Well I'm back to give this story another run. Let me cover the whole update thing while I'm here. I do not own a computer so I rely on my mother's. Things would be great if someone in the house didn't basically almost crack the damn thing in half. No lie I wish I had a picture to show yall how bad in shape its in. Even if, I'm not about to sit here and act like if it wasn't badly damaged I would be updating everyday...thts just not me. Anyways I honestly don't know how many people are actually still reading this, but I guess I'll find out. For this story in particular...depending on the feedback on this chapter in the days after I upload this will I determine if I will or will not cut this story short. I won't just leave at unfinished...I'll close it out regardless but yea I think you get what I mean. Enough of this to the story.

ZERO HOUR

I feel nothing, finally in a long time I finally feel nothing but peace. I can't imagine myself in this amazing place. I know some will say I took the easy way out, but some won't understand my struggle with my battle.

That I lost eventually...

CLICK

Suddenly my eyes shoot open to see I still had the gun to my head with the trigger pulled. In complete shock I drop the gun and back away into a corner.

''It can't be'' I utter to myself as my eyes are fixed onto the gun on the floor.

I can't believe this, is this a dream? This can't be happening right now. After some time in shock I snap out of it. My eyes never left the gun as I slowly approached it. I really don't know what to say...I never thought I would get so low in life that I would actually consider suicide.

Just crazy...

I finally inched my way towards the gun until I'm staring directly down at it. I'm still this must be a dream...there's no way. I pick the gun up and stare at it and fear starts to hit me. Why fear hits me? Knowing that I put a gun to my head and pulled the trigger and I don't know what happen because of it.

Am I dead or alive?

I pick the gun up and take a breath in. I take out the magazine and look in horror as I stare at the bullets lined up ready to be fired. I feel sick just looking at what was about to come made me feel ten times worse than before.

But something hit me...

Why didn't the gun fire in the first place? I mean...it's loaded...it's not on safety. Something is off here. I slid the pistol back to only see a bullet fly onto the floor from the chamber. That's when I knew this was real.

The gun jammed as I pulled the trigger...

I back myself back into the corner...I really almost killed myself. If that gun didn't jam...I was dead. Gone forever...

I start to shake hard coming to my senses of what I almost did. I can't shake the fact that I almost shot myself intentially. It's a miracle that the gun jammed at all...I mean think about ir what are the odds that happens.

I finally push myslef to my bed and lay there and start to think about what I did. I would never forgive myself for doing that. Even though I'm not dead I should be. There's no way in hell that that gun was supposed to jam at that moment.

No way

Then anger hits me...and when I say anger I mean pure anger. I almost took my life from the constant bullying I got everyday from the people I loved and trusted. Speaking of that...Logan.

I swear I never saw that coming, but I should've. I mean come on be serious there was no way I should've took him serious. He lives in the same house with the girl who wouldn't mind seeing me dead right about now and constantly is around her group.

I'm stupid for trusting him...

I feel tears start to stream down my face and instanly I roughly wipe them away. No more of this shit. No more of the constant nice girl I try to respond to them with. The nice girl way almost got me killed...so fuck that.

I think the bad Rocky Blue is the way I should play this out. I might be asking for more trouble, but so be it. They want a war I'll give em one and nobody is safe...

Things might get a little Rocky here...

I know it's short but hear me out it's 7:03 as I type this sentence and I haven't gotten any sleep yet so yea. Anyways tell me whatcha think...and yea read and review please. Until next time... TG3

ZERO HOUR