Disclaimer: Inyuasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi. Merely borrowing her characters for my own twisted pleasure.
A/N: Oooooooooh! I luved the reviews especially those with comments.
Note: For this story Sesshoumaru underwent extensive regeneration with the help of demon healers and gained back his missing arm.
Warnings: Yaoi, incest, bondage, violence, smex, Kagome-bashing and vulgar language. Please click the Back button if you do not wish to continue.
Disparity
By CharmGirl24.
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Listening to the bastard tell tales about their father was probably the most surprising, unbelievable and certainly the nicest thing his fucked up sibling had ever done. He'd never had a chance to know his father though his mother had spoken of him occasionally; the hanyou had stopped requesting memories of him as bedtimes stories when he'd heard how his mother had secretly cried afterwards once she thought he'd gone to sleep.
It was something that he'd thought the daiyoukai would never share willingly with him, something so precious as his memories of their sire. After all he'd pretty much resented the fact his father had begotten a half-blood child and had mated with a filthy human yet to have still surpassed it was a pretty friggin' big deal where Sesshoumaru was concerned.
Even more so as he spoke of his mother's entry into the equation there was no disgust or loathing, surprisingly the demon was rather apathetic about it though he could hear the sweet sorrow of the change in their father's behavior as well as the elder demon's self-loathing and resentment that echoed as he recounted his dismissal of his father's pleas.
Though he'd never considered Sesshoumaru capable of possessing a heart that, instead a bottomless abyss of hatred and contempt must dwell in its place, but at last he at last saw beyond that impenetrable mask that shielded that daiyoukai's true feelings.
Inuyasha discovered what truly lay in the elder demon's heart and though his mind tried to rationalize and convince him he was merely putting on a ruse he knew that Sesshoumaru wasn't one to use trickery and quite frankly emotions, especially the heart-wrenching, soul piercing emotions would be something that Sesshoumaru would loathe to expose casually without just cause and deep consideration. This was by far the most blatant effort the ice prick had made to demonstrate what he had been preaching non-stop to the hanyou for several weeks, that he honestly wished to make amends.
Before it had appeared to be such a far-fetched, inconceivable idea yet now it seemed within the realm of possibility and it scared the shit out of Inuyasha. The risk he would be taking, the possible repercussions if it turned out to be for naught, it was quite likely he would shatter if he took that leap only to be cast against the vicious rocks by the murky, unforgiving water.
But against all his protests and denials his heart dared to hope and he hated himself for it, for wanting to believe that the daiyoukai was sincere. It had been all he'd ever wanted, to belong, to discover his identity, his place in this world…..to be loved.
And the thought of it hurt terribly that a mere intangible hint of his secret desires could set his heart racing and send his hopes soaring and decimate all the barriers and defenses he had labored for years to construct in the desperate, self-preserving attempt to keep his sanity and not fall into an inescapable depression that would likely cost him his life.
Weak.
That's what he was. A trait he despised above all else yet it hardly made a difference. For though the possible outcome would have such a devastating impact life as he knew it he couldn't not take the chance. It would nag him for the rest of his existence if turned his back on this prospect now that the bastard was actually making a damn effort.
But mind you he was going into this with his eyes wide open and by no mean would the journey to attaining his forgiveness be an easy one, he would make that dickhead's life hell before he relented if only to soften the blow when the elder demon eventually rejected him.
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Exhaustion had finally gotten the better of him and after being coaxed out of his nearly catatonic state by the daiyoukai's narration of the past and his drastic change of heart which he had spent the greater part of the night deliberating and arguing with himself over the decision. Now it was the wee hours of the morning and the elder demon's voice had eventually lulled him to sleep which spoke volumes considering he was human thus defenseless and would have normally stayed away all night.
Yet he was in the presence of his greatest foe and handicapped and he had allowed himself to fall asleep, something that was quite unthinkable before the events of that day. Life tends to be ironic in the most unexpected ways it seems.
As though that weren't strange enough when he had awoke not a few moments before sunrise he saw a unimaginable sight that both shocked and captivated him.
Yes the pure-blooded demon had actually fallen asleep and for once Inuyasha had the upper hand, however now he did not have the intention of taking it to his advantage and he felt more than a little miffed when he realized his ill timed fortune.
Nonetheless his gaze was transfixed upon the slumbering demon for sleep had changed his bearing tremendously. His body had lost its tension though even in his sleep, he displayed impeccable posture, the asshole. While Inuyasha was probably sprawled every which way. And his hair was waves of silk, smooth and perfectly arranged while his usually looked like a damn bird's nest.
However his face stunned the hanyou the most, he looked…..peaceful, there was none of the frigid countenance he usually bore. Though he still returned a regal, untouchable air it was not a harsh, imposing appearance. His sheer perfection even while in sleep gave him an ethereal quality that made it seem hardly possible that such a divine creature could exist.
And honestly he wanted to smack himself for spewing nonsensical, flattery shit and punch the bastard for being all perfecty it was infuriating!
Alright breathe Inuyasha. Breathe. That's right count to ten.
One.
Two.
Three.
Four.
Fi- ARGH!
Dammit he'd only just woken up not even a good hour since and decided to give the bastard a chance and he wanted to kick him in the head for, well, just being himself. Fuck this was never gonna work.
His eyes darted over to the still sleeping youkai and he clenched his fists. He didn't spend all effin' night agonizing over this shit to give up just like that. That's it he needed to suck it up and try and keep an open mind…..or more like one of those booby-trap doors that sprung shut at the slightest irritation.
Scrubbing his face with hands to try and snap himself outta his indecision he realized his nose was kind of crusty and his eyes were pretty puffy and then flashbacks from his behavior the previous night came rushing back and he face-palmed himself for his stupidity and over-emotional reaction which in trun caused him to groan in pain.
Yeah definitely he was an idiot. Probably the stupidest, dumbest moron alive really he'd actually broken down and cried like a two year old child, the sobbing and waterworks and snot and everything! In front of the bastard no less! In his human form!
This is so friggin unfair!
But then memories came back to him of how the elder demon had cradled him and stroked his hair, had wiped away his tears. He hadn't mocked him or sneered or done anything remotely nasty. He acted as though he was he cared, as though the hanyou's tears and frustration meant to him and as much as Inuyasha wanted to contradict it, to deny it. Flashes of the daiyoukai's expressions, his actions which challenged every terrible accusation the half-demon had against him.
Sighing he conceded though it was a hard pill to sallow, the dickhead had been trying to show him he'd changed, though it hadn't meant much till he showed him how far he was willing to go to prove himself. To give the hanyou a reason to believe him if even a little.
Now it was his turn, he had to loosen up a bit and allow the bastard to earn his trust even if every action he took was meant to discourage and test the daiyoukai to determine if he would break, if he would give up, how determined and sincere he was.
The hanyou honestly didn't know if he was capable of moving on of putting the past back where belonged and suddenly he desperately wished the bastard wouldn't get up at all so he wouldn't have to go through with it, but as usual the fates were against him and he sense the sleeping demons increase in heart rate and the shorter breaths he took. Guess it was time to face the music.
And surprisingly the semi-conscious Sesshoumaru was actually a cute sight really with the blurry glazed eyes and the furrowed brow as he took those few moments to assimilate his surroundings and shake off the last vestiges of sleep. His unguarded state allured to the hanyou and he found himself thinking he wanted to see more of this side of the demon.
Once the ice prick noticed his presence he looked stunned, bemused even and Inuyasha had to restrain himself from smiling it was certainly amusing to watch the daiyoukai without his cool, aloof exterior however his enjoyment was short-lived it was now or never and he truly didn't think he would have the nerve to do this if the elder demon were fully aware and had his composure which would surely be like a sledgehammer to the hanyou's fragile resolve.
As he approached him his mind went blank he had tried to rehearse what he would have said but at that moment it seemed for naught since he could recall a thing and as the distance between them close he couldn't help but breath in the daiyoukai's scent like the first frost of winter and the breeze of night's air, unique and elusive befitting of the pure-blooded youkai.
And yet words flowed from his mouth that he had no conscious thought of but they adeptly described what he felt in his heart and conveyed the risk he was willing to take, the chance he was offering the bastard, something that once seemed unlikely as icicles in hell.
Time seemed to stand still neither of them made a moved they kept looking in each other's eyes searching for something though the hanyou was terribly afraid of what he would discover. However the daiyoukai seemed to find his answer first for he spoke breaking the stalemate.
"I thank you for this gift. I am unworthy but you trust in me has brought me immeasurably joy. My only desire is to bestow upon you the same happiness you have granted me."
"Keh will it won't be easy dickhead you aren't off the hook that easy", the hanyou scrowled in turn.
Yet the elder demon merely nodded his head in acquiesce, "Nothing worthy having is ever easy and I have much to atone for. Now would you like to join me for breakfast, I don't' suspect that my upcoming task is an endevour I can enter into without preparation."
However before the hanyou could reply his stomach gave his response letting loose an inhumane protest at being neglected considering they had both gone to bed without any dinner.
"Come I shall take you to the kitchen opening the door before beckoning the hanyou to follow him. He walked besides him the entire way occasionally sneaking glances at the taller demon hoing for some indication of what was going through his mind. But it was useless, of course it wasn't to be expected after all the ice prick was the master of masking his emotions.
However he desperately wanted to know how the bastard felt about his declaration was he truly pleased and was intending on treating him with all the respect and attention he'd never thought to spare him or was he secretly plotting his demise all the while laughing at him for being such a gullible, foolish idiot.
His train of thoughts didn't last long for soon they were entering the kitchen, he supposed the daiyoukai knew the castle like the back of his hand so it wouldn't take him as long to get around as Inuyasha would fumbling around the maze of passage ways and countless rooms. Honestly his first demand would be to make the demon lord draw him a damn map of his castle, if he was gonna be staying here he didn't wanna be cooped up in his room the whole time or spend most of his time trying to find his way.
Once the staff had realized the presence of their lord they stopped their work to pay their respects, performing a half-bow muttering cordially "good morning Sesshoumaru-sama" however the real shocker came when they followed with "good-morning Inuyasha-sama" in the same polite, respectful tone.
The hanyou was completely dumbstruck; his features frozen as his mind frantically tried to process what had just happened.
He was jolted out of his stupor when the elder demon he leant toward him whispering softly, "This is just the beginning. Now say 'good morning'."
Still unable to gather his wits about him he mindlessly did as the daiyoukai instructed allowing him to place his hand on the small of his back leading the hanyou towards the opposite end of the kitchen even then he was still quite bemused wondering when the hell he had been plunged into an alternate reality. Demons usually scorned him at his every turn for his human blood, at best he had thought they would have simply ignored his presence but to given such respect and recognition was mind-boggling.
It didn't take him long to realize where or exactly who they were heading for and at once he dug his heels in and refused to budge, there was no way in God's green earth was he coming near that thing without a solid brick wall between them and a pit infested with hungry fleshing eating demons.
His refusal to move didn't go unnoticed by the bastard who asked with a sigh, "What troubles you?"
"I'm not going anywhere near her", his eyes locked directly on a braided mane of orange hair.
The daiyoukai had hoped the hanyou would have failed to notice Tsubaki who was currently ladling out bowls of porridge.
"You have two options you can either accompany me so we can have breakfast or you can starve for she is the head of the kitchen staff."
Without a pause the hanyou announced, "Starve" though his stomach apparently didn't agree voicing its disapproval even more loudly than before which caught the attention or a number of the servants.
Shaking his head mentally he knew that would have been his mate's response but he could have hoped to be proven wrong.
"Very well then if you are not going to eat then neither will I", this decision shocked both the hanyou and the staff. Instantly protests rose from every corner of the kitchen.
"Sesshoumaru-sama-"
"My lord you need to-"
"You'll faint away my prince-
"You aren't fat my lord! Please eat-"
Of course there was one protest that rose above the rest, "Don't be such a baka! Go and eat the damn food."
"No. Not unless you're eating as well", the daiyoukai responded calmly.
"That ain't happening. Now are you gonna eat or am I gonna have to-"
"What's all this commotion?" a new feminine voice inquired.
Everyone froze, the hanyou could literally feel his body become paralyzed, a cold sweat broke out on his skin, and his pulse sped up exponentially. With painstaking slowness his head shifted to the right. The reaction was immediate.
"Inuyasha-sama!" the tigress shrieked in delight, arms outstretched, those endowed breast looming infront of him.
'Aw fuck.'
He took a step backward bracing himself to be smothered to death when he felt arms wrapping possessively around his shoulders and a firm body pressed to his back.
'Just shoot me now.'
The demoness stopped in her tracks, "My lord?"
"Please Tsubaki-san do not hug my brother until he has become more acquainted with you, he has rather delicate sensibilities I'm afraid."
'What the hell! Delicate sensibilities my ass.'
The hanyou was ready to open his mouth to retort when those arms around him tighten and felt the daiyoukai's breath upon his ear, "You can either stay quiet or you can refute what I said and allow her to embrace you. Your choice."
Inuyasha stiffened, grinding his teeth he kept his mouth shut, he would put up with the asshole if it meant that woman wouldn't get hold of him.
"Oh poor dear, I had no idea. He must be frightened out of his wits, nonetheless he'll get used to me", flashing the hanyou a gleeful grin, "you mustn't worry Yasha-sama we'll be spending lots of time together."
It was all Inyasha could do not to run screaming out of the room and his eyes turned skywards as he wondered what deity he'd pissed off enough to deserve this kind of torture.
He was abruptly shaken out of his pity party when they ice prick spoke.
"It seems we have a problem Tsubaki-san."
"Oh what is it? I'd be happy to help you my lord."
"It seems my otouto is unwilling to eat."
Tsubaki gasped in horror, "We can't have that! No one is going to leave my kitchen with an empty stomach especially not my Yasha-sama. No worries Sesshoumaru-sama I'll take care of that. Why don't you go into the breakfast room?"
"I have trust in you Tsubaki-san", such a compliment from her sire filled her with pride and caused her cheeks to flush with colour in embarrassment. She ushered them to leave and spun around already ordering around her minions to prepare a feast worthy of a king.
Once they had left the kitchen the hanyou turned on the daiyoukai, his eyes narrowed and his mouth set in a scowl, "What'd you have to go and do that for!"
Sesshoumaru shrugged casually in response, "You were being obstinate. I was not going to allow you to neglect you needs for such trivial reasons."
"Well don't get your hopes up sucker I'm not gonna eat one bit", the hanyou proclaimed heatedly.
"Is that so? Well if you are going to be so unreasonable then I will just have to take matters into my own hands and feed you myself."
Inuyasha mouth fell open stunned, before snapping back defiantly, "I'd like to see you try."
"You should be careful with you words dear brother", were the last words the demon lord spoken before the hanyou felt an arm snake around his waist and his feet left the ground and a series of motions later too fast for the eye to follow and his dazed mind to comprehend he found himself situated in the bastard's lap. Before he could even respond the door opened and a flurry of servants came in briefly astonished at the compromising position of the two inu demon before regaining their professionalism and proceeded to layout the fruits of their labour.
Inuyasha gazed in wonderment at the plethora of dishes before him, this easily outnumbered the number of dishes served at his last breakfast five times over. Did that lady actually expect him to eat all of it; seriously by the time he was done they'd have to carry him out of the room.
As if reading his thoughts the ice prick answered, "Whatever dishes left untouched shall be given to the poor and the scraps shall be given to the animals under the castle's service.
Once everything had been laid out Tsubaki entered, "I have made a little of everything, there should be something to entice our stubborn lord into eating, if not I'll keep cooking till he eats something. You are not leaving this room otherwise. I'm going to have to fatten you up Yasha-sama you're on the verge of becoming nothing but skin and bones." Determination gleamed in her eyes and Inuyasha didn't doubt she'd do exactly as she said.
Once the servants had left and they were alone the hanyou tried to scramble out of the daiyoukai's lap as quickly as possible, but it was not to be, every move he made was countered and thwarted until he was panting and ill-tempered and still situated in the same position.
"Are you going to eat?" the bastard inquired.
The hanyou grumbled in response.
"I will choose to interpret that as a 'yes'". Picking up a bowl of rice porridge Sesshoumaru lifted the spoon to the hanyou's mouth.
But Inuyasha was never one to give in easily and kept his mouth closed.
Sighing the elder demon gave his unruly mate an ultimatum, "You have two choices. Eat. Or I shall kiss you."
Still the hanyou didn't budge and the demon lord not one to go back on his word leant in closer causing the half-demon's eyes to widen comically.
"Alright have it your way. I'll eat."
Smirking the demon lord replied, "I'm pleased you are seeing the error of your ways."
"Just shut up. Can you let me up now, asshole?"
"No. I rather like you where you are."
Gapping in outrage at the audacious statement ready to argue when a spoon was unceremoniously shoved into his mouth forcing him to chew and swallow before he could protest.
"Good, no. Now eat."
Glaring at the elder demon as though he could make him drop dead by staring at him hard enough he snatched the bowl offered to him, muttering "bastard" before proceeding to eat.
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A/N: I'm done! Yes! Well I thought to lighten things up a bit and I knew a lot of you liked Tsubaki so I brought her back. Well I must say thanks for all the lovely reviews and we're almost at the 200 mark I'm so glad.
Anyway please tell me what you think. I love hearing from you!
Sincerely,
CharmGirl24.