"What have I done? What have I done? What have I done?" was all I could repeat as the tears streamed down my face.
Edward just continued to stare at me with his beautiful topaz eyes. He looked so sad…no…not even sad. Worse than that. He looked miserable.
I couldn't move from the doorway. Esme suddenly came up behind me.
"Bella honey…." She said as she put her hand on my shoulder. "Maybe now isn't the best time?"
I turned to leave but suddenly a growl ripped from Edward's throat.
"She stays here!" he commanded. Esme glared at him as she turned and left the room.
"Be good." She murmured.
I turned again to face Edward. He wasn't looking at my face. His gaze lingered on the engagement ring on my ring finger of my left hand. I looked away but I felt his eyes make their way up to my face. Although I couldn't see his face, I knew it was full of pain.
"I'm so sorry…" was all I could whisper. I didn't know what else to day.
He just stared at me.
"Don't blame Jacob…" I tried again.
He did not move.
"I thought you were…..dead." my voice broke at the last word.
Nothing.
"Say something Edward…" I whispered again.
A growl suddenly ripped from his chest for the second time that day.
"What do you want me to say Bella!?" he said in a gruff voice. "You…and that mongrel…ugh…I can't even say it. Do you expect me to say its ok? It's not."
"Edward…" I choked. "I didn't know…"
"You know what?" he said in a calmer voice, although it was still filled with fury. "The fact that you…no. That's not what hurts. What hurts the most is knowing that you didn't even wait. You didn't even wait a day. Could you really get over me THAT quickly?"
"No." I replied.
"Then tell me this. Since I can't read your mind, why did you do it?"
"Because I couldn't take the pain…." I said in a voice that was barely audible.
"And this is bearable?" he scoffed. "Bella…right now I just want to…." He began but Alice suddenly flung herself into the room along with the rest of the Cullen family.
"EDWARD! NO!" she screamed as she ran into me. Emmet and Jasper both barreled into him and Carlisle rushed to my side to see if I was ok. Esme was standing in the door and I was sure she would've been crying if she could.
"Let me GO!" Edward growled.
"No Edward! Get a grip on yourself." Jasper said while he was working to restrain him.
"I can't take this! I can't take this!" Edward screamed.
At that point I had begun to cry even harder. I couldn't bear to see Edward in this much pain. And it was my fault that he was going through it. This wasn't like Edward though. I had never seen him angry before…and I couldn't figure out why NOW he was deciding to show his anger towards me. I'd have to ask Carlisle about that later.
Suddenly the doorbell rang and everyone in the room was silent. Edward' eyes turned charcoal black and he said in a monotone voice:
"I'm gonna kill him." And he bolted through the door
"NO EDWARD!" we all screamed as we followed after him.