I was scared to have Emmett stay with me. I had to let myself just give myself to him. I was sittin on the couch letting him hold me. It was nice,it was a first. We were just sitting there with his arms around me. I was laying into him. He said "Tiera, baby, is everything ok?" I think he can feel my unease. I just answered "yes." I knew if i would have been human I would have fell asleep in his arms.
He let go of me and looked in my eyes "Baby whats wrong?" I didn't know if I should tell him that I had never done this that this was new territory for me. So I did. "Um, Em I've never done this before. Just sat here with a guy. I've never had a boyfriend. I've never let anyone close enough." He stared at me for a moment then smiled. He said "That's ok. I won't hurt you." I kissed him. with so much passion I think he took it the wrong way. He gently tugged my hair. Then he laid me on the couch and he was hovering over me. He had his hands at the hem of my shirt when I stopped him. "Wait, Emmett, I can't." He looked confused then said "It's ok. Edward's at Bella's we ain't gonna get caught." I shook my head. "Not because of Edward. I just can't." I got up and ran into the woods. I ran as fast as I could. He didn't know my past and I didn't blame him for that. But I was scared.
It seemed like I had been in the woods for minutes when Edward came and found me. He sat next to me on the ground. "Hey." Wow. maybe he wasn't trying to get to know what happened. Him being my brother I didn't want him to know. I looked at him avoiding his eyes. "Hey." He looked at me trying to look in my eyes or so it seemed. "He's not mad you know. He's confused. I didn't tell him why you ran out but he wants to know." I looked at the ground. "Well, I don't want him to know." He sighed. I knew I was doing something wrong but I just couldn't bring myself to tell Emmett. Edward then said "He needs to know. He wants to love and protect you. But your making it hard. It's like your trying to run away from him. Dad is not around he can't hurt you no more. He killed himself years ago." I had finally snapped at this. "Because I killed him!" I had basically screamed this.
Edward turned to me and asked "what? no you didn't." I was mad, upset and hurt. I said "Edward after I was changed I went back for dad. He pushed me down and was going to do it all over again so I got into his head and told him to put that gun in his mouth and pull the fucking trigger. It was me. I did it." I turned away from him. I knew he was looking at me like I was a monster. When he put his hand on my shoulder and said "I know. I was there."