Withering away

EPOV

I spent the hours with my eyes glued to the glass, which was a worthless cause considering every thing was a white blur.

Edward walked by only to gaze into the back of my head and walk away with a sigh, he had given up on telling me she would turn up when she was ready.

My whole body shook with sobs that couldn't allow the closure of tears, that should have been streaming down my face.

I was so stupid, sure that kiss…. It was beyond belief but it still hurt Rose.. something I promised myself I would never do.

Feeling like a worthless nobody my thoughts traveled to more pain,

did she hate me??, could we even be friends now??, How bad had I broken her??, and the worst of all Was she ever coming back??.

I looked up suddenly when just over the screaming wind I could have sworn I heard a crunch.

It didn't seem like I could run fast enough until I saw her trudging through the snow with the most agonizing look on her face that made me wince.

I jumbled all my thoughts together as she looked up into my face

"Rose, are you ok……what happened I-I'm……I'm so sorry"

I stammered as I tried to say everything at once. It took me forever just to compose the sentence as I paused in between thoughts.

The voice that spoke I hardly recognized it was so filled with fear and pain it made my insides crumble.

"I'm fine…I-I'm just going to warm up in my room for awhile"

She quickly turned to my right and started to walk away, As soon as she turned her face from mine I felt like the world was darker.

My hand shot to her shoulder as I searched for the right words coming up with the only ones I could think to ask

"Rose are you sure…your ok?"

Her shoulder flinched away from my hand as she turned the most horrible glare I had ever seen on to me.

Before she could yell anything she recomposed her face into a heartbreaking frown, probably seeing the tears that had gathered in my eyes, she was kind to the one that had caused her more injury to her broken heart.

" Please Emmett I just…. Let me go…. please"

As her voice cracked it continued to crack my heart.

She was gone before I could stop her, leaving me to break down in the snow. I almost stayed there hoping to get buried beneath the snow, now of all times was the first I wished I wasn't immortal.

Maybe taking myself out was what needed to happen and being selfish I walked back to the house back into the life of someone who was better off with out me, I just didn't see myself living without her…..ever.

What meet me at the house almost made me dash up to her room, which would only make everything worse.

Sobs echoed through out the house making my own body shake with silent cries.

Determination sent me up the stairs I would tell her sorry and leave but when I finally did peep into her room, I couldn't do it I had to try once more and see if I could help and if she started to wither away I'd leave.

The night seemed to last forever as the haunting thoughts seemed to swallow me in to the darkness, the only light that kept me from falling was the image of Rosalie with one of her signature smiles, the one I barely ever saw and now probably would never see.

Her face kept my hopes up even when they seemed so small, she was my warmth that kept me in the light for the endless hours till dawn.

When day finally came I was surprised to see Rose in the living room, my heart almost burst as I thought the impossible, she's forgiven me.

It was only until I looked into her eyes that were so far away and filled with sorrow that I realized she was only down her to stay sane and please…me.

My insides fought a war of emotions as I hated myself for her forgiveness, I wanted to comfort her so badly and it was something I couldn't do.

I sat the farest I could from her frail body she looked so drained of life…

I looked into her eyes that flashed pain as she realized how close I was.

The only thing I could think to do was to try to get her to talk to me, so I could see just how bad the extent of the damage was….

My conversation include simple subjects at first "Nice weather, wasn't it??, Are you going shopping soon??, How much longer to you think spring will take??.

How she answered was what killed me, her voice lacked any cheer…. It held no emotion as she quickly answered yes or no.

She didn't seem to even really see me when she answered, my determination flared as I tried talking about my family trying to get more then one word answers.

Maybe if I got her to talk she'd open up.

My attempts where useless, she replied with the quickest, shortest response, never giving opinion she showed no breakthrough or any sign that I was helping.

I spent days trying never getting anything to give me hope, only the fact that deep down I knew Rose was there.

I just wasn't sure if I was ever going to be able bring it out or if my departure would…

I spent the next days wallowing in my room, I didn't even bother coming down to see Rose, she was better off without me.

I spent the hours thinking of when I would leave and where, I had no family anymore I was dead my funeral had been in the paper.

I knew no one that knew I was still alive besides the Cullens.

My mind finally battered down the choices to just going and exploring the world, what did I have to lose, I couldn't die, at lest not to easily.

My leave was the next morning before Rose even got up, I knew as soon as I saw her face I'd convince myself I needed to stay.

The next morning I walked down the stairs as quietly as I could hoping I wouldn't have to face anyone I didn't know how much self control would keep me from staying.

I sighed in relief as my hand made it to the back door when Edward came around the corner

"Emmett… what's going on??."

I turned to the confusion that showed plain as a day on Edwards face.

"I'm leaving"

And then before he could convince me otherwise, I was running, about a mile away my heart tore wide open, it took the thought that Rose was better off to keep me going and it still seemed like such a silly reason to be so far away from her…

My surroundings blurred as I walked deeper into the forest, my heart turned against all rational thoughts.

It all ended the same with the conclusion that I loved Rose and I'd have to make her realize she had no reason to avoid or love me.

Being friends was enough , even if I'd always secretly urge for so much more.

My heart quickly shut up the shouts of how stupid I was being as I turned around to head bac-

The sight before me was one that left me speechless, I melted under her simple touch, I almost fell apart when she whispered my name, she came after me, maybe she did lov-

No she couldn't.

"Emmett…".

And then I saw it all the pain still lingering on her features I couldn't stay and watch her slowly fall to nothing.

I breathed in a small breath and then turned hiding any emotions that would cause her to feel sorry for me, she had no reason to bring doom to herself.

My fist tightened as she gasped taking in my appearance.

I sighed her name trying not to break down and beg for her to let me stay.

" Rose…."

"Emmett, don't leave"

She looked so broken her voice squeaked.

My hands yearned to reach out to her, one hug wouldn't hurt.

For one moment I let feeling show through, quickly gathering it together I explained why I had to leave.

"Rose, I thought I could heal you but all I'm doing is making it worse…….I can't stay, its killing you."

I looked up thinking she'd nod and turn back to the house, my face twisted as I realize this was exactly what I hoped wouldn't happen.

"Emmett your helping…..its me…not you"

I took a small step forward and for a quick moment I imagined what would happen if I continued forward, it could go either way she could fall hopelessly in love with me…or get finished off with the final blow.

I turned my back and started to walk away giving her three words as a reply

"I'm sorry, Rose"

She was sobbing I almost turned to give her one last glance when four words rammed the shield I'd put over my heart

" I love you, Emmett"

There was no way I heard her right, I turned to face her and stepped forward as she fell.

I grabbed her arms as she fell , and looked into her eyes……

there was finally something in them looking back at me, it filled my heart with the same love that was now gazing back at me.

A/N: Vote now on ur favorite chapter of rosalie's protector i really value ur opnion and im curious to see which one u guys like best. hope u like this chapter i'm thinking the next in rose's POV but if u perfered Emmett's or both plz tell me by reviewing. Any ideas would be soo appricated this story is getting harder and harder to write. hence my chapters take longer, but ideas would bring chapters quicker. ok I'll quit babbling, more soon(;

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