A/N – Some strong language is used in this chapter so beware and sorry for the long wait for the update :D.

SONNY POV.

I was shocked to see Chad standing there but something about him made me not yell at him after he said hi to me. He sounded vulnerable and cold since it was below freezing and there was snow around.

'Hi.' I responded quietly

'WHO IS IT!' Tom yelled and I feared for Chad for a split moment. Tom had been mumbling death threats towards Chad if he ever saw him again. Chad put a finger to his lips and I noticed him holding a stereo and big white boards. He then held up a massive cue card and I looked shocked. It read.

SAY ITS CAROL SINGERS

'It's carol singers!' I cried, not taking my eyes off him.

'Give them a dollar and tell them to buggar off!' Tom laughed. Chad set the stereo down and pressed play. Suddenly Silent Night played out of the speakers. I watched him, intrigued and he began to hold up his cue cards.

BY ANY LUCK, THIS TIME NEXT YEAR

He flipped the card.

I'LL BE GOING OUT WITH ONE OF THESE GIRLS

He flipped to the next card to reveal plastic blonde models like Pamela Anderson and Katie Price. I looked at him funny. Why was he saying this to me? He flipped to the next card again.

BUT FOR NOW, LET ME SAY

He pulled out the next cue card.

WITHOUT HOPE OR AGENDA

I looked at him puzzled and opened my mouth but he shook his head.

JUST BECAUSE IT'S CHRISTMAS –

I gawked at him as he flipped to the next card.

(AND AT CHRISTMAS YOU TELL THE TRUTH)

He flipped again as I chuckled but as I read it, my laugh died down.

TO ME, YOU ARE PERFECT

I bit my lip. Was he trying to win me back? Then again he did say he wasn't raising his hopes up. I looked up and locked eyes with him, seeing pain there. But it didn't stop him from turning the card.

AND MY WASTED HEART WILL LOVE YOU

Chad flipped the card.

UNTIL YOU LOOK LIKE THIS...

I giggled when he showed a picture of a really old and ugly woman. Then I remembered that we were in the midst of getting a divorce.

MERRY CHRISTMAS the last cue card read and I smiled sadly at him and mouthed 'Merry Christmas Chad'. He nodded sadly and picked up the stereo and began to walk away. I watched him walk before shutting the door behind me and running after him. I grabbed his arm and looked at him.

'What was that for?' I asked softly.

'I wanted our last Christmas as husband and wife to be remembered and I just want you to know how much I love you Sonny.'

'Chad don't do this...'

'I don't know how those stills of scrapped scenes were leaked but I can tell you honest to God that nothing happened between Samantha and I. She's got a fiancé herself Sonshine.'

'I don't know whether or not to believe you Chad.' I said and he shook his head.

'Don't worry about it Sonny. I've said what I needed to say to you and as I said in my cards, I am not expecting you to take me back. I will give you your divorce if you want but I just want you to know that I would never cheat on you.' He kissed my forehead before turning around to walk away again.

'What's your problem Chad!' I suddenly yelled at him and he turned around to look at me, giving me a raised eyebrow.

'My problem?'

'What was the real purpose of your visit Chad? I mean, one minute you're telling me that you still love me in the most romantic way possible and then you're walking off saying you're going to give me a divorce. Using emotional blackmail on me? What the hell Chad?' I said angrily and he looked angry for a minute.

'I wanted to see you OK, just to let you know how much I love you. I've been drinking myself away into oblivion since you left and I've considered taking up smoking!'

'Why the hell would you do that Chad!' I screamed in his face. Suddenly one of my neighbours opened the door and told us to be quiet so I grabbed Chad's arm and dragged him into the forest.

'You broke my heart that's why Sonny!' he yelled and I laughed bitterly.

'I broke your heart. What about you breaking mine! You cheated on me Chad.'

'For fucks sake Sonny! I never fucking cheated on you OK, can't you get that into your little fucking brain!' he yelled, right up in my face. Chad and I had never argued this much and to this extremity. Chad never swore like that. Three times in one sentence, but I wouldn't let him win this argument and if he was going to talk to me like that then I would talk back just as bad.

'Oh so you think I'm fucking stupid now.'

'I didn't say that Allison! But now you mention it, maybe you are!' he growled and with all my energy I smacked him around the face, so hard, he dropped the stereo and cue cards. That all meant nothing to me now.

'I hate you Chad Dylan Cooper and all that stuff back there, I bet you did that just to try and win me over so you could bloody feel like you won again. You never changed did you? There never really was a facade with you back when we were teenagers. You are still cold hearted, rude, arrogant and conceited. I wish I had never befriended you after I found you. I should have left you alone.' I spat at him, glaring daggers at him. A flash of hurt went through his eyes before he blinked it away and then he did it. He cut my soul in two.

'I wish I had never married you Allison Munroe! I should have listened to my mother when she told me you weren't right for me. I mean you can't even have kids Sonny. What sort of person can't do that? You're unworthy to have kids and that's probably the reason you can't have them. Besides, you'd be an unfit mother. You don't deserve to even have children. I should've married someone who could give me what I wanted: a child.' I stood there, paralysed at what he had hissed at me and even though I saw his own shock at what he said to me, I could never forgive him for saying that to me. 'Sonny, I...'

'Just stop.' I whispered, swallowing the lump in my throat. 'I er, I think you should go now Chad.' I said softly and he grabbed my hand.

'Sonny, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry.'

I laughed bitterly and blinked back tears. 'I know I was bad but using that against me, that was just low Chad. The divorce papers will be in the mail.'

'Sonny, we need to talk about this.'

'There's nothing to talk about Chad. What you said to me has made it all clear now, we are far too different. Our marriage was a sham.' I said, trying to keep my cool. 'So I would appreciate it if you would leave and once the divorce is finalised then I would ask you not to contact me again.' I turned on my heel and walked out of the woods. When I got back inside, I burst into tears. What had started out as so romantic had turned into a nightmare. I ran up to my room and sobbed on my bed, thanking God that no one had heard me. Chad had finally ripped me into thousands of little pieces.

6 months had passed since the incident and I kept sending the divorce papers to Chad, who each time had sent them back with a note saying "we need to talk". I was angry and my family could see it. I had gotten a new boyfriend, Ben, who I was happy with and I had the pressing matter of Chad and my longed for divorce on my back. Though surprisingly, the divorce papers I had sent over two weeks ago hadn't been returned yet.

'Aly baby, if you want this divorce from him you're going to have to physically go over there and get him to sign it.' Ben said, rubbing my shoulders and I nodded.

'You're right. Will you come with me.'

'Of course honey.' He kissed me passionately. He wasn't as good a kisser as Chad was, but I didn't care. Ben was there for me when I had gotten my fallopian tubes untied so that I could have kids. Since they had been tied after the dreaded car accident I had been in as a child, I thought all chances of me having kids were over until my doctor said this new procedure could undo the damage. I decided then and there I wanted to marry Ben and have his kids. He had already proposed to get married after my divorce from Chad and I loved him with all my heart.

Ben and I arrived at the dreaded house that I had left almost a year ago and I let out a deep breath and knocked on the door. There was no answer. I knocked again when suddenly an old lady came up behind us.

'If you're looking for Chad Dylan Cooper you won't find him there.' She said and I frowned.

'Why not?'

'The past few months have been awful for Mr Cooper. I was the only person he would talk to. He quit his show and has been drinking like a fish and the amount he smokes is unbearable to watch. I think it's all down to his failed marriage. He never shuts up about her. I came in to talk to him about a fortnight ago and I found him with a noose around his neck about to jump, just laughing like crazy. He's been sent to Riverside Hospital. I think he's in the mental ward and under suicide watch. I blame his wife personally. She kept harassing him with these divorce papers and he just wanted to talk. If I ever see her I'm going to give her a piece of my mind.' She smiled and I swallowed a lump. My husband had gone stark raving mad because of me.

'Well, I'm sure she'll avoid you. Thanks for letting me know.' I turned and walked away with Ben.

'Woah that is creepy. Are you going to visit him.'

'I have to and I think I have to do it alone Ben.' I said, kissing him softly and he nodded.

'I understand.' He smiled and drove me to Riverside Hospital. I kissed him and got out.

'I'm here to visit Chad Dylan Cooper.' I said softly to the receptionist.

'I'm sorry, family only can visit him.' She glared at me as if I was some fan girl.

'I'm his wife.' I said, gritting my teeth slightly when I said that word.

'Some wife you are, driving him to the brink of insanity. I'll let the doctor know you're here. His mother's here too just so you know. Please take a seat.' She said curtly and I turned around and sat down. Sooner than I'd liked, a young female doctor came through.

'Mrs Cooper?' she said to me and I shook her hand.

'Yes that's me. Please call me Sonny.'

'Of course Sonny. So you're the estranged wife that he's been talking about. Now, my name is Dr Jane Creek and I've been his therapist and doctor for the last few weeks and I'm sure he'll be glad to see you but before you see him, I must urge you not to upset him. He's getting better and he'll be able to leave soon and continue acting.' She smiled at me and I nodded.

'I just wanted to see how he's doing since I heard that he had you know.'

'Of course. Right this way then please.' Jane smiled and I followed her down the corridors. I felt slightly uncomfortable being in the mental ward and I could hear all sorts of noises that made my heart swell with sadness. Finally we came to a small room at the end of the ward and Jane looked at me.

'I think I should tell him your here before he sees you. I don't know how he'll react.' Jane smiled and I nodded. I watched her open the door with a smile. 'Chad, you have a visitor – it's Sonny.' I watched her face and saw it frown and I jumped when I heard strangled cries eminating from within the room. 'Chad honey, calm down.' And Jane ran inside and I put my ear against the door and listened.

'Chad, she's here just to see how you are. She's worried about you.'

'No, she's come for a divorce. She won't talk. She won't talk. She won't talk.' I heard Chad repeat over and over again and then Eleanor's voice reached my ear.

'Maybe it's best if he doesn't see her.'

'Ms Cooper, Chad needs to confront this sooner or later and I think sooner is the better option. Now Chad. I want you to sit on the floor and take deep breaths. I'm going to bring Sonny in slowly and I'm going to stay in here so you won't be alone. Eleanor, perhaps it's better if you leave for a bit just to give us some privacy.'

I jumped away from the door and it opened to reveal a drawn looking Eleanor.

'You!' she hissed. 'You did this to him. I swear you will pay Allison Munroe. You will pay.'

'Hey! He's just as much to blame as I am Eleanor!' I spat back and she just gave me a filthy look and stalked off. Jane suddenly came out.

'Now, I want you to prepare yourself Mrs Cooper. Chad may not look anything like you remember him as and at the moment he's calm. You'll have to prepare yourself for sudden emotional outbreaks OK. He may try to lash out at you.' She warned me and I gulped and nodded before slowly entering the dimly lit room

RxR please