So much for self control huh? I thought as I opened the bag and laid the product out across the counter and sorted it out in little lines like Kiren taught me, and one by one, I sniffed and sniffed and sniffed. Boy did I feel better after I was done.

I called Paul and flirted with him a bit which aggravated him because he was busy, but I told him to come and get me because I couldn't drive home tonight. When he asked why, I wouldn't really answer. I would just simply reply that I needed him to come and get me. I knew there was a argument to come once he got here.

And of course I was right, the moment he pulled up he was yelling at me and saying he was busy and I interrupted him. But I just ignored him because I was feeling waaay too good to be put in a bad mood.

It's been a month since my little problem started, and I've also started hanging back out with Kiren, without Paul knowing of course. If we weren't doing drugs at her house we were doing them at work or in one of our cars. I would never do this shit at home, too risky. And I would always straighten up when it came to an important court case. But other than that, everything was kind of falling apart for me. Paul and I were constantly fighting all the time and the kids were noticing. I was also taking too much of a risk getting high before I came home, one time I came home high while his mother was there.

Flashback within a flashback

I walked into the house feeling good as hell, I was high and horny. The kids weren't home so I knew this would be the perfect time for me and Paul to get some loving since we hardly every do anymore.

"Babe!" I yelled out.

"I'm in the living room" he replied.

I put my keys in my purse and started towards the living room.

"Well, you better get ready because I'm gonna suck your dick dry"

And I turned the corner and he was looking at me with eyes so big I thought they'd fall out. I turned to the side and saw his mom holding a book, her mouth was wide open. It took everything in me not to laugh.

"Hi mom!" I said with a huge smile, not caring about what she had just heard.

"Um..h..h..hi Stephanie" she managed to get out.

"And hello to you big man" I said as I popped down into Paul's lap and wrapped my arms around his neck. He was still stunned and couldn't say anything.

I kissed his lips and glanced at his mother "give us some privacy will ya" I said in the nicest way possible.

Her eyes then got as big as Paul's were.

"Stephanie!" He said through clenched teeth.

"Oh, you'll be calling out that name soon enough" I said with a laugh.

"Excuse us mom" he said grabbing my arm roughly and yanking me up.

"Ooooh, I like it when you're rough like this" I said with a grin. "Just relax Patricia, we'll be a while" I said with wink. And with that he yanked my arm so hard I'm surprised I didn't fall.

When we got to the bedroom he slammed the door.

"WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM!?...HUH!?..THAT'S MY MOTHER IN THERE!"

I just smiled.

"THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO SMILE ABOUT STEPHANIE!"

"Yes there is" I said calmly. "You're soooo hot when you're mad, it's making me want you even more." I said as I walked towards him and wrapped my arms around his waist and went for a kiss but he quickly shoved me away.

"Get the hell away from me, I don't know what the fuck your problem is, but you better fix it, cause you've been doing this for a while and I don't know how much more of it that I can take." He then walked out and slammed the door.

Flashback

I sighed, things haven't been the same between us since. I was getting ready to go home when I got a text from Kiren.

Hey girl, there's this party over on the 3rd street promenade in Santa Monica, you coming?

We already went to a party over there and it was lame as hell and the drugs whack as fuck. I replied.

Man stop living in the last, this one is gonna be the shit! :-) :-)

You said that the last time.

Just trust me ok! :p

I sighed and replied ok and gathered my things and went home to get dressed. I walked into the house and smelled a very divine smell. I walked into the kitchen and Paul had candles on the table and dinner and a wine glass for me and a glass of water for himself laid out on the table. I walked towards the table in awe, and picked up the flowers that I saw lying there and admired them. They were absolutely beautiful, this whole scene was. I then felt large arms wrap around my waist and felt a soft kiss on my neck.

"I hope you like it." He said.

"I do" I said as I smiled and turned my head to look at him.

"Babe, listen, I don't like it when we fight and I'm so sorry about all the fighting I've been causing lately, with always questioning you and constantly yelling...I'm sorry, I guess I'm just worried about you that's all, you seemed to have changed a bit." That last sentence coming out as a whisper.

I then turned completely around to face him and grabbed his hands and kissed him on the lips.

"It's ok" I said placing one hand on his cheek. "Half of this has really been my fault as well, I'm sorry if I've been acting out of the ordinary lately."

"It ok" he said grabbing my hand from his face. "Lets just enjoy this dinner and have a wonderful time together.

"Ok" I said with a smile. Then my phone beeped. I went over to the counter and saw a message from Kiren.

You still coming?

Oh my god, I had totally forgotten about her. What do I do? I can't just leave Paul after all this he has done. But I so badly need the high...ugh it can just wait, I need to focus on my marriage.

Catch ya next time.

I replied as I put my phone on vibrate to get ready for tonight's activities.

After Paul and I finished diner, he grabbed my hand and led me to our bedroom. He let me walk in first and I was taken back by the beautiful scenery. The lights were out and the only thing that provided light was the beautiful scented candles that filled the entire room. This is what he must have been doing when he excused himself to go to the bathroom. I wonder why he walked towards our room instead of using the one next to the kitchen. There was soft music playing and there was rosé petals leading up to the bed which had a little heart shape on it made out of my favorite chocolates. It was like our honeymoon all over again, I couldn't help but smile. I'm so glad I turned down Kiren for this.

I turned around to face him.

"It's beautiful"

"You're beautiful" he said with a smile.

He led me over to the side of the bed and grabbed a chocolate covered strawberry out of a box and placed it into my mouth. They were so damn good, and I hadn't even noticed the strawberries sitting over there. My mind was too busy glazing upon everything else.

After we finished that, he grabbed my hands and held them in the palm of his own and told me how much he loved me.

"Stephanie, I just want you to know how much I love you and how much I truly admire you baby and everything that you have done and continue to do for me and our family. I know that sometimes I cause problems but it's only because I love you and want to protect you at all times. You and the kids mean the world to me and I don't know what I'd do without either of you. Basically what I'm trying to say is...Stephanie, you are my world, you're my whole pride and joy, you're the reason why I wanna wake up in the morning, you keep me motivated and make me happy. Only you know who I am truly am and what I'm all about, only you can make me get those butterflies when you look at me, only you can make me smile, even when you're not trying to. Only you can make me feel like I'm the only man in the world...Stephanie you are my life, and I mean that.

Present

"Ooooooooooh, I need me a man like thisss!" Veronica said rocking back and forth with one hand balled up in a fist covering her mouth while the other arm swung left and right as if she was hitting someone.

I just smiled. "Yeah, I did have it good didn't I?"

"I outta fuck you up! You know how hard men like that are to come bye?"

"Yeah, trust me I know." I said glancing down.

Flashback

Paul's eyes started to swell up with tears. Oh my god, he was crying, I've literally only seen Paul cry six times in my entire life. When all of our children were born, our wedding and our wedding night when he told me something similar to this and of course now, so that makes seven...never mind eight...there was this time when he got a really bad paper cut and got germ x on it and cried like a baby...but we tend to pretend that moment never happened, we try to forget it.

"Paul" I said reaching up and touching his cheek. "I love you so much" I said as my voice begin to choke up with emotional as well.

He smiled.

"And I know you love me" I said smiling.

"I really really do baby" he said with a smile.

"Then show me" I said. My eyes now filled with desire.

He stood up and took off his shirt, damn, this man was a living god. It had been so long since I've seen any part of his body. We'd been fighting so much that we weren't even sleeping in the same room. His six pack abs were just turning me on even more.

He then grabbed my hand and I stood up in front of him. He removed my suit jacket and I let it fall to the ground, he looked me right in the eyes as he started to unbutton my shirt and then took off my bra. While he was doing that, I was taking of his belt and unbuttoning his jeans and he stepped out of them and then took of his boxers. He then slid my skirt and panties down and they to fell to the ground and I stepped out of them. His chest rose with each breathe as he stepped back from me and looked at my nakedness.

With the tips of his fingers he traced the outline of my face and down past my shoulders and stopped when he reached my breasts. He swiped the chocolates from the bed and gently laid me down on the bed. And begin to kiss my lips and then my neck.

My breathing became shallow as I anticipated what this would be like. I'd dreamt about this moment so many times, but with our constant fighting I had given up hope that it'd actually happen. I was in his arms now with my body touching his and his touching mine.

He then went lower and separated my legs and his tongue touched my clitoris, my body jolted from the powerful sensation. He held me down as I squirmed and he sucked on my clit and entered me with his finger, pushing it deep inside of me and hitting that spot, almost sending my body leaping from the bed. I moaned and grabbed hold of the headboard to keep from crawling along the wall. The sheets beneath me were saturated with my moisture, he continued to do this for about another 2 or 3 minutes and it was driving me insane, I don't know how much more of it that I could take.

His head moved towards mine, kissing every inch of my body, my abdomen, my nipples, the softness between my breast, my neck, my chin. When he reached my lips he paused and took a look at me. I opened my eyes and met his, and he brought his lips to mine. When he did, he lifted my hips in the palm of his hands and slid inside of me, so smoothly, so gently. We moaned.

His body was a perfect fit for mines. With every thrust it seemed I felt my blood warm and flow through my vessels, igniting every nerve in my body. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him closer, feeling him breathe against the side of my face while he moved inside of me, taking me higher than I'd ever gone before. My clit continued to throb, heightening the pleasure of Paul thrusting inside of me.

Within the first hour we performed every position I knew, including my favorite with me sitting on him with his back pressed against the headboard and his arms holding my back pulling me deeper into him. I tossed my head back while he flicked my nipples with his tongue. Whenever I straddled him, he went so deep inside of me that I felt he would go straight through me. Every position we moved into, I climaxed. Chanting his name, louder each time, I wonder if my neighbors could hear me. Every time when I felt there was no way I could climax again, I did. I was so wet that Paul easily slid in and out of me, without resistance. He entered me from behind while holding my ass in hands, he climaxed too this time, but instead of pulling out and lying beside me, he continued to move inside of me until he had achieved another erection.

I was drained, this was new for me. Paul had never done this before, his tempo never slowed, even after I felt I could no longer move my hips in sync with his. He was moving to his own beat but definitely with the goal of taking me higher and higher. I felt my body floating away, I closed my eyes relinquished myself totally to him, my arms went limp. When I thought of lifting them, my body felt paralyzed, no longer responding to my will. My legs relaxed, my head fell upon the sheet...I was free.

"I'm yours" I whispered in a husky voice. As soon as I said that, he climaxed again. This time he went limp on top of me, breathing heavily, squeezing my breasts against his chest. I still couldn't move, I couldn't lift them to wrap them around his body. I couldn't do anything. Paul finally rolled off of me and laid beside me and placed my head on his chest. I inhaled deeply, breathing in the cologne he was wearing. As soon as my lungs emptied, I fell asleep.

Present

"Woooooooo" Veronica said fanning herself "I say god damn! I need to take a cold shower! I ain't never had someone fuck me like that before. Giiiirl! That man is a BEAST!"

"I know, trust me I know" I said glancing at the window and in a bare whisper Stephanie said to herself "and what I would give just to have him back in my life again."