind of the edge.
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now, but you're the only one that knows me, better than I know my self
All along, I tried to pretend it didn't matter, if I was alone, but deep down I know
If you were gone, for even I day I wouldn't know which way to turn cause' I'm lost without you.
I know it gets hard sometimes, but I could never leave your side no matter what I say
Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now but I really need you near me to keep my mind of the edge
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now but you're the only one that knows me better than I know my self.
I get kind of dark
Let it go too far
I can be obnoxious at times
But try to see my heart
Cause I need you now
so don't let me down
you're the only thing in this world I would die without.
Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now but I really need you near me to keep my mind off the edge.
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now but you're the only one that knows me better than I know my self.
Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now but I really need you near me to keep my mind of the edge.
If I wanted to leave I would have left by now but you're the only one that knows me better than I know my self….
I turned to the sound of the door opening and in came Kyoya. I expected him to be yelling at me or fuming or something. I stood up seeing him.
"Look Kyoya I'm so sor-" he cut me off with a deep passionate kiss. He shook his head and smiled at me.
"You never shut up do you?" he laughed. "Oh my god that was amazing. I don't think anyone's ever stood up to that old bat before." He ran his hands through his hair. "You worry me do you know that? I'm going to get gray hair because of you." I laughed.
"You're not mad? But why? How? I expected that you'd be yelling at me right now."
"Not after what I saw out there. You did in one night what I wished I could tell him all my life. The way you stood up to him, I think that was the bravest thing you've ever seen." I had let my hair out of it's pretentious bun and now it fell in its natural curly style around my shoulders. "Would you come back to dinner with me?" his eyes sparkled like I had never seen before as he held out a hand to lead me. My eyes widened in shock. But then out of no where my hand accepted. Before we left the room though I stopped in the doorway.
"If you want something in life, you have to have the courage to go get it for yourself." I winked and he led me out of the room waiting patiently for me to crutch my way along. They still looked a little shocked from what I said earlier and were now murmuring to themselves. Fuyumi was the first one to fully acknowledge my presence, by sending me a big smile, and a small thumbs up. Mrs. Ootori glared at me.
"I see you're back. Are you here to apologize for your behavior earlier?" she asked snidely. I looked her full in the eye.
"No. I'm not going to apologize for speaking my opinion. I know, that there are times when you have to put on your blinders, and ignore comments and think positively, but there are other times, when you have to stand up for yourself. This is one of those times, and I'm not going to apologize." I said defiantly standing my ground. She looked scandalized, but Mr. Ootori stopped her from getting up and smacking me. Thank you Adam, I think your quotes are going to help a lot, I thought to myself.
"I would have thought that you would be responsible and apologize." He said, it wasn't mean, like how he was testing me before, but I knew that he was still testing me, but now more out of curiosity.
"My only responsibility, is just owning it, myself and my personality, and being comfortable with it, and NOT apologizing."
"We were very pleased by your performance." Akito said surprising himself and others when he spoke. I nodded at him.
"I appreciate that, but I also know that I can't please everybody, and I'm okay with that, its part of being an artist, and having a real point of view. I know that I'm not going to be able to do everything for everybody." I said and he smiled a tiny bit. The first smile I had seen out of Kyoya's family except for him and Fuyumi. Now Mrs. Ootori spoke up, she was spiteful, and not at all like any of the other family members. Her voice was full of hate.
"What in the world makes you think that you're going to make it? What makes you think that people want to listen to a freak like you?" Kyoya looked about ready to kill her, but I gave him an 'I got it' look. Her words didn't hurt me anymore.
I shrugged and smiled at her making her scowl deeper when she realized she didn't hurt me, "I'm a freak in the fondest way possible." A majority of the family nodded smiling at me.
"Well what makes you so proud of you? I haven't seen you do anything remarkable." She spat out at me.
"I am proud of me, because I own who I am, and what I'm about, and I'm not apologizing for being me, and that's all I have to say about that." Then the most amazing thing happened. Mr. Ootori laughed. Not a very cold laugh, but like he was entertained and amazed at how I was able to stand up to her. Kyoya stepped up next to me.
"I'm proud to call her my girlfriend." He said nodding at the family who clapped, not just at him but at me. When did this turn into a movie? Either way I felt the adrenaline in my blood.
"I would like to see you in my office." Mr. Ootori said. I made move to crutch and follow him, but Kyoya had a strong grip on my hand.
"I'll be fine." I whispered. He let o reluctantly and gave me a kiss on the lips, as if for a sad parting. I followed him, making sure I didn't trip as I walked up the stairs. I entered his dark study and he sat down behind his desk.
"Please. Sit." He instructed and gestured to the chair. I sat down, laying my crutches next to me. "You are a brave girl. Never before have I seen anyone stand up to me or my wife. Let alone a commoner." I shook my head.
"I expected to be the first but being a commoner doesn't change anything. Either way I had the guts and that is all that matters." I stated bluntly. He studied me intently.
"That may be so, but I was just going to inform you," I braced myself to get kicked out. Maybe that laugh didn't mean my safety as I had hoped. "that I would be proud to sponsor you." My eyes widened and mouth opened in surprise. "I think that you are very promising. Mr. Suoh will be sending me some of your music. Any girl brave enough to do what I've seen tonight, is worthy of my support. " he patted my hand as I stood and firmly shook his hand restraining my joy to just a 'Thank you so much sir, your support will not be wasted.' I walked down the staircase ecstatic. I got to my room to see Kyoya standing there waiting for me. I ran and jumoed into a hug with him knocking the both of us on the bed.
"You're dad's gonna support me!" I exclaimed clinging to him tight. He laughed but looked at me surprised.
"He is?"
"I know right! I thought I was a goner for sure! Oh man, I thought he was going to kill me!" I exclaimed speaking rapidly, I just hugged him closer pressing my face into his shoulder.
"I hope I'm not interrupting anything." Came Fuyumi's voice from the doorway. I got off him immediately.
"No not at all Miss." I said and she laughed, like a bell tinkling gently.
"Call me Fuyumi," she laughed again. "I just wanted to tell you that I agree with everything you said." She smiled and sat down on the bed giving Kyoya a kiss on the cheek. "Be good to her Kyoya, this is a girl who knows what she's doing." Kyoya's face reddened slightly.
"I will I will." He said rubbing his cheek like a child who had just been kissed in front of his friends. She pinched his cheek, and gave me a big grin.
"I know that you love him, actually he ranted to me when he first met you about how different you were from other girls." My face looked nervous or I suppose she picked that up, because she gave me a reassuring smile. "Nothing bad of course. He had nothing but good things to say about you. He was intrigued."
"And that's enough of that Fuyumi." He said albeit a bit forcefully trying to escort her through the door.
"Thank you Miss Fuyumi, it was very nice to meet you!" I called to her as she finally left, without Kyoya blocking the door for her to get back in. Kyoya rolled his eyes and laid down on my bed.
"Well this was quite a long day wasn't it?" he said sighing.
"Long? For you? Bitch please…" I said as I flopped down next to him. I laughed turning up my iPod.
"You're music never ceases to amaze me. This song's about what? Science, and the big bang theory? And then you have 80's American music and dance pop, and British music, and Disney, not to mention you have the host themes too…" I shrugged (is it possible to do that laying down?)
"I don't know, I buy any music I like." I said. "And by the way I believe in everything I said today."
"I know you do."
"You didn't seem so happy to see me after Hikaru and Kaoru were done with me, why is that?"
"You didn't look like you, with your wild red hair, and green eyes…you looked too…serious, and I like you like this, just the way you are." He smiled, looking handsome as can be and kissed me passionately. "I love you more than you could ever know." He whispered into my hair.
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Hi guys you can skip the notre if you want this chapter is ridiculously long, I thought it was going to be too short, but then I added stuff, and I don't want to take it out so you are stuck with it I'm so sorry. Oh and also I apologize for like the week and a half break that I took. I honestly didn't know that I would be without internet. I think I almost died, but we just moved into a new house so we're still getting that stuff all set up. The next chappie will likely be fliuffy, and or stupid to make up for what I at least hope was slightly dramatic chapter here. I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! Please review =) thank you!
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