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Nothing Ever Dies

Still in the depths of the lake I fell myself become sort of human in the limbo I've condemned myself to. I guess God, indeed, took pity of me. I decided to reflect on my past, and feel my memories within, a new ability I've been given recently. It was nice being a human indeed, and is nice to be become one soon. If I look back unto my life I can't regret any of the things I've done even, even if hadn't been as righteous as at some point would have liked.

That same sun of yesterday. That murky sunlight, that can barely be seen through the dirty depths of this water. I didn't have a common dead, my dead can be called a, kind of historical, or even dramatical death. I was one of the casualties at Hirato's castle, and now that I think about it I don't even know the name of this castle, hopefully all of this will be dismissed by the government, and besides even if they did any investigation on my whereabouts, Hirato has already recorded me as being dead as the town's courier.

It's very lonely here, in the dark, somehow I have some company, but It's not as if I can actually see them, thought maybe they can see me, but even if they do they haven't contacted me, so it's as if they didn't exist at all yet it doesn't mean that they are not there, waiting... Somehow influencing my path in these depths. Bound here with me by the darkness of the place, my brothers who live to steal the light from the sky. Is it wrong of them to do that?

Is it wrong of them to steal the light from the surface. Its energy, all it has to offer, if not for it we will be dust and life within the depths won't be able to be created. Dust to dust they say, I won't fall for that anymore, there's always another way around. Like there are always two paths, there must be someway for me to get out of here. And live the darkness once and for all, they say that for the sinner all the paths are closed except that of repentance. I turned to look at the light from above.

I have lived if it can be called a "life" of repentance and righteousness here in this limbo. So it must not take long for someone at some point come here and pick me up from this darkness. It's time. I start to feel the thick water around my skin, is that part of recovering my humanity? or another sense from one of the bodies covering my soul? It's cold, it freezes my insides, which I can almost feel with my hands, it's as if I had become ethereal.

I have faith that if there's a heaven at all, Gareki will be there and he will appeal for me. It might just be wishful thinking, but deep within me I hope it is true because, if not it seemsI am running out of options. I am really sorry for all I did to you Gareki, I said in my mind picturing his figure, then my family's figure. I am sorry I told them them too, if it wasn't for me maybe they will be also dead an not serving Hirato.

If I ever come back even if for a momment, I will free you, took both of my hands and started reaching for the light, and as I said this, I saw nothing was going to change, i lowered them, and then started walking, I knocked against something, tried touching whatever was in front of me with the palm of my hands. First tentatively, then with more confidence, there was some sort of wall there, I couldn't feel it to it's fullest, but the fact that there was some possibility of me grasping it.

It mean that there is hope, I then realized that this is my opportunity, I dug my hands to the mud wall, or the ecosystem that has already grown there and started pulling myself upwards. I will find that place where I belong on the outside, closer to the light, I lifted my other hand higher than the one before and pulled myself upwards, I don't know if it was easier because I was in the water or because my body weighted a lot less than before. Or what was left of my body.

I then take my right hand higher and pull myself back upwards, slowly I seemed to be getting closer, at first the light that can't reach the depths of the water seemed to be unmovable, at the same distance it was from the beginning, but later I saw It was getting bigger, brighter, closer. I was almost there, sometimes they say faith is all you ever need to reach your goals, there's another one that goes like if your faith was the sieze of a mustard seed you'll be able to move mountains.

Ah Gareki how much I miss you, how wish that when I reach the end of this light I can meet with you again, when I get to the end of this life,one well lived, for which I will work hard on, we'll be together. And there in heaven we will stay forever young in our hearts, and all the hardships all the bad, sad and hard momments will be forgotten, long forgotten in the past. It will be for the best. I don't regret anything.

I was reaching the surface, close, my soul was tired, only one more step, and, I felt the cold air against my hand, clean air, maybe a bit damp and heavy, I pulled myself once more and my other hand was grabbing unto the border of the fall. I pushed my weight unto them, flexed my arms and pulled my whole body upwards outside, I took my first breath, since the first time I fell into that limbo. I don't know how long I had been there.

How long had it teaken me to come back and undone through my reflections all the mistakes I have done. Now it will be the time to pay for it. It's what the life I have been given revealed to me once more, it's spring. I am born once again in the month of life I will soon have to start to die, I think this time I just have one chance to make it right and I won't lose this opportunity. I am wet and dirty from the water of the depths I was in.

I grabbed the grass in my hands, and notice I regained more physical matter, I was breathing, I couldn't believe the air passing through me, it was a miracle, but I had to get as far away from this place as I could, I stood up and started to run with all my might into the forest, following from a very long distance the path to the town and keeping myself close to the river. If there's a God out there I hope he spares me and keep me away from Hirato.

For now and forever. I was new to my body again, I stumbled with stones and trunks or by just walking normally, I haven't gotten used to this, not even breathing, I didn't have much of a physical condition, so once in a while I had to stop to rest. I had hope of reaching the town before it became to dark, I didn't really want to lose this body when I've just gotten it, not when there's an opportunity for me of doing good things.

But trying to make things better, I want to be sure, that when this life end I will be on the other side with you Gareki. I will create it and It will be certain.

Well guys thank you for reading =) this is all for this chapter take care =)