Chapter 11

A little later, Sasuke walked to the livingroom, having finished his beer and a cigarette as well. He sat down on the couch.

"I'm sorry. I just don't know what to do." He said.

"..It's fine." Neji said.

"No it's not. Call that coach, ask her to come pick you up and tell her to come in disguise. I guess that should be fine." Sasuke said.

"..You think so?" Neji asked. "..Because it was about her car right?"

"So tell her to come in a barrel." Sasuke said shrugging.

"I guess...There is just one thing." Neji softly said. "..I don't want to leave at the moment. It will mean I won't even see you again."

Sasuke shrugged.

"That was kind of the way it was supposed to go in the first place." Sasuke said.

Neji bit his lip and then grabbed his phone and dialled the number. After a short conversation, he hung up the phone again.

"..She's coming." Neji softly said.

Sasuke looked to the floor now, silently. He swallowed. What should he do? He already felt a major depression coming up and if Neji left now, he was sure he would never come back again. Not after all this.

Neji bit his lip.

"..You sure you can't come walking to the end of the neighbourhood so I can pick you up..?" He softly asked, trying another time.

"I don't know..." Sasuke said. He himself didn't even like walking far from his own place. So having to walk, risking his own life, was really not something Sasuke would want to do, not for anyone. Not for anyone except probably Neji.

"..Or is that dangerous?" Neji asked.

"It kind of is." Sasuke said shrugging. "Fine, I'll do it. Whatever." He added, looking away.

"No I don't want you to put your life in danger." Neji said, as he shook his head.
"Well that's very generous, but I think I will manage." Sasuke said.

"I don't want you to die." Neji said.

"I'm not gonna die, I've lived here all my life. I'll be fine." Sasuke said.

"..Are you sure?" Neji asked, frowning.

"I'm sure. And if I die, well that's just too bad. I'll die once anyway." Sasuke said.

"Sasuke." Neji said, looking stern at Sasuke. "I won't let you do that. I got it, we're not supposed to be together. If you coming to me will kill you, let's just not do it."

"Well it's really up to me what I wanna do with my life right? I'm pretty sure I won't live very long anyway, so I might as well make the best of it now." Sasuke said.

Neji frowned.

"..Do you.. want to live in my apartment for a while?" Neji asked.

"No, I can't do that to Itachi." Sasuke said, shaking his head. "I promised him I would stay."

"He can come too." Neji said. "I got a spare bedroom and in my room is a bed for two persons.."

"I really don't know, I'll have to talk to Itachi about that." Sasuke said. "And my school and his work is here.. I really don't know."

"Yeah that's true." Neji said, nodding.

"So I don't think that would be the best idea. I'll ask Itachi, but I don't think he'll want to." Sasuke said.

"Alright." Neji said. "..I will ask for that job by the way."

"..Ok." Sasuke said. "So am I supposed to walk to where you can pick me up from now on or not?" He asked.

"No, don't." Neji said. "I don't want you to be in danger. We'll call."

"It's really not that big a deal. I walk to school as well. And to work." Sasuke said. "Which I have to be at in about an hour."

"..But you said it was dangerous right?" Neji asked.

"Dangerous yes, but it's dangerous to go out of this house. Or even be in this house. It's always dangerous." Sasuke said.

"..It must be terrible to live here then." Neji said.

"The people here are used to it." Sasuke said shrugging. "How long does it take for a car to come here?"

"Well he lives in the richest part of Konoha, so.." Neji said.

"Oh. So that's pretty far away then I take?" Sasuke asked.

"It is." Neji said, nodding.

"Oh.." Sasuke said. "Well that leaves us time to decide where you should pick me up then."

"..You sure you want it?" Neji asked.

"Ye-hes. How many times do I have to tell you I do?" Sasuke asked, rolling his eyes.

"Alright, sorry." Neji said, and then gave Sasuke a kiss on the mouth and smiled. He didn't knew why, but he just felt like doing that.

Sasuke grabbed Neji by the waist and pulled him on his lap.

"Would you stop apologising?" He asked.

"Sure." Neji said, laughing a little. "I wanted to say sorry again."

"Well stop it." Sasuke said and gave Neji a kiss on the lips, before leaning back against the couch and sighing.

Neji leaned forward now and kissed Sasuke's neck, wanting more attention. He moved his body closer to Sasuke's now.

Sasuke moved his hand in Neji's hair for a while, but then pulled away.

"Not now Neji.." He said. No matter how intimate he wanted to be with Neji, he couldn't with a corpse in the room.

Neji looked at Sasuke now and then nodded, understanding it. He sighed as he sat back, but kept sitting on Sasuke's lap.

Sasuke wrapped his arms around Neji's waist again and looked at him.

"Do you even have my phonenumber?" He asked.

"I think I do." Neji said, as he searched for his phone. "You gave it to me once, I thought." He searched some more and then found it. "Yeah, I have it."

"Ok good. Call me tonight then ok?" Sasuke asked. "Unless you don't wanna pay for the call.."

"Sure I do." Neji said.

"Ok. Well then call me." Sasuke said. "And just so you know, I might feel the same way you do." He looked to Neji's stomach uncomfortable now.

Neji looked at Sasuke, smiling softly.

"Good." He said. "I'm glad to hear that. And I will call you."

Sasuke pulled Neji into a hug now.

"Don't you dare forget about it." He said.

"I won't." Neji said, as he hugged back. At that moment, someone rang the doorbell.

Sasuke sighed and then put Neji on the couch. He walked to the door and opened it a little. When he saw a woman with black hair and red eyes before the door, he opened it further.

"..I guess you're here for Neji." He said.

Neji stood and walked towards the door, as he heard the woman at the door confirming what Sasuke said.

"Hey Kurenai." Neji said, smiling slightly at her.

"Hey Neji. Get your ass in my car. I was worried sick." The woman, Kurenai, said. Sasuke looked at Neji, a little sad he had to leave already.

"I'm sorry." Neji said as he looked at Kurenai, and then turned to Sasuke. He gave him a quick kiss and then a hug.

"I'll call you." He said.

Sasuke nodded.

"And don't ever come here on your own again." Sasuke said stern as he hugged back and then pulled away.

"Let's go Neji." Kurenai said.

Neji nodded to Sasuke and then to Kurenai.

"Can I put my bike in your car?" He asked.

"That won't be a problem." Kurenai said and then grabbed Neji by the wrist pulling him along and swearing at him how stupid he was and irresponsible. Sasuke smiled a little and then closed the door, locking it again. He hoped Itachi wouldn't be too angry at him for the corpse. And he hoped he himself wouldn't stay so upset about it either.

That evening, Sasuke was sitting on the couch, staring at the ground. He had felt awful and nervous all day. Last time he killed someone, Itachi had been so angry with him. He just hoped Itachi would understand this time. Sasuke wasn't in for more of a guilt-trip then he was having already. Being able to see Neji again now was a meagre comfort.

At that moment, the door was opened, and Itachi walked in.

"I'm ho-" Itachi started but then was silent. And it was for some minutes. Itachi then came into the room, looking confused and angry. "Did you kill that guy?" He snapped.

Sasuke looked away.

"..Yes.." He softly said. Oh shit, Itachi was angry, Sasuke could hear it in his voice. Maybe it was best to just let him yell now and explain later..

"Why?" Itachi snapped, glaring at Sasuke. "And help me clean up this mess." He stormed into the kitchen now, to get some stuff to clean with.

Sasuke got up and followed Itachi.

"Neji came over.. And these guys followed him and came in here and tried to choke Neji.." Sasuke softly said, knowing Itachi wasn't gonna be angry any less.

"You could just have threatened them and chased him out of the house, instead of shooting someone." Itachi snapped. He then stared at the corpse. "And I fear the only possible way of removing this body without anyone noticing it is taking that big box from upstairs from back when we bought the little fridge. And if we want the corpse to fit in there, we have to cut it in pieces." He put up a disgusted face now. "And then we should just dump it into the river."

"..I'm sorry.." Sasuke said. He really didn't feel like cutting up a body. "..They locked me in our room. I had to do something.. And I couldn't see what I was shooting at."

"Then you should've told them first you had a gun." Itachi snapped. "You'd better be sorry for this."

Sasuke looked to the floor again now.

"..It was the only thing I could think off.." He softly said. Itachi was not making him feel any better about this at all.

Itachi sighed deeply.

"I understand that this seemed like the best way for you, but think longer next time." He said.

Sasuke looked at Itachi confused.

"Aren't you gonna be angry at me for four days again?" Sasuke asked.

"I could, but you already know I'm angry with you." Itachi said, as he walked into their bedroom and got the box from there.

Sasuke bit his lip and then walked to the kitchen, getting a knife out of there. His hands were shaking a little as he knew what was coming.

Itachi walked into the room again and then sighed.

"You could wait for some time, but not too long." Itachi said. "But I think you should cut this body so you learn killing is not the right thing."

"I already know that." Sasuke said and walked back to the livingroom and to the corpse. He took a deep breath and started cutting up the body. He was starting to shake more and more as he did so. It was horrible.

Itachi watched Sasuke for some time and then closed his eyes and sighed.

"Sasuke stop." He said. "I'll do it."

"..No I did it.. I have to finish it." Sasuke said as he kept cutting. He swallowed as he finally cut off an arm and laid it next to him. He blinked some tears away, keeping his face looking serious.

"Yeah but you can't take it." Itachi said. He then sighed and put the arm into the box. He hated doing it too, but not like Sasuke.

"Yes I can." Sasuke snapped, not wanting to show any sign of weakness. He didn't want to have Itachi clean up his mess again.

"If you want to act tough, then work faster." Itachi snapped back, as he started to clean up the blood.

Sasuke held the knife tighter and started working faster. But by doing so more tears came to his eyes. He cut off another arm and then a leg but his breathing was getting irregular. It wasn't just that he had to cut up a corpse, it was also that Sasuke was afraid Itachi would find him weak. And it just made him more and more upset and nervous.

They continued like that for some more time and finally the corpse fit into the box. Itachi cleaned up the mess they had made and then closed the box with some tape.

Sasuke got up from the floor and looked away, swallowing. His eyes were watery and his whole body was shaking. His hands were bloody and so was his shirt. He felt like he was some kind of sick murderer.

"Do you want me to dump it somewhere?" Itachi asked.

"..I don't want you to get caught.." Sasuke softly said.

Itachi shrugged.

"I won't." He said.

Sasuke looked to the floor again as some tears escaped his eyes. He then quickly made his way to the bathroom. They had been doing so well the past week and he had ruined it again.

Itachi sighed and then grabbed the box. He walked outside, not even caring about putting on his jacket and started walking.

Sasuke desperately pulled off his bloodied clothes and threw them in a corner. He turned on the shower and got under it, not bothered by how cold it was. He just wanted that blood off him now. He hated this. Itachi probably despised him now.

That evening, Neji was sitting in his room and called Sasuke. He had had a busy evening, with Kurenai giving him lectures about what he had done, he had done some homework and he had made a few appointments for his work. He now let the phone ring.

After a little while, the phone was answered.

"Yeah-lo." Sasuke said, from the other side of the phone. He was laying on his bed a little awkwardly.

"..Sasuke?" Neji asked, frowning.

"Yeah, whattup?" Sasuke asked, his words slurring.

"..What's wrong with you?" Neji asked. "Are you alright?"

"..I'm fine.. Who is this hn?" Sasuke asked and suddenly a loud thud was heard. "Wow.. I thought my bed was larger.." Sasuke said.

"..It's Neji.. did you drink?" Neji asked.

"Well of course I did, I can't live without fluids now can I?" Sasuke slurred and laughed a little.

"..I'll call you back tomorrow." Neji said, sighing.

"Why babe?" Sasuke asked, still laying on the floor. "Don't you wanna talk to me?"

"Of course I do, but not when you're drunk." Neji said. "You should go to sleep."

"Where did you get the idea I was drunk?" Sasuke asked, putting up an innocent voice. "I could come to your place? Yeah I'll do that."

"Sasuke no that's too dangerous." Neji said, frowning, a little worried. "And you're drunk, I can hear that."

"I'll see you tonight babe." Sasuke said and you could hear him getting up and throwing some stuff over. "Now where did I leave my shoes?" He mumbled.

"Sasuke act normal, don't you dare to come here." Neji said.

"I'll see you soon. I'll find your place." Sasuke said and then hung up.

Neji stared at his phone now and then tried calling Sasuke, but Sasuke didn't pick up the phone. He tried another time, and another time, but Sasuke didn't react. Neji put the phone away with a sigh. He hoped Sasuke would just fall asleep onto his bed.

That night, Neji woke up because someone rang the doorbell at his door. He frowned and sat up in his bed. He looked at his clock. It was three at night. Which idiot was ringing his door at this time? Neji frowned as the person rang the bell once again. Perhaps it was Sasuke. If that was the case, he should open the door. Neji now walked downstairs and towards the door. He unlocked it and then opened it, and there stood Sasuke. Neji frowned. Sasuke had a bottle of strong alcohol in his left hand, was soaked from the rain and looked very pale.

"..Sasuke?" He asked, worried. "Don't stand there like that, come in." He quickly pulled Sasuke inside and then closed the door, locking it again.

Sasuke looked at Neji for a while and then pushed him against the wall. He took a sip of his bottle and then kissed Neji, barely able to find Neji's mouth.

Neji frowned and then pushed Sasuke off of him.

"Sasuke, you're drunk." He said, putting up a disgusted face as he tasted the alcohol. He took Sasuke's arm and took him with him towards the livingroom. "You should lay down. And you have to take a shower."

Sasuke turned Neji around now and pushed him on the couch.

"Come on. Don't you wanna know what it's like to fuck a drunk guy?" Sasuke slurred, putting his hands under Neji's night shirt.

"Not really." Neji said as he pushed Sasuke off of him. "Seriously Sasuke." He frowned, and then took Sasuke upstairs with him, towards the bathroom. Sasuke just needed to be cleaned and then he should sleep.

But Sasuke tripped Neji on the stairs and sat down on top of him. He kissed Neji again and fidgeted with his pants.

"Sasuke I'm serious, get off of me." Neji snapped as he pushed Sasuke's hands away from him, but the alcohol obviously made Sasuke stronger then he had expected. "You need to take a shower and then sleep."

"I need to fuck you and then just drink some more." Sasuke said, grabbing Neji's hands and pushing them above his head. He now pulled down Neji's pants.

"Sasuke no, get the hell off of me!" Neji yelled as he started struggling.

"No." Sasuke said as he pulled off his own pants. "Just stay still."

Neji started kicking Sasuke now.

"Sasuke stop it!" He yelled, and then succeeded in pushing Sasuke off of him. He then hurried upwards the stairs, in his underwear. This wasn't good, Sasuke had snapped.

It took some time for Sasuke to comprehend what had just happened, but then he crawled up and followed Neji.

"Come back Neji!" He said and since he was still holding his bottle, he drank some more of it.
Neji frowned as he turned around and then looked at Sasuke. He then pressed him against the wall.

"Sasuke, act normal." He snapped. "You don't want to do this, I'm sure of that. I warn you one last time."

Sasuke looked at Neji with a crazy look in his eyes and then pushed Neji down onto the floor and sat on top of him.

"I 'do' wanna do this. Whether you want it or not." He snapped and pushed Neji's hands above his head again.

Neji glared at Sasuke and then started struggling.

"You told me you love me and that you never wanted me to be hurt." Neji said.

Sasuke laughed now.

"I never said I love you. I said I maaaaaybe fell in love with you." Sasuke said and took another gulp of his drink. Some of it ran down his chin and fell onto Neji.

"Now, if you would just not struggle, I'm sure I won't hurt you." Sasuke said and smirked as he started pulling off Neji's underwear.

"Seriously, stop it." Neji snapped as he struggled even more wild now. He then suddenly kicked Sasuke as hard as he could into his crouch.

Sasuke grabbed to his crouch as he let out a groan and then sat back, holding it. Goddammit that hurt.

"Urgh... you f-frigging bastard." Sasuke groaned and glared at Neji.

Neji quickly got up now and sprinted towards his room. He then slammed the door closed, locking it. He sought for his phone now. This was getting out of hand. Sasuke wanted to rape him and he was far away with his mind. He now called 911.

Sasuke got up as well now and threw his liqueur to Neji's door, breaking the bottle.

"Get out of there! You frigging bastard, I'll kill you!" Sasuke yelled and banged on the door.

In the mean time, Neji's call was answered.

"911 speaking, what can I do for you?" The voice of a woman said.

"I need the police please." Neji said, as he looked at the door, frowning.

"Get out of there!" Sasuke yelled furious. He was banging so hard, the door could break from it.

"May I ask what you need the police for?" The woman asked calmly.

"My boyfriend has lost control over himself and wants to rape me." Neji said, talking a little faster. He was actually getting scared now.. "He's trying to get in my room now and threatens me. I don't want to hurt him, but I need him to stop, please let someone come!"

"Please give me your address." The woman said, still talking calmly.

"Let. Me. In!" Sasuke yelled and the door started to show cracks. It could break at any time now probably.

Neji quickly gave the woman the address and told her to hurry up, before he put off the phone and started to search for something he could defend himself with. He found his old bat and then held it in front of him. He wasn't planning on using it, he only hoped to be able to get Sasuke away from him.

It took Sasuke just a few more punches before the door broke and he walked in, storming to Neji.

"Did you just call the police on me!" Sasuke yelled furious.

"Yes, I don't want you to do this to me." Neji snapped, as he held the bat in front of him. "Leave me alone."

Sasuke laughed again.

"Do you really think a stupid bat will keep me from doing what I want?" Sasuke snapped. "You can hit me all you want, I don't care." He now walked forwards, moving towards Neji.

Neji frowned.

"Stay away from me." He snapped back, still holding the bat in front of me, as he made some moves with it, trying to scare Sasuke.

Sasuke just laughed some more and then suddenly pulled the bat away and then grabbed Neji by the hand, pushing him down. The second Neji was on the floor, Sasuke hit him in the face.

"Now you try calling the cops on me again." He snapped angry.

Neji let out a yelp, as he shielded his face away from Sasuke.

"Sasuke get off of me!" He yelled, struggling again.

"No! You said you were in love with me, then you call the cops! You're just an asshole so you'll pay!" Sasuke said, starting to hit Neji over and over, in the face and in the stomach.

Neji let out yelps of pain as he kept trying to shield himself from Sasuke, but it didn't help. Sasuke was far too strong for him.

"I a-am in love with you, I just don't want you to wake u-up after this and feel guilty!" Neji yelled. "Stop it!"

"No!" Sasuke yelled and continued to hit Neji for a while longer. But then he suddenly was yanked away from Neji.

"Help that guy!" A low voice yelled. Sasuke started struggling against the arms that were holding him.

Neji was helped up now and saw there were four police men in the room. One of them was handcuffing Sasuke now.

"..Thanks for c-coming." Neji said, as he wiped the blood off of his face, a little dizzy.

Sasuke was struggling against the cop and then glared at Neji.

"See what you did you frigging bastard! I'm gonna go to jail because of you!" Sasuke yelled furious and then suddenly started laughing. "Isn't that funny! You say you love me and then send me to jail!" He laughed some more.

"Are you ok sir?" One of the police men asked Neji.

Neji looked at Sasuke hurt and then looked to the ground.

"..Yes.. I'm ok." Neji softly said, nodding.

"Let's get this guy out of here." An other police man said and started taking Sasuke with him.

Sasuke struggled for a little longer, but then just let the police take him away.

"We need you to come with us and give us a declaration." One of the men said.

Neji nodded.

"Alright.. can I dress first then?" He asked.

"Of course. We will wait by the door." The police man said and then they all left.

Sasuke in the mean time was put in a police car.

Neji nodded as he dressed, a bit shaky, and then grabbed his jacket and keys.

He walked downstairs and then got into the other police car. He sighed. Shit. Why did this have to happen? Couldn't something just not go wrong?