A/n: so here is the after math of Alex and Santana's little song i hope you enjoy it thanks again for all the favorites and alerts don't forget to review and tell me what you guys think i hope i'm doing a good job with this story i'd love to know how you guys feel about it

Santana ran as fast as she could in hopes of catching Brittany before she left the school but it was all in vain. Brittany was long gone by the time Santana even reached the school parking lot. So the brunette sat on the front steps of McKinley High bawling her eyes out. She texted and called Brittany trying to get her to see reason but her girlfriend never responded. Finally getting up from the steps she ran to Brittany's house and tried to get her to come to the door but her mother answered it and told Santana she wasn't there. She knew it was a lie but there was nothing she could do, so when Brittany's mother closed the door she sat down her their porch.

She was livid that Alex would kiss her again and in front of the whole glee club no less. She knew Quinn was right that day when she said Alex had a thing for her but she just brushed it off; mainly because she liked the idea of someone having the hots for her. I mean other girls at school did find her attractive and on more than one occasion she was propositioned for sex but no one had openly showed their affections. She either got random texts or notes hidden in her locker and it was even that one time a Cheerio grabbed her into the locker room. But she always turned them down.

She loved Brittany with everything she had so she never felt the urge to stray and that's why this whole Alex situation scared her so much. She thought she could actually fall for the girl. Alex had a great personality and she loved talking to her. And the fact that she was super hot was also a plus. Santana wanted everything inside of her to scream out that she did have any attraction to the star basketball player but she just couldn't lie to herself. The brunette knew she had felt something the first time Alex kissed her and it was only proven the second time. Alex was right she did feel something when they kissed. Santana Maria Lopez had actually fallen for a woman who wasn't Brittany and it was tearing her up inside.

"S, come on hun let's go home." A blonde girl said to her, pulling a hand away from her face.

Quinn was driving by Brittany's house and stopped when she saw her friend sitting outside on the porch.

"You can stay at my house tonight and we can talk about everything." She added while walking the girl to her car. The ride to Quinn's house was silent but as soon as the stepped into her room Santana broke down.

"Q I fucked up. I-I don't know what to do I." The smaller girl cried in the side of her best friend.

"Shh S it's going to be okay." Quinn said trying to reassure her.

"No it's not Quinn! She won't she won't return any of my texts or calls. You didn't see the look on her mom's face when I went to see if she was home. It's like she was so disappointed in me. Britt's mom loves me like I'm already her daughter –in-law and she just looked so-"

"Santana you can't do this to yourself. You didn't tell Alex to kiss you. It's not your fault."

"Yes it is! Because I didn't handle it the first time she did it I just kicked out of my house."

"Wait, what?"

"If I just told her right then and there that she had the leave me alone none of this would have happened." Santana finished ignoring Quinn's interruption.

"Santana she kissed you before?" Quinn said again.

"Yes." The brunette sniffed. "We were at my house yesterday practicing the song before B came over and when it ended she kissed. I was shocked and after it happened I told her she needed to leave. I planned on telling her that we couldn't sing that song in glee today. That's what I was in the middle of telling her when Mr. Shue walked in and she blurted out that we finished our song. I tried to find a way to get out of it but he wouldn't let me. Hell I even tried to make sure she couldn't kiss me again by sitting as far away from her on that damn stool but she couldn't let it go. She just had to get up and start something because she knows I have feelings for her." Santana ranted.

"You what!" A girl from the doorway causing both Quinn and Santana's heads to whip around.

Santana and Quinn were both shocked to see Brittany and Rachel standing in the hall right outside of her room. Quinn told Rachel to call when and if she got Brittany to actually come over to her house but of course the diva didn't listen. Santana immediately jumped up from where she was sitting on Quinn's bed to go talk to her girlfriend.

"Britt I can expl-"But Santana was cut off by Brittany screaming.

"How could you do this to me? I thought you said you loved me San ME!"

"I do love you Britt you know you mean the world to me." Santana said pleadingly.

"Do I? Because if you really loved me them why did you kiss Alex? Why do you have feelings for a girl that isn't me?"

"I didn't kiss her Britt she kis-"

"You kissed her back!"

"Britt I was trying to push her away I-"

"I know what I saw Santana." Brittany said harshly. "Before your hands went up to push her away I saw it in your eyes. You wanted to kiss her and you kissed her back until you realized what you were doing."

Santana's head fell at the blonde's words. She didn't think anyone would catch that but she knew Brittany was always different from everyone else. She could read people's emotions and thoughts through their eyes like she was seeing into their soul or something.

"See and you're not even denying it!"

"Baby I'm sorry. I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, you have to believe me."

"I don't know if I can do that anymore because the Santana I knew would have told everything. She would have told what really happened when I was at her house the other night. You always told me about the other girls who came on to you and tried things with you. And not once did I feel like I couldn't believe you but this, this isn't the same."

"Baby please don't say that I'll do anything to make this better please just tell me how?" Santana cried reaching out to hold Brittany's hands in her own.

"I don't know if you can." Brittany said softly and slowly removed her hands from Santana's and walked out of Quinn's room leaving a broken girl crying on the floor behind her.

A/n: Yes this means there is more drama yet to come Santana isn't out of the woods yet i think i know where i am going to go with this i just haven't written it down but i plan on updating asap tell me how you guys think i should handle Alex and Santana i totally love drama so i have no problem dragging this thing out for awhile before i resolve any of Santana's love issues