Messin' With Montana
Chapter 11: Damn You
She leaned back in her seat. "So talk." She said, her voice flat and uninterested.
She was going to be a hard sell, Danny knew, especially considering what she knew.
Danny was unsure of how to begin, he just knew he needed to explain. "I…I'm really bad at this." He fumbled, dropping his head to his arms.
She fought the urge to be nice. He'd called her baggage, he didn't 'nice' until he explained.
"If that's the best you have-" She started, moving to stand.
"NO! Sit!" He commanded, yanking his head off the table, taking her off guard.
She plopped back into her chair and waited, drumming her fingers on the table as she waited.
"I shouldn't have said those things. I got a little freaked out, I needed to rationalize. In the past, I've rationalized my way out of every relationship, every situation… And I was stupid to think I could do that with you." He explained, his voice low and filled with remorse.
She tried to wrap her mind around what he'd just told her… Does he want out? Is that what he's trying to tell me? He doesn't want to do this? What doesn't he want to do? We've kissed… We aren't in a relationship, we aren't even dating, we're barely kissing…Oh God, does he think we're in a relationship?!!? Did we start a relationship that I'm not aware of??!
"Yo… Hello in there?" Danny snapped his fingers in front of her face, jerking her back to reality.
"Danny, if you don't want to do this…. Whatever this is, then just say it, don't bad mouth me to others, especially people we work with." She told him, hating that he might really want out of this.
"See, that's the thing… I don't want out of it… I don't know what I want, but I can tell you that I don't want to end whatever it is we're doing… I'd like to figure out what it is first… With you, if that's ok." He explained, hoping he was getting the point across.
She mulled this prospect over for a moment. "I don't know Danny. I mean, a mature relationship with me means you can't lie, double talk, have sex with other women…" She teased lightly.
"Oh… So there's gonna be sex huh? You were all mad at me 5 minutes ago… Now you wanna sleep with me? I'm not that easy…" He replied, his expression sly and teasing
She couldn't deny the tingle that ran down her spine. His words made her shiver. But she also knew that this was something a bit more serious.
"This is more than just sex talk… I like you, but I love my life and I love my job. I don't want to mess either up if you aren't serious." She told him.
He understood where she was coming from. He knew she still felt like she had something to prove, to both her family and her co-workers, more importantly her boss. He wasn't out to get her to get involved in anything that would put her future at risk.
"Linds, I don't… I won't let you risk what you've got and what you've worked for. I like you, and I don't mean that in a simple kind of way. I mean it in a 'don't really think I've ever experienced this, don't know what to think, can't get you out of my head' kind of way. But I'd hate myself 100 times as much as I like you if I ruined things for you here." He told her.
Damn you Danny Messer. She was quiet for a few moments, collecting her thoughts.
"So we're doing this?" She squeaked out finally.
His blue eyes lit up at her words. He reached across the table and took her hand.
"We're doing this." He replied.
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