AN: Hey y'all. So this is a short chapter, because I have hella midterms going on right now, but I felt bad about leaving such a long gap after that cliffhanger, so I'm putting this up! The next chapter should be up within a week because my tests will be over soon.
I also wanted to say thank you so much for your response to the last chapter. I felt extremely excited to see how many reviews I got on that chapter, more than ever before, and all of your comments, positive and critical, really help engage me. So thanks a bunch!
Finally, I wanted to address something many of you mentioned in your responses. Although it may not seem like it right now, this is and will be an Eren x Levi fanfic. I don't particularly like Mikasa, but I planned a storyline that I'm going to follow. So there will be plenty of Ereri and fluff eventually, you just have to wait a little. :)
"Get out of my house. Now."
Eren stilled upon hearing these words, his blood pounding and his mind becoming hazy. Levi was kicking him out?
"What are you waiting for? You have no reason to stay here anymore, if your heart is clearly elsewhere. The door is open for you." Levi said evenly, only his burning eyes relaying how angry he really was.
"Levi, I'm not leaving without explaining the situation to you. I've made that mistake before."
Levi appraised him quietly and then walked closer to him, glaring intensely. Then he sat down on his chair from before, crossing his legs and leaning back casually.
"Fine then. I'm listening. Explain whatever the hell it is you want to explain." Levi said with a sneer. Eren fidgeted nervously. Levi had always been intimidating, but this was unlike anything he had ever seen from the man before. It seemed the man always let his gentler side come out around Eren, but right now he was threatening, almost sinister.
Eren took a deep breath and stilled his trembling hands before pouring his heart out.
"Levi, I'd be lying if I said I didn't feel anything for you. I like you, I really do. It's just… I broke up with her even though she never actually cheated on me. I just misunderstood her and pushed her away. She suffered and it was all my fault. I feel like I need to make it up to her." Eren stopped to collect his thoughts before continuing hurriedly, his words mumbled and quick. "And she was my first love.. I just can't seem to forget her. I really tried to get over her but I couldn't and I hate myself for it and I want to make you happy but-"
"Eren. Stop." Levi said firmly, cutting off Eren's rambling.
Eren, who had apparently gotten lost in his words, looked up with confusion. "Wh-what?"
"It's okay. Calm down." Levi said. All anger had disappeared from his features, his voice back to its cool, silky texture.
"I can't force you to feel something strong like love for me. Love is not something you can control. Just like I couldn't stop myself from falling for you, no matter how much I tried."
Eren gazed at him with his large turquoise eyes. His expression was unreadable, something that surprised Levi. He had gotten so used to being able to read Eren openly that it was unusual to see the boy so guarded.
Levi continued. "If you think about it, you would've gone back eventually anyway, even if your ex wasn't in the way. You'd have to go back to college, your friends.. your home. Something between the two of us would be impractical. I'm older than you. You deserve someone youthful. I live across the ocean. It's inconvenient at best."
Eren's eyes were downcast as he mulled it over. "Yeah.. I guess you're right." He couldn't help but notice the irony in their situation. Hadn't Eren come today prepared to leave? Then why was Levi the one convincing a reluctant Eren that leaving was the right decision? It was supposed to be the other way around.
"Is there anything that needs wrapping up then?" Eren asked, looking to his mentor for instructions.
"You should gather up all the things you have around here. The drawings you want to take home, and some clothes lying around."
They worked together in silence, sorting through Eren's works of art and packing them safely into the small bag he'd brought with him. Eren marveled at the man next to him. He was collected and stoic as always. Was he really no longer upset that Eren was leaving?
When Eren came across his nude portrait, Levi snatched it from his hands quickly.
"That's for me to keep." he said shortly, his cheeks slightly flushed as he made a point not to meet Eren's eyes, turning his attention back to the task at hand.
It dawned on Eren that Levi was not indifferent to this situation at all. He was simply hiding his feelings, in effort to give Eren a sense of autonomy. Levi did not want Eren to feel forced into making a decision, so he kept his own opinions hidden. His only lapse was his initial display of anger and fury that he quickly overcame. It was noble, really and Eren had to stop himself from staring at the man next to him in awe.
When they finished packing up Eren's belongings, the workspace Eren had grown so accustomed to looked eerily empty. No more strewn papers, tossed sketches, or eraser shavings. Just a clear desk. The way it had been when he first came here so many weeks ago, eager to learn art and completely enchanted by the man known as Levi. A man that now loved him.
Levi turned to him and spoke softly, interrupting his thoughts. "So, I guess we really are the sun and moon, huh? We weren't destined to be together. Fate would have it that somebody came before me. I guess I was destined to admire you from afar, like the sun would the moon."
Eren found himself shuddering at Levi's words, unable to form a response. Memories flooded through him, memories of that day in the swimming pool when he had so boldly pursued Levi, thinking the metaphor of sun and moon could aid him in his quest. And now that very metaphor was the mark of goodbye.
Levi didn't wait for Eren to respond. "Can I have one last dance?" he asked instead, and the look in his eyes was so earnest and serious that Eren would have been a fool to refuse.
"Of course" he all but whispered.
The song that Levi put on was sensual, ethereal. Eren felt Levi's hands on his waist and the familiar feeling of being whisked in time to the music. Levi's body molded into his own as they spun endlessly, lost in the unfeeling time of eternity with nothing but the music to propel them forward.
And then Eren felt Levi's breath hot against his neck and he realized with a start that Levi was singing along with the chorus. Levi's voice was mind-numbingly wonderful, just another natural talent that made the man unrealistically perfect, even god-like.
Cause you're beautiful,
Something in your eyes tells me
I have found
Love that never dies
I don't have to dream,
Reality is beautiful in you.
I've never felt more true.
Eren was stunned. He had never imagined that Levi felt so strongly about him. He was what made the world beautiful for Levi, and the prospect brought tears to his eyes. He buried his face into Levi's shoulder and let the tears fall freely as Levi held him close, gently swaying to the music.
"I'm sorry" Eren cried brokenly as he pulled himself up to look into Levi's eyes.
Levi said nothing, simply wiping away Eren's tears with the pads of his fingers. The music continued to flow as Levi reached up on his tiptoes and pressed his lips against Eren's softly. It wasn't a kiss, it was a question.
Eren responded to the question with fervor, pulling Levi into his arms to savor one last kiss.
It was decidedly gentle. The raw passion was all there, but it was quiet and breathy. Eren felt consumed as was always the case when he kissed Levi, but this time, he wasn't being consumed by raging lust and desire. He was being blanketed with affection and emotion in the slow, sweet movements of Levi's lips against his.
The song had long since ended when they broke apart. Their foreheads pressed together as they stared into each other's eyes. No words needed to be exchanged. The silence said it all.
Eren finally moved and slung his bag over his shoulder, turning his back to Levi. He took slow steps towards the door to the outside world, the door that had given him a new opportunity of discovery.
Levi's hoarse voice called out to him, stopping him. "Eren. Smile."
It was the last order Eren was to receive from his teacher, and he wanted to complete it as genuinely as possible.
Eren turned around to face Levi once again, his face splitting into a warm smile, his soft pink lips parting to reveal a row of pearly white teeth. Levi smiled faintly in response, his heart warming as the despondent, sorrowful boy he had just seen transformed into the cheeky, grinning brat that had charmed him from the very beginning.
Eren's brilliant smile dimmed, but his gaze lingered. "Bye, Levi" he managed to get out before turning around again.
"Bye." Levi murmured, his voice barely audible. He watched as Eren walked out the door and out of sight. He watched as his sun left him, taking all light with him.
And everything was black again.
AN: The song Eren and Levi dance to is called "Beautiful" by Late Night Alumni. It is really an amazing song and I highly recommend listening to it. Also, if I get reviews for this chapter like I did last time, I will be wildly happy. Thanks for reading!
