Just want to tell you all that i will probably finish this story soon.. I was thinking maybe 15 chapters..
TheQueen: I am glad you came prepared.. But are you prepared for this one here today? hehehe.. i love chasing cars.. It's one of my favorites and i loved it in Greys Anatomy
ZoMo19: thank you very much.. Jasmine is a nice character and i think that whenever Amy is around so will be Jasmine..
Chapter 11
Angy's POV
Looking at her outside my house made me stay on my ground.. I couldn't make any further steps towards her.. I couldn't believe she was there.. And she was beautiful as always..
What could I say when she came close to me? When she touched my cheek and kissed me? I realized I was crying.. But why really? It was me that walked away.. Wasn't it i that said we should break up? Still though.. Looking at her walking away from me while I was calling her name, asking for her to look at me, was hurting like hell..
I don't know what she have seen but from the look of her face I am sure she saw me and Brandy kissing.. I didn't want for her to find like that.. I wasn't even ready to tell my moms.. Why she was here after a month? Why now? And why I am feel my heart breaking?
"Angy, hey honey.. How was your evening?"
"What Amy was doing here?"
"She came to say hi.. Did you see her?" my mother Ashley asked me.. She always liked Amy.. Both my moms liked her..
"We.. saw each other outside.." I said and sat on the couch next to my mom..
"Did you talk?" I shook my head no.. Inside I wanted for her to say something but she didn't.. Again in my mind I had her walking away from me..
"I am going to go up to my room.. Ok? See you both in the morning.. Goodnight"
"Goodnight sweetheart.."
Up to my room I should have thinking of the beautiful evening I had with Brandy, instead though I was thinking of Amy.. When I looked at my phone I had a text from Brandy telling me she had a great time with me.. She didn't see Amy waiting outside.. She didn't know her though.. Why now? Why when I thought it was over between us? Why she was outside? Why should I have felt her lips on my skin?
When I fell asleep it was already 3am in the morning.. All night I was thinking and listening to music.. Thinking of her.. And I shouldn't because she was moving with her life and I should do the same as well.. But I wanted to explain.. What if in her mind she thought I was cheating behind her back? Grrrr.. damn emotions..
Needless to say that next morning I woke up and I was like a zombie.. I had dark circles underneath my eyes and I would rather sleep for a day.. That way I wouldn't think..
"Goodmorning honey.."
"Hey mom"
"Hey, what's wrong?"
"Nothing.." I said and let my head touch the table.. Yeah, like it was nothing and like mom wouldn't know..
"Obviously it's something.. What's wrong sweetheart?" she said and started rubbing back..
"I am a mess mom.. I don't know what to do.. I think of something and then I think of something else.. I don't know what I want.."
"I see.. And that's has to do with Amy?" I didn't answer her back.. I just let my head touch the table again..
"Goodmorning girls.. What's wrong?" my mother Ashley asked my mom..
"Teen problems.."
"I see.. If you want to talk you know you can talk to us.."
"Since I broke up with Amy would it be ok if I went to her university to talk to her?"
"Why you want to talk to her in first place honey?"
"I just.. I don't know.. I just want to talk to her.."
"What do you think Spence?" my moms were able to talk with their eyes.. So I know that right now they were talking with their eyes while I was thinking if they said ok what I would say to her..
"I am going to come and pick you up from school"
"Amy finishes her classes early today.. Remember?"
"I don't think you should miss a class.."
"Oh come on mom.. Only this time.. Please.."
"Spence?"
"Ash?" and they did it again..
"Ok. I am going to call your principal.. What's your last class?"
"Art.. It's not even that important.. Please?"
"I still don't know if you should.."
"I promise to you that this is the last last last time.."
"Ok" they both said at the same time..
"Thank you.. Now can we please go?" I said and grab my bag from next to me.. I still didn't know what I would say to her.. I didn't even know why I wanted to explain but when something gets inside my head I can't take it out.. I want something I am going to get it..
The only problem though was Brandy who was waiting for me at the parking lot. Yeah, I texted her this morning telling her that my mom would bring me at school.. I was between two people.. Someone I couldn't forget and someone I wanted to know.. Someone I started to like.. And then the adults say we don't have problems.. We do have, they are just different kind..
"Hello, Mrs Davies"
"Hi, Brandy.."
"Bye mom.. See you later.."
"Ok honey.. Have a nice day. Both of you"
"Thanks"
I looked at Brandy who looked at me like she was expecting something from me.. Yes, we were both open to our school. They knew who we were but kiss her here? I couldn't..
"How was your night?"
"It was ok.."
"Just ok?"
"I was just tired.. That's all"
"It was beautiful yesterday.."
"It was yeah.." I don't know why I was feeling awkward around her.. I never was before..
"Is it something wrong? You seem kind of different.."
"I am ok.." I said and put a smile on my face "Just tired.. Let's go to our class"
"Ok"
The day couldn't go any slower today.. Usually Fridays were going so fast but not today..
"You sure act differently today.."
"Eh?"
"You are not even here.. Do you regret the kiss you gave me yesterday?"
"No. But.. I don't know Brandy.. Yeah, probably I am not myself today.."
"Ok"
"I am going to leave.. My mom will come to pick me up in a few.."
"Why? Is it something wrong?"
"No. I just need to go and see someone"
"See someone.. Ok.. Since everything it's ok.. We'll talk later"
"Yes, we will.. Bye.."
Outside my mom was waiting for me.. To tell you the truth I would rather take the bus than have my mom there waiting for me but since they said ok then it didn't matter.. Inside the car my mom asked me about what happened yesterday between me and Brandy.. I told her pretty much everything.. And when I say everything, I mean everything.. Even what happened outside with Amy..
"Now, I understand why you want to talk with her.. But you are not together anymore.. So help me understand the need you have to explain to her why you were kissing someone else"
"I don't have an answer mom.."
"You hurt her by breaking up with her. She saw you kissing someone else.. Don't you think that you shouldn't go there and explain something that actually can not be explained?"
"All I know is that I want to.. That's all.."
"What are your feelings towards Brandy?"
"I like her.. I do.. It's nice to have her around.. But.."
"But you heart tells you something else?"
"Something like that"
"Why you broke it off with Amy again? Because you never explained why"
What was my reason really? Her talking with a girl? Or her wanting to wait? Her respecting of me? Why was I so stupid?
"Here we are.."
"I am going there mom.. Can you please stay here?"
"I'll be here.. Go.."
"Thanks.. For everything.."
"I am your mom.. Now go"
I walked to the same place where I saw her the first time with that girl.. But this time I wasn't looking from afar.. I was there waiting to see her coming from the campus.. And I saw her walking to the gate, when a girl, the same girl i saw her with the first time, came from behind and hugged her.. I was boiling inside but this time I wouldn't leave.. I stayed where I was till we were face to face..
"Angy? What are you doing here?"
"Angy? This is her?" the girl who was hugging her earlier asked while she was looking at me from my head to my toes..
"I am waiting for you.. What it seems I am doing here?"
"Mmm.. feisty.. I like.." the girl said again and if she wouldn't shut up I would hit her..
"Will you just shut up?"
"Angy.. What are you doing here? I am asking you again"
"I came to talk to you.."
"Why?"
"Yeah, why little one?"
"If you don't tell her to shut up I am going to hurt her really bad.."
"Jasmine, please. Can you leave us?"
"I don't know.. She seems dangerous.. What if she hurts you? And then what am I going to do without my boo?" Jasmine.. The thing had name.. And she was caressing Amy's arm..
"Your boo? Jasmine get serious please.. Go find Tina or whatever.. Ok? Talk to you later.."
"Whatever you say.." she came closer to me like she wanted to say something to me but instead she looked back to Amy..
"I like her.. Now I know why.. Talk to you later.."
And while she was leaving us Amy stood there looking at me.. And it was my time to speak..
"I want to explain.. Yesterday you didn't turn back when I was calling your name"
"Why? Why you want to explain? There is no reason.. We broke up.." she said and she started to walk to where her car I suppose was..
"You know what? I came here to say I am sorry but obviously I was wrong.. You moved on with your life and with that thing"
"Jasmine? What are you saying?"
"I saw you.."
"You saw what?"
"A month ago.. I saw how you had the lovely eyes for her" while we were talking students were going to their cars and I was yelling..
"Can you please keep it low? Come with me" she took my hand and while I was pissed right now her hand on mine felt so perfect.. We got inside her car and stayed there till she started talking again..
"What's wrong with you? What lovely eyes? A month ago? Jasmine is my best friend.. She is in a relationship close to a year now.."
"You are lying"
"Why lie?"
"I saw you.."
"What did you see? Did you see me kissing her? Did you see me doing something that showed I was with her? No one knows about me in college Angy.. Jasmine is the only one who knows about me.."
"You are lying.."
"I am not.. I don't know what you think you saw but it wasn't what you think.."
"And why she said what she said minutes ago?"
"She knows about you.. About us.. I told her everything.. So she was being protective.."
"She knows? You told her?"
"Yes, I did.. Now tell me what are you doing here"
I was so so stupid.. So stupid.. All this time I thought.. I thought that she.. I am so fucked up..
Brandy's POV
"Brad, is that you?"
"Yeah, I am home.."
"I made your favorite.."
"Thanks sis.."
This was my life.. Living in a one room apartment where my sister was sleeping on a couch and I was sleeping inside the room.. Now we were ok.. It was only me and her.. But before everything, we weren't ok..
I grew up in Arizona.. I am from a small village.. A country girl for those who live in big cities.. My family.. Well my family consisted of my sister, me and my parents.. All started when I was ten years old.. Up until then my family was like any other.. Happy faces, presents under the tree.. Just a normal family..
When I was ten my dad lost his job and because my mom didn't work we lost the only income we had.. Then all started to go down.. My dad was coming home drunk from alcohol.. He was yelling at my mom, he was yelling at us.. He started to become a different person.. Day by day the memories I had from him started to fade.. First year was only yelling.. Second year he started to hit mom and then us if we said anything.. Till the last year that everything happened..
With my sister we have six years age difference.. She always protected me.. Like she always said I was her little sister.. And I was glad to have a sister like her.. Even when she finished high school she didn't go to college.. She stayed there working to support us.. She was working while she was in high school as well.. And one night changed everything..
I was thirteen and Ali was nineteen.. The situation in our home was becoming worst and worst.. My father was being more violent day after day.. My mom was afraid to do anything.. And my father threaten us that if we said anything to anyone he would kill us..
I was at home with mom while Ali was at work.. My father was who knows where drinking his problems away, as he used to say.. I remember till now my mom's face.. She had a black eye because of my dad's last night's drinking habbits.. While we were sitting watching tv he came inside with a beer in his hand and he closed the door so hard that I thought he broke it.. He looked at us and I tried to remember when I saw him sober last time.. He came infront of my mom and took her from her hair yelling at her that she was a whore and like a whore she should do her job.. My mom was screaming while he was hitting at her.. He never forced himself before on her and that was different.. I called Ali right away to tell her what was going on and I tried to help my mom.. When I got inside the room I saw something I didn't want to see and it still hunts me.. My father was forcing himself to my mom while he had his hand on my mom's mouth.. In my mind that was called rape.. And I couldn't stay there looking at him act like this anymore.. I got inside the room and jumped on his back, hitting him with every strength I had but he was taller and of course stronger than me.. And his words still echo in my mind..
'You little bitch.. You want some too? You could ask..'
He came on to me.. While his pants were still down.. I was scared.. I couldn't believe why this was happening to us.. Why my father.. Why? While he was ready to force himself on me as well I heard my mom screaming, doing anything possible to stop him.. He pushed her back and tried to touch me.. I felt so disgusted by all this.. I felt scared.. Violated.. And then I heard her for the first time after years. She sounded so confident..
'Get away from her right now you beast..'
He turned his face and then I was able to see her as well.. She had a gun on her hands.. A gun that was his.. I expected her to be scared.. But I could see that she was determined..
'What are you going to do? Shoot me? You don't have the guts'
'Get away from her..'
'Shoot me.. You can't.. You were always like that.. You are nothing.. A piece of shit'
And then I heard the bam.. And my father was laying on the ground with blood coming from his head.. She shot him on his head.. I don't remember how but I was in Ali's arms. When did she came back I still don't remember.. That night changed everything.. My mother killed my father.. In a way she free us all.. She committed the crime and they put her in jail.. Although she killed him and she should stay in prison for years the judges considering the situation and why she did what she did they sentenced her to 15 years in prison.. She stayed in Arizona's prison for two years when they moved her for showing good character to the prison of Colorado.. And that is why we are here.. With my sister being my legal guardian, trying to support us.. Being a mother to me.. Helping me forget.. But how could I really after everything that happened..
Sometimes you see someone act to a certain way but you don't know their background.. But from the other hand you can't go out there and tell everyone your life and what happened.. Because my life wasn't magical made.. It had tears, pain and death..
TBC
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