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aeh, trying to write faster next time.

Chapter 11

"Stupid man?" Natalia raised an eyebrow. "What's that supposed to mean?"

"That ..." Tim turned to Natalia and wasn't going to hold back. "...This man is dumb and blind, since he is marrying you. If he would be normal, then he should see how nasty, self-centred and greedy of a child you are. Oh, sorry, forgot to add. Also spoiled. "

"You pig! Bastard! "

"You're ten times worse than me!"

I just stood and listened to the scuffling. Not really…. I did not listen. I just pretended to be listening, but I couldn't force myself to listen to them. This was also pointless. They're just yelling at each other. Besides, I had other thoughts in my head.

"You're just jealous. You will never have such a great person by your side as I have. You'll die alone, because you don't stop running after Jenna! "

I woke up from my sleep. What did just Natalia say? Tim will remain alone because of me? I looked at Tim and I noticed sadness in his face. But then he grinned. And he did it very evilly. I had never seen him this way.

"Don't make me laugh! It's too bad that you confuse friendship with love. Are you sure that Hans really loves you? Maybe he sees only friendship. And damn you bitch, try to cope with your pitiful life before you try to criticize others. You damn bitch."

I felt that I had to step in. I really did not want that they would attack each other. But I didn't have a chance to say anything because Tim dragged me away, again. Again, he dragged me like a doll. Actually, I was a doll. Because I was as lifeless as a doll and didn't do anything against Tim's dragging.

He dragged me into my room and made me sit on the bed.

"I want an honest answer. Do not even think to lie. I would understand. Your eyes betray you."

For a moment I thought what would happen if I throw him just out of the room. I threw that thought quickly out my head. I would not be physically capable anyway.

"Do you have feelings for Hans?"

Do I have feelings for him? How should I know that? Tim could have explained to me what feelings are at all. But I think Tim was not in the mood to philosophize with me.

"I am waiting... If you want, then I can help. Think about why you have looked out the window the whole time the last days? I'm relative sure that you were not looking at the beautiful scenery. You were watching something else nice. "

I looked at him and tried to find out about myself. Was I in love? He was actually right. I spent my free time looking out the window. Each time I hoped to see Hans ... And I thought of him often. I even saw him in my dreams. And when I got to know that he was going to marry, I felt a sharp pain. I could not stand on my feet. I felt how the energy and my life flowed out of me. Everything was in pieces and it still felt so heavy. So far, I feel lifeless.

Was it love? Shouldn't love be something nice? Why do I feel so awful? Why ... Is it too late to turn back the clock and prevent me from falling in love? I just do not want to feel this pain.

"I ..." turned to look at Tim, but I couldn't tell him anything.

"Jenna. It's not too late. You need to talk to him. Otherwise, you will not forgive it to yourself. Even if he does not want you and it can be very painful to hear it. But you have to do through it. Otherwise, you can never let go of him. "

I just lay in my bed. Tim left for a long time ago, but I could not sleep anyway. Had too many thoughts in my head. Every second thought was related to Hans. Other thoughts were about Tim's words…They were actually related to Hans. So I was thinking all the time about Hans.

The man, whom I had watched for so long. Who took me for a day out for a walk and never told it to my father. The man, who had to abandon his dreams. The man, who was jealous over my golden cage. The man who was going to marry my sister.

Then it hit me. I will never get him. He will disappear from my life. It actually was not as dramatic as I though. I would see him for sure, but I can never look at him with that look. Never, I will never have him. Never.

Tim's words echoed in my head "it's notyettoo late".

I lost control of myself and before anyone could understand where I was going, I was already out of my room. What is this? I could not find him anywhere. He can't be still here, because it is night already. But all these thoughts did not keep me from going. I just walked around in the house. Hope dies last.

And suddenly I saw him in the corridor. He put the jacket on and was about to leave.

"Han ..."

I did not plan to hinder him, but still called out his name. He turned to me. But it was dark and he probably did not realize who had called his name. He walked closer to me and stopped then.

"Miss Jenna? Is something wrong? "

I had so much to tell him. Do not marry. Do not leave me. I love you. You're so caring and confident. You aren't like the others. You are…Special. Please, do not marry my sister. Please pick me.

Please.

Say that you love me.

I knew that this was my only opportunity. The road before me went two ways. Hans was waiting for me on the left and right ... I didn't know what was waiting for me out there, but I knew that if I choose this path, I wouldn't hurt my sister.

But I love Hans. Do you love me too?

I wanted to say it, but I could not get any word out. I only felt how my eyes filled up with tears and my throat closed. I could not tell him. It would have been wrong.

I turned around and said nothing. I heard though, how called my name, but I didn't stop. I turned right and never looked back.

One thing bothered Sanji. One certain thing which made him worry. Especially after last night. But to get the security about it, he had to ask from one person about it. But he was not excited because he had to talk to that green head.

So he went to Zoro, was training on the deck.

"Oi, moron. I need to talk to you. "

"Hurry up, I do not have time for you."

"Sure, I make it quick. I don't want to spend time with you, after all." Sanji rolled eyes and smoked to calm his nerves. "Have you noticed that Robin is behaving strangely?"

"What do you mean by strange? She has always been different. "

"Idiot ... I meant that she is up all night."

"That's not weird. I told you that she has always been different. She often spends the night awake. "

"Yes, but the last time you were up also."

"I needed to workout."

"At night? Are you nuts? "

"Not your problem."

Sanji sighed. This way, he could not get to know more. But he was really worried about Robin.

"So you've seen her awake every night?"

"Yes." Zoro calmly continued to exercise, perhaps "accidentally" putting his weights down near Sanji's foot.

"What is she doing the whole time?"

"Reading, what else?"

"What?"

"Ask her. I don't care what she is reading all the time."

"But you could tell her to go to sleep when you see her at nights. Staying up is not good for her health."

"Hey Chef. This woman is not weak. A few nights will not kill her. Leave me and her alone. "

"I should have known that you wouldn't worry." Mumbled Sanji.

"I'm going to worry about it, when I see a reason. Currently, I don't."

Sanji was still not satisfied. He did not get smarter and more particularly it bothered him that Zoro and Robin were together at night. Although they did not spend time together, but still he didn't like it.

Then he heard Luffy cry that he was hungry. Robin's sleeping habits had to wait.