CHAPTER 11
"So are you going to tell me or what?"
Santana stares at the blonde who was washing some dishes
"She told me about her past with this girl"
"her ex" Santana nods
"Yeah, her, and she had a very sad breakup"
"Why so?"
Quinn places some dishes in the drying machine then looks back at the Latina
"Long story, I'll tell you some other day"
Santana frowns "That's all that happened? You didn't do much of a good job, Quinn"
"I thought you weren't with me on this"
"I didn't say that"
"Yes you did, you told me I could do whatever I want"
"Lets just forget about it, okay Quinn?"
Quinn rolls her eyes and fixes her still messy hair
"We talked about you" she announces
Santana doesn't move and doesn't look at Quinn
"Really?"
"Yeah. She wanted you last night"
"wanted?"
"Her past made her cry, Santana. She wanted some comfort and she needed you"
Santana nods, still not looking at Quinn
"For me, I think she likes you too. The only problem is…"
Santana looks at Quinn this time "What's the problem?"
The blonde smirks "Oh, so you're interested huh?"
Santana blushes a bit "Just answer"
Quinn sighs and finishes her sentence "She's afraid. She doesn't want to get hurt"
"Because of what happened to her before, right?"
"Bingo!" Quinn replies
Santana nods and leaves the kitchen
"Thanks Q"
She enters the living room and sees Brittany all cleaned up, watching some tv. She sits on the other couch and stares at the blonde's pale face
"Hey" she says
"Hi" Brittany replies
"Something wrong?"
Brittany doesn't respond, but she shrugs her shoulders
"Not really"
"I see, well if you have anything you want to talk about, just tell me okay B?"
Santana smiles at Brittany but she doesn't smile back. Santana sighs, and stands up. She didn't want to disturb the other blonde. Brittany stops her by crying
"B?" she says, looking at the crying blonde
"B what's wrong?" she asks, kneeling down, in front of the blonde
"I'm sorry it's just"
"Just what Britt?"
Brittany shakes her head and removes some tears on her eyes
"Nothing, sorry San"
She leans down and kisses Santana's forehead.
They stay there, Brittany's lips against the Latina's forehead, and Santana only looking forward. Brittany was the first to end the sudden scene and stood up, leaving a lonely Latina in the floor
"See you later San" she replies
Santana doesn't move. She stays on the floor, looking down at her lap and sighs
"See you" she says to no one
"Hey Britt, how was dance?" Santana asks, as she saw the blonde pass by the living room.
Brittany stops walking and enters the room "It was awesome" she smiles
Santana smiles back "Finally, you're smile is back!" she jokes around
Brittany blushes a bit, and words came to her mind
You love her, Britt
Your afraid
Brittany pouts and Santana gets worried
"Sorry did I say something?"
Brittany shakes her head and smiles again
"Nope! I'm just tired from all the dancing"
"Too tired to watch a movie with me?"
"Of course not!" she fires back and Santana chuckles
The Latina opens her arms to her sides and looks at the tall blonde
"Come here"
Brittany giggles a bit and runs to the Latina, she gently puts her head on Santana's lap and watches whatever the Latina was watching
"Wait, aren't you going to change, B?"
"I'm not that sweaty"
Santana chuckles and looks forward
"Why are we watching Tom and Jerry?"
Santana looks down and pouts "You don't like it?"
Brittany shakes her head in approval
"Well, why don't you? It's a pretty awesome show"
Brittany looks up, making both their eyes look at each other
"Really? I think it's kinda weird"
Santana chuckles a bit, then stroke one blonde strand of hair away from her pale face
"Just watch, Britt"
Brittany sighs and follows the Latina.
In the end, Brittany still doesn't approve of the show
3 months have passed, and the people living in the Lopez residence are getting very close. Santana would work a lot. Brittany was pretty happy with the payment that their studio was doing so well. Quinn was able to donate some money to the orphanage, since she doesn't have any use with the money. Sam decided to send some money to his dad. Jesse was able to go to singing classes and Rachel only wanted to see broad way musicals. Kurt and Blaine would visit them and have breakfast together.
Puck on the other hand, never returned. But they would see him on tv, talking about his career.
"It's already our third month in this house, we should celebrate!" Sam yells aloud
"I agree, we should drink" Jesse smirks
"No, I suggest we watch broad way" Rachel chimes in
Everyone gave a look at the short brunette and Santana was the first to break the silence
"You serious?" she scoffs
Rachel sighs "Fine, drinking" she pouts after
Everyone laughs and agrees
"I'll buy the drinks!" Brittany suggests
Santana smiles and looks at the clock
"I have to go guys, My mom's waiting"
Everyone nods and Brittany walks with Santana to the front door
"How's your mom, San?"
Santana shrugs her shoulders "She didn't wake up yet, but she's good"
Brittany smiles weakly "That's good to hear"
Santana returns the smile and cups one of Brittany's cheeks "Buy me some good, drinks okay Britt?"
Brittany giggles "Sure thing, San"
Santana enters the limo and was accompanied by Will
"How's Emmers?"
"Emma" he corrects
Santana rolls her eyes and looks at the curly haired man
"Whatever" she replies
"Anyways, we're doing fine"
"That's good to hear, oh! By the way"
"yes?"
"When I visit mom, is it okay if you don't enter with me?"
Will gives a confusing look and sighs "Okay Santana"
They arrive at the Ohio hospital and Santana quickly walks to her mom's room. She enters quietly and sits at a nearby stool.
She holds her mothers hand and gently strokes it.
"Hi Mami" she says
She looks at her mom's face, still sleeping and breathing
"I need help. I know your not listening, but lately I need to talk to someone about this"
She looks down at her mother's hand and sighs
"I'm in love with someone, Mami"
She remains silent, then inhales and exhales
"It's a girl. And, I don't know how I'm suppose to tell her, We watch tv at night all the time. We talk a lot and kiss each other's foreheads. I know I'm suppose to see her as a friend but…. I can't Mami, my heart just beats so much when I'm with her."
Santana sobs a bit
"You might think I'm being emotional Mami, but.. I don't know what to do. I want to be with her. Not as friends but, as a couple. And, I'm not so sure if she feels the same way"
"Mike, I think I like Santana"
Brittany blurts out while both of them are sitting down, watching kids do their performance
"What?"
"I think I love her, Mike. I mean we always stay together to watch movies or tv. And that's like the best part of my day"
"Britt, we already talked about this"
Brittany looks at the man and pouts
"can you please support me on this one?"
"Fine" he sighs
Brittany smiles and continues her sentence
"I want to be with her Mike, she makes me smile all the time. Her laugh is so adorable too."
"And..?"
"Well, I'm afraid"
Mike understands and smiles a bit
"Don't be, I don't think she'll hurt you"
Brittany looks at Mike with a disbelief face "Are you really Mike? I thought you'd disagree with this"
"Just hear me out, okay Britt? Ive been visiting you in that mansion sometimes and I can see that she's really honest with you. To tell you the truth, she's okay" he sighs
"There's also another thing"
"what is it?"
"I'm not so sure if she loves me. I mean she told Quinny like 3 months ago that she likes me, but… Im not sure if she still does"
"Do you think If I told her, she'll say I love you back to me?" Santana looks at the sleeping woman
"What if she only thinks of us as friends?"
"I think she doesn't feel that way for me anymore" Brittany pouts
Mike sighs and looks away from the blonde
"Britt, if she told Quinn that she likes you before then I think she still does now"
Brittany remains silent, hugging her knees towards her face
"You never know, Mike"
"Also, She doesn't want to have a relationship. She's totally afraid someone would hurt her. I mean, I would never hurt her!"
Santana sighed, she felt like a freak since she's talking to a woman in a comma
"Anyways, We made out once, almost had sex but still, I want to show her my love, Mami"
"San's really awesome"
Mike nodded and smiled softly "Yeah. She is. But Britt, what if she hurts you?"
Brittany immediately shook her head "San would never do that!"
Mike frowned and stood up, walking to the students who just finished dancing
"That's what you told me, before SHE broke your heart two years ago"
He left the sad blonde, thinking about a certain brunette
"What should I do then…?" she asked to no one
Santana leaned over and brushes some hair out of her mother's face, then kissed her forehead lightly
"I love you, Mami. Get well" she mutters.
She lets go of the sick woman and leaves the hospital
"How's Mrs. Lopez, Santana?"
"She's doing alright"
He smiled and opened the door to the limo. She got in, and he followed after
"Say Will"
"Yes?"
"Do you ever want to be with someone but your afraid that that person would shut you down?" She asked the curly haired man, while looking out the window
Will took a moment, registering the Latina's sudden statement and smiled to himself "Yes. When I was in high school" he admitted
Santana just nodded and let the conversation end.
Santana stumbled through the steps of the huge mansion and opened the door. As she walk in the mansion, she sees Quinn walking down the stairs, probably going to the kitchen
"Hey Q"
Quinn turned around slightly and smiled "Welcome Home, Santana"
Santana walked to Quinn and frowned. Quinn sees this and immediately asks what was going on
"Where's Brittany?" The Latina asked, worried that the other blonde would hear
"Still in studio practice,. Why?"
Santana took a deep breath and fiddled with her fingers "I, I'm in love with Britt"
Quinn snickered and laughed "I know that"
"I mean, I wanna be with her, but I don't know how"
Quinn sighed and rubbed her arms "I'm not really getting you"
Santana returns a sigh and walks to the living room, making Quinn follow her. They sat down on a sofa and Santana begins to talk
"Remember you told me she hates relationships?"
Quinn nods and looks up to the ceiling "She had a bad break-up. Brittany's so innocent that she takes things so seriously"
"You think I have a chance?"
"I think you do"
Santana frowns "What should I do Quinn?"
"Earn her trust" she replies
"She trusts me already Q"
Quinn mockingly laughs "I know that, but you should make her trust you in a… well, It's hard to explain"
Santana fully understands Quinn but she just needed the blonde to tell her what to do.
"I'll try my best Q"
Santana decides to go upstairs when she is intruded with a hug from a familiar person.
"Umph!" she yelps.
Brittany smiles and pulls away from the Latina
"I'm home~" she hums
Quinn approaches the two women and gives the taller blonde a smile
"Hello, Britt"
Brittany smiles back and gives the other blonde a warm hug. Quinn suddenly thinks of something and gets off Brittany.
She smirks and looks at Santana then Brittany "I'm really tired, I'll see you tomorrow okay?"
Brittany arches her eye brow and Santana blushes, figuring out what the other blonde was trying to do.
"Oh, okay Quinny"
Quinn waves goodbye and hurries up stairs. They stay silent for a while until Santana speaks up
"What movie do you want to watch, B?"
Brittany furrows her brow to think and Santana chuckles thinking how adorable Brittany looked. The blonde beams up and jumps a lot
"Let's watch Aristocrats! I love cats" she giggles.
Santana smiles and didn't notice that she was staring at Brittany for a long time. The blonde sees this and waves her hand in front of the Latina's face
"Santana? Earth to San, you there?" she plays
Santana shakes her head and blushes "Sorry B, I was just thinking of something" she replies while scratching her head in embarrassment.
"What were you thinking of, San?" Brittany tilts her head and stare at Santana's hazel brown eyes who were looking opposite
"I was thinking of…" you "..Cats" she ended.
Brittany laughs softly and embraces her arms through Santana's
"I'll get the popcorn and you go prepare the movie!" she giggles.
Santana nods and lets go of Brittany, a bit disappointed.
The blonde skips her way to the kitchen and picks up a sack of popcorn. She places it inside the microwave and clicked a few buttons. The tall woman leans against the table across from the microwave and listens to popping noise.
She closed her eyes and brought herself back to the studio hours ago, talking to Mike
Brittany stood there, wrapping her legs close to her chest. Mike was dancing in front of the huge mirror and the students watched in awe.
"What should I do..?" she mutters
She stays there for quite a long time until one of the young students approach her. Brittany looks up and sees a pout across her tanned face
"Why are you sad, Brittany?" she asks softly.
Brittany looks back to her legs avoiding contact and sighs
"I don't know…" she replies
The girl was confused with the sudden answer, not quite knowing what it means and just walked to the blonde's side. She sat down beside her and drops her small tiny head on Brittany's shoulder
"Why are you sad?" she asks again
Brittany closes her eyes and laughs a little
"I'm messed up"
"Why so?"
"I, I like this person but I'm afraid at the same time. I mean I really want to be with her, but I'm super scared she might hurt me" she confesses to the younger girl
She scrunches her eyebrows and frowns at the blonde "Sorry, I don't understand love yet" she apologizes
Brittany smiles and finally looks at the girl seated next to her
"Right, your just 7 years old Bea. I'm sorry"
Bea shakes her head and stands up
"I'm gonna call Mikey!" she screams and runs away
Mike returns and sits beside the blonde
"Bea's annoying me" he laughs
Brittany smiles and looks to the ceiling
"what should I do, Mike?"
Mike stays silent and wraps his arms
"Why not spend time with her? Try to see for yourself if Santana would hurt you"
"Like girl talk?"
"Something like that"
Brittany opens her eyes again, hearing a beeping sound and hurries to the microwave. She opens it and grabs a bowl.
After placing the pop corn on the bowl she skips back to the living room and sees Santana sitting on the couch, looking a bit sleepy.
She jumps from behind and lands on her butt. Santana jumped, startled by the sudden movement and exhaled when she saw Brittany
"Geez Britt, What's with the entrance?" she laughs
Brittany smiles and lays down on the Latina's lap as usual. Santana strokes her hair and smiles when the blonde moans in pleasure
"Say Britt?"
"Mhmm?"
"Do you trust me?"
Brittany changes the position of her head and looks up at the Latina
"Of course I trust you San, what are you talking about?"
Santana continues stroking her blonde locks and pouts
"Like, you know I'll never hurt you right?" she simply asks
Brittany's eyes immediately widened and her cheeks became the shed of pink.
"I.. I.. I know you won't hurt me" she stutters, unsure of what she's saying
Santana sees her hesitation and pouts some more
"You think I'll hurt you Britt?" she asks
Brittany looks away and faces the television. She wasn't expecting this.
"I… I don't know" she sighs, knowing this would hurt the Latina
Santana stops brushing her hair and looks to the right.
They stay in that kind of position, not bothering to talk.
Santana cursed at herself and decided to talk
"Britt, I'll never hurt you" she says aloud.
Brittany doesn't move, still looking at the television.
Santana takes a deep breath and strokes the blonde's pale cheek
"I would never hurt you" she whispers
Brittany shivers from the contact and finally looks at Santana
"I would rather die than hurt you" she said too loud, it was supposed to be in her mind. She blushes when she realizes this, and doesn't look at Brittany
The blonde's heart thumped when she heard what the Latina said and still remained silent
Santana knew she couldn't let this opportunity slide, especially since she said something embarrassing
"It's the truth B.." she whispers
Brittany inhales, letting all of Santana's words come to her mind
"I would never hurt you, actually….."
She closes her eyes and opens them again
"I'm in love with you Brittany" she finishes
Brittany's eyes widen and her chest hurts from all the pounding.
Santana said it. She had said it. And know, all she had to do was wait…
Wait for Brittany
Brittany finally finds herself and slowly says
"So you love me?"
Santana nods and looks down at the blue orbs.
"I cant believe I'm saying this but, I'm so in love with you Britt"
Brittany smiles and cups Santana's cheeks
"When did you start loving me?"
Santana closes her eyes, feeling the blonde's soft hand against her cheek "Ever since I saw you Britt.. Ever since I saw you" she quietly says
Brittany looks at Santana's closed eyes "How much do you love me?"
Brittany had to ask questions, she needed to know if she could finally give herself to someone.. To someone who wouldn't hurt her
Santana opens her eyes and looks at Brittany
"So much. I love you so much. You just make me feel good all the time Britt. I … I love you" she sighs
"What do you love about me?"
"Everything" she quickly answered
"I love your eyes, your smoking body.."
Brittany and Santana smirks before continuing
"your hair, your laugh, your face. I love your voice, I love spending every night with you. Every night is like heaven to me Britt" she grabs Brittany's hand from her cheeks and moves it to her mouth, gently kissing it
"I love you Brittany Pierce" she finalizes
Brittany could see all the love Santana was feeling for her even from the dark. She would have said the same thing back, but a memory shook her mind and she bit her lower lip
"I'm afraid San" was the only thing she could say
"What are you afraid of?" she asked, even though she knew the answer.
"Im afraid of getting hurt"
"I'll never hurt you. And I'll say it a million times and prove you a billion times" Santana replied. This is the first time Santana has said something very cheesy, but she didn't care. Brittany just had this effect on her
Brittany smiled then pouted after. She really wanted to tell Santana she loved her as well, but the fear just keeps coming. The voice of the woman shouting in her head. The image of betrayal. The look of disgust. Brittany was tearing up when Santana wiped her tears
"Shh.. Don't cry Britt. Your more beautiful when you smile" she hushes
The blonde laughs softly, She never knew Santana could say those words, but she was happy that Santana only showed this side of hers to her.
"What happened to bossy Sanny?" she giggles
"Well, a certain blonde is making the bossy Santana to a sweet and loving one" she smirks
Brittany giggles again "Really? Im so special!" she laughs
The Latina nods "That's right, but Britt…" she stops and looks even deeper on the blonde's blue orbs
"… I want to know if you love me back"
Brittany wraps her arms around the Latina neck and pulls her in for a kiss.
Santana melted when she felt the blonde's soft and sweet lips.
Brittany pulls back "I love you San"