SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG I GOT MY LAPTOP TAKEN AWAY, I HAD TO TYPE ALL THIS ON MY IPOD TOOK A WHILE. I HOPE YOU LIKE IT

I ran, tears fell down my cheeks and I heard the steady thump of my feet slapping the pavement in my haste to get away from everything and everyone. I feel stupid, I have given everything all that I posses to him and does he care? no he thoroughly stomped my heart by cheating on me with yet other girl I hate. I don't know when I got out of my car and started running. to be honest I didn't even know where I was going. did I mean that little to him that he would throw me away just like that? this is why I hid myself from people except for Simon, now I regret letting anyone in especially him. I have up the only place I called home, even if I hated it, it was still a place I could go. where would I go now? what would I do? my heart is stomped. I slowed my pace when I recognized where in was , I was in the park. I walked through the trees and went to my spot, I sat on the ground, slid my legs out and laid on the ground with my hands on my stomach. my mind seemed numb, what to do next? I couldn't go back to the foster system I was out of that. and like hell if I went back to the institute and saw him. I didn't even want to think his name it would pit me over the edge again. I felt a slow pain in my chest building and I didn't want to Surender myself to the heartache. I curled to my side in the fetal position and let the misery have me. the pain seemed unreal, I closed my eyes and made myself be strong.

I didnt know I had fallen asleep until I was awakened by the Shrill ringing of my phone. I didn't bother to check who it was and hastily flipped it open

"hello ?" I asked my voice was horse

"clary? are you okay where are you?" it was Isabelle her voice sounded worried and scared

"I'm fine, I just needed some ... time." I said slowly

"where are you what happened? jace came home tearing through this place looking for you, he was going crazy." she said her voice concerned

" Did he say what he did?" I asked

"Er, no?" you could hear a muffling and her stomping up the stairs and a door swinging open "what did you do to clary?" she demanded there was a quiet muffling then the door closing again

"clary he won't tell me, what did he do?" she asked softly

"Iz, he... he cheated on me... Aline" I choked out.

"WHAT!" she screamed I heard her bounding up the stairs again and Slamming the door. " JACE WHAT IN THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!" I heard a huge smack through the phone. and someone yelling in pain it sounded like jace got slapped and that made me smile.

" clary? where are you? meet me we can hang out I'll make you feel better." she said I thought about this I didn't want to talk to him but I had nothing against Isabelle.

"okay I'll text you when I find out where I left my car" I said I hung up the phone and started walking. I walked Down the road the way I came and looked in the streets for my car. I spotted it on the side of the road. I walked to my little bug and got in. the keys were still in the ignition lucky no one took it. I texted Isabelle to meet my by takis I drove to the restaurant and sat in the car waiting, Isabelle showed up not 2 minutes later and hopped in

" c'mon were do you wanna go?" she asked

"I just wanna relax Iz maybe lay in bed?" I said

" okay let's go to the grocery store I'll buy the ice cream and well get some movies huh?" she said god sometimes I really loved her.

"yea"

we filled out cart with lots of tubs of ice cream we rented action movies no damn romance here and went to the institute. we walked to my room . on the door was a note I carefully pealed it off and read

clary,

I'm sorry it was the biggest mistake of my life. I was scared clary, I didn't know what to do. my instinct said to run so what's what I did. please talk to me I am so sorry.

I love you please

jace

I dug in my purse, grabbed my pen and scribbled out his note and wrote my own under it.

dear asshat,

if you loved me it would have hurt too much to do that to me. so how does it feel to know that you crushed my heart? are you satisfied now jace? I hope you are because I can't take anymore,

leave me alone goodbye

-c

I walked to his door and stuck it on. I gave the door 2 quick raps and then ,made a dive for my room. Isabelle was sitting on my bed setting up the movie we were watching The Avengers. I sat on the bed and grabbed a tub of ice cream. I shoveled it into my mouth. isabelle probably thought I was doing good with this but I wasn't, my mind was elsewhere as the movie played. what could I do next? I only came here so I could think and say goodbye. I didn't know my next step. and I didn't want to be alone. who could I go to? there was no one, I would never drag Simon into this, and I had no family... except my bother? hmm

I was pulled from this thought when I heard a slight tapping on my door. I looked around, wow my mind must have been gone. it was dark and Isabelle was asleep on my bed spoon hanging out of her mouth. I walked to the door and peeked out.

jace stood there his eyes red an puffy, he had dark bruise like circles under his eyes. and his hair was shoved back like he had run his fingers through it too Many times. I sighed it was time to get this over with, I slipped out of my room and closed the door behind me.

"clary please I'm so sor.." he started

" no jace you listen, I loved you. how could you do that to me? do you even realize how hard it is for me to let people in? you mocked that, I trusted you! and you betrayed me!" I yelled my tears fell

" please you know I don't trust . I was afraid I wasn't good enough and that you would leave me. I've never cared about anyone like I care for you. and it scares me clary. I can't handle you leaving me, that's why I did it so maybe if i left it wouldnt hurt so much but it was a mistake, please I'm so sorry I'll never hurt you again"

"after what you did, you dont deserve me, and you already hurt me and i... it hurts to look at you." I covered my face with my hands.

his rough hands slid to my cheeks trying to comfort me. but the fact that I wanted to forgive him right now made it hard. he hurt me I couldn't take him. I mentally slapped myself ! no clary! be strong ! I pulled back

"No" I whispered

"but Cla..." he began

"no," I turned and ran in my room I grabbed my shoulder bag and stuffed all I could into it. I grabbed my wallet some cloths and my keys. I shoved my phone in my pocket and ran out of my room.

I bolted down the stairs, I turned around the corridor. I pushed into the weapons room and grabbed a few weapons and a Steele. I opened the cabinet, pulled back the curtain to reveal the emergency safe. I typed in the code maryse had given me a few weeks ago. I pulled out some handfuls of the petty cash and shoved it in my bag. I ran back into the corridor and made my way to my last door was locked. I used my Steele to open it.

I stepped inside and walked to the corner where what I needed was currently. I ran my fingers along the metal bars. I pulled out my Steele and traced a rune onto them. the bars bent creating an opening

"Clary?"

" c'mon Jon, were leaving" I said

Jonathan smiled "thanks sis"

HOPE YOU LIKED IT LEMMIE KNOW I HAVE SOME MORE IDEAS FOR JACE AN CLARY DONT WORRY THEY ARE NOT OVER !