Edward's pov

This should not have happened.

How did this happen? I never want to return to that classroom. Ever. I couldnt trust myself.

But what bothers me the most , is ....how did she smell so good, even when I am not hungry?
My eyes are not black.

The ache in my throat should be calm. I should not feel the urge to want to rip that human limb from limb...to tear at her, to sedate my never ending thirst on her warm blood.

These are bloodthirsty thoughts...How ....how can I think of something so ...urgh. The idea repels me.

But...fate is against me. Does it strive to torture me once again, almost thirty years later?

Does it want me to put an end to my vegitarian life?
To once more feed on a vampire's natural prey...a human?

There can be nothing natural about us.
We are...not something you would find in a zoo.

Her scent..it overwhelms me.

It is like none I have ever smelt before. The only thing, that was ever close enough to it, would be....Bella's scent..

I walk along, not seeing the startled gazes of the student body follow me as I walk by.

The everyday noises that most children take for granted, does not reach me.

I am caught up, in a torrent of emotions I cannot seem to comprehend.

I do not love her,of that, I am certain.

And even if I did, I would not put her in the same situation as I put Bella in.

No, this time, I think I will resist.

I was hostile, very hostile.

I found , to my suprise, that I can hear her thoughts.

They are ...normal. For a teenage girl.

But ...she's unhappy...

Why?

No, stop it! Edward Cullen, you will not even think about that!

Edward Cullen...My old name returns to me..

I see the same building that was here twenty five years ago. the same layout...

The same corridors Bella and I used to walk , laughing and with not a care in the world.

Well...for her. Not for me.

I was always aware of the fact that someday, somewhere, something dreadful was going to happen.

And I wouldnt be there to stop it..

................

And now, look. Bella was killed by a vampire, because.....because I was not there to save her!!!

Why wasnt I there??!!!

Why hadn't she stayed in the house with Alice, instead of choosing to go for a walk?????

It matters not. She's gone.

Is that girl a threat?

I dont know. I cant be certain.

But I know one thing.

I will desist.

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