Okay, so this will probably be my last update for a month. I'm going to a month-long-no-technology camp. Yikes! Any good book recomendations? I want heaps to bring to read. :P
So here is the bit everyone has been looking forward to. I think it is anyway. Read and find out if it is! :D LOL
By the way, I'm lookinf for a BETA. If you are interested please send me a message of say something in you review. (wink wink nugde nudge)
Disclaimer: I'm not Meg. I'm not Cabot, either. SO I obviously did not write a book by Meg Cabot.
I couldn't sit still. I had been home for an hour waiting for my mum. I was sitting on my bed trying to read a magazine. When everything I read reminded me of the baby inside of me I got off my bed and tried listening to music. I turned on my IPod dock... and 1+1=3 by Scouting for Girls. The song was about a freaking one night stand, and the girl gets knocked up. I turned off the music and picked up Wuthering Heights, a book that we were meant to read for school. I opened it, but I was up to the part where Heathcliff finds out that Kathy was pregnant. I threw the book across the room.
"Somebody up there really hates me" I muttered to myself. As if to jinx me, I heard the house door open.
"I'm home" my mum called out.
I stood up and shook my hands and ran on the spot for a few seconds. "Come on Simon" I said to myself. "You can do this" I stood still for a moment and then reached for the door handle. I took a deep breath and then opened the door... and crashed into Sleepy. "What do you want?" I asked, annoyed.
"I was wondering if you had told your mum yet?" he asked, kind of awkwardly.
"I was just about to, now could you pleae move?" I tried to side step him, but he put his hand on my sholder.
"Good luck, little Sis" he said and kissed my forehead. I felt a lump at the back of my throat and blinked back tears.
"Thanks, Jake" I said to him, hugging him. He awkwardly patted my back.
I think it was at that moment that Sleepy became Jake.
I continued down the hall way and then down the stairs. Every step I took was slow motion. I felt like was the giant that's trying to catch Stich from Lilo and Stich. I had created a mantra that I kept repeating over and over again in my head.
You can do this,
You can do this,
If you can kick booties,
You can do this.
I knocked on my mums bedroom door three times. Knock. Knock. Knock
"Yeah?" my mum called.
"It's me mum... can I come in?" I asked, my voice getting squeeky like it does when I am nervous.
"Yes" she called. I opened the door slowly and flinched when it creaked. "WHat the matter?" she asked.
"Nothing, I just wanted to talk to you about something" I wiped my palms on pants and took a few steps into the room.
"Talk away, honey" My mum said putting down the Womens Day (A/N sorry I don't know USA mags, only aussie ones) magazine she was reading on her bed.
"Well..." I said, promising myself this wouldn't end up like when I told Paul. "You know how you always encouraged me to get a boyfriend?"
"Encouraged isn't the right word, sweetie, but yes, go on"
"Well, I met this guy, and his great. I really liked him and then we became lose friends and I realised... I was, am, in love with him..." My mum looked up at me with a weird look on her face. "So long story short we are together now... but a couple of nights ago... well I did something stupid.."
My mums mouth dropped and her eyes popped. "Susannah, you didn't? Oh, Suzie!"
I bit my lip, to stop it from shaking. I stood up and began pacing in front of my mother, wringing my hands together. "And now.. and now my periods late and I feel kind of nauseous and the pregnancy test was positive... I think the nausea is from me being so doman stupid! How could I get myelf in this situsation? I was always the smart one when it came to this!" I knew I was rambling but I didn't know what else to do.
"Y-you're pregnant?" my mum stuttered. I looked up at her. My mother was a news presenter, she never stuttered.
"Uh huh" I said, and then I couldn't contain it anymore... I burst into tears.. again. "A-and I dunno what to do" I sobbed.
"Oh Suzie" my mum said standing up and covering my with her arms. I clinged onto her like she was my life raft.
"I'm so confused, and stupid... and... and"
"Shhh" My mother patted my hair down and rocked me from side to side.
After who knows how long I pulled back from my mum. SHe wiped tears off her face and then wiped my tears away.
"I'm so sorry" I whispered to her. "I'm so, so sorry. You deserve a better daughter, one that isn't a pregnant at sixteen and doesn't get brought home by the cops"
"No, Susannah, you are the best daughter and I love you so much. Yes you made a mistake, but we all do that. I love you so, so much. Now, lets talk about what we're going to do about it"
I sniffled and wiped my face with the backs of my hands. "An abortion is out of the question. I refuse to kill a baby... I don't think I would beable to adopt"
"You are a smart girl Suzie. We'll figure out what to do"
"So every smart girl gets knocked up?" I asked my mum. She just sighed. "How are we going to tell Andy?"
"That, my dear, is up to you" she patted my head "just make sure it's soon"
"I love you" told her. she just smiled encouragingly and I left her bedroom and went upstairs to mine.
I entered my room to find Jesse sitting on the window sill. He was still reading Critical Theory Since Plato. Eeek.
"Hey" I said, well aware that my eyes were all red and puffy.
"Hello" Jesse's eyes furrowed. "What happened?"
"Mum officially knows"
"Oh. Did she not react well?"
"No, no. She was fine. She just was... shocked. She's disapointed in me big time. She didn't say it, but I got the message" I bit my lip and looked out the bay window. Jesse closed the book and came over to me. He circled his arms around me and rested his forehead against my own.
"She'll stand by you" Jesse said softly in his sexy accent. "She loves you"
"I know, it's just... I hate being such a disapointment to her.
"I understand" Jesse leaned down and kissed me. I moved my hands into his hair and knotted my fingers through it. I used my hand to keep his head there and deepened the kiss. The kiss quickly got passionate and I had hoisted my leg up and twisted it around his waist. Some how I had managed to make Jesse DeSilva loose control.
10 points to Suze.
However, we, unfortunatley, broke apart when a door slammed. Jesse and I were both panting.
"I think that's Andy" I told him.
"Good luck" He said kissing my forhead. "I'll be there with you"
I smiled weakly and walked out of my room. I jogged down the stairs and into the kitchen. Andy was in there chopping carrot.
"Hey Andy" I said, wincing at the overly cheery tone of my voice.
"Hey Suze" he said, matching my tone. "What's up?"
"Umm, nothing" I bit my lip. Maybe I'll start with a little small talk. "What's for dinner?"
"Salmon with ginger garnish and garden salad."
"Oh, you're such a gourmet cook! How was youe day?"
"Oh, you know! A normal day outdoors"
"Of course! You are so good at your job!" I smiled brightly. May as well sweet him over before I drop the bomb.
"Oh, thank you Suze, but your exagerating. SO is there something you wanted to talk to me about?"
"Umm, kind of" I bit my lip and began mentally chanting my matra again. I looked down at my hands.
"Yeah? Speak now or forever hold you peace!" he joked.
"Well, since I don't know how to break this to you I will start by saying that this happened on my one and only time, and it's not like I'm the only one in this household doing it. Dopey, I mean Brad, is definatley doing it... and I can imagine so us Jake. Ewwe... not imagine, that would be gross" I took a deep breath and looked at a confused looking Andy.
"Sorry, Suze, but what?" Andy scratched his head. "You talk really fast"
"I'm pregnant" I said simply.
"Oh" Andy said putting down the knife. "Are- are you sure?"
"Yeah" I put my face in my hands and then ran my hands through my hair.
"What are you planning to do with... it?" Andy's face was very controlled. I felt a sudden burst of guilt. Here was my step father thinking he finally got a daughter and she turns out to be a mediating, screwed up, sluttly kid who fell in love with a ghost and can throw a pretty good right hook, if I do say so myself. Not the daughter most guys imagined.
"An abortion is definatley out of the question. Andy's body sagged, in relief or stress I didn't know. "I think... I think I might keep it"
"Okay. Does you rmother know?"
"I talked to her earlier"
"Does the" he cleared his throat "father... know"
"Yes" I said simply. I was quiet for a moment. "I'm sorry for ruining your day"
"Oh, Susannah" Andy said he looked up at me and I saw tears all over his face. I felt my lip quiver. I had never, never, Seen Andy so much as look sad, let alone cry. I felt so ashamed. "You didn't ruin my day! You are young, and you made a mistake. But isn't that what life is for? Making mistakes. Yours was a mistake that had a big consequence. I'm proud that you're not taking the easy option and killing the baby"
I laughed. "Andy, I think you are the first person in history to be proud for there daughter when she tells you she's pregnant"
Andy laughed with me. He pulled me into his arms into a giant hug.
"Just so you know, the umm, father, is coming around at eight to meet you" Lord, please forgive me for lying.
"So he's behind you?"
"Uh huh" I said. Little did Andy know how right he was. I looked over my shoulder and saw my mum entering the room and Jesse behind me, smiling.
~a divider thingymabob~
"Amen" Andy said, finishing grace. The boys were elbow deep in food with in ten seconds of Grace.
"Ahem" I called everyone to attention. Andy, mum and I had agreed that I would tell the boys during dinner. Three sets of blue eyes looked up at me, wide, and mouths, open, chomping on food. "I need to talk to you three"
Dopey raised his eyebrow. "Can I eat eat while you tell us?"
"Go ahead" I said, imagining all the amusing reactions such as him choking or him spitting his food all over himself. "So I got a test done a couple of days ago"
Dopey, with all his chewed up glory, raised an eyebrow at me. "Thow?" translation: So?
"It came out positive" may as well stretch this out as long as possible.
"What was the test for, Suze?" David asked. "STD's? Glandular fever? Did you know one in ten American's have STD's?"
"Uh huh" I looked to make sure Brads mouth was full. "It was a pregnancy test"
The reactions weren't as good as I expected.
"What?" Brad asked, confused.
"You're pregnant?" David asked with his eyebrows furrowed together.
"I'm proud of you Suze" Jake said. This last comment got all five of us to look at Jake. "What?"
"You're proud of your sixteen year old sister for getting pregnant?" Andy asked, speaking for us all.
"Oh" Brad said, finally getting what had happened. "Hawhawhaw" he laughed.
"No, I'm proud that she told you guys all by herself"
"Thanks Jake" I said.
"SO who is the bastard? I'm going to kick his good for nothing ass into a place so hellish and unholy he will wish we were dead! Nobody fucks my sister and gets away with it"
"Jake! Don't say the f-word."
"I can't believe goody-two-shoe's Suze got knocked up!" Dopey said still laughing. prick.
"Did you know one in six pregnancy's end in miscarage?" David told me.
"Thanks, Dave" I said. "I always wanted to know the chances that my kid will die" I rolled my eyes. "Now, someone pass me the food. I'm pregnant and starving."
And with that I ate enough food for once in my life because the boys (ie. Jake and David) were nice enough to save some for me.
Sweeties.
hahaha I was listening to Newport Living by Cute is What We Aim For. The first line is "everyone's a let down it just deepens on how fr down they can go". I thought that was funny. :D
Everyone; have a nice, fun technological month and think of poor lowly me without any phones, computers, music etc. Oh well, it'll be fun.
BTW. all the statistics I made up. I think the statistics are close to the ones I said, but not exact.
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~GoodGirlsGoBad
ps. you could probably invent a drinking game where everytime I drop a :D you have to drink a shot. lol.