Sooo…here I am again…I hope you guys haven't forgotten me or my story…so here it is…next-long expected chapter…don't forget to review…your comments always make it better…xD
"Fuck!" Sakura cursed out loud, for the first time that morning, as she was trying to fit the key in the door. And somehow it just wasn't fitting in! Actually it wasn't that hard. All she had to was to switch keys and enter the right one. But, whenever we're nervous, we often do a lot of crazy stuff that even themselves don't have an explanation. Just like this!
"Fuck!" the second one was when she finally understood what this was really all about. But now she just couldn't find the right key, so that's when it happened third time…
"Fuck! Where are you?" she swore in furious tone as she was trying her best not to yell. She managed to find the smallest key of them all, with little pink and black heart-shaped pendant featuring Yin and Yang. She angrily pushed the key in the keyhole and locked it…She turned her back to her front doors, and with the rapid pace jetted down the stairs. When she got to the bottom of the stairs, she remembered that she forgot the key in the lock. Great. She quickly turned around and jumping every other step climbed up take the key.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck…" and that's when I lost the count… For young pregnant women she swore too much…
Today, she had first official appointment with Tenten, and she was supposed to be at her office half an hour ago. So yeah, she was in big trouble…
She started making her way through the crowd, on her way to hospital. Being forced to speed up her pace she accidentally bunched into few people. She quickly shouted them a short but sincere 'sorry' and started her run to the hospital…
Before she disappeared from the sight into the mixing crowd of busy people, the last person she hit, carefully observed her every move answering to her 'sorry' with a silent and unnoticed "Hn."
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"One…" Tenten was on the edge to explode at everything or anybody that tried to catch her attention. She was silently sitting in Sakura's empty office and waited for her to finally appear. The only company kept her muffled sounds of her nervous tapping foot on the floor.
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Sakura tried her best to keep her balance. For the umpteenth time, she managed to genuine leg in 3 inch high heels while she was running like mad to make it on time. Ha! She was late the second she woke up, who are we kidding? She honestly thought it would just lighten the fact that she was late. So late.
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"Two…" she decided she was counting to three. And then she was leaving. She could then make an appointment tomorrow with Tsunade or Ino, or anybody except for Sakura. Tenten was furious because she wanted Sakura, the only one she could never get. It always had something to happen. Truth to be told, Tenten didn't know that Sakura was late, she thought that she won't be coming that day or whatever. She didn't mind anymore, she just wanted Sakura to check on her, is it that hard?
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Sakura was nervously tapping her foot on the floor, impatiently waiting for the elevator doors to open. She couldn't afford to let Tenten down once again. Each time they'd make an appointment, she had always something coming up, so she never got the chance to make an official doctor appointment with her. She can't let her friend down once again, not after all that she has done for her.
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"Three…" that's it! Tenten put her right hand on the back of the chair and with left she supported on the table, hardly trying to get up because of her large stomach. Her identical twins, however were a blessing, sometimes they might assign a very big trouble. As for example when getting up. When she finally managed to transfer all of her balance on two stable legs, Sakura has stormed into the office all panting.
"I'm s-sorry….I'm l-late…" she was taking deep inhales so she couldn't bring her self to make a whole sentence without making long pauses. Tenten's face immediately brightened. She wasn't mad anymore. Who? She? Mad? What the hell are you talking about? How could she be mad at her lovely Sakura-chan?
"Sakura-chaan!" Tenten's voice echoed in the office.
"Hey,… Tenie!" Sakura still couldn't make it to the air. Few locks of her pink hair were glued to her sweaty face. A bit of pinkish decorated her cute, still childish, face, and made her emerald eyes come to an expression.
"What's up?" Tenten let her heavy body bluntly fall on the chair, once again.
"Just a sec…" Sakura turned her back to Tenten and yelled through still opened door "Nurse!"
In a second in front of her appeared small, fragile nurse with lovely, warm, dark-chocolate eyes. "Yes ma'am?" she offered her huge warming smile.
Sakura returned the antic with small polite smile and went straight to the point "Could you call me nurse-Ino?"
Sweet nurse gave Sakura a slight nod and disappeared in a blink of an eye right in front of her.
"So where were we?" Sakura turned to Tenten again.
"Oh yeah! I said I'm so so sorry for being late! Lately, I noticed I have some insomnia problems, you know! It gave me such a headache. Well, enough about me! How's everything with you?" her pearly white teeth shone through her huge friendly smile.
"Oh, just great! If you neglect swollen feet, which for a long time I have not seen, and terrible pain in my back, yeah, I'm great." She returned the antics.
"Glad to hear that girls!" Third voice interrupted them.
"Ino!" Tenten felt like a little kid who has just been given a candy. All this attention, just for her, made her a little emotional. You know, pregnancy symptoms…
"Ino-pig! Well, enough of chatting! Today you'll be assisting me in Tenten's first check up with me. I'm so excited…!" she clapped her hands few times like a little child. For that she earned confused glare from Ino, and a sweet giggle from Tenten.
Ino started to prepare all necessary medical stuff for examination, and Sakura directed Tenten where to lie. She rolled up her T-shirt to reveal huge pregnancy-swollen belly. Sakura took a quick glance at her petite belly thinking it passed unnoticed. Seeing this, Tenten left a soft chuckle and spoke:
"Don't worry, you won't be as big as me in fifth month! It's all because of the boy! Well, you know. Hyuugas!"
All three of them left a loud laugh echoing the office, while inner Sakura just thought
'I hope so!'. Their laugh was interrupted by sudden knocking on the door. Soon after, the same sweet nurse from while ago, came out behind the door and let her childish voice fill the room already filled with great, friendly atmosphere.
"Excuse me, Sakura-san, certain Sasuke Uchiha insists to have a talk with you this instant. I told him you're working, but he just won't listen!"
"Tell him I am too busy." Sakura returned to Tenten redirecting her attention to her once again, I n the same time leaving the nurse behind, speechless.
As soon as the nurse left the office, Ino spoke her mind
"Wow! What was that?"
"Nothing." Sakura was avoiding the subject.
"Oh, I so know what you're trying to do! It's not gonna work with me, Forehead!"
"Oh really? And what am I doing?" she was trying to play dumb, but her cover was blown, even before she started acting. Meanwhile Tenten just stayed quite, but secretly supporting Ino.
"Trying to avoid the truth and the fact that you have to tell him already!" Ino yelled knowing that it won't help her.
Sakura chose to ignore her "Ooh…this is the boy! Can you hear his heart?"
"Can you hear Sasuke's?" Tenten spoke silently but seriously. She knew that's the only way she could reach Sakura's heart. She truly did accomplish it. The comment touched everybody in the room so much, that silence filled the air and suddenly atmosphere changed.
All the tree of them knew that Sasuke wasn't evil. And that's the key to this whole situation. He did do terrible thing to Sakura, but no one of them was sure if that was his real intense-to use her. Just like that. But even if he did, even so, but we all know he didn't, he didn't deserve to not know about his clan savior, his next purpose of life, his first child.
Sakura bring up her head again, and shock of some tears in the corners of her eyes, and continued with analysis.
"That's a girl. She seems to be perfectly well too. There are no any other problems…so that's all. You're done." She took some toilet paper from right next to the bed and started to clean the jelly substance from Tenten's stomach. Ino got pretty pissed by Sakura's attitude and her running away from admitting the truth to the father of her child. She opened her mouth, to rebuke Sakura as usual, but she was stopped by small hand that grabbed the edge of her clothes and squished them tightly. Her attention got caught by Tenten's antics and she offered her a small smile of understanding.
"It's okay. When you're ready, you'll tell him…" Tenten comforted everybody in the room, making the atmosphere lighten up a bit.
Sakura smiled, knowing that she had her friends' support. She knew she wasn't doing the smartest thing, but she felt more relaxed. That's all that mattered in those rough days.
"Let's go take some blood tests…" she slowly walked towards the door, and gentlemanly opened the door for Tenten and Ino. As soon as the two walked out of the office, Sakura followed them.
Just when she was about to turn in wide lightened corridor, strong hand took a grip on her. The other hand of the same person who appeared to be unnoticed behind Sakura's back, found its way to her mouth and prevented her from screaming. Strong stranger dragged her into the office not leaving her any time to react. He pushed her in the room, closing the door behind, and leaning on it to stop any future tries to get out.
"What do you want?" Sakura sounded horrified. The least one she expected to see, was standing right in front of her, with pale, uninterested face and looking mad, more than ever.
"How could you?" his voice was sincere…he looked mad, but as soon as he spoke, that look on his face disappeared. For the first time, she had seen him like this…so…hurt…
"Sasuke, I…" she tried to not make it any worse. She tried to be honest, since she wasn't 'till now.
"How could you do this to me!" he practically yelled at her. With each word, he'd take a step forward. Being scared as she was, she'd take one step back each time he'd take one forward. Her body trembled, her back suddenly hit the wall behind. His arms blocked her way.
"How dare you?" he yelled at her, completely losing control. She turned her head away from him and looked straight forward at emptiness. Tears overwhelmed her and started running down her rosy cheeks.
"Answer me!" he punched his fist into the wall beside her head, just in front of her sight, and thus is forced her to look him in the eyes. Her shocked green eyes watched directly at his dark-red orbs, slowly melting them, and making them onyx again.
Sasuke deactivated his Sharingan as he felt her body uncontrollably shiver.
"It's your fault.." silent voice found its way to his earlobes. He caught that.
"Hn." His arrogant smirk appeared again as he closed his eyes.
"It's all your damn fault! Why did you have to use me! Why the fuck did you even left at the first place! It'..Fault.!" she yelled at him. It was her time to lose control, and his smirks just added oil to the fire, and affected at her reactions.
He knew that. She knew that. He knew he was still her weakness. She did too. That's why she yelled. Because she was helpless.
"Hn. Than why did you ask me to take you?" his smirk grew bigger.
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"Than why did you beg me to take you?" his voice raised again.
"We both know that's not what I meant! You knew that I didn't want to be you baby producer machine!"
"And you still asked me to take you?" he acted confused. Maybe he was a bit.
"You used me!" her tears were storming down her pretty face.
"That's not an excuse for not telling me about the pregnancy!" he kept his coolness. Somehow, he always seems to be loosing control in a fight with her. It was the case 8 years ago, it is now the same.
"Well I thought…"
"Nobody gave you the right to think and decide for me!"
"I wasn't doing it for you! I was doing it for my baby!"
"It is mine too."
"Oh, please, you don't deserve it at all! Have you heard yourself? Not once did you tell 'my baby', 'child'…you say 'it' like he or she isn't even alive…but sorry to disappoint you. It is!"
"Sakura…" his voice almost lost the strength to argue. "Why are you doing this to me? You know how much an heir means to me?"
"Because I don't want to just be it! An heir. It is a child. But you wouldn't ever act that way, as he was a child, but an heir. After all that's all that matters. Reviving Uchihas!" she said it in a mocking tone. And it hurt. A lot. Surprisingly, ne?
"Sakura! But I need him! I need my child!"
'I need you, Sakura…'
Sudden voice in Sasuke's head interrupted his thoughts. It made him back off of Sakura. Not being sure if he was letting her go, or not, Sakura stayed there for another minute and let her mouth produce the sound for the last time. She knew she was right, and she wanted to end this stupid argue. He wasn't worth of her time, she kept saying to her self.
"I needed you! And look what you did?"
Sasuke regained his concentration back again, and spoke again, calmer then ever.
"Sakura! Why do you always have to complicate things?"
"Maybe because I like that way…" she spoke as if trying to say that she liked it, this way of living a life. Meaning without him. And that she liked it that way. Sasuke wasn't convinced at her words, even though she looked honest. He let her go this time, but he is winning this fight, and she wasn't even aware of that. Good thing is that he is.
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"Hey guys, I'm sorry…I-I had some work to do…" her eyes were puffy and still little wet.
"Sak-Sakura have you cried?" Ino asked a bit confused…last time she saw her she was rather….happy…
"Pig? What? No, no, of course not! I'm strong girl, remember?" she gave a slight but insecure smile, which didn't convince neither of them. That moment nurse walked in and broke pregnant silence. God bless her!
"The results will be arriving in three hours…" she looked completely uninterested. The nurse had a fire red hair and she wore cool glasses. Her way of dressing was understood as punk-rock-metal style. She was also weari…
"Wait a minute! I know you!" Sakura yelled like a little kid. She remembered her from the last time. It was that same nurse that looked so repulsive, and uninterested…
"Good morning Colombo!" she smiled sarcastically.
"Whoa, talking about bad moods…" Tenten added with the same amount of sarcasm. As if she was just returning the favor.
"Hey Forehead, I gotta go…Sai called about some plans about moving in…details later…" she proudly smirked her flirty victorious smirk.
"Oh...okay…but I'm gonna be alone for the lunch!" she complained adding puppy eyes for better affection.
"Ehh…stop that…besides you have the nurse over there…she seems like a bunch of fun" Ino teased.
Sakura made kind of disgusted look and turned to meet the said nurse who had practically the same facial expression. The moment she turned to say her goodbyes, they were gone.
'Great.' She thought…But still… "So? You …?"
"Whatever.." the nurse seemed uninterested again, but deep inside she thought it's nice to have someone to talk to during the lunch. Deep down she hoped it will become a great friendship. They kinda understood each other since the very start.
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"Hmm…so do you want me to start first?" with mouth full of food, Sakura spoke. They decided to go straight to the point and tell their life stories at the beginning. You know, it's kind of nice to have somebody to talk to and regard your life from each perspective at the same time. It'd help Sakura a lot at this moment since she wasn't sure what to do next at this point of her life. It was pretty confusing…
"Yes, sure." Nurse, whose name was Kanuri, seemed to be a lot more friendly.
Sakura swallowed the last bite of her food, and taking deep, slow breaths, she started her life story. It is pretty amazing how your whole life can be told in just a few hours.
"Okay, where do I start? Oh yeah, well…my grandmother, I called her Nana, was left alone without anybody to help her in this world, after the Great Ninja War has finished. During the War, my Nana was pregnant with my mother. She raised her all alone, but also with some kind of a help from the village. After my Nana's whole clan was erased from the face of Earth, she cut a deal with a small family from the Village hidden in the mist, to mix these families together, and that's how my parents' destiny was build.
They grew together, and as time passed they luckily fell in love with each other. So I think you understand how I came to the world, ne?
My father's family had a long lasting tradition. They were all proud of it, they were merchants, famous all around the Fire Country. So as you assumed my father continued the tradition. He died when I was almost four. He traveled to the Wave Country, and somewhere in the forest, not so far away from here, he lost his life in a battle against skilled ninjas. As you can see, both of my parents weren't from ninja world, so after my father's death, my mother made a decision: I was going to attend Ninja Academy in Konoha. And so I did.
Exactly two years after my first day of attending the Academy, my mother died. She had been diagnosed cancer. That's when I started living with my Nana. While my mom was still alive, she was always telling me the stories about my father, she made me believe he was my hero. He truly was. She also kept teaching me that I shouldn't cry for him, she said he did his best, to make me happy, and that I should return it just the way he wanted. And he wanted to see me smile. And so I did. I was always happy during the time with other children. Nobody knew I didn't have a father. I even felt my self as if I did have one. He was always there with me. I could feel him. I know it sounds nuts, but I did.
Than my mother died from cancer disease. So when my Nana came to live with me, she was teaching me to live my life, to live it happy and satisfied, for them. And I did. Just for them. Cause they did for me.
Meanwhile, in the Academy I fell in love with the amazing and well known Uchiha Sasuke. But he wasn't interested in neither me, neither the other thousand girls in Konoha who felt the same way. I started noticing how other girls acted. They'd always bring his attention to them by complimenting him, always cheering for him, doing everything he asks, even if he doesn't ask…so when he took a quick glance at them few times, I thought, maybe if he glanced at me, for even once, he'd also fall in love with me. Childish love. He didn't. He never did, and I was still acting like fool, with the rest of Konoha young feminine population. For him I was just another annoying girl. And though I knew I had to stop torturing myself, I could never bring myself to stop loving him.
In the age of eleven/twelve, Naruto, Sasuke and I were chosen to be at the same team. That's about the time my Nana passed away. Even if I was so sad for being alone again, for not having my Nana, my wonderful savior, around me anymore, I was more than happy to be in the same team as Sasuke, cause I thought I'd finally had a chance to show him how much I really love him. But at the same time Naruto was the one who annoyed me, he had a childish crush on me, and it annoyed the shit out of me, so I acted towards him the same way Sasuke acted with me.
As the time went by, I stopped acting like a fool around Sasuke and tried to be his friend. At the same time, I learned to love Naruto. Like a brother. He loved me too, as a sister, and so our bond grew to that level that we weren't just friends, we considered each other as a family. He was also the only one who knew about my family, and he promised not to tell anyone. But Sasuke acted the same way. It took him good half of a year to understand that I'm on the first place, his friend. So he changed. A bit. A very tiny small change, but I noticed.
Even after that so called 'change', he kept thinking of me as of the weakest link in our team. I was well known as an excellent chakra controller, but I would get terrified in the battle field each time, that I was almost useless. It was all changed on the Chunin exams. When I understood their lives were in danger, I was ready to give up mine for theirs. I think that was the moment Sasuke understood I'm not so weak, but he kept saying that. I don't know if it was to keep his coolness, or to motivate me, but whatever it is, I grew stronger.
Naruto was a great support all these years. He kept saying that my biggest strength was in union. He said that we all stayed together thanks to me. Actually, I think he's right, you know? Maybe I was the weakest, but I always knew we'll all be weak if we don't work together. Kakashi-sensei taught me that, it was our first lesson.
So when Sasuke was leaving the village, I tried to stop him. I couldn't. Naruto and I also tried to make him come back. We did a bunch of crazy stuff for him, but we made it in the end.
So when he came back, everybody noticed he wasn't the same. Especially around me. So everyone interpreted it like he suddenly understood his feelings, but that he just wasn't ready to show me his love, yet. Bunch of bullshit if you ask me, but I believed them. Don't get me wrong it's not their fault, I thought it myself.
So one night, I went to him, and…hmmm…how can I say this…I told him that it would be best for both of us to…you know…physically show our emotions. And he used me, he said it himself. Now I can't forgive him. That's it. The end."
Kanuri stood in a silence for while. It was actually such a sad story. She thought she was the alone one here.
"Oh, have I mentioned you I got pregnant with that bastard? Yeah…it's my third month…" she said as she cuddled her belly with a shy smile adorning her lips.
"Oh..well…I thought I had a tragic life?" Kanuri said confused.
"Why? What happened to you?" Sakura raised her left eyebrow.
"Well…my father also died when I was very young. I was very close to him. More than to my mother. Actually, we were kinda divided. Me and father, and my older sister and my mother. So when he died, I felt alone and misunderstood. My mum never tried to understand me. My sister too. I became, as they say, 'weird' and didn't have friends at all. I don't understand! Why is it that a person is always understood as weird just because of its fashion style? I admit the skull isn't very promoting, but how can everybody be so shallow?"
"I know! I know! I kept the death of my parents as a secret just because I'll be socially rejected! And by the way, I love you dressing style!"
"Why thank you! Finally someone normal!"
"Or maybe weird as you are!"
They laughed hard at the last one. Kanuri could fell a bond forming with this crazy girl. I mean, they were strangers to each other, and she still told her every single secret of her life, without hesitation. She knew she had awesome friends, so that's not a reason why they ended up together on the lunch. It must be something more than that. It was as if she could see a friendship forming.
"Oh Gosh! This was a good one! You have too meet my friends…they'll love you the same instant!"
Kanuri offered her comforting smile as a response. She loved this girl already. And she had some good feeling about her, too. She finally stood up from the table:
"I'm sorry, I gotta go! The lab tests are probably near the end, I'll brought them to you by the end of the shift, for sure. It was amazing talking to you."
Sakura stood up as well. "Yeah, the pleasure is all mine." They smiled and went their opposite ways.
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As Sakura walked down the empty hallways of Hospital, she thought she had seen familiar shadow. She went left after the sad person, and guess what? She was right. No one other than Sasuke Uchiha himself.
'What is that moron doing here? It couldn't be he's still waiting for me?'
That moment, small nurse from few hours ago came closer to him:
"Uchiha-san? Hokage-sama is ready to see you." he nodded and followed in.
'What the hell?'
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"Uchiha?" Tsunade raised her eyebrows surprised by his sudden visit.
"Hn"
"It's 'Good afternoon' to you, not 'Hn'." She grunted.
"Aa."
She knew he didn't come here to annoy her, so she didn't want to pick a fight:
"How can I help you?" she asked almost sarcastically.
And a devious smirk appeared on his handsome face features.
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