Note this story is going start to deal with severe Homophobia. As well as internalized homophobia.

"So how was your date with Dean?" Balthazar asked the next day of school.

"I told you that it wasn't a date."

"Yeah sure like I actually believe that."

"I wasn't. I was simply helping him study."

"What makes you think that a guy like Dean Winchester actually cares about good grades?"

"Why shouldn't he?" Cas asked confused not sure what Balthazar was trying to imply.

"A guy like him doesn't care about anything except for cars and chicks. The only reason that he would would pretend to care about books is so he could impress the girl that he's crushing on with how smart he really is."

"But I'm a guy." Cas said still confused about what Balthazar was trying to say.

"Glad we're clear about that." Balthazar said patting him on the shoulder.

"So why would he be trying to impress me since I'm a guy and he likes girls."

"Oh you think that Dean is straight?"

Cas just nodded his head because isn't he Cas thought. He's heard about all the rumors about all the girls that he hooks up with. Sometimes secretly he pictures himself with Dean doing whatever he does with those other fantasies only last a couple of seconds. They never do anything explicit because he feels guilty and impure. Besides what if God sees what he's thinking. He's sure to go to hell for his thoughts.

"Well then darling do I have some news for you. Dean is 100% bisexual."

"What does bisexual mean?" Cas asked confused because he's never heard of that term before.

"You've never heard of what bisexual means?"

Cas shook his head.

"Oh right of course you wouldn't. You're a sheltered little catholic boy. Sometimes I forget how innocent and naive about the world you really are."

Cas just glared at him not saying a single word.

"Right so anyway. You want to know how I know that our precious little Dean-o isn't 100% hetrosexual."

Cas just nodded his head.

"Because I've been with him once."

"What do you mean by with him?"

Balthazar let out a sigh and simply said "I've been with him like Lisa was."

Cas was speechless. He didn't know what to say.

"You're not mad at me are you? Because I had no clue that you had such a big crush on him. If you did I would've never done anything with him."

"I know you wouldn't. So of course I'm not mad at you." Cas said as Balthazar let a sigh of relief.

People may think that Balthazar is a jerk and Cas had to admit that he kind of he was. He was a really good friend though. He put his friendships above everything. One time Cas had a crush on this new guy Benny that had moved from somewhere in the south it sounded like. He told Bathalazar that he had a slight crush on him. Then Benny started hanging out with them a lot. Cas was sure that Benny was going to ask him out. Instead Benny asked Balthazar out. He knew about Cas's crush on Benny. So he said no. Cas didn't find out about that till later when they had a fight over something stupid. He can't even remember anymore. (Probably about how selfish Balthazar was.)That Balthazar angrily yelled "I gave up so much for you." Then Cas probably said something stupid along the lines of "Oh yeah like what?" After that Balthazar delivered the final line that destroyed Cas for a couple weeks. "Benny never like only reason that he was hanging out so much with us is because he wanted to get closer to me. You were just in the way like you always were. He also asked me out."

Cas started to cry after that. He ran to a secret room in the school that only he and Balthazar knew about at least to his knowledge. Was he really so unatrractive that no one would ever like him. Also why did he care so much about a man thought of him. Even though he did a crush on him. He kept repeating to himself "A man should not another man. The same way that a man should love a woman." That's what his dad kept saying whenever they saw a gay couple out in public. Balthazar found him and comforted him.

"Are you sure that he's really gay though? I mean couldn't he be just curious"

"Castiel, what's my rule?"

"Hook up with only guys that are clearly into dick."

"Right and he was clearly into dick."

The bell rang as they finished their conversation.

So Dean was really gay. Maybe he had a chance with him after all. No he didn't. He was just deluding himself. He was ugly. Dean needed to be with someone as pretty as him.

I'll just tutor him Cas swore. After this is done. I'll never talk or think of him again. Part of him knew that was never going to happen but he ignored that part as he headed to class.