Chapter 11

When Logan woke the next morning he was still sitting in the chair next to Kendall's bed. He shook his head, wincing from the stiffness of sleeping upright all night, and stood, stretching. He looked towards the bed where Kendall was still sleeping peacefully. He smiled to himself and looked around for the others. He checked his watch to see it was only 8.50 and the visiting hours weren't for another 40 minutes.

He went to the foot of Kendall's bed and checked his chart. He didn't realise that Kendall had woken. He watched as Logan checked everything in detail glancing at the machines above Kendall every now and again. He looked so serious and focused Kendall didn't want to disturb him. Logan looked up after he put the chart away and realised Kendall was watching him and blush slightly.

"How long have you been awake?" he asked, walking around to sit on the right side of the bed.

"A few minutes..." Kendall said, not taking his eyes off Logan, who was starting to feel abit self conscious.

"What?" he asked. He could see something in Kendall's eyes that he couldn't place.

"Nothing I just...I thought maybe I dreamt you said you were going to stay. When I woke up, I was afraid that, well maybe you left me this time" Kendall whispered. Logan leaned in and kissed him lightly.

"Like I said, I'm not going anywhere" he smiled and Kendall had to smile back. "But someone who you may not see in awhile is Carlos" he said, laughing as Kendall's face fell to a pout. "Oh come on, you know Carlos is a good guy. He won't hurt Katie"

"I know but, it's the rule" he said, looking up at Logan's confusion he explain "The brother rule. You don't like the guy that dates your sister"

"But you do, in fact you love him like a brother" Kendall shuddered and Logan laughed.

"What now?"

"You just said my as good as brother is dating my sister" Logan thought for a second and laughed.

"Ok bad choice of words, but you know what I mean...Carlos will look after Katie"

"He better" Kendall mumbled. He caught Logan's look and sighed "Fine, I'll try and be happy for them"

"Good hockey star" Logan smiled.

"Not with this leg" Kendall said looking down at the cast on his leg.

"Well aren't we Mr. Pesamistic this morning!" Logan said. Kendall sighed and smiled.

"You're right, I am. I'm sorry. So how about we not focus on the negative things and focus on what's important, like us!" Logan smiled and nodded.

"I agree" Dylan came in then to check Kendall. Logan knew he was still getting use to the idea but he managed to hide it well enough. Kendall was informed he would need another CT scan before they would allow him to leave so he said a quick goodbye to Logan and was wheeled away.

Logan decided to get some breakfast and headed to the cafeteria. He got his food and sat down. There were only a few people in the cafeteria at this hour, mostly family members who, like him, had stayed overnight with loved ones. One or two looked at him as he walked by and he swore the looks he received were less than friendly. Thinking it must be in his head he sat down and ate without any drama. Once finished he headed back towards Kendall's room.

Some of the doctors and nurse greeted him like usual, others ignored him or barely nodded in acknowledgement when he passed. Ok, something is deffenatly going on, he thought to himself. He arrived on Kendall's ward and greeted Becky, who was sitting at the station.

"To quote you, do you ever go home?" he asked jokingly. She glanced up at him and smiled.

"Yes but unlike you, I look forward to going home, rather than staying here..." she replied.

"Well, something tells me that may change" Logan said with a smile. "Have the others come yet?" he asked looking at his watch which read just after 9.35.

"Not yet but Kendall's back. Apparently they managed to get him in and out pretty quickly" Logan smiled and eagerly made his way to Kendall's room. As he approached he heard talking.

"Kendall, what happened? What's the deal with Rob being arrested?" an unknown male voice came from the room.

"He tried to have my sister and my friend arrested" Kendall said back.

"For what?" a 2nd unknown voice asked. Logan remained outside the door listening.

"After I woke up some, things, from my past came up I decided to do what I should have done a long time ago"

"Kendall, that doesn't make any sense" the first voice spoke again.

"Look, Rob came after I woke and he said some things and Katie and my friend hit him"

"What did he say?" Kendall mumbled something that Logan didn't hear but didn't need to.

"Doesn't matter? Kendall the team has already been shook by your accident and now the guy who looks after the team is in jail to do with, how did the press say it 'issues involving Kendall Knight'. We're your team, we deserve to know"

Logan decided he should see if Kendall needed help. He knocked on the door frame lightly, causing three heads to look at him. One of the guys was tall and blonde, burly like most hockey players. His face looked angry and older then he expected he was, Logan assumed mid 20's. The other was of the same age but he had light brown hair, cut like Kendall's. He was sitting but Logan knew he was tall. Kendall looked up at him and motioned for him to come in.

"I'm not interupting?" he asked. Kendall shook his head but the first man spoke.

"Actually, could you wait outside a minute, um...?" he waited for an answer.

"Logan, Mitchell. I was in the band with Kendall" He said "and it wasn't Kendall who got Rob arrested, it was me" Kendall looked between them and sighed.

"Logan this is Jake Parton" he said pointing to the brunette "and this is Steven Jenkins" he said pointing to the man who was looking angrily at Logan.

"You? Why did you have him arrested?" he asked. Logan looked at Kendall to see if he should tell or not, but Kendall spoke.

"See Logan's black eye? Rob sent two guys to his apartment to beat him up and warn him to stay away from me"

"What?" Jake asked shocked "Wh...why would he do that?"

"Kendall..." Logan was about to say he didn't have to tell them. Logan understood the consequences of people knowing about Kendall and he wanted to be sure Kendall understood but he was cut off by him.

"No, Logan, for 13 years I've been lying and for 7 years I've been a coward. I need to let people know" he said softly.

"Kendall?" Steven pressed. Kendall looked him straight in the eye while he spoke.

"7 years ago, Logan and me...we were together, like a couple and we were getting married but when I told Rob he freaked and said that if I didn't leave Logan he would be hurt. So I did. When I was in the crash Friday night and was brought here, Logan was my doctor but then Rob recognised him and tried to have him fired...When I woke up I told Logan everything and when Rob turned up Logan hit him and then Katie did! He was trying to keep us apart"

Silence followed after Kendall's little speech. Both of his team mates were stunned. Jake looked plain confused but Steven had started piecing it together and was getting angrier by the second. Jake seemed to find his voice first though.

"So you're..." was all he managed so Kendall finished it for him.

"Gay?" He treded his hand through Logan's and smiled up at him "Yup"

"That's...not I thought I would hear" Jake said, sitting back in his chair. Kendall smiled at him. Jake was a good guy, he was one of the few team mates he knew he could count on. Nonetheless he smiled at Kendall. Unlike the other man.

"You can say that again" Steven spat at them. "I can't believe it...I thought you were better then that Knight"

"Why because I like guys makes me any less than you? I'm not sorry for what or who I am Steven. The only thing I regret is not calling the cops on Rob years ago"

"From here it looks like he was looking out for your career. He was protecting the team!" Steven said.

"The only person Rob Samualls cares about is himself. He TOLD me that the only reason he wanted me to stay was to make him money" Logan could tell that Kendall was getting angry and the last thing he needed now was high blood pressure.

"Kendall calm down" he said, rubbing his hand over Kendall's one.

"Stay out this fag" Steven spat. Logan couldn't help the small flinch that caught him and if Kendall was angry before, he was beyond mad now.

"What did you call him?" he asked in a very low demanding voice. Steven stood, as bold as brass, like he had done nothing wrong. Kendall glared at him so hard Logan was surprised he was still standing. He could see it was crippling Kendall he couldn't stand and try and kill Steven, not that he didn't try. Logan caught him by the shoulders and pushed him back.

"Kendall? Kendall! Look at me, at me" he said taking Kendall's face. Kendall, breath ragged, glanced up at him. "I'm ok, it's just a word"

"No Logan, it's not just a word"

"Yes it is" Logan said, taking Kendall's face. "I'm fine, look, still standing. Something you will not be if you leave this bed...Now do you want to come home?" Kendall nodded "Well you will stay in this bed or else you'll be in here for a long time" Kendall nodded again. He looked up at Steven who smirked.

"This isn't over" Kendall spat at him.

"What you gonna do?" Kendall despite promising a few seconds, made to move again but Logan pushed him back and rounded on Steven. He glared up at him, being 3 inches shorter.

"I want you to leave!" he said in a low tone. "Before I call sercurity"

"Make me, fag!" Kendall looked so mad, Logan was surprised there wasn't smoke coming out his ears.

"No, Kendall. Don't give him the satisfaction" He turned back to Steven "Now leave"

"Come on man, lets just..."Jake started but was cut off.

"No, wait. I want to see how he's going to make me leave" Steven said crossing his arms triumphantly. Logan smirked before turning to Kendall, who was glaring so much at Steven he didn't register what Logan was doing until his lips were on Kendall's. All negative thoughts were gone and the only thing that kept him from killing Steven was kissing Logan. He didn't register the disgusted grunt that came from somewhere behind Logan. All too soon, Logan pulled away. He looked up to see only Jake standing there with a bemused expression on his face.

"Genius" he said simply, smiling at them. He could see Kendall wanted to say something but he got there first. "I don't care, ok. My brother's gay so whatever. You helped me alot when I first started and you deserve to be happy...I'll try and make the others see that too"

"Thank you" Was all Kendall said and Jake held up a hand and left them alone. Logan looked back at Kendall, a very proud look on his face.

"I think that plan definately worked" he said smugly. Kendall chuckled softly, raising a hand to Logan's face, becoming serious again.

"Are you sure you're ok?" When Logan sighed he knew the answer. "Like you said, he's not worth it, ok? I love you" He knew that Logan wanted to take this slow but it didn't mean he didn't still love him.

"I love you too" Logan replied.

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Kendall was being released the following afternoon. It was now after 10 and Logan and Kendall were talking waiting for the others to come. They were later then usual today. It was almost 20 past went they arrived. As soon as the four entered they knew something was wrong.

"What happened?" Logan asked. James looked at Carlos once before handing over a newspaper to Logan who took a look at the front cover before a low growl came from his throat.

"How many more of these?" he fummed.

"What is it?"

"Here" he said passing the newspaper to Kendall. On the front cover was a picture of Kendall in his recent Hockey game and a picture of Logan from the other day, with the heading. "BIG TIME LOVER" Kendall read the first few lines and looked up.

"How many more?" he repeated.

"Almost every newspaper has the story..." Mrs. Knight said. Logan looked up at Kendall to see he hadn't moved. Logan took his hand carefully.

"Kendall?" he looked up at the contact and sighed. Logan could tell he was upset and small tears came to the cornor of his eyes.

"I just...I feel like they took something from me...I needed to tell them and...I know I should be okay that it's out there now but" he looked away for a second and Logan felt a rush of anger towards whoever had said something.

"They had no right to print this!" he said holding the paper up "Does it say who said it?"

"No, just that an anonymous source called and told them everything about you guys, sorry Kendall" James said.

"But we have good news" Katie said, sitting next to her brother.

"What?" Kendall asked looking up. He needed good news.

"Rob Samuall's was charged last night" Logan and Kendall smiled.

"What did he get?" Logan asked.

"Assualt causing GBH, threatening on 2 counts and embelzzlement" Mrs. Knight said.

"Embezzlement?"

"Something you told the police made them suspicious. When you said he had bet alot of money they looked into it and found he was taking money from the team and betting with it" Kendall sat there quietly. Logan gripped his hand and smiled.

"Are you ok?"

"I fine" he said. He really didn't understand why he was so upset that someone else had outed him. He knew that was what most people in his situation wanted, not to have to say it. But Kendall saw it as a way of making it up to Logan, proving he would do anything for him, even if it meant his career.

Mrs. Knight kissed her son's head and dropped his bag on the bed. Well at least he could go home, he thought. The others left while Logan helped Kendall change and then it was a wating game until Dylan came in with the discharge papers.

"Now, I'll see you in 3 weeks so we can have a look at your leg and we'll see how we go from their" Kendall shook his hand as he left and with an arm from James got into the wheelchair, allowing him to push it while Logan walked next to him. They got to the main lobby when Kendall asked James to stop when he saw the cameras outside. He really didn't want to face them but he knew he had to. Logan kneeled next to him.

"Kendall, if you don't want them to know just, say that it's all lies...I'll go along with it if you're not ready" Kendall looked up at him wide eyes.

"Logan, I want to tell people but that just it. I wanted to tell them, to show you I meant it when I said I love you"

"I know you mean it, but if you want to say it's all lies and tell them later I understand"

"NO! I can do this, we can do this" Logan nodded and kissed Kendall quickly. He knew he had been spotted when the lobby of the hospital became suddenly brighter from flashing lights behind them. He laughed.

"Whoops, my bad" he whispered, causing Kendall to smile. He stood and moved to the back to the chair, taking it from James and pushing it towards the door. Once the doors opened the media converged. Question after question were thrown at them. After 2 minutes of trying to get through them Logan stopped.

"HEY!" The noise around him stopped and reporters looked at him anxiously. None of them seemed to care how pissed he looked. "MOVE BACK, I NEED TO GET THE CHAIR THROUGH!" A small gap appeared and Logan pushed his way through, heading to Mrs. Knight's car. With a little difficulty The managed to get Kendall in, Logan jumping in back while Katie left with Carlos and James. Now there was the debate as to where Kendall would stay.

Of course Mrs. Knight wanted Kendall at home where she could look after him, but the house was too small for the chair. Carlos offered seeing as his apartment was bigger but had no elevator access. Logan knew his apartment was perfect but he wasn't sure if it was habitable since the attack. For now they were headed to Katie's, which was somewhere in between. Kendall could get in using his crutches and landed on the couch in a huff. Not 10 minutes later he was asleep. Logan quickly grabbed his phone and rang the police department and asked if he could go back to his apartment. He got a call 20 minutes later to say he could that all the evidence needed was got. So he grabbed James and Carlos and headed over.

He opened the door and sighed sadly as he looked at all the broken frames on the walls. He went into the kitchen and returned with a plastic bag and a tubberware box for photo's. It took 2 hours to be sure that there was no broken glass around anywhere and the place was habitable again. Logan couldn't help the frown that came at looking at the blank walls. He closed the door again, this time heading to his forgotten car and headed back to Katie's to find Kendall awake and confused.

"Where were you? I woke up and mom said you were gone"

"I went to do something, but we have a place for you to stay..."

"Where?"

"My place" he said "if you want to. He have an elevator and it's big enough"

"You don't mind having me back?" Kendall asked and Logan shook his head there.

"Nope, you belong there. We bought it together, remember. It's as much yours and mine...so do you want to?"

"Yes please" Kendall said. They ate at Katie's before Logan and Kendall left for their place. It felt right to say it again but Logan couldn't help but hear the small voice of warning in his head about Kendall. He hurt you once, it repeated over again but Logan tried his best to ignore it. He helped Kendall out and was glad to see they hadn't been followed by the press. Logan opened the door and Kendall wheeled himself in, smiling.

"You never changed it?" he asked. Logan shrugged.

"Never wanted to" Kendall yawned and Logan pushed him to the main room and help him get ready for bed. Once he was settled Logan made a split desicion.

"Well goodnight" he said, kissing Kendall once before pulling away, and walking to the door.

"You're not staying?" Kendall asked sadly, and Logan shook his head.

"Not tonight, Kendall. I love you, believe me its just...I need to be sure I'm ready before we start getting back to where we were, do you understand?"

"Yea, I do...I hurt you and excuse or not, I did...Of course it's going to take time for you to be comfortable again" Logan smiled and kissed him a second time.

"I love you"

"I love you too Logie"

When Logan got into his bed that night all he could think about was Kendall and where their relationship would go. Kendall remained awake too, worrying if he could make Logan see that he would not hurt him again. He had an idea and smiled before closing his eyes, feeling at home again.