The wind tugs at her clothes and spins her around, but Bella doesn't mind. Finally she's happy, with his voice in her ear and his face perfect in her vision.
Bella didn't expect the water to be as cold and rough as it is, but then she remembers that she'd seen the whitecaps before she jumped. She doesn't try to swim; just lets the waves buffet her to and fro. Her mouth fills with water and it goes up her nose, but Bella is too caught up in Edward's face to care.
Under the waves she's peaceful, the water still drags at her, but the tumult of the storm she jumped into is silenced down there. She can hear the faint rush of water, and her heartbeat, pounding in her ears. Bella is happy, because Jacob and Edward are both with her as she drowns. They are both furious with her, obviously they want her to live, but she shakes her head to their orders to get moving.
Something hard crashes into her, and she thinks maybe it's the rocks. She loses consciousness then.
She wakes up.
The water in her throat burns.
Her heart is still beating.
The pain makes her sure she's not in heaven.
Perhaps she's ended up in hell.
A warm voice.
Jacob.
No, another wolf-boy.
One who wants her to let him love her.
She floats in and out of thoughts.
Then something hits her chest hard and she opens her eyes in shock and coughs out what seems like a river of seawater. She can breath easier now. Bella hears a husky voice pleading her name and at first she thinks it's Jacob, then she sees that it's Seth and Leah both.
Bella starts to curse, telling them in no uncertain terms that she wanted to have died a few minutes ago. Leah's face is thunderous, probably because if Bella had died, Seth would probably have followed her without a thought. Seth just puts his arms around her. Bella wants to pull away but she can't move, she's too tired and bruised. She shakes her head limply, mumbling something about broken hearts and hurting people she loves. Seth lets Leah hold her, sensing Bella's uncomfortable in his arms. Leah can't stay furious with Bella for long, because Bella looks so small and alone with her dark hair bedraggled and her face pale and scratched. Leah carries her to the car, stronger than her slim frame suggests. But then again, she's a werewolf now. Bella dozes beside Seth, her head on his shoulder, while Leah drives to the hospital.
Bella's thankful that they say she fell, instead of telling the truth—that she tried to kill herself. She winces at that thought, wondering how she could have thought that she'd help people by dying.
The doctors gave her something for shock and stitched a gash on her shoulder. They said she was lucky, and so was Seth. She thinks she'd be cold except for the borrowed warmth of Seth at her side. Seth doesn't care about himself, he just looks at her with love plain on his features. Bella isn't thinking about that, she's concentrating on not falling apart. The hospital was a painful place to be, because now that she's in control again her walls are back up. The names and places of Edward and Jacob are back to taboo. She surreptitiously snakes an arm around her torso to hold herself together.
At least there are pieces to hold together at all. She doesn't want to be empty.
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