Here we are for another chapter of suspense. Lots going on again with them...some very dramatic.

We are getting them closer to discovering their connection, but still have a little while to go before this totally unfolds.

I want to thank my beta, Arc Morpheus...she is my Arc and manages to make a mess something beautiful I love to share with you all each week. Love you, my Arc...mwah !

Now, the author's footnotes at the end of the chapter I hope you will take the time to read them. I know there are a lot of things' going on in my story that warrants a little explanation, or at least I feel I should let you know just exactly what is going on. I hope you will take the time to read it.

I still ask something of each and every one of you...Believe ! Anything is possible!

So, with all that said, what do you say we get on with the chapter? I'll be eagerly awaiting for your reviews...

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CHAPTER 11

PICTURES, FIRST TRANSGRESSION THERAPY

YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE REASON

UNTIL YOU LOOK DEEP ENOUGH INTO THE CUT

TO SEE THE EMOTIONAL PAIN THAT PUT IT THERE.

~UNKNOWN~

~EPOV~

I don't know what I've found, but I feel this could be a start of an explanation...to what is going on between Bella and I. I've got to find Elle and pray she has some answers. As I go running out of the room with the picture in hand I stop one more time at the top of the stairs and look at the picture and cannot believe my eyes'. My Bella is standing right there...but, how is that possible so many years ago. I just don't understand but I'm fixing too. I've got to find Elle, so I go running down the stairs, and I can hear her humming to herself in the kitchen. I go running up to her and grab her arm practically jerking her around to me. I see the look on her face and stop in my tracks...

"Edward, what is the matter son? You are as white as a ghost. Come on over here and sit down and tell me what is going on," Elle say's with a concerned look on her face. As I take a seat, she pulls out a chair next to me and then she sees the picture I have clutched in my hand. She starts to remove it and I only grab on to it tighter...afraid it will disappear right before my eyes. Elle reaches over patting my hand and reassuring me she only wants' to see what I found that I finally let her take it from me.

"Aahh, Anthony and Mauriel on their wedding day. I was but a wee girl then, but I remember all the pretty flowers and seeing them together. The other young lady in the picture was Marie Swan. She was friends with them both, but I think she felt more than just friendship towards Anthony. I just remember the other ladies' and my mother saying something about it. I didn't understand what they were saying as I was only five or six years old at the time. But, now that I look at the picture I can clearly see the love she had for him. Why does this have you so upset Edward?" Elle ask debatably.

"Elle, you know that for the past seven years I have been having these dreams. Well, the woman, Marie is the one I have been dreaming about except she is alive now, about seven years older than I, and...She looks just like this woman. Elle, how is that possible?"I say looking at Elle almost sounding frantic..

Elle calmly take's a deep breath, lay's the picture down and take's hold of my hands'.

"Edward, my son, anything is possible. Are you sure she looks exactly like her?"

I just nod my head but say, "Her name is Isabella Marie Swan."

Elle only grabs hold of my hands harder, and looks at me as if she is almost distressed. We just sit there looking at each other, until finally Elle starts to speak.

"Edward, I don't know what you believe in, but if this is true...well, there is a possibility of Marie being reborn. In other words, reincarnation, and she was Marie in a past life. You look so much like Anthony it is possible she has followed you to this time to finally be with you, just as she wanted to be then. I don't know if you want to believe this old woman, but I believe in past lives and reincarnation. I want to believe in it with everything I can so that Henry and I can come back and find each other for another chance at our love. With a love so strong anything is possible Edward, you just have to...believe."

"How is it possible that so many people believe in this concept, but yet I find it so hard to believe...in past lives and reincarnation? How is that possible...and why would something like that actually happen?" I ask dubiously.

"Edward, you have the proof staring you right in your face. Have you spoken to the young lady? It is even a possibility she is also having these dreams," Elle states.

"We have not spoken directly to each other, but she came to the filming site in Chattanooga, and when we finally saw each other it was as if there was no one else around. It was just us, looking at each other, and so much feelings pouring out of us. It is now to the point that every night she is in my dreams. I don't know how much more of this I can take...I just want to find her, and be with her.," I say sounding so overwhelmed.

Elle grasps my hands tighter, and we look at each other when she finally say's assuredly, "Then it will be. Just don't stop believing. Now, sit there and let me get us a cup of my famous tea and just sit here for a bit, alright?"

I just look at her and nod as I reach across the table and take the picture in my hands, and look at her, praying that we are meant to be together as I don't feel I can live without her.

~BPOV~

As I lay in bed thinking back on what happened yesterday I realize I don't remember much except going to see Victoria and telling her I would like to do our first therapy session. I remember her going out of the office and bringing some video equipment and telling me she needed to document my wanting to have the therapy session and James was going to be there so I wouldn't get hurt in case I started thrashing around.

That he was only going to do as little as possible so that I did not get physically hurt in any way. I remember her recording my giving my permission and then laying down on a couch and her giving me a suggestion as to how to relax my body but after that I don't remember anything until...until now. What happened...how did I get home? I don't remember anything.

I know I have got to get up and get dressed to go see Victoria and find out just exactly what happened...to see that video of the session.

So, I get up, go make some coffee, taking a cup to the bedroom with me and my mind is still wandering back to what did happen and why I can't remember. I start pulling clothes out and throwing them on the bed. I take a quick shower, get dressed and walk back into the kitchen for some more coffee. I put a bagel in the toaster, and pour another cup of coffee, finally sitting at the counter trying to enjoy what is probably going to be one of the last quiet moments of the day. My mind keeps wandering back to yesterday and I still can't remember any more than when I first woke up. This is not getting me any answers, so I finish my breakfast; grab my bag, gathering my wallet, cell phone, keys', and my new journal.

I run out the door to my car and head for the lab.

As I pull into the parking area I turn my car off and just sit there looking at the building wondering what I'm going to find out in there today. Hopefully the start to some questions about the translations, my journals, and my dreams. I just want to find out anything and everything I can so I can go to Edward and hopefully am able to explain things' to him that he will understand and we can be together. I'll do anything so we can be together.

As I start to get out of my car I have a very sharp pain go through my chest...it's almost like the ones' I have felt before when I was having to leave Edward. Yet, this one felt different, so much more pain that it actually took my breath. So I sit there a few minutes as I feel the pain easing up, and finally halting. I take a few deep breaths, get out of my car, and head for the lab. I start thinking about the pain and realize I have had it before, but not as bad as that one. But, it has just got to be from all the stress I've been under lately. Something has got to give...it is not only affecting my thoughts, now it is causing physical pain. Just something else I have got to keep to myself...I can't have them wanting to stop the sessions for anything. I need to know...everything, so I can finally be with Edward. Anything is worth it if we end up together. My love for him is worth...anything.

I reach the doors of the lab, and just stand there for a few moments with thoughts of what they could be going to tell me. God, please let it finally be the start of clearing things' up for me. So, with one final deep breath I reach for the door handle and walk in to see what appears to be three very tired, but excited professors. They all look up at the same time as I enter, each with a different expression...one of shock, another worry, and one of surprise. Now, what am I to make of this? At least there is not one of confusion. Maybe there is no confusion to whatever they have uncovered.

So, I approach them with a smile on my face and say, "Good morning. Is anyone up for some coffee, cause from the looks of the three of you I think we might just need a pot or two before we get started?"

They kind of look at each other and then at me, and James finally say's, "I'll go get some coffee making," leaving me with Alex and Victoria that seem to be at a loss for words. After a minute or two, I finally ask them how things' went last night after I left, and there are still the occasional glimpses at each other, but they say everything went fine. Finally James comes back with us all coffee, and we stand around idly, as if waiting for someone to break the ice. So, with both feet I jump right to the point,"Ok, I am here to find out what exactly happened yesterday, and to see the video."

Their reactions were not the least surprising, as they continued to stand around and catch glimpses at each other. What are they waiting for...why are they being so hesitant...why don't they just grow a set of balls and come right on out with whatever it is they have to say. I don't see it happening from their end, so I start looking around and my eyes fall upon the video camera. I start walking towards it, and reach out for it taking hold, turning around and looking at them.

"Well, this must be the video from yesterday. Let me just have a look at what happened since no one seems to be very talkative this morning," as I flip the power button on and then play.

As the first sounds start coming out, they all seem to jump into action. "Bella, why don't we take this into the other room where it is more comfortable, and we can put that on a wide screen and as we go along you can ask any questions you might have," James ask smiling with just a touch of pleading to his expression.

"Sure, let's move in there so we can get down to you all explaining to me what is happening," I say briskly.

I turn towards the other room that is set up with a couple of couches, two chairs, a coffee table, and at the end of the room is a big television. Nothing much else, and I do remember the room from yesterday, as this was the room where we had the session. Alex and James sit on one couch, Victoria sits in one of the chairs near the other couch, and I sit on the corner near Victoria. Victoria starts to explain about a few things' that happened, while James goes about hooking up the video to the TV.

I calmly watch each one of them, and catch them taking a glimpse at me, then going right back to whatever they were doing. I almost feel as if I am a specimen under a microscope for all to see. Their glances and the atmosphere in the room are starting to bother me, and I start fidgeting with my coffee cup almost spilling it on myself. I place it on the coffee table, and James finally comes to sit down handing the remote control to Victoria.

Victoria takes a deep breath, looks at me and says, "Bella, what we are about to show you is the therapy session we had yesterday. Quite a few things' happened during the session, and after you had left yesterday we also added some additional information at the end of the tape. I will gladly at any point during the video stop and answer any questions you may have about the events unfolding. So, if you are ready we will start the video for you."

"Well, that is what I came here for today was to see what you found out and hopefully explain what is going on with me. Now, with that said, let's get this going, as I am sure to have a lot of questions," I state assertively.

Victoria starts the video up, and the first thing I see is where I am on the couch and making my statement that I am giving Professor Victoria Johnston permission to do the session without duress. I see her handing me a sheet of paper to sign, and she explains that this was just a written copy of what I had just agreed too. I then lay down on the couch, she gives me a suggestion on how to relax which she say's has helped her fall asleep many a night.

I can see myself relaxing, and she tells me that if at any point I feel as if I just want to fall asleep to go right ahead. The next thing I hear is Victoria telling me to recall certain events in my life taking me back in time to birthday's, Christmases, further back to when I first started school, then on back to when I done things' such as my first steps, to the first time I remember recognizing my mom and dad. Then she takes me back to when my mother was pregnant with me and my hearing her heartbeat.

At this point things' start to happen very quickly, as I start moving about, and James sits on the coffee table. Victoria keeps talking to me asking me certain questions about what I am seeing. I hear myself mentioning a car and the trunk full of liquor, gunshots, and the car crashing, and then I see a wagon, and my husband sitting next to me. Our son in the back, and he is spurring the horses towards a fort, and Indians on horseback chasing us, then the mention of King Henry the Eighth and some kind of uprising against him by the Commoners'. The King's Army attacking us on horseback, and I can see my husband, Robert running at them with a long handled sickle. Then I really start thrashing about, my arms flailing about, kicking my legs', and James reaching over and taking hold of my arms' holding them down to my sides, and then things' really start to go crazy.

"Can we please stop this for a few minutes, please," I look at them wide-eyed and almost in tears.

Victoria stops the video, and ask me if I am alright, if I wanted something to drink, which I ask for anything and James comes back with bottled water. I take a few big gulps of water, close my eyes, taking deep breaths, and my hands are just a shaking. I grasp them together in my lap, and start taking stock of what I am feeling. I realize I am breathing heavy enough to almost be hyperventilating, my palms are sweaty, I'm trembling all over, and the pain in my chest is back...only this time it feels as if my heart is being crushed...squeezed by two big hands around it, and a tearing pain is shooting across my chest. I take a couple more deep breaths and open my eyes, and Alex is sitting there running his hands across his face, James is just looking at me wide-eyed, and Victoria is looking at me with concern clearly written across her face.

"Bella, are you feeling alright? Do you have any questions? Would you like to take a break, and just maybe air anything your thinking about? I told you yesterday that we would gladly stop this at any point and answer your questions the best we could as to what was going on. Bella, you are awfully pale, are you feeling alright?" Victoria asks questionably.

At this point I realize I have got to pull myself together before they start to suggest that we stop. I have got to get the answers to what is going on with me and what all this has to do with Edward. So, with a few more deep breaths I turn and look at Victoria and tell her I am fine, just a little shaken about what seems to have been going on.

I also ask her why they were monitoring my blood pressure during the session, as she did not mention that yesterday. She say's it was only a precaution, that they did not want this to become too stressful to me, and if there had been any dramatic peaks in my blood pressure they would have stopped at that point. I nod my head in understanding, but my mind is racing with all kinds of questions about the things' I mentioned going on while I was under. But, I want to see the rest of the video before I start asking about anything.

So, I tell Victoria to go ahead with the rest of the video.

"Are you sure your ready for this, as this part of the video really gets very active on your part, and a lot of other things' happened. I state again, if there is any point you want us to stop that all you have to do is say so," Victoria say's hesitantly.

I look at her reassuringly and say, "Yes, I am about as ready as I am going to get, so please resume showing me the video."

At this point Victoria looks to the other ones', and goes about starting the video.

She backs the video up a little bit, to the point where I start thrashing about and kicking and James grabs my arms holding them to my side. Then a strange expression comes over James' face and we both start talking in...What? I start listening and it sounds like Latin, and some other language, and James looks very compassionately at me, and it's as if we are holding a conversation. He sits down on the table, and gently rubs my arms, telling me something in this language which seems to be a mixture of two, possibly three different languages. I open my eyes' and look at James, and we speak in a very gentle tone to each other. He keeps rubbing my arms, and it seems he is trying to reassure me everything is alright. I have a troubled expression on my face, and appear to have a firm grasp on him.

I want to ask them to stop the video and explain what is being said, and what is going on, but I just sit there spell bound and continue to watch what is unfolding before me. James seems to move to where he is on his knees before me, running his hand over my cheek, and speaking very gently to me. I am crying, and it seems I am begging him for something. We both continue to talk in these languages' and whispering to me something...and I start searching through my mind about what is being said, and I recognize a few words. He tells me he has to go with the other gladiators, and that he will return, and then there is more said which I can't make out, and then finally he appears to get up, and I sit up still holding on to him, and he say's...'I will always be with you...I am Forever Yours'. I holler at him, "Anthony, please don't leave me. Something - is going to happen and you - ever make it - to me -.

At this point I realize I have been holding my breath, and I turn to look at Victoria. She stops the video, looks at me, I grab my chest, and then I just feel myself falling over...and then nothing.

~EPOV~

Elle, and I are sitting there enjoying her tea, and talking about the people in the picture, when all of a sudden I feel very sick, and grab my chest, and look at Elle in a panic. I realize she is calling out for Nick, then I can see Bella before my eyes' and she is falling over...onto a couch, not moving.

Nick comes running and with Daniel and Ron right behind him. Nick is the first one at my side talking to me, and I can't make anything out he is saying. All I can see is Bella and the feeling as if something has a hold of my heart and is ripping it out. I'm gasping for air, and then as I watch her falling over onto the couch, everything starts easing up, except the feeling of panic, and a feeling of dread. Something is going on with Bella.

I've got to find out what is going on with her. I have to know she is alright. I look at Nick, and can finally make out he is asking me if I am alright, and what happened. I just shake my head at him, and finally end up sitting there holding my head in my hands, and just keep shaking my head; Occasionally saying no, over and over again.

~THEIR JOURNEY WILL CONTINUE~

Well, we seem to have had a lot of things' happen for both of them. What is to be coming at them next.

Tune in for the next chapter...I just love my cliffys...hehehe

There is a massive study of Past Life Regression, which in one method the person is put under through hypnosis. There are other methods such as what I used in this chapter. The facts are actual...I am not making any of this up. I have done extensive research on the subject matter since I started writing this story, but I had also done research on it many years ago, as I held a great interest into having it done.

It is rather expensive, and can take many sessions.

Now, in the next chapter there is going to be a lot more happening for them both, and we will have more of the characters coming into play.

I hope you have enjoyed the chapter as much as I have writing it. Sure would be nice to see those reviews.

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Thanks muches for continuing to follow this couple in their journey thru time...