Well here is chapter eleven…the last one before I go on a holiday for two weeks…I'll be back the fifth of August so I'll update after that again….I hope you all will be there when I update chapter 12….

JPOV:

I really wasn't able to keep my mind focused on things. It wasn't really that bad that my mind wandered away some times but I needed my control on my emotions. I had already made Bella almost stumble of the force of emotions I had let loose. They were positive emotions but they were still very overwhelming when you weren't an empath. Renesmee on the other hand seemed to like those waves. It seemed as if she just accepted it all. It made me laugh and sometimes do it on purpose. She looked so much like Bella when she smiled; I loved that little girl and her mother. It was a good thing Edward wasn't around because I had been wondering multiple times how life would have been if Nessie had been mine. If I could have said that I was the father. That instead of the coppery brown curls she would have light brown maybe even blonde curls. She still would have her mother's eyes, but maybe my smile. But then again she could have never been mine. I would have probably killed Bella. I shuddered at the thought. That that perfect angel wouldn't be in my life. It would have made these past weeks really unbearable. Speaking of Edward by the way where was he. After that last fight, which was almost a week ago, I hadn't seen him. Perhaps he was hiding with Alice or something waiting for the right moment to strike. I hugged the little sleeping girl in my arms closer to me. I would not let Edward take Nessie away. She meant not only everything to Bella but also to me and the rest of the Cullen family.

I was still lost in thought when Bella walked in, I didn't notice her until she was right in front of me taking Nessie out of my arms. "Come on sleepy head." She said as Nessie muttered my name. The girl molded herself right into Bella her arms but she still held on hand firmly curled around my shirt. She wasn't letting go of it no matter how hard Bella or I pulled. She smiled apologetically clearly asking me if I wanted to walk with her up to Nessie her room. She didn't need to ask anything when she looked at me like that. I was absolutely whipped.

When we arrived in Nessie her room She finally let go as we placed her on her bed. I looked around the room as Bella put her to sleep. It had been done by Bella herself. The room was done in very warm colors. The same amber from the living room donned also two of these walls. The others were a few shades lighter. There were beautiful red roses painted in the corners and the big canopy bed was donned with white blankets with roses on it. The rest of the furniture was made of cherry wood. They fitted the house perfectly as they were in Victorian style. It was simple but elegant and beautiful. Just as the person that had decorated it. Said person turned around and motioned me to follow her out of the room. "Jasper" The little voice from the bed called. I walked back up to her. She smiled and pulled me in for a hug. I hadn't expected that but as I pulled back I softly kissed her on the forehead. "Sweet dreams Nessie." I softly muttered. When I turned around I saw Bella look at me with an unreadable expression. Her emotions told me she felt a longing and affection. For who I did not know for sure. For me there was no doubt about it I was irrevocably in love with Isabella Swan and her little Renesmee.

BPOV:

As I watched him hug her close to him in the library I couldn't help but fall more in love. Really I sometimes understood Rosalie her point a lot more about resenting the fact that she couldn't get any children. Jasper would have made an incredible father. He always proclaimed he was a monster that had done terrible things and wasn't allowed any forgiveness. Yet as I saw him there with Renesmee and later on as he kissed her goodnight I only saw a man that would have made the father that would make any girl proud. He was no monster. He was a gentle and caring creature, no not creature, a human. I couldn't help but wish sometimes that Jasper had been the father of Nessie, not Edward. Then I wouldn't need to fight with him now of who would take care of her right now and whether he was a danger yes or no. Then I wouldn't feel so betrayed because I had Jasper and he would never leave me for my best friend and his brother his wife. Speaking of wife, I hoped Carlisle could get those papers in time. I was divorcing Edward and Jasper was divorcing Alice. We hadn't talked it through with them but I didn't believe that they hadn't known this would happen.

Jasper turned around and smiled me that favorite smile of his. Edward used to dazzle me with his crooked smile and his eyes. Jasper just dazzled me. There were no special features he was perfect in every single way, simply flawless even though he said he wasn't. At that moment I wanted him more than anything. Not because I felt the need to be needed or the fact that I wanted to forget. No I simply wanted him. I noticed his eyes getting a little darker and the way he held himself. He felt it too. Whether it was because I felt that way and he just sensed that or that he wanted it himself I didn't know. All I know was that he wanted me and I wanted and needed him just as bad.

It didn't take long for us to reach his bedroom and undress. Thank god for vampire speed sometimes. And as we were in the middle of it he told me he loved me. He said it so fast I hardly heard it, but as he looked at me with his warm eyes I knew that he had said them and I answered his unspoken question. "I love you too." His face lit up like I had never seen it before. And with that we went on but now not only with lust but also love pooling all around us.

Afterwards we just cuddled. It was all just so perfect. No words were spoken but we didn't need to. Yet there was just one question that hung in the air and I just needed to ask him. "What do we tell them…?" I almost felt him think. "Let's just see where this is going. We don't tell them, yet." And with that all talking ended for that night.

Well I thought this would make a good ending before I went on my holiday….don't worry it doesn't end here yet….so please keep in touch for any updates….see you after the fifth of August;)