Title : Misty

Rating : T

Disclaimer : I wish to god I owned them, and the story lines, but unfortunately I do not.

Summary : When Blair finds herself pregnant, she and Chuck must make a heart wrenching choice.

Time : Season 2, episodes 2x01 – 2x05. What if Blair had slept with Chuck in episode 2x03 after all?

AN: I know! Its been forever since I last updated, October to be exact and I'm sorry. I got bitten by the Twilight bug literally the day after I finished the last chapter and forced myself to finish the books in one weekend, and that sorta drained my brain, lol. I know its short, but after all the reviews I wanted to give you all a little something, I promise I'll try to start updating more. Enjoy!

Chapter 11 – Those Who Can't

Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day. - Rainer Maria Rilke, to a young poet

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"Blair, your crazy if you think you can hide in there forever"

Serena yelled outside of the dressing room Blair was in, maybe going to Barney's for maternity clothes wasn't the smartest thing, but after the brunette hadn't shown up to a single class, and refused to answer her phone she knew something was the furthest from Ok. Especially after she'd seen Chuck with a smirk on his face all day.

"Either you come out, or I'm coming in." Serena mumbled, nearly ready to bash her head into the fabric covered walls.

Watching herself in the mirror, Blair couldn't believe how much her body had changed in the past 4 ½ months. Her bump was clearly evident now, she had breasts, something she'd never had before and she could even see the glow that was radiating off of her skin. Something she'd denied having to everyone.

"I swear Blair" Serena stammered as she opened the fitting room door "Whoa..."

It was odd, up until that moment she hadn't really processed Blair being pregnant, actually seeing her stomach in clear view in became clearer then ever. The days of trying to hide and deny were now past them, Blair really was pregnant. It wasn't all just a really bad dream.

"Keep your mouth open any longer like that, and you'll have flies"

Blair responded sarcastically as she pulled one of the designer maternity shirts over herself, still being semi conscious she didn't exactly want her skinny best friend to see her this way, to Blair even though it was 'beautiful' she was still fat, something Serena never would be.

"Blair...no I'm sorry it's just....she's so real now"

The blond whispered as she cautiously rested a hand on Blair's ever growing bump, being more then shocked when the small life living under her hand gave a sudden thump. Jumping back her eyes went wide as a huge smile appeared across her face.

"Oh my god Blair! She kicked! Is that the first time?!" Serena questioned aimlessly, the excitement evident in her voice.

Turning back to the face the mirror Blair shook her head nervously, she hadn't dared to tell Serena yet about her confrontation with Chuck that morning, knowing very well the lecture she'd get. A Serena Van der Woodsen lecture was the last thing she needed today, it'd been stressful enough.

"No..she's...today was the first actual time. While I was in the bathroom, after you'd left."

Raising an eyebrow, Serena knew something was up. Blair wasn't making eye contact with her, a clear sign that something was going on that she didn't want her to know about, her gut instinct going straight to none other then Chuck Bass.

"..B, what exactly happened when I left?" Serena questioned cautiously "Any reason as to why you left without word or reason?"

Swallowing hard Blair shook her head rather quickly, as she took off the shirt, throwing it into the pile of things she wouldn't be purchasing, she was still so confused about her and Chuck, if there even was a her and Chuck? All she knew was that they'd kissed, and he'd told he loved her. Something Chuck Bass just didn't do. Could she really give him time to change? Did she have the patience, heart, and strength?, Questions she definitely didn't want Serena to answer for her.

"..Is this about Chuck?"

Serena knew it was, Blair being all quiet and secretive all of sudden just added to the suspicion. She had to ask though, with everything that had happened they were just finally back to where they'd been, she didn't want to ruin all the work now.

"It is isn't it?" Serena questioned once again, crossing her arms. After getting nothing but silence from Blair. "Isn't it?"

"When...when you left the bathroom, he came in...I guess he'd been waiting for you to leave."

She'd seen one of the softer sides of Chuck that morning, the baby had kicked for him, all the math and chemistry just made the descion harder to make, it wasn't just her life she had to be concerned about right now, it was the baby's to regardless or not of what she chose to do with it.

"What'd he do to you? I'll kill him, what the hell did he do Blair!?"

Tears formed in the brunettes eyes as she slowly sat down on the bench, she wasn't ready to tell anyone about the encounter. She was still completely confused about it all.

"...he told me...that he loved me"

Blair whispered as the tears silently slid down her cheeks, the confusion she was feeling in her heart only grew worse. She wanted to be with him, she did but at the same time, how long would it be till he hurt her again?

"She kicked for him...the first time I feel her..and she kicks for him" She whispered with a sigh, wiping some of the dampness from her cheeks "For him"

Sitting down next to her best friend Serena sighed wrapping a comforting arm around her, something she'd been doing more and more lately. Dan had been her real great love, but it'd nothing to all the bull Chuck and Blair had gone through. She wasn't even sure that Chuck Bass was capable of love, she wouldn't tell her that, but she'd think it.

"I know it's not my place Blair but..you have to think about the baby, after all she's gone through do you really want to stress yourself out about this and possibly risk her life again? Do you really believe he's changed? Or is this just another cat and mouse game?"

Shaking her head repeatedly, Blair willed the rest of her tears to stay back, she couldn't cry anymore over him, Serena was right. She had the baby to worry about, this was worse for her then it was for herself.

"I don't know what to do S...a part of me wants to believe him but the other part...the other part wishes I'd gone to France with daddy when he offered. I'd be far far away from him."

The sudden noise of 'Hot N Cold' filled the small dressing room, breaking the conversation as Serena's phone went off. Sighing she grabbed it mouthing an 'I'm sorry' to Blair before answering it.

After several minutes Serena hung up with a groan, looking over at Blair she quickly through her phone into her bag and stood up.

"That was my mom, Bart's home...and he wants us all home for a 'family' dinner. You included, she said it was pretty important or she would have made an excuse for us....there's only one catch...Chuck's going to be there."

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Chuck had been surprised at the sudden call from Lily telling him he was invited for dinner, after the mornings antics, he wasn't sure where him ad Blair really stood. Having dinner with her and the rest of the family wasn't exactly the greatest idea at a time like this, especially with the nagging feeling that held that Blair was going to be there.

For the first time since everything had started, Chuck felt right again, since kissing Blair and letting her hear his true feelings for her, he felt right. Their daughter had kicked for him, not Serena, not Nate, him. The entire situation in the bathroom that morning just made him want Blair back even more, for them to all to be a family, regardless of their age.

Looking up at the gravestone in front of him, he ran fingers along the indent 'Misty Bass'. Now that Blair was pregnant he found himself coming to her gave more and more often. Sometimes drunk, sometimes sober. He's was eighteen but ever since finding out about the pregnancy, had a need for his mother. It was silly to him, a practically grown young man needing his mother but he did. He had Lily, yes, but it just wasn't the same.

"Don't let me lose her mom...not like the way I lost you" He whispered, his voice hoarse "Don't let me turn into the man dad is because of it....I love Blair, I do. With all my heart and soul. This baby...our baby changes none of that. I felt her kick today Mom...and...I want her to have everything she can have in this world. I want my little girl to have the parents neither me nor Blair were ever able to have."

Brushing back tears, he let out a sigh as he sat back on the grass. He knew had his mother survived that she would have been a wonderful mother, and that Harold had been a wonderful father for Blair. He'd been talking about the parents that had raised them. Bart and Eleanore, the parents that made them believe that they were nothing more then their offspring, the next generation in whatever career they chose.

"Please don't let me lose them Mom, please."

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