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First of all, I am so sorry I haven't updated for almost two weeks. I was going to update Wednesday, but forgot, and then Thursday, I went to the hairdressers to get my hair done, no school cause of a teachers strike.. My cousin stayed over on that day, so wasn't able to update, and then Friday tried to go on here, and my internet connection has gone, I don't have wireless, and my ntl box thingy has gone, so no internet. It's all done now. ;

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So, second part of The Truth, we finally get to know Jude & Speeds secret, and will Sadie spill without realising.

I don't own anything from Instant Star, I do own the song as I wrote it ;

The Truth: Part 2

"Sades, I really need to talk to you-"

"Okay, as soon as were sorted with the rooms at the hotel, hold a minute-" Jude heard rustling on the end of the line and then Sadie's voice again, "Sorry about that, just getting my stuff, you already at the hotel?"

"Yeah." She replied

"I'm out of the bus now, I'll meet you at the reception desk, need to get our room keys, and then we can talk."

"Okay." She said closing the phone and looking around the place, it was really nice, elegant gold pillars in the four corners of the lobby, making the place feel Greek. There was lilac flowers painted into the ceiling, but you could tell you were still in Canada through the four big flags covering the four plain white walls.

She saw Sadie walking through the hotels doors, and walked straight to the desk, going all 'Working Sadie' mode, she rang the annoying gold bell they always have.

"Hello, how can I help you?" the blonde short middle aged woman greeted them.

"Hi, yes, I believe we have five rooms booked under the name of Darius Mills" she said her voice foreign to Jude.

"Ah, yes. Darius Mills, you're the G Major group. Five rooms. One double. Four Singles."

"Yes, that's correct." Sadie confirmed. "Alright then, Miss-"

"Harrison" Sadie finished her.

"Miss Harrison, here are the key cards, Rooms, 25, 27, 29, 31 and 33.

25 and 27 are joined." She said, handing her the key cards.

"Thank you"

Jude knew they had to wait for the rest to come in, they'd be there in a minute and Jude didn't want to face Speed. "Sades?"

Sadie turned, hearing Jude's voice, "Can I just go up, I'm feeling really tired, and just wanna lay down" she said, asking for the key card, she wasn't totally lying, today was a long day, travelling, the emotional damage she'd sustained from both Tommy and Speed.

"Okay, you're with Karma and Patsy-"

"Great" she muttered "I'll tell them you're already up there so they don't have to wait." Sadie said, handing Jude the key card.

Jude picked up her luggage and got in the elevator pressing the second floor, and waited for it to stop.

She looked at the key card, noticing the number 25 on it, she had one of the adjoined rooms, hoping that Speed wasn't the one who had the other. She opened the door and walked in, not bothering to look around yet, dropping her bags, and collapsed on the bed she now claimed for the next few nights.

Sadie watched Jude walk into the elevator, wondering what the hell went on in that bus the past day. She saw the rest of the guys walk into the hotel, noticing Speeds demeanour wasn't his usual hyped up self. Tommy, was well, Tommy. Mason was looking in every direction but Speeds.

"Guys, over here" she shouted, getting there attention.

"Okay, first of, Karma, Patsy, you're with Jude in room 25, she's already up there, if you wanna go up-"They walked over to the elevator.

"Speed, Jamie, room 29. Wally, Kyle, room 31. Tom, Mason, room 27 and Kwest and I are in 33." She finished, handing everyone there key cards. She knew the order probably would change. Patsy would go in with Jamie. Mason would stay with Jude, and Karma would try and get in with Speed. She knew about Mason, so she was okay with that order. She wondered what Jude wanted to talk to her about, did Tommy tell her? God, she hoped not. She walked with Kwest, up to there room and put her bags down "Hey Kwest" she started getting is attention, he was starting to unpack some essentials he needed for the next couple of days. "Yeah?" he answered her "I'm gonna go over to Jude's room, she said she needed to talk to me earlier."

"Okay, see ya later." He replied.

Jude heard a knock it'd been fifteen minutes since Patsy left to Jamie's room, and Karma went to check out the hotel's spa.

"Who is it?" she asked, incase someone saw them come into the hotel, and it was a crazy fan, or Speed, wait, she'd rather go for the crazy fan.

"Jude, it's me" she heard Sadie's voice muffled voice through the wooden door. She got up and unlocked the door, then walked back to the bed.

"So, what did you want to talk to me about?" she asked getting to the point.

"It's about-"

"Tommy" Sadie finished for her

"-and Speed." She paused.

"Well, Tommy told me everything-"Sadie cut her off.

"What? He told you everything…"

"Yeah." She replied.

"Jude, I swear, I meant to tell you, but you were doing so well…"

"Wait, what are you talking about?" she asked, her brows burrowed, looking at her sister. Sadie realised they weren't on the same wave length, and that she just released something, she wished she hadn't.

"Nothing-"she started but Jude cut her off this time, "Obviously it's not nothing, so don't lie to me again, Sades."

"Jude, you're going to hate me for this, just please understand why I did it…"

"Sadie, just get to the point."

"Okay…" she started reluctantly "I knew where Tommy was…before he came back."

"And you didn't tell me? Do you know what? It doesn't even matter." She said, she knew Tommy wouldn't have come back even if she knew where he was and went there after him

"Jude, there's something else… Tommy phoned every week, to check in on you… he wanted to talk to you one time, and I told him you didn't want anything to do with him…"

"Get out."

"Jude, I'm sorry-"

"Get out Sadie" her anger raised and blown to the top. Sadie walked out the room; she knew she had to tell her one time or another, she just wished it hadn't been now.

Everything that had happened today, Tommy's heart to heart, Speed's sudden hatred on her and now Sadie? Seriously, what the hell else could happen? Everytime her life got good again, things would happen to bring her back down to where she started. What was that saying? Bad things come in three, for her, it always seemed to. She needed to get what she had to say to Tommy of her chest, she might as well since everything else today went wrong.

He heard a knock at the door and went to open it, seeing Jude there with red eyes and tear stained cheeks. He opened to door fully, inviting her in.

She noticed Mason's bags on the other bed, across from Tommy's, she gathered he got roomed with Mason, but he wasn't there.

"So, where's Mason gone?"

"Gone to look around the place…" he answered "How did you know he was sleeping in here?" he asked, she motioned to his bags, and his cowboy hats.

"Sadie told me that she knew." She said, wanting to get that off her mind.

"And I don't want to talk to about it." She finished, knowing that he was going to ask if she wanted to talk about it.

"So… should we finish what we started at the bus?" she asked sitting down on Mason's bed. He nodded sitting down on his.

"So, I guess my turn?" she sighed, she had to tell him, she just didn't know how.

"Okay...I guess I should start from the beginning so it makes sense… The envelope earlier, they were pictures of me, drunk of my head-"

She knew he was going to say something "Let me say what I have to say" she quoted him, he nodded again.

"After you left, I skipped out on my release party and went to Masons first gig of the tour, I was panicking when you left, I tried to be what they wanted, but without you there, I couldn't and to be honest I didn't want to. There was this guy who wanted a picture taken, he bought me a drink, well, he bought me a lot of drinks… I got wasted and my head was spinning, I could hardly think. I was tired and Mason was doing interviews, so he gave me his hotel key. The guy followed, which I later found out was a photographer and well, he blackmailed me, 50,000 or the pictures went to the press... Darius paid the guy and it stopped, but I wish he hadn't of paid him, by doing that, it didn't erase anything that happened that day. Didn't make the pictures not happen, didn't erase the fact that I was so stupid to leave and get drunk and what was so bad even if the pictures got out, I made a mistake, people make mistakes, it was the real me, what's so bad about that, I'm not perfect, and I'm not trying to be, so I kept them. I kept them to remind me of that night; it was one of the worst of my life. Things went downhill from there…" she said continuing the story

"… I refused to eat, refused to listen to anyone, I refused to record. I couldn't write. I was burning myself and everyone around me down, and I could see it, and I didn't care. Sadie, Kwest, The guys, they tried to get through to me, I wouldn't listen, wouldn't reason, they weren't the one I wanted there…"

She looked up at him and then back down to her shoes, she couldn't look at him for the next part "… Everyone tried except Speed, he probably thought if Sadie couldn't get through to me, how would he? But, he was the only one who did; he just talked to me, didn't expect me to say anything back, didn't try to make me go around with a fake smile plastered on my face, didn't try to make me be something I wasn't. He was just there, that's what I needed, someone there, who did that, like you, and when I needed to cry, or needed to talk, he listened to me and helped me understand what I was doing with my life. Things got better, I started to go back into the studio, started being my old self again, but I still couldn't write, wouldn't, I used old stuff, just to keep Darius happy. Speed and me, we were back to how we used to be, before we started going out, it was good, I had someone I loved back, and I didn't want to mess that up again. But, we felt different towards eachother than last time, more than friends…" she trailed off, looking back up to him, staring into his eyes, trying to tell if there was any emotion there, there wasn't, they were blank, like he hadn't decided how the story was gonna go.

"...One night I was having a bad day… like the ones I had when you left… Speed was there…" Tommy started pacing the room, back and forth, back and forth. "He took advantage of you?" he asked, well, more stated harshly.

Back and forth.

Back and forth.

It started making her feel sick.

"Stop pacing. You're making me feel sick, and no, he didn't…" He was still pacing."Like I said, he was there for me, when I didn't want anybody there, he's the one who got threw to me without even realising, and after that, he was still there. That night, Sadie was going out a lot, coming back early hours in the morning… He stayed the night, at first just talking about everything… one thing led to another… and I guess you know what happened from there… we slept together." He stopped pacing, that was what he knew was coming, he was waiting for it. He looked at her, hard in the face, and opened his mouth to speak, but Jude wasn't finished.

"That's not the end of it…" she sighed, her heart pounding "…A couple of weeks later, I found out…" she was finding it hard to spit out "…I uh, found out I was pregnant…" it hit him like a ton of bricks. "I was so scared of telling Speed, only Sadie and Mason knew; they were the ones who made me take the test in the first place. After a lot of arguments, I finally got the nerve to tell Speed, he acted the same as me, but he came around to it. Three weeks later, I was stressing out about how to tell everyone, I wasn't looking where I was going and I tripped from the top of the stairs, and well, yeah... I lost the baby." She finished trying to hide the tears, even though she wasn't ready to have a baby, become a mother, and God knows Speed wasn't ready to be anything yet, but it still hurt. It was silent in the room, Tommy still standing, looking at her, Jude staring at her shoes, feeling his eyes burning into her. He finally broke the silence,

"and it was Speeds?" he asked,

She was about to answer when she noticed the condescending voice, what'd he think she was, a whore?

"What are you trying to say?"

"Are you sure it was Speeds?" he asked again.

"Yes, I'm sure it was Speeds, he's the only guy I slept with, one time…" she started feeling the anger rising. "Once! With someone I know, someone I love. Someone whohadn't hurt me, up until now. Someone I trusted. Not a total stranger." She spat out. "So what are you trying to say?"

He was hurt, he was mad, he was way more than mad, and he was confused.

"Oh, I don't know Jude, things have changed, and you have changed."

"Not the only one" she replied, the heat rising, the anger rising, she decided to finish this. "You know what?" she asked, feeling calmer, and a smirk on her face. "What?" he replied, not noticing the change. She walked up to him, getting as close as you she could, and whispered in his ear "You're just jealous Speed got there first." And with that she knew she made him speechless, she won that war. She walked over to the door, and walked out, letting it slam against the frame, leaving him there in a daze. All he could feel was her warm breath against his ear, making the hair on the back of his neck stand up. She had that reaction on him. He still couldn't believe what she just told him, couldn't believe the Jude he knew went through all of that, he felt sorry for her, mad at himself that he couldn't be there, maybe then that wouldn't of happened. Or maybe, he'd be that guy, but it didn't turn out that way, and they couldn't change that. If it was games she was playing, games she would get.

Round two.

She walked back to her hotel room and noticed Sadie was there, she didn't want to speak to her right now, but the high she was on from telling Tommy everything and putting him in his face, she could do anything.

"Jude-"

"Sadie, before you start. Its okay, I get it. I've had time to rethink everything through, and the way I was back then, I know you did it to protect me, so we're good, okay?" she said, not wanting to drawn it out any longer and get ready for the first concert of the tour. The first gig was tomorrow night in the hotel but she wanted to go over the song before she went to get some sleep.

"Okay" Sadie repeated Jude; she got up and hugged her. "Now get some sleep Jude, long day ahead tomorrow." She said over her shoulder walking out of the room. Wrong. It'd already been the longest day of her life.

She walked down to the manager's office, asking to use the stage she would be performing on tomorrow night. He agreed, and it was deserted. The acoustics would be good right now.

She stood on the stage, closed her eyes and started to sing.

It's my turn now, I'm having my say

Don't think for a second I'm over it

I can't breathe without you

But, I'll stand on my own

I didn't learn this from you

I knew it all along

So don't think for a second, cause I'm not over it.

X-

Come on, you want to fight back

So go on and say it, it don't mean anything to me

You lost the privilege, so say what you want

I've woken up from this fall

Thank you for making me realise

That this is the reason I finally feel alive

X-

Just so you know

There's alot of things left unsaid

And just so you know

I can't stop thinking about you

And just so you know

I've ran out of time

I need you to know

Incase this message don't get through.

X-

You think I'm lost, I disagree

I was lost with you

Now I'm free, to do what I want

No more crying, and no more lying

No longer scared, no longer feared

And no more feelings left to bare

I'm gonna tell the truth

X-

Just so you know

There's alot of things left unsaid

And just so you know

I can't stop thinking about you

And just so you know

I've ran out of time

I need you to know

Incase this message don't get through.

X-

Someday you'll realise what you lost

And you won't get over it

I've realised, what I've gained

And now I'm over it.

Need to hear it again?

I'm over it..

X-

Just so you know

There's alot of things left unsaid

And just so you know

I can't stop thinking about you

And just so you know

I've ran out of time

I need you to know

Incase this message don't get through.

X-

Just so you know

There's nothing left unsaid

And just so you know

I'm glad you left

So now you know

I'm getting over it.

She finished the song, and it turned out the way she wanted. She heard a clap, and opened her eyes, wishing she hadn't…

Okay, so this is a longer chapter, I hope it is anyway.

Again, sorry for not updating sooner.

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Kirsty.