Elliot sat there wondering why Olivia had left him alone with the victim. He couldn't believe that he had felt sorry for Ryan at one point. This punk kid had actually accused him of being a pedophile, when he was trying to help him. Elliot's anger fumed from the insult, and he had to work hard to actually hold it back. He didn't have time for this, and the last thing he needed was another complaint in his file. For a moment he thought about it, countless of rapists had accused him of being just a slight step away from them. Elliot could never imagine that being true, he had a family and never thought of his kids that way. He was hardly even home trying to keep guys like that off the streets. Ryan's insult went too far, and Elliot simply couldn't let the kid go without explaining it.
Elliot rolled up one of his shirt sleeves, and then sat down across from Ryan. "You see this scar? I got this from a man throwing me through that window. Now if I'm one of them why do I lock people like that behind bars? I've literally given everything to this job." Ryan studied the scar for a moment and then looked at him. "The way you talked to me wasn't normal! You manipulated me just like he did!" Elliot could tell Ryan was getting upset, but he knew anger often followed bottled up emotions. "I talked to you the way I did because it made you more comfortable. Victims often don't like males around them at all, and you seemed comforted the more commanding I was. Relax, I'm not like that and never will be." Ryan looked at Elliot and this time threw a punch that Elliot managed to dodge quickly.
In reaction to the punch, he quickly pinned Ryan down against the table. He grabbed his wrists and held his arms firmly behind his back. Ryan screamed in frustration, and struggled simply to get out of Elliot's grip. Elliot wondered where the hell Fin was, but it didn't appear that he was going to help with this situation. He simply held Ryan there until he started to relax and stop struggling. "What the hell is wrong with you? Why would you try to hit me?" Ryan began to struggle again, and Elliot simply gripped his wrists tighter. "Let me go!" Elliot looked down at Ryan wanting to let him go, but unable to until he calmed down. "Just calm down, stop struggling and I'll let you go. I just don't want you to take another swing at me." Ryan took a deep breath and stayed still, and after a few moments he felt his wrists released.
There was a silence in the room, and Ryan sank down to his knees on the floor. He began to cry and looked up at Elliot. "I'll be good, I swear. You don't have to restrain me like that. Please!" Elliot stood there the guilt hitting him like an out of control truck. Ryan was literally begging him not to hurt him, and with his past he knew why. There was the sound of Ryan's cries filling the room, and Elliot hated himself the more time passed. He should never have restrained Ryan like that, and now he didn't know what to do with the teen on his knees in front of him. "Ryan, get up off the floor. I won't hurt you or restrain you." Ryan looked up at him, then managed to stand up simply standing there looking at Elliot. The look in the boy's eyes scared him; they had lost a light that had been in them before.
The guilt still ate at him, and Elliot turned to look out the window. He felt a hand on his shoulder and another around his waist. Ryan's body was only inches from his own, the touch gentle as if longing to comfort him. "Please, don't be mad at me…I'll be good from now on…" Elliot went to gently push Ryan off him, fearing that a usual action of that kind might make him even more afraid. He turned and saw how Ryan didn't move, his hands now sliding lower than they should have been. Elliot grabbed his hands, and removed them from his body. He didn't understand this, or where Fin or Olivia was to get him out of this situation. Ryan looked at Elliot hurt, as if stopping him had literally burned him by the touch. There was an awkward silence once again in the room, leaving this weight there as well.
The sound of rain hitting the window filled the room, and Elliot was almost grateful for it. The sound of the rain made the lasting silence a little less loud. Ryan looked at Elliot studying his features; he could almost pass for his abuser. Not in looks, but their actions were quite similar. They both had that very demanding nature, and Ryan felt that inner pull inside him. The pull inside him that never went away, that urge to please the person who he served was now fully there. He hadn't been able to be released from it since the day he graduated. Ryan had been a constant prisoner to the memories of the abuse, and the urges it created inside him ever since. There was never any turning back for him, and part of him knew that now. There was always going to be another dominate male in the world.
Elliot looked back out the window, the more distance he had from Ryan the better. He heard Ryan's breathing behind him, and he turned around prepared to simply push Ryan away. Before he knew it, Ryan's hands were around him again. Elliot tried to pull his hands free, but Ryan seemed to have other ideas. His lips met Elliot's own, and for a brief moment Elliot could only accept the unwanted action. Ryan had pinned him against the wall, and yet when Elliot didn't kiss back he stopped. There was a hurt look on his face, and Elliot heard the door to the room open. He had never been more grateful for Olivia in his life. "Where the hell were you?" Olivia looked at Elliot and then looked at Ryan, she could tell something wasn't right. That's when Fin entered the room with Dr. Huang, and then he understood why they hadn't rescued him.
Dr. Huang looked at Elliot, and then saw how Ryan behaved around him. The behavior was noticeable even to him this early. It was the way Ryan looked at Elliot, yet never made eye contact with him that stood out most. "Elliot would you mind if I asked Ryan a few questions without you?" Elliot certainly had no objection, and went shrugged. "Not at all, I need some air." Ryan quickly grabbed Elliot's arm, and tugged roughly. "Don't leave!" Elliot looked back at Ryan stunned, and tried to force the boy away. Dr. Huang shook his head at Elliot. "Elliot, that won't work. The more you reject him the more he'll want to be near you." Elliot looked at the doctor like he was crazy, but managed to stop shoving Ryan. The boy quickly wrapped his arms around Elliot, and rested his head against his chest.
Not exactly sure how to respond Elliot gently ran a hand through Ryan's hair, hoping to comfort him. "What's going on?" Dr. Huang looked from Elliot to Olivia, and then to Ryan. "He's trying to cope with the abuse. You became forceful with him when you questioned him earlier, that made him identify you as his abuser. He wants to please you, so that he can feel loved again." Elliot sighed, and looked at Huang at least grateful to know why he had suddenly been the obsession of Ryan's affection. "How do I make it stop?" Ryan looked up at Elliot confusion on his face. "Why would you want it to stop? Don't I please you?" Dr. Huang motioned to Ryan, as if it had been exactly what he was talking about. "You have to make him feel loved Elliot."