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I'll make up you know, oh and Marge. Yeah. But the whole BtVS crew are
Joss's.
~A/N~ K, I'm really trying to finish this story. I think that the last chapter is going to be somewhere in the twenties, or maybe even thirty. Thanks.
~*~
Buffy woke up to find herself alone in Spike's room. Not even the shy Wesley was there. It kind of shocked her that Spike hadn't woken her up; this was Nikki's last goodbye. Quickly, she jumped from the bed and ran out the door to the front of the house. Nikki was standing there, along with Willow, Xander, Fred, Marge and two people Buffy didn't recognize. She thought they must be her new "parents". The man was older, with a grayish colour hair. He was dressed in a black shirt, which was tucked into a pair of grey slacks. They woman on the other hand was in a younger looking flower dress. She had long black hair and darker skin. Both looked like they had a lot of money, something Nikki lived without her whole life.
"Buffy!" Nikki yelled, running over to her blonde friend.
"Nikki, I'm so happy I didn't miss you." Buffy said, hugging her. "They look nice."
"I don't care! I don't want to leave any of you. Especially Xander." Nikki said, tears blurring her vision.
"Don't worry, we wont forget you. And I promise you that when I get out of here, I'll find you. And Xander, we'll all be back together again." Buffy said.
"Promise?"
"Promise."
"C'mon Nikki. Time we get going." The older man told her, taking her one and only bag.
Nikki looked at Buffy again, before heading over to Xander. He took her in his arms, kissing her passionately.
"I love you Nikki." He whispered in her ear. "I always will, no matter what."
"Me too. I love you too." Nikki said.
"Lets go, we don't have all day." The woman said, walking out the door.
"Bye." Nikki said, following her new "mother" out the door.
Buffy couldn't hold them back any longer, she burst out into tears right there. Spike walked over to her and pulled her close to him. He didn't say a word as she cried on his shoulder. He just let her get out all the pain she was holding inside.
~*~
The music filled Buffy's ears as she walked into the Bronze. Making her way through the crowd, she spotted Willow, Spike and Xander off at a table. She wanted to join them, as she said she would, but she found herself walking in the opposite direction. It just wasn't the same without Nikki there. She walked up the stairs to the catwalk and leaned over the railing. She watched as the couples danced below her, one in particular that caught her eye. Faith and Angel. That just made Buffy's day all the merrier. Turning around to get away, her eyes locked with an all too familiar pair of hazel ones. Cursing under her breath, she once again tried to get away, this time failing horribly. She felt a warm hand on her shoulder and stopped in her tracks.
"Hey."
"Riley, please." Buffy said. "I don't want to deal with you right now."
"Don't be like that."
"Like what?" Buffy asked, turning. "Go on, tell me what."
"Like you think you always get to decide when we get to talk. Just because you're having a bad day, we have to postpone. Well I've had enough Buffy; we're going to talk. Now." Riley said.
"No, we're not. You don't tell me what I am going to do, got that?"
"Right, that's mommy's job." Riley said and Buffy slapped him.
"Don't you ever talk about my parents!" She said and ran off.
This scene caused people to stop what they were doing and listen in. Willow saw her friend flee from above and went to get up, but Spike motioned for her to stay.
"Let me." He said and she nodded. "Buffy!" He yelled as he stepped out into the fresh air. "Buffy, luv where are you?"
He heard a faint sound coming from the corner of the alley. It sounded like a small child's whimper. He made his way closer to it and when his eyes adjusted to the darkness, he saw a petit figure.
"Buffy?" He asked.
"Go away." She said, hiding her face.
"What's wrong?"
"Go away." She repeated.
"No, not until you tell me what's wrong. Are you crying?"
"No." Buffy said, sniffing her tears back.
He walked closer to her, noticing that her eyes were red from crying. He sat next to her on the cold, concrete ground and took her in his arms. He rocked her back and forth gently, wondering what had gotten her so upset.
"C'mon luv, why won't you tell me?"
"Because." Buffy started. "You already think I'm some cry baby that can't take care of herself."
"No I don't. I think you are quite the opposite. There's nothing wrong with crying, especially with what you've been through."
A small smile appeared on her face before turning back into a frown. Should she tell him about Riley? He'd probably go back in and defend her. But is that what she wanted?
"He just . . . He was talking about talking, and then he talked about my mom and . . ."
"Who?" Spike asked, more anger in his voice then before.
"Ri . . . Riley." Buffy said.
Spike carefully removed her from his grip and stood up. He walked back into the Bronze with a pissed off look on his face. Buffy waited a minute, drying her tears before getting up and following him in. Once inside, she looked around, not seeing Spike anywhere. Then, she heard a girl scream from the catwalk and she started to quicken her pace. Pushing through many people, finally she reached the top and saw Spike and Riley. Riley was getting up from the ground, blood dripping from his mouth. Willow appeared next to Buffy, along with Xander. They watched as another guy, came into help Riley and that's when Xander joined as well.
"Oh no. This is all my fault." Buffy said, wrapping her arms around herself.
"No Buffy, why . . . Why would you say that?" Willow asked.
"Because, me and Riley got into a fight, then I made a big mistake in telling Spike. God, could my life get any worse?" Buffy asked.
The two watched as their close friends battled it out with their enemies. Xander had successfully beaten one of Riley's friends and was about to help Spike when another came at him.
"We should do something." Buffy said.
"Like? You're not suggesting we go help." Willow said.
"Spike is only going to end up getting himself killed, Xander too. Do you know how many friends Riley has?"
"No, but I'm guessing more then Spike." Willow said.
"A hell of a lot more then Spike." Buffy said.
"Well, what should we do?" Willow asked.
"I don't know . . . Um, maybe I could stop them. You know, the whole Riley still in love with me, Spike in love with me, who knows?" Buffy said, walking a few steps, then back. "I can't do this."
"Buffy, I don't think you have a choice."
Buffy took a deep breath before walking forward, into the battlegrounds. Neither of them stopped when she did, not noticing her at all. She coughed, but still got no response from either. So, she tried another technique, one that was quite useful. She screamed. Loud. Everyone in the Bronze froze, music and all, looking up at her. Once getting their attention, she quickly got to the point.
"Stop it! Just stop it!" She yelled. "I don't want anyone to get hurt! Spike, please, just leave it."
"But he . . ."
"Yeah, I know. But if you truly love me, you'll walk away . . . With me. If not, then continue on fighting, but don't expect to ever talk to me again." Buffy said.
"Buffy . . ." Spike said.
"Your choice. Make it."
He looked from Buffy to Riley, then back at Buffy. He wanted so badly to kick this guy's ass, but it wasn't worth losing Buffy over. With one last look at Riley, he took Buffy's hand and they walked down the stairs. It didn't even bug her, that he did this, she loved him, she did.
~*~
When the four got back to the house, it was still early so they had plenty of time to do as they wished. Xander sadly walked down the hall into his room. He didn't want to be around anyone, he didn't seem to want to live. Buffy was going to ask him to play some basketball, you know, clear his mind. But, she decided to just leave him be. Willow, Spike and Buffy all headed back to Spike's room. Wesley was in there, along with Fred. Without even noticing -or caring- that they had interrupted their conversation, they sat on Spike's bed. Wesley stared at them for a minute; he didn't understand them at all.
"Oh, did we uh . . ." Willow said.
"No, its okay Willow. We were just talking." Fred said. "But we could go to my room I guess."
"Oh, okay." Willow said and watched them leave. "I think I'm going to go get ready."
"Huh?" Buffy asked.
"Right, I forgot." Willow said, a smile appearing on her face. "I have a date with Oz tonight."
"Oh my god Will that's great!" Buffy said, hugging her.
"Yeah, so I think I should go get ready. I mean, if you want to come. Which you probably don't."
"No, I think a date is usually just supposed to be for the guy and girl. Unless you were a lesbian. Or gay." Buffy said. "Which you're not. Right?"
"What? No!" Willow said, standing. "I'll see you two later. Bye."
"Yeah, make sure to fill me in!" Buffy said.
"I will." Willow said and disappeared.
"So . . ." Buffy said. "Uh, can we talk about earlier?"
"Go ahead luv." He said.
"Well, I wanted to thank you, in a way. It was sweet of you to beat Riley up and all. But, you wouldn't stand a chance against all of his friends. Besides, I didn't want to lose you. Spike, Nikki left today. They just, shipped her off to someone else. What if that happens to you? I mean, I don't think I could . . . Look at Xander now. He's crushed; he just doesn't want to live anymore. He loves Nikki so bad and . . . I don't know." Buffy said.
"I know pet. It's okay though, I'm not going anywhere, I promise."
"But you cant. That's not something you can promise Spike, its just not."
"Buffy, I'm not Nikki. They'll have to fight me to get me away from you. Don't worry luv." He said, smiling at her.
She looked at him and laid her head on his chest. He was so sweet; she just wanted to be with him forever. But she couldn't just, well, be with him, could she? Sure, Riley hurt her, but she has to understand that Spike isn't Riley, he never will be. He loves her. Right? 'Oh my, not thinking here. I don't trust people remember?' Buffy thought. 'Then why do I find myself trusting him so badly?' Buffy looked up at his face, his blue eyes were staring back at her, sparkling. His lips were so nice to taste, so . . . Spike. She lifted one of her fingers up to his lips and traced them with the tip. She was ready.
"Spike, I . . . I'm ready."
He didn't quite understand. At first he just tilted his head a bit, causing Buffy to smile. Then he remembered.
"Buffy . . . If you're not . . . I don't want to seem like I'm pushing you."
"You aren't Spike. Trust me. This decision, it was a hundred percent Buffy's." She said. "I'm ready to be with you. My heart. My body. My mind. My soul. Everything. If you still want . . ."
He cut her off with a kiss. He was too happy to speak, she wanted him now, and she admitted it. She loved him and he loved her and now they could finally show just how much they cared.
~*~
Buffy's head rested on a sleeping Spike's chest. She ran her fingers through his now messed up blonde hair. That was the best night of her life and she only hoped he felt the same. He was her first and even though she wasn't his, it was like a whole new experience. She jumped slightly when the door opened. Quickly she tried to hide herself under the sheets.
"Oh my!" Willow gasped. "Sorry." She squealed and closed the door.
This caused Spike to wake up, sitting up abruptly. Buffy couldn't help but laugh at what had just happened. 'Poor Willow.' She thought.
"What happened?" He asked.
"Willow came in. No biggy. Morning Spike." Buffy said, curling up to him.
"Mornin' pet. Last night was . . ."
"Awful? Was I that bad?"
"I never said that. It was amazing. I've never . . . Its hard to explain . . . I don't even know if its explainable." Spike said.
"I agree." Buffy sighed. "But I'm hungry."
"Well, why don't we go out for breakfast then? We could use a different taste of food." Spike said.
"Really? But . . . Money." Buffy pouted. "You got my hopes up."
"'S okay luv. I got some."
"You do?" She asked, smiling. "Yay! Where are we going to go?"
"You pick."
"Umm . . . Wherever there's cheese." Buffy said.
"Cheese girl are we?"
"Yes we are." Buffy said. "I have a cheese shirt." She said, sounding proud.
"Cheese it is. Why don't you go get dressed and I'll come get you?" Spike asked.
"Okay." Buffy said, kissing him on the cheek. "See you soon."
Spike watched as she bounced of the bed, wrapped in the sheet. Carefully, she snuck out of the room and into hers. It felt to empty to her, she didn't want to be in it anymore now that Nikki was gone. It brought back memories, memories she didn't need. A tear slid down her cheek as she realized the picture that sat on the dresser. It was a picture of Nikki and her parents, one of many. It sat next to a picture of Buffy and hers; surrounded by little paper hearts they had cut out. Wiping the tear away, Buffy began to search through her clothes for something breakfasty to wear.
~ Mhm . . . Well, that's it. Hope you liked, if you didn't, well, tell me I guess. Um, more will come if I get reviews. Thanks to all the people who have reviewed so far ~
~A/N~ K, I'm really trying to finish this story. I think that the last chapter is going to be somewhere in the twenties, or maybe even thirty. Thanks.
~*~
Buffy woke up to find herself alone in Spike's room. Not even the shy Wesley was there. It kind of shocked her that Spike hadn't woken her up; this was Nikki's last goodbye. Quickly, she jumped from the bed and ran out the door to the front of the house. Nikki was standing there, along with Willow, Xander, Fred, Marge and two people Buffy didn't recognize. She thought they must be her new "parents". The man was older, with a grayish colour hair. He was dressed in a black shirt, which was tucked into a pair of grey slacks. They woman on the other hand was in a younger looking flower dress. She had long black hair and darker skin. Both looked like they had a lot of money, something Nikki lived without her whole life.
"Buffy!" Nikki yelled, running over to her blonde friend.
"Nikki, I'm so happy I didn't miss you." Buffy said, hugging her. "They look nice."
"I don't care! I don't want to leave any of you. Especially Xander." Nikki said, tears blurring her vision.
"Don't worry, we wont forget you. And I promise you that when I get out of here, I'll find you. And Xander, we'll all be back together again." Buffy said.
"Promise?"
"Promise."
"C'mon Nikki. Time we get going." The older man told her, taking her one and only bag.
Nikki looked at Buffy again, before heading over to Xander. He took her in his arms, kissing her passionately.
"I love you Nikki." He whispered in her ear. "I always will, no matter what."
"Me too. I love you too." Nikki said.
"Lets go, we don't have all day." The woman said, walking out the door.
"Bye." Nikki said, following her new "mother" out the door.
Buffy couldn't hold them back any longer, she burst out into tears right there. Spike walked over to her and pulled her close to him. He didn't say a word as she cried on his shoulder. He just let her get out all the pain she was holding inside.
~*~
The music filled Buffy's ears as she walked into the Bronze. Making her way through the crowd, she spotted Willow, Spike and Xander off at a table. She wanted to join them, as she said she would, but she found herself walking in the opposite direction. It just wasn't the same without Nikki there. She walked up the stairs to the catwalk and leaned over the railing. She watched as the couples danced below her, one in particular that caught her eye. Faith and Angel. That just made Buffy's day all the merrier. Turning around to get away, her eyes locked with an all too familiar pair of hazel ones. Cursing under her breath, she once again tried to get away, this time failing horribly. She felt a warm hand on her shoulder and stopped in her tracks.
"Hey."
"Riley, please." Buffy said. "I don't want to deal with you right now."
"Don't be like that."
"Like what?" Buffy asked, turning. "Go on, tell me what."
"Like you think you always get to decide when we get to talk. Just because you're having a bad day, we have to postpone. Well I've had enough Buffy; we're going to talk. Now." Riley said.
"No, we're not. You don't tell me what I am going to do, got that?"
"Right, that's mommy's job." Riley said and Buffy slapped him.
"Don't you ever talk about my parents!" She said and ran off.
This scene caused people to stop what they were doing and listen in. Willow saw her friend flee from above and went to get up, but Spike motioned for her to stay.
"Let me." He said and she nodded. "Buffy!" He yelled as he stepped out into the fresh air. "Buffy, luv where are you?"
He heard a faint sound coming from the corner of the alley. It sounded like a small child's whimper. He made his way closer to it and when his eyes adjusted to the darkness, he saw a petit figure.
"Buffy?" He asked.
"Go away." She said, hiding her face.
"What's wrong?"
"Go away." She repeated.
"No, not until you tell me what's wrong. Are you crying?"
"No." Buffy said, sniffing her tears back.
He walked closer to her, noticing that her eyes were red from crying. He sat next to her on the cold, concrete ground and took her in his arms. He rocked her back and forth gently, wondering what had gotten her so upset.
"C'mon luv, why won't you tell me?"
"Because." Buffy started. "You already think I'm some cry baby that can't take care of herself."
"No I don't. I think you are quite the opposite. There's nothing wrong with crying, especially with what you've been through."
A small smile appeared on her face before turning back into a frown. Should she tell him about Riley? He'd probably go back in and defend her. But is that what she wanted?
"He just . . . He was talking about talking, and then he talked about my mom and . . ."
"Who?" Spike asked, more anger in his voice then before.
"Ri . . . Riley." Buffy said.
Spike carefully removed her from his grip and stood up. He walked back into the Bronze with a pissed off look on his face. Buffy waited a minute, drying her tears before getting up and following him in. Once inside, she looked around, not seeing Spike anywhere. Then, she heard a girl scream from the catwalk and she started to quicken her pace. Pushing through many people, finally she reached the top and saw Spike and Riley. Riley was getting up from the ground, blood dripping from his mouth. Willow appeared next to Buffy, along with Xander. They watched as another guy, came into help Riley and that's when Xander joined as well.
"Oh no. This is all my fault." Buffy said, wrapping her arms around herself.
"No Buffy, why . . . Why would you say that?" Willow asked.
"Because, me and Riley got into a fight, then I made a big mistake in telling Spike. God, could my life get any worse?" Buffy asked.
The two watched as their close friends battled it out with their enemies. Xander had successfully beaten one of Riley's friends and was about to help Spike when another came at him.
"We should do something." Buffy said.
"Like? You're not suggesting we go help." Willow said.
"Spike is only going to end up getting himself killed, Xander too. Do you know how many friends Riley has?"
"No, but I'm guessing more then Spike." Willow said.
"A hell of a lot more then Spike." Buffy said.
"Well, what should we do?" Willow asked.
"I don't know . . . Um, maybe I could stop them. You know, the whole Riley still in love with me, Spike in love with me, who knows?" Buffy said, walking a few steps, then back. "I can't do this."
"Buffy, I don't think you have a choice."
Buffy took a deep breath before walking forward, into the battlegrounds. Neither of them stopped when she did, not noticing her at all. She coughed, but still got no response from either. So, she tried another technique, one that was quite useful. She screamed. Loud. Everyone in the Bronze froze, music and all, looking up at her. Once getting their attention, she quickly got to the point.
"Stop it! Just stop it!" She yelled. "I don't want anyone to get hurt! Spike, please, just leave it."
"But he . . ."
"Yeah, I know. But if you truly love me, you'll walk away . . . With me. If not, then continue on fighting, but don't expect to ever talk to me again." Buffy said.
"Buffy . . ." Spike said.
"Your choice. Make it."
He looked from Buffy to Riley, then back at Buffy. He wanted so badly to kick this guy's ass, but it wasn't worth losing Buffy over. With one last look at Riley, he took Buffy's hand and they walked down the stairs. It didn't even bug her, that he did this, she loved him, she did.
~*~
When the four got back to the house, it was still early so they had plenty of time to do as they wished. Xander sadly walked down the hall into his room. He didn't want to be around anyone, he didn't seem to want to live. Buffy was going to ask him to play some basketball, you know, clear his mind. But, she decided to just leave him be. Willow, Spike and Buffy all headed back to Spike's room. Wesley was in there, along with Fred. Without even noticing -or caring- that they had interrupted their conversation, they sat on Spike's bed. Wesley stared at them for a minute; he didn't understand them at all.
"Oh, did we uh . . ." Willow said.
"No, its okay Willow. We were just talking." Fred said. "But we could go to my room I guess."
"Oh, okay." Willow said and watched them leave. "I think I'm going to go get ready."
"Huh?" Buffy asked.
"Right, I forgot." Willow said, a smile appearing on her face. "I have a date with Oz tonight."
"Oh my god Will that's great!" Buffy said, hugging her.
"Yeah, so I think I should go get ready. I mean, if you want to come. Which you probably don't."
"No, I think a date is usually just supposed to be for the guy and girl. Unless you were a lesbian. Or gay." Buffy said. "Which you're not. Right?"
"What? No!" Willow said, standing. "I'll see you two later. Bye."
"Yeah, make sure to fill me in!" Buffy said.
"I will." Willow said and disappeared.
"So . . ." Buffy said. "Uh, can we talk about earlier?"
"Go ahead luv." He said.
"Well, I wanted to thank you, in a way. It was sweet of you to beat Riley up and all. But, you wouldn't stand a chance against all of his friends. Besides, I didn't want to lose you. Spike, Nikki left today. They just, shipped her off to someone else. What if that happens to you? I mean, I don't think I could . . . Look at Xander now. He's crushed; he just doesn't want to live anymore. He loves Nikki so bad and . . . I don't know." Buffy said.
"I know pet. It's okay though, I'm not going anywhere, I promise."
"But you cant. That's not something you can promise Spike, its just not."
"Buffy, I'm not Nikki. They'll have to fight me to get me away from you. Don't worry luv." He said, smiling at her.
She looked at him and laid her head on his chest. He was so sweet; she just wanted to be with him forever. But she couldn't just, well, be with him, could she? Sure, Riley hurt her, but she has to understand that Spike isn't Riley, he never will be. He loves her. Right? 'Oh my, not thinking here. I don't trust people remember?' Buffy thought. 'Then why do I find myself trusting him so badly?' Buffy looked up at his face, his blue eyes were staring back at her, sparkling. His lips were so nice to taste, so . . . Spike. She lifted one of her fingers up to his lips and traced them with the tip. She was ready.
"Spike, I . . . I'm ready."
He didn't quite understand. At first he just tilted his head a bit, causing Buffy to smile. Then he remembered.
"Buffy . . . If you're not . . . I don't want to seem like I'm pushing you."
"You aren't Spike. Trust me. This decision, it was a hundred percent Buffy's." She said. "I'm ready to be with you. My heart. My body. My mind. My soul. Everything. If you still want . . ."
He cut her off with a kiss. He was too happy to speak, she wanted him now, and she admitted it. She loved him and he loved her and now they could finally show just how much they cared.
~*~
Buffy's head rested on a sleeping Spike's chest. She ran her fingers through his now messed up blonde hair. That was the best night of her life and she only hoped he felt the same. He was her first and even though she wasn't his, it was like a whole new experience. She jumped slightly when the door opened. Quickly she tried to hide herself under the sheets.
"Oh my!" Willow gasped. "Sorry." She squealed and closed the door.
This caused Spike to wake up, sitting up abruptly. Buffy couldn't help but laugh at what had just happened. 'Poor Willow.' She thought.
"What happened?" He asked.
"Willow came in. No biggy. Morning Spike." Buffy said, curling up to him.
"Mornin' pet. Last night was . . ."
"Awful? Was I that bad?"
"I never said that. It was amazing. I've never . . . Its hard to explain . . . I don't even know if its explainable." Spike said.
"I agree." Buffy sighed. "But I'm hungry."
"Well, why don't we go out for breakfast then? We could use a different taste of food." Spike said.
"Really? But . . . Money." Buffy pouted. "You got my hopes up."
"'S okay luv. I got some."
"You do?" She asked, smiling. "Yay! Where are we going to go?"
"You pick."
"Umm . . . Wherever there's cheese." Buffy said.
"Cheese girl are we?"
"Yes we are." Buffy said. "I have a cheese shirt." She said, sounding proud.
"Cheese it is. Why don't you go get dressed and I'll come get you?" Spike asked.
"Okay." Buffy said, kissing him on the cheek. "See you soon."
Spike watched as she bounced of the bed, wrapped in the sheet. Carefully, she snuck out of the room and into hers. It felt to empty to her, she didn't want to be in it anymore now that Nikki was gone. It brought back memories, memories she didn't need. A tear slid down her cheek as she realized the picture that sat on the dresser. It was a picture of Nikki and her parents, one of many. It sat next to a picture of Buffy and hers; surrounded by little paper hearts they had cut out. Wiping the tear away, Buffy began to search through her clothes for something breakfasty to wear.
~ Mhm . . . Well, that's it. Hope you liked, if you didn't, well, tell me I guess. Um, more will come if I get reviews. Thanks to all the people who have reviewed so far ~