Author's Note: I'm so sorry this took so long to post! I was VERY jet-lagged after getting home from Japan, then I had my birthday (I'm 18 now, woo!) and this week has been crazy! Thanks for your patience, everyone! This Chapter takes place THREE MONTHS after the last chapter, and then two months pass later in the chapter. Also, I left it off at a cliffhanger, sorry! Enjoy!
Ben jumped when he felt Rey wrap her arms around his shoulders from behind. "How's the hand?" she asked him cheerfully. He held up the black cast on his hand, not saying anything. She sighed. "Are you gonna come and join us? Mikey's gonna blow out the candle soon. Or he's gonna try, at least." She chuckled and glanced out to the dining room and looked at her son, smiling.
"Dunno, maybe," he mumbled. She looked down at him again, letting go of him and sitting on the couch next to him.
"Do you wanna talk?" she questioned, rubbing his arm.
He flinched away. "Not really…" he told her.
Rey sighed again and pulled her hand away. "okay…" she agreed. She didn't say anything for a moment. "Have you heard anything-"
"No," he snapped shortly. Rey opened her mouth to say something else, but he stood up. "I'm gonna head out."
"O-Oh, okay," she said sadly. "Where're you heading?"
"Out," he said again, grabbing his jacket off the back of the couch. "Watch the kids."
"Will you be back?" she asked.
"Maybe," Ben mumbled.
"You can't keep leaving like this…" Rey tried.
"I can. And I have to," he argued. "Poe's still out there, and we don't have time to waste on birthday parties for kids who are too young to understand." Rey stood up and crossed her arms, choosing not to say anything against him. It wouldn't do her any good, he was going to leave no matter what she said.
"Alright," she sighed. "See you later, then…" Ben nodded a bit and went to the front door, without another word, going out to his car. Rey sighed and went back to the dining room, where Finn had finally gotten Mikey to stay in his high chair. Her expression softened when she saw her baby, and she smiled a bit. It was nice to see him so happy. He was surrounded by his family, Leia and Luke each holding one of Ben's kids. Mikey smiled a lot now, he laughed, he wasn't afraid of everything anymore. His skin was clear of bruises- other than the occasional small one from running into walls or furniture when he walked around -and he had even managed to put on a bit of weight. Rey had been so relieved when Mikey had started eating normally. Before, he would sometimes reject any kind of food she offered him. It was just so nice to see him happy.
"Is he coming out, or are we doing cake without him?" Leia asked, smiling up at her. Rey glanced at her and shook her head.
"He's gone. He just left," she told him, a bit annoyed. Finn sighed and glanced outside. "Well, let's not keep Mikey waiting. He didn't plan on staying, so no harm done I guess..."
"No, he's acting selfish," Leia argued, standing up and setting Chrissy in her chair. "I'll go talk to him." She went out the door.
"Ben?" she called to him. He was just getting into his car. He glanced up at her. "Where are you going this time?"
Chrissy ran out the door, yelling happily for her Dad. Ben sighed and walked over to her, picking her up, and kissed her head. "Hey, Chris. Daddy's gonna head out to find Dad again," he told her. "I haven't found him yet, but I'll find him soon enough, I promise."
Chrissy pouted. "No," she tried. "No Daddy. Daddy stay"
"I'll be back, I promise," he told her again. He set her down. "Now go do whatever it was you were doing. Love you." Chrissy hugged his legs then ran back through the door. Leia was glaring at him. "What?"
"Don't forget about your responsibilities as a father, Ben. You need to be here for them," she tried.
"I am here for them. I'll be back," he told her one more time before going to his car again and getting in. She watched him light a cigarette before starting the car and driving off.
Leia sighed and went back inside shutting the door. "Well," she called into the house. She walked back to the dining room and sat down again. "He's gone…"
"Well, at least we can still celebrate together, right?" Finn pointed out, with a small smiled. Leia smiled slightly and nodded.
"Of course," Rey agreed. She heard the mailman drop the mail through the slot in the door, and she stepped over to grab it, walking back in as she shifted through each one. She stopped when she reached the dining room table again and smiled brightly. She dropped the other letters on the table and started opening one.
"What's in it?" Finn asked. Rey opened up the letter and read through it, her face lighting up. "Did it go through?"
"It's all done!" she agreed. "I'm no longer married to the worst human on Earth!" Finn laughed and went around the table, hugging her.
"Congratulations," he told her happily. He kissed her. "And now, we can start planning our wedding."
Rey blushed. "Yes, we can," she said softly, kissing him again. Mikey made a little noise of impatience, and Rey looked over at him. "Oh, look at Mr. Patient over here, such a good boy." She kissed his head. "Let's get your cake then, love."
"How's it feel that your daughter's getting married?" Leia laughed as she unlocked the door to her house. "Really married?"
Luke chuckled. "It feels… weird," he said. "She's twenty years old… which is crazy in itself. She's not a baby anymore, I don't know what happened."
Rey's car pulled up in the driveway behind theirs and she got out. "Sweetie, you don't have to stay over to help us, really," Leia chuckled as Rey hurried to the door.
"It's fine," Rey told her with a smile. "If Ben's not going to be around to do it, you're going to need some help." She hugged her Dad, taking one of the kids out of his arms. Leia unlocked the door and immediately sighed at she smelled the house.
"Ben!" she cried. Going in and going to his bedroom. She knocked on the door. "What the hell are you doing?"
He grumbled something and went to the door, opening it slightly so that he was visible, his shirtless frame blocking the doorway. "What?" he asked.
"You're smoking. Which isn't allowed in the house," she reminded him. "And what makes it worse, you're not smoking cigarettes. Your kids are here, do you think they should be around that?" He just stared at her. "Open your door, I can see all the bottles on the floor, you can't leave them there with the kids around."
"They won't come in here if the door's closed," he pointed out, trying to close it. She caught it before it could close and she threw it open again, going in and starting to pick up the bottles. He grunted and walked out the door, looking at Rey. "Sup?"
"What are you doing in there?" she asked coldly. He held up his blunt and put it between his lips. "And drinking?"
"I am twenty two. Been legal for a whole year," he pointed out. Rey rolled her eyes and handed Christina back to Luke.
"The legal drinking age never stopped you," she mumbled. "Dad, could you go occupy the kids for a few minutes?" Luke nodded and kissed her cheek, heading towards the stairs.
"It never stopped you either. Have you ever smoked weed?" Ben asked, going back into his room and falling onto his bed. Rey followed him and glanced at Leia, who was just shaking her head and picking up Ben's floor.
"Once," she told Ben. "Leia, you don't have to do that. I can if you want."
Leia stood up and sighed. "Thank you, Rey. And I won't tell your Dad what you just said," she told her niece, patting her arm.
"Thanks," Rey chuckled. Leia brought the bag of bottles out to the kitchen and Rey closed the door behind her. She went over to the bed and sat next to her cousin. "What's going on, Ben?"
"Can't find him," he mumbled. "I can't find him anywhere. He's fucking gone, without a trace." He sucked on the joint. "I can't do this. I can't lose him, Rey. I don't have anything without him."
"You have two kids," she reminded him. He sighed. "Two kids that really miss their Daddy."
"Yeah. I know. But I can't raise them on my own, Rey, I need Poe…" he pressed. "I love him, and it's my fault that he's gone-"
"Don't," Rey said.
"Don't what?"
"Don't start this again" she told him. "Don't blame yourself for something that wasn't your fault. Hux would have found a way to get him, whether he had been with you or not. We'll find him, Ben, we will-"
"But I couldn't protect him," he growled. "He needed me, and I couldn't keep him safe. I have to find him, Rey."
She didn't say anything for a minute. "We'll find him," she said again. "Together. You, Finn, Me, we'll find him and bring him home. It'll take some time but we can do it. But not until you get your act together, and stop drinking enough beer to cover your floor in bottles." He grunted in response, and she rolled her eyes, starting to pick up the bottles. "It's just alcohol, right?"
"And weed," he added.
"Nothing else?" she questioned. Ben nodded slowly. "You promise?"
"You can look around my room if you don't believe me. My hand just hurts so fucking bad, weed's the only thing that helps... I tripped on acid the other night, but that was when I was out," he told her.
"How did you do that?" Rey asked, concerned. She stood up straight.
"At a party," he explained. She raised an eyebrow. "I got invited to a party, so I went. The kids were taken care of so…"
"Your kids are always taken care of. By us," she told him. "Not by their parents. Honestly, Ben. You have so many issues, so many things you're pissed at your parents about. You feel like they weren't there for you, you feel like they didn't care, you feel like they hated you. And you complain and complain and complain, but now that you have two kids to take care of, you're doing everything that you felt was done badly to you. Your Mom tried. I watched her try to engage with you. Eventually, she did stop, because she gave up on trying to have a son who wasn't there. But Christina, and Noah? They want you to be there, and you're just going to push them away too." Rey sat back down on the bed next to him. He wasn't looking at her. She sighed and touched his arm. "Ben, we're all here for you. But you need to take responsibility for the two children that you promised Poe you would take care of. What would he think about how you're acting-?"
"I know what Poe would think about me! I'm not a fucking idiot! Okay?! But I can't fucking do this shit without him, I don't know how!" he snapped at her.
"Ben, we're here to help you, we can help you figure out how-" she tried.
"I don't want your help! I want Poe!" he growled. Rey looked down and sighed. Ben got up and started getting dressed.
"Where're you going?" Rey asked.
"Out."
She sighed. "That can't be your answer any time I ask. Where is out?" She threw the bottles in her arms into the trash can.
Ben sighed, buckling up his jeans. "I'm meeting up with some friends," he told her. She raised an eyebrow. "I have friends."
"Since when?" she questioned. He glared at her. "Is this what you're doing when you're looking for Poe?"
"Shut up," he told her, going to the door and going out to the living room. She stood up and followed him.
"You're a coward, you know that?!" she snapped at him. He froze in the middle of the room, looking down and clenching his hands into fists as he tried to process this. "That makes you angry, I know. But it's the truth. You take us all for granted and all we want to do is help you!" She saw Leia and Luke both appear in the doorway.
Ben turned and looked at her. "Stop. Don't do that here. Not now," he warned her.
"Then where? When will it be a good time to tell you to get your act together, because we're all sick of dealing with you."
"You're sick of dealing with me?" he repeated coldly.
"Yeah," she said, walking up to him. He backed up a bit. "I'm sick of trying to be nice and supportive and just getting the cold shoulder in return! You're mother is sick of cleaning up after you everyday, trying to get you back on your feet, while you just lay there, on your ass all day, or going out and partying at night! Finn's sick of taking care of your kids all the time, and taking care of our child, and trying to work! You know he's spent a lot of money on Christina and Noah? Almost as much as he's spent on Mikey, just on diapers and food, trying to take care of what's yours to take care of! We love them, we'll do anything we can to help them, but it's stressing him out! It's stressing us all out!"
"You ever think maybe I'm stressed out?!" Ben yelled back at her. "Maybe I'm sick of how you treat me!"
Rey didn't say anything for a minute. She tried to take a deep breath. "How… I treat you?" she questioned, her voice cracking.
"Like a child! You treat me like I'm a fucking baby! I'm twenty one years old, I'm older than you-!" he reminded her.
"Then start fucking acting like it!" she snapped at him. The next thing she knew, she was on the floor with a horrible shooting pain in her nose and right eye. She heard Luke and Leia both coming over, frantic and trying to see if she was okay. She looked up at Ben, saw that he still had his fist raised, but looked shocked, horrified. She stood up slowly, carefully.
Ben backed away from her slowly. "A-Are you okay?" he asked. "I-I'm sorry, Rey, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to do that…."
"Didn't you?" she scoffed, pulling her hair elastic off of her wrist and putting her hair up to keep it out of the blood dripping from her nose.
"Of course not," he said. He glanced at Leia, who was glaring at him, and Luke who was trying to make sure Rey didn't fall over or something. "I-I would never hurt you-"
"But you did," she pointed out coldly. He looked uncomfortable, his hands in fists by his sides again, but now they opened and closed nervously.
"Rey, I didn't mean to, I'm so sorry," he said again, stepping closer again.
She stood her ground, glaring up at him. "Do you want me to accept your apology? Do you want me to tell you it's okay that you punched me in the face?!" she growled at him.
Ben gulped. "Rey, come on, I didn't mean to. I-I didn't think it through-" he tried. Rey brought her fist up and punched him full force in the face, knocking him back, then bringing her other fist and hitting him in the stomach. He grabbed the wall to keep himself from falling over, the air punched out of him for a minute. He coughed and looked up at Rey, who was just glaring at him with her arms crossed. "What the fuck?! I was apologizing!"
"Sorry. I didn't think it through," she spat at him. Ben's face twisted into a sneer and he stood up straight, towering over her. Rey looked unfazed. "How does it feel, hearing that excuse?"
Ben huffed and backed up a bit. "Say what you wanna fucking say," he told her.
Rey put a hand on her hip. "What I want to say?" she chuckled coldly. "I've said what I want to say. Many times. You just never listen."
"I'm listening. Say it," he said again, crossing his arms.
"Alright Ben. I'll say what I want to say. I'll say what we all want to say," Rey started.
"Rey, sweetie," Luke spoke up, touching her shoulder.
"No, dude, let her say it, I wanna hear her tell me what a fuck up I am," Ben told him.
Rey shook her head. "That. Right there. You always have to play the victim, Ben, nothing's ever your fault! You've self-titled yourself as the family disappointment, the freak, even while we were all here supporting you! We all watched you fall, we all picked up back up again, you threw it back in our faces, then came back for help when you were falling again! It's a horrible cycle and I'm sick of it!" Ben shook his head and started turning to leave. She grabbed him and shoved him back against the door. "Listen! Don't fucking run, you coward! You run from everything that hurts a little bit, and then you try to act all tough and independent. You blame all your mistakes on your anger issues, even when it's just you being an idiot! It's time to step up and start taking responsibility for your own life. Not everything is about you, we all have our own shit to deal with. We can't be here for the rest of our lives to cater to your every need, while you just sit around and walk all over us!"
Ben blinked. "T-That hurts…" he told her honestly.
"That's how we all feel. All the time," she said. "When you belittle us, and make us feel like what you need is more important. You are the most spoiled, selfish, ungrateful brat I've ever met. Ben Solo!"
"Dameron…" he corrected quietly.
"What?" she sighed.
"My last name is Dameron. I'm married…" he reminded her.
"Don't change the subject Ben…" Rey laughed. "I can't... I just can't…" She let go of him and sat on the couch covering her face. No one said anything for a minute. Ben sat on the floor next to the couch.
"I'm sorry," he told her again.
Rey uncovered her face and shook her head. "Ben, when you say sorry but don't change the behavior, sorry starts to lose it's meaning and just becomes an excuse," she said.
Ben looked down. "I-I…" he started. He shook his head and closed his eyes. "Well then help me figure out how to change…"
"You have to do it on your own. I'm not your babysitter. I'm not going to baby you anymore," she told him. "You've complained about being treated like a child, so I'll start treating you like an adult. That means learning how to live in the real world, taking responsibility for yourself, taking care of your kids-"
"That sounds like a lot…" he mumbled.
"Imagine doing it twice as much, with someone else's kids," she reminded him. "Imagine Christina and Noah hating you when they grow up because they were abandoned by their Daddy. Really abandoned, not the way you felt about your parents." There was more silence for a few minutes. She stood up and shook her head. "I know you're scared for Poe, Ben. But you aren't doing anything to make the situation better. Me and Finn are getting married in about two months, and when we do, you're going to be mostly on your own. We have our own lives to deal with."
"I know…" he said quietly.
"We'll always be here to help, but-"
"I know. I get it, I have to grow up," he snapped, hugging his knees to his chest. "I heard you. I listened." Rey rolled her eyes a bit and walked towards the bathroom.
"Good. It's about time," she said. "Oh, and by the way, you just punched a girl in the face. I hope you don't think that's a thing people in public will tolerate."
"It was an accident…" he mumbled.
"I know you didn't think it through, Ben, but you need to start thinking things through," she told him. He stared at her for a minute. "You think I don't know what it's like. To get mad and not understand why. To go in public and not understand what people are thinking or feeling or doing. But trust me, it happens all the time to me. I just learned to control it and deal with it."
"Am I a horrible person because I can't control myself and learn?" he asked. Rey sighed, knowing it was an honest question. She walked over to him and knelt in front of him.
"Let me tell you something…" she said seriously. "He's just like you. I spent a year with someone just like you. Except he's watched people, and disciplined himself to act normal in the correct circumstances. But does that make him a good person….? Absolutely not. I watched him fall apart…" He looked up at her. Rey hadn't talked about her year with Hux. She didn't want to relive it. "I watched him get so angry at something so small that he couldn't hear the world around him, and he crushed broken glass in his hand just to watch himself bleed. I thought he had snapped, I thought he was going to kill me. Other times, he would get mad about something and just change the subject to Poe, as if to make himself feel better… I don't know. The point is, he could control himself most of the time, but he hit me, he hurt my baby. And when he fell apart, he didn't call for help, he wanted to watch himself fall apart just to see how far he could push himself."
"And now Poe's with him," Ben said quietly. Rey sighed and nodded. "What is it about Poe that he likes so much?"
"What is it about Poe that you love so much?" she questioned back.
Ben frowned. "Everything… he's perfect, he's beautiful, he's kind, he's loyal…" he listed. "He accepts people for who they are, he changes them…"
"That's what Hux likes about him," she said. "He wants to be accepted and loved for who he is…"
"He doesn't deserve to be loved or accepted," he growled.
"That's not true. Everyone does. But he has earn people's love and respect, because he lost any trust anyone had in him," she corrected him. "Maybe his father will forgive him for being a mistake someday and maybe he'll learn to be kind… He knows how, maybe he'll just learn that a little kindness can go a long way..."
"Don't pity him, he deserves to rot in jail," he snapped. She didn't say anything for a minute, just looking down at the floor. "What?" She didn't say anything. "Rey?"
Rey looked up at him, her eyes glossy. "I'm sorry that I punched you in the face…" He frowned as she stood up. "And in the stomach."
"D-Don't apologize, I punched you first," he said quietly.
"Right…" she chuckled. "Finn's going to kill you." Ben didn't say anything so she sighed and went towards his bedroom door. "I'm going to look in your room."
"Kay…" he mumbled, leaning his head against the couch. She walked into his room and picked up the rest of the bottles off of the floor. She picked up other garbage across the room and threw it away as well. She went through his drawers to check for anything that could hurt him.
"Hey, Rey," she heard her Dad say. She looked up and smiled. Luke came in and sat on the bed. "Are you alright, sweetheart?"
"Yeah, I'm fine," she smiled lightly. She pulled a bag of weed out of Ben's sock drawer and sighed.
"Your nose is bleeding," he reminded her.
Rey dropped the bag back in the drawer and looked in Ben's mirror. "Oh, I forgot," she said. "I'll have to clean up in a moment…" She continued looking through his drawers.
"What are you looking for?" he asked nervously.
"Heroin," she explained, reaching under a pile of shirts.
"Oh… you don't have to do that Rey," he told her.
"No, I do," she said. "I have to make sure the kids aren't going to get-" She paused and pulled out a picture out of the drawer.
"What is it?" Luke asked. Rey handed it to him and he sighed. It was a picture of the whole family: Luke, Leia, Rey, Ben, Mara, and Han. Everyone was smiling, even Ben, and the date on the bottom was just a few weeks before the accident. Luke leaned forward and hugged his daughter.
"I-I miss her…" Rey whispered. Luke looked down at her sadly. "I-I miss my Mom…"
"I know, of course you do, Rey," Luke said, kissing her head. "I miss her too… but everyday I see so much of her in you, and it makes me proud to see that you're so much like her." Rey looked up at him. "And I know she wouldn't have wanted me to give up, I knew that I needed to be there for you… I was there for you enough, wasn't I?"
"Of course, Dad," she told him, kissing his cheek. Luke smiled a bit and rubbed her back. "She would be proud of both of us. I hope she can see us..." She sighed and stood up, closing Ben's drawer.
"She'd be proud to know that you can take care of yourself," Luke told her. She turned to respond and saw Ben standing in the open doorway.
"You don't have to stay the night… They're my kids, I need to take care of them," he told her quietly. "You can go home…"
Rey blinked. "Alright, Ben if you think you've got it…" she said. "Are you okay?"
"Thinking a lot. But I'm good. I need to see my kids," he said. He moved out of the doorway and towards the stairs. "I'll text you to let you know I'm good and stuff, okay? Love you." He went upstairs.
"Y-Yeah, love you," she called after him, following him out of the room, looking worried. She looked at Leia and Luke. "Um… okay… he's fine?"
"Is he?" Leia asked, looking up the stairs.
"Yeah… He's okay," she said. "I-I should go, I guess…" She covered her face and shook her head. "I-I feel weird leaving… I-I feel like I can't leave him alone…"
"Sweetheart, it's okay. He isn't your responsibility…" Leia reminded her. Rey looked at her and nodded. "I really appreciate you helping him out, but you don't have to. I can handle it. Finn and Mikey would probably love to have you home."
Rey took a deep breath and nodded again. "You're right… you're right, I have my own family to take care of…" she reminded herself. She smiled sadly, hugging her Aunt and her Dad before leaving.
"How do you think Mikey's doing?" Rey asked, laying down on the bed next to Finn.
Finn laughed. "Rey, I'm sure Mikey's doing just fine. Don't worry about him, we're on our honeymoon. Just relax and know that everyone and everything is okay," he said, kissing her cheek.
"Except for Poe. And Ben…" she sighed, cuddling up to him. He looked down at her raising an eyebrow.
"You worry too much," he chuckled. "I'm going to have to bust open a bottle of champagne or something just to get you to relax." He got off of the bed and went over to their room's mini fridge. "We only have one more night here, you know, I want to enjoy it."
"Yeah, I know you do. I do too." She watched him pour the drinks. "Leia just sounded anxious when I asked about Ben on the phone today, and now I can't stop thinking-"
"Ben punched you in the face, he can handle himself. I'm not mad, but I'm still pissed," he cut her off.
"D-Don't be mean, okay? He felt really bad. He sent me a bunch of flowers, remember. He's been trying to change," she told him seriously. Finn looked over at her. He didn't have any reason to forgive Ben for hurting Rey. It had taken everything he had not to go straight to his house and give him a piece of his mind the moment he had seen the blood on Rey's face when she had gotten home. But she had insisted that he stay, so that the three of them could be together for the rest of Mikey's first birthday.
"Maybe I'll have to do more than just give you a drink," he chuckled, smiling a bit at her, She sighed and sat up, curling her knees to her chest and watching him walk back over. "I definitely need to do something to distract you from all those thoughts in your head. We only have one night left in this beautiful beach resort in Hawaii, just you and me, the whole room to ourselves, and nobody to bother us." He sat down on the bed with her, handing her her champagne flute, which she sipped gently. He watched her as he sipped his own.
"It really is beautiful here," she agreed, drinking half of the fizzy drink. "And it's so nice to just have you and me together." She drained the glass and set it on her nightstand. He set his down when he finished it and pulled her so that she was laying down, and he was kneeling over her.
"It really is," he whispered, kissing her neck and jaw. "But it's only one more night, Rey, I only get you all to myself for one more night. That means only one more night where I can fuck my wife without having to worry about waking up a baby across the hall. We should enjoy that, right?"
Rey laughed a bit, moving her hand over his bare shoulders and kissing him deeply. "I supposed we should, husband," she agreed softly.
Finn lifted her hips a bit, grinning as he worked to pull off her skirt. "I still can't believe we're each other's husband and wife. That's crazy," he chuckled, throwing her skirt aside and running his hands over her hips. He leaned down and kissed her neck again, just wanting to be closer to her. "It seems like just yesterday you were a little freshman girl, hitting me over the head with a book because you thought I had stolen Poe's jacket." She laughed. "It seems like yesterday that we would both say ew and get all blushy and awkward when people would ask when we were going to start dating." He moved slightly to kick off his sweatpants and throw them aside. Then he moved to hover over her again, his lips right above her's. "Who knew that clumsy, uncertain girl would turn out to be the beautiful, strong woman I got to marry?" Rey leaned up and kissed him.
"Who knew that awkward, burly boy would turn out to be the awkward, burly man I got married to?" she teased, touching his bare chest and feeling as his laugh bubbled through him. "My big, awkward, burly man." He smiled down at her and kissed her, pulling her shirt over her head and staring at her bare form.
"Well, my lady, my queen, my wife," he started, moving back again to pull off his briefs. He loved the way her face reddened slightly at the sight of his naked body. "How about we see if I can prove myself to be more big and burly than awkward." Rey's face slowly broke out into a smile, and she pulled him down into another kiss.
"You don't have to prove anything to me, Finn," she told him softly, bringing her hands up over her shoulders.
Finn took her, never making just it about himself. He longing to make it perfect for both of them. He knew that Rey was never very verbal during sex. But he wasn't ever afraid that she wasn't enjoying it. Still, hearing her occasional gasp or moan drove him to make her feel that way again. She deserved as much pleasure as he could give her. They had missed a whole year of their lives together, and it been filled with pain and unhappiness. He had to make that year up to her.
"Finn-!" He looked down when he heard her cry out his name, felt her nails dig into his back, and it made him shiver. He was afraid he'd done something to hurt her for a minute, was about to stop, when he felt her arch up into him and whine. "D-Do that, keep doing that!"
"Doing what?" he chuckled, although he was honestly unsure of what he had done. He just kept doing what he was doing and held her close to him as he did it, loving how she clung to him and moaned out his name.
"Keep fucking me like that!" she clarified after a moment. He swore at that, burying his face between her neck and shoulders.
"D-Don't know if I can last much longer," he grunted. "God, keep telling me what you want…."
"I-I want you Finn, just you, only you!" she told him. He groaned.
"I need you to come first, before me," he told her, reaching between her to help her along. She made a pleased noise and kissed him, moaning into his mouth as she came on his hand. He swore loudly and snapped his hips into her's, finishing right behind her. "Christ, I love you so much." He kissed her deeply.
"Oh Finn…" she breathed, holding onto him, as he rolled onto his side beside her and kissed her neck and face. "You're everything to me…" Rey watched him smile. "I mean it. I owe you so much-"
"What? No, I owe you so much!" he corrected. "After that year where I couldn't do anything…" He looked at her and sighed. "No more worrying tonight. Just us, okay?"
Rey smiled and nodded. "Just us…" she agreed.
"Alright, sweetheart, everything's out of the car," Finn called to Rey, carrying the last of their suitcases out of the car and dropping it in the hallway. He closed the door. "Ready to go pick up Mikey?" He walked to their living room and froze in the doorway. "Um…"
Ben looked up at him from the couch and Rey turned to look at him. "Hi, Finn, how was your honeymoon?" he asked. Finn glanced passed Rey at the woman who was sitting on the other side of the couch and raised an eyebrow.
"What's she doing here?!" he asked angrily. "And how the hell did you get into our house?!"
"Spare key," Ben explained. He glanced at the woman. "You know Phasma?"
"Yes," Phasma answered for them. "I made out with Rey at a party."
Ben looked at Rey in shock. "You're bi?!" he asked, as if that was the only important thing..
"Well…" Rey said. Finn glanced at her in surprise. "But I was pretty drugged at the time, someone roofied me. I really couldn't tell what was happening."
"Your welcome for that. by the way," Phasma chuckled.
Finn started forward angrily. "What?! For drugging me?!" Rey snapped.
"No, no," Phasma scoffed. Rey grabbed Finn and held him back. "I got him in contact with someone to get him the drugs, but I wasn't in on that. Didn't like it as soon as I figured out what he was up to. He was about to take you off to another room but I got people's attention on you, so your welcome."
"But you didn't call the police?" Finn growled.
Phasma tsked. "That dorm was filled with alcohol, heroin, cocaine, acid, you name it. I don't deal with the police," she explained.
"Ben, why is she here, what does she want?" Rey spoke up.
Ben looked at her. "Cause. I didn't want her around the kids, and she showed up at my Mom's house!" he explained frantically. "I didn't know if she was gonna try to sell me something, so I didn't let her talk or anything so I don't actually know why she's here."
"I told you, I'm not trying to sell you anything, honey," Phasma told Ben. Ben still looked nervous.
Rey glanced at Phasma. "You still sell him coke, don't you?" she guessed. "Colin, I mean."
Phasma looked back up at her. "Yes, dear, I do," she agreed.
"So you've seen him?" Rey continued.
"And his little pet," Phasma finished her inquiry for her. Ben looked at her and stood up. "He's fine. I've been asked to give you this." She reached into her jacket and pulled a large manila envelope. Ben grabbed it from her and started ripping it open. "I don't think it's good news, friend." Ben paused and looked up at her. "You know how ultra-possessive Hux can be. I wasn't getting the impression that this envelope contained good news when I was handed it.
Ben frowned. "It's from Poe… it can't be that bad if he's allowed to write to me," he insisted.
"J-Just be careful, Ben…" Rey told him. He continuing to open the envelope, pulling out the letter and sitting down to read.
Author's Note: All will be explained in the next chapter! I promise! I'm really sorry about how long it took me to write this one, I keep getting distracted, since I have two other fanfictions that I am writing, both The Force Awaken AU/Crossover fics that will be posted soon after this one is done! As of now, I have up to chapter 15 planned out, but I don't plan on stopping at 15 chapters. so don't worry, there is plenty more to come! Thank you for reading! Leave comments on what you thought of it!