Second Chances

Billa, Thorin, Fili and Kili wake up three months before they are to start the quest. All remembering what had happened, and knowing that they had been give a second chance to get things right, but there is more to it than that. The blessing of the ancients of the is upon them, and all their kin. But who are these two new Istari and what is their connection to the two blue Istari and Gandalf? (This Chapter has been edited and revised)

Pairing Shipping Fili & Fem. Kili Thorin & Fem. Bilbo Dwalin & Fem. Ori Dori & Fem. Balin Bofur & Fem. Nori Bilbo & Dis Frerin & Fem. Thorin Stonehelm Elrohir & Fem. Elladan Aragorn & Arwen Fem. Gimli & M. Tauriel (Yes, there two Bilbos and they are twins. Elros and Aragorn are one and the same in my fics.) Erestor & Fem. Glorfindel Bard & Fem. Alfred Theodred & Fem. Bain Ecthelion & Fem. Thengel M. Celebrain & Fem. Elrond

Disclaimer: I have no rights to any of J. R. R. Tolkien works and am making no money from this.

Warning: Sexual violence against a character.

(May the Lord Most High strengthen all that have lived through things like this and those that love them, and may his love free them and go with them.)

AN: Respectful reviews most welcome. May all who read be blessed, strengthened and encouraged by it. Lord be will done.

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~Dream or Flashback~

Chapter 11

The death of Azog.

Trowanel growls in frustration as Dulucien blocks his path to rejoin Thorin and company. "Out of my way spawn of Morgoth. I have those that I love I must protect."

Dulucien's deep ice and sky hazel eyes glare at him with determination. "As do I, Trowan my lord. I have a message for your mate, my.. my nana. My ada and his one that he calls son have betrayed all. Tell her not to believe me but to search out the truth for herself. I must go. But I warn you. Take care that you watch and guide your yongerself well, or he also will become a traitor to Eru and our cause."

Dulucien start's to leave when Trowanel stops him with a gentle but firm hand holding his upper arm. "You have chanced.. You are more…"

Delucien gives him a sad smile. "We all do my lord, given the right reasons and the better chances not taken from us. My love stays with you and all my more distant mates. I must go and care for my charge… No.. Blast it."

They had both felt it. Trowanel lets him go and sprints in the direction that Thorin and the others had gone. "Forgive me.. Our stays with you…"

Dulucien fights the urge to follow him and help but knows that it is not his place and that his being there would only cause more pain. He feel breath and tears on the back of his neck, and arms wrap around his waist as an ice cold furious voice speaks quietly in his ear. "Anari has fully betrayed us, Duluci… Shall we leave him and his progeny to their fate at the hands of our former lords, or shall we end him and wipe out those that follow him."

Dulucien closes his eyes hoping for clarity. "A bit of both but not to the degree that we both would like. I will go and give the needed order. All that come your and Cali's way, end quickly, leave none to tell the tale."

The Cold drake knows as Cougen of cold nods over his shoulder and then kisses the mark on Dulucien's neck. "All will be done my love and lord."

Dulucien smiles grimly his eyes meet reddish brown hazel ones. "Yes, my beautiful lord, keep you little one out of trouble and as soon as you are done. Both of you head home. I will rejoin you once I can. This has complicate things. My love stays with you both. Trust in the One and no other."

Billa was thrown off of Azog as she fought to keep him from killing Thorin, her one. As Billa fell stunned behind Azog. Fili, Kili, Dwalin and Gloin joined battle, and then it all stopped. Kili had been the first to get to Azog, and he had her by the neck her hands clawing to get free.

Azog leaned in taking in her scent. "Aaah, So the line of Durin now has a young female, I think I will keep you. Drop your arms or you will watch this one die slowly. Hold them and the yellow haired, one make it so he has a clear view of his kin."

They drop their weapons and the orcs holds them fast. Bolg holds Fili with a knife held to his neck and pull his head back by his hair. Wargs were guarding the trees.

Azog got off his white warg and holds Kili to the ground by her neck he was not choking her but she was not strong enough to get free. Bolg brought Fili closer knowing the gleam in his father's eyes and put his foot on Thorin's chest.

Kili eyes widen as Azog's claw began to pin her down tearing her tunic, small shirt and wraps as his hand rubs her breast painfully, bruising her as she screamed. "FILI, UNCLE, NO NO STOP NO, FILI FILI."

Fili eyes were wide fear, pain, loathing, and guilt as tears rolling down his cheeks. "Get your filthy hand off him."

He growls. Azog laughs. "I think that will take this one and give you some playmates, Bolg."

As he roughly put his hand in her pants tearing them. Kili goes limp as she start to break, tear running down her face. "Fili, I don't want this. I'm not his! I'M YOURS Fi noo stop stop STOP I'M NOT YOURS YOU CAN'T HAVE ME! NOOOO NOO noo nooo. FILI I'M SORRY FILI HE WON'T STOP I'm sorry Fi."

Fili and the others strand shaking with rage and grief in the orcs' hold them and the wargs guard them. "KILI FIGHT! I LOVE YOU KI! NO IT NOT YOUR FAULT, KILI. GET YOUR HAND OFF OF HER! SHE NOT YOURS! KI FIGHT! KI FIGHT! DON'T GIVE UP! IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, KI. I'M HERE, KI I LOVE YOU. HE CAN'T HAVE YOU. YOUR MINE! I'M HERE!"

Bolg smirk and whispers. "My father share his toys with me, but if you want this pretty thing to …."

Bolg drops Fili as he sees his father's head fall to the ground and his body fall back as Billa stands over Azog's fallen body, his warg runs and yelps as it fur flames up having been hit by flaming pinecones. "You will never touch Kili, Thorin or anyone else ever again."

Her voice deadly cold. Dwalin take Bolg's head off, as Fili runs to Kili kneeling, pulling her into his arms and speaks softly. "I've got you Ki. Billa killed him."

Kili curls into a ball in Fili's arm as he gently picks her up holding her close to his chest. "I feel so dirty Fi. It was… It was … me meant t to be be you tou touching m me, my my Ze. I I'm sorry Fili. Please, m make mmme feel clean aagain."

Kili whispered brokenly before passing out. Fili holds her crying silently into hair. The battle around Fili was lost to him as he holds her. He looks up and turns around hearing the sound of his name being called by Gandalf. "Fili, my lad hand her to me and climb up."

Fili glares at Gandalf distrustingly "I will keep my Ze safe. I won't let it happen again. He will not touch her. No one will touch her. No, I won't let you touch her!"

Gandalf look sadly at the two of them as he gets off of the eagle lord. 'The wounds to their hearts and minds will heal, but will not be easy.' "I will help you get up then."

Fili nods slowly allowing Gandalf to do so, and then Gandalf gets on behind them.

Gandalf goes over what just happened in his mind.

~Gandalf had just sent Radagast moth for help as the horror began to unfold. Ori was screaming even while she held on to the branch. "Kili nooo, Gandalf. Do something." Nori eyes were wide and broken. "KILI STAY STILL. HELP WILL COME. YOU'RE NOT ALONE. I'm so sorry Kili, I I can't.. GET YOUR HAND OFF HER.." Dori, Oin, Bifur, Bofur and Bombur yell and curse. Balin was crying as she hides her face in grief from the horror and pain. Gandalf had to stay calm or he would not be able to save them. "If I make a move now I will get them all killed. I must wait…" Dori growls and yells at him. "Gandalf, if we don't do something he going to rape her in front of all of us.. Eagles…" Gandalf watch as Billa relieves Azog of his head and he starts throwing flaming pine cones and the wargs and Orcs. "Everyone wait…" Everyone but Oin and the now falling Ori, race to the aid of Thorin, Billa, Fili and Kili. Ori lands safely on the back of one of the great eagles. The others did not fight long before were being carried away.~

Gandalf blinks back tears seeing Thorin so injured and hearing Kili whimpers of pain. Fili mind was a torrent of rage and grief. "Eru, Most High, please help us."

The Eagles flew most of the night, landing just as dawn was breaking they gently, let down the company. Gwaihir and the eagle lords let Gandalf and Fili and still passed out Kili off. Gandalf ran to where Billa sat begging Thorin to wake up. He gently pushes Billa aside and speak a prayer of healing and blessing over Thorin. As he feels Thorin's most life threatening injuries heal he turns to see Fili holding and rocking Kili. 'This will not easy.' Gandalf walks over. "Fili, my lad …."

Fili glares. "I won't you, nor anyone touch him."

Thorin with Billa and Dwalin's help walks over and kneels by Fili; pulling both Fili and Kili into his arms. Fili broke as he leans back. "Uncle he touched him; he hurt him! HE WAS GOING TO RAPE MY KILI! Kili please wake up!"

The whole company sat brokenly about ten feet away, as Thorin combs his fingers Fili's Hair. "Fili was Gandalf the one that did this?"

Fili looks at Thorin with wide pain and grief filled eyes. "No."

"Then allow him to do what he can for your nadith and your children."

Fili shook his head and yells. "No! won't let him or anyone hurt him. He not just my nadith. He my Ze, and will not allow him to be hurt again!"

Billa sat down on the other side of Fili and Kili. "Fili, Gandalf will not hurt Kili, and she may lose them if you don't let him try. We are right here. He just going to help her the way he did Thorin."

Fili began to calm down and coming out of shock as Billa and Thorin comforted him, but not letting go of Kili; tears falling on his cheek once more. "Uncle, Billa, help him."

Thorin sighs. "Fili, we can't help her the way Gandalf can and after it will take all of us to help Kili, but she is going to need you more than all of us. Let Gandalf heal Kili's body and the little ones, then we can all start helping her heal in mind and heart and spirit and soul."

Fili let out a shaking breath and nods his head; still holding Kili close. Gandalf gently place a hand on her her forehead and left shoulder speaking a healing prayer and blessing in a mixture of Quenya and Khuzdul(AN: The language that the Istari use in the movies sounds like and a Mixture of the two).

Kili slowly opens her eye as Gandalf steps back and giving them space and going to talk Balin and Dwalin about plans for the night and the next few days.

Kili trembles and buries her face in Fili's shoulder; her voice a little above a whisper. "I I'm so sorry, Fi. I Didn't want it! I feel dirty and like I I'll nnever, nnever be clean aagain. Iit hurts Fi... noo ou our…"

Fili put his head on her forehead. "This was not your fault, so there's nothing to forgive. The little ones will be fine. What do you need me to do Ki. I'm here, and Thorin and Billa are here, and we will protect you and the children and help heal and feel clean again."

Kili was starting to fall asleep. "No, Fili.. you your the the... only one tha that.. can can make me feel cle clean again…"

Billa smiles a sad, broken smile and combs her hand through Kili's hair. "We here Kili. Fili, Thorin, Me and the rest of the company, and Azog and Bolg are dead so they can't you or anyone ever again. So, just rest and we'll take care you."

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The Company set out after a short rest, but as they were walking Fili would not allow anyone but Thorin, Billa, Dwalin, Balin, Nori and Ori near Kili, and of them he would only allow Balin and Dwalin to help carry her when his arms want to give out on him. (Thorin was to still to injured and Billa was not quite strong enough. Nori and Ori were both too shaken themselves to carry Kili. Ori, less so, but had to be ready in case Nori blacked out. She didn't thankfully.) They were camping a fourth of a mile away from a stream near the Carrock, and everyone but Fili, Kili, Thorin and Billa were getting everything ready for the night.

Billa had put out Fili and Kili's bed rolls and blankets out as soon as they had stop. Fili had lain down the already sleeping Kili and sat so that Kili's head was on his out stretched out legs as he run his hand through her hair. Kili whimpers a bit and curls closer to Fili holding his legs.

Thorin and Billa bed rolls were about 145 feet from Kili and the others had theirs between 155 and 160 feet away in a semi-circle around them. The rest of the company were making sure that both of the young Durin heirs were safe, but also giving them much need space. Billa and Thorin sat down on either side of them; near enough them to comfort them if need but not near so that it set Fili on edge. Thorin spoke gently not want to push speaking about the horror of the night before. "So, Fili when back then were you going to tell me that you realized that Kili was your ze or did you not know until you awoke? How long has been since you have known?"

Fili takes a deep shuddering breath and began quietly. "It's been nearly three year. I found out the day she came of age, but I've been waiting on her until she was ready. Until the day we woke up back in our room I hadn't known she knew. To be honest I didn't know if you or Amad would approve or try to keep us from consummating when Kili was ready or worse. I still don't know about Amad."

Thorin lets out a deep breath. "It is very rare but not unheard of for one's Ze to be a sibling. No, we would not nor will she disprove of your union, but she would have been more guard of the both of you. Both your amad and nada saw it from day one of Kili's life. We all knew that the time would come for both of you to be more than siblings would come after Kili came of age at 75, but we had no way of knowing how soon after or if the two of you would try to hide it out of the fear you just spoke of. Your mother told me to watch both you closely on the quest, because not but 3 or 4 months before we left Kili began to show signs that if you did not seek courtship she would begin seeking it from you, openly, and feared the danger of it."

Fili put his hands in his hair rubbed quickly, a shocked and somewhat pained, disparaging look on his young face making him look older than he should. He also spoke quietly. "If I had known all this I would have wed Kili before we left. But still, I will not push that part of our bond with Kili after this. If once he heals, and he needs me in that, and he has me. But I will not seek it or push it."

Thorin looks Fili in the eye as he strokes the whimpering Kili's hair. "You may be shock to know that she may need that to heal, but let her ask you and do not withhold yourself from her. If you do you will break her far worst than Azog ever could…"

At the name Azog Kili woke and sat bolt upright. Her wide eyes looking fearful and panicked, but not seeing her love ones until Fili put both hands on her cheeks, as he gently turns her face to meet his. She relaxes a little as she see him smiling lovingly at her. "Ki, I'm here, my Ze. Your safe. We're all safe. The defiler and his spawn are dead. They will no…"

Kili drove into Fili's arm catching his lips in a fierce kiss, everyone else but Thorin, Dwalin, Nori, Ori and Bofur's eyes were wide with shock, as Kili pushes Fili down on to the bed roll. Kili pulls her lip away in between kisses as speaks. "Fi, I'm sorry… I didn't….. I can feel his hands….. I wanted it to be only you….. It was….. meant to be…. your tender touch….. just us, and our mates….. I can't look them in ….. face, Fi…. I I I feel so dirty and bro brok broken and aah aashamed."

Kili hides her face in Fili's chest as she starts to shake. "Fi… They they all ss ssaw….th they must ha hate mmmee... I I I'vve sh shamed….."

Fili takes a deep breath as he pull her closer. He looks at his uncle. Thorin looks down and away as he stands. "Fili, we will be near if you need us. Call for us if either of you do, and do not forget what I said."

Billa pulls the blankets over them crying softly taking Thorin's hand; the fire light shining off her betrothal beads as she turns. Fili comb his hand slowly through Kili hair as she calms down and her shaking becomes a mild tremble. Fili speaks softly so that only Kili can hear. "Hey…. Hey Kili listen to me. You have done nothing. I mean nothing to be sorry or ashamed of…. You did not ask for this. You were trying to save Uncle just like I was…."

Kili calms down a little at this. "Is it rreally ttrue Fi?... Th That I don't don't need to be aashamed?"

Kili looks up a little fearful and pained but trusting. Fili smiles and kisses her head. "Yes, I mean it…. If any of the others think less of you. I will deal with them, and so will Thorin and Billa and Balin and Dwalin and Ori and Nori and Bofur. We love you Kili…. I love you…."

Kili take a deep shuddering breath. "But but ddon't I disgust th them."

Kili began to shake again. Fili pulls her as close as he can and holds Kili as he strokes her back. "Hey… you.. did.. not.. do.. anything. Kili, you are not to blame..."

Kili began shake harder fisting hand in Fili's clothes. "Ye Yes, bu bu but you you you you won't won't wa want mmee now now… I I I'mm da da damaged goo goodss."

Fili gently lifts her chin to look at him and she squeezes her I eyes closed tight. "No your not.. and Yes I do want you, you are my Kili, my Ze, my nadith, nana of my children and there is not anything that could stop me from needing you… loving you… wa wanting you. I will never stop loving you no matter what… and as soon as your ready to bathe tomorrow I want you to tell me your needs, and if they will not keep you from healing, I will give you what you ask."

Kili looks into Fili's eyes searching. Seeing the truth in his eyes and hearing the truth in his voice she starts to calm down again and think a little more clearly. "You wwant me…Fi... I need… I nneed you… to to... I don't know if if I'm brave enough to say it it… I don't want to wait lo long… It the the only thi thing tthat will stop th the feeling his his his hand on me is…."

Kili blushes as Fili kiss the bridge of her nose and then her lips tenderly. "I will wait only as long as you need me to Ki, and we will go at the pace you set. I have always been yours and I am sorry that I did not wed you before we left Ered Luin… Ki… she fell asleep… I am thankful she not as tense...Most High one please help me to not hurt her and please help the others not look down on her or reject her. Help me know how to love her and please let this love you've given us help us heal, your will be done." Pulling the blankets high to keep the night chill out Fili joins his mate in sleep.

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A few yards away Gandalf spoke with Thorin, Billa, and Balin quietly. "Yes, Beorn is a not quite used to having many guests, but he will understand the need and I will tell him as little as need be. All of you need to heal and rest and you will be safe there."

Thorin looks at Gandalf unsure. "But can we trust him?"

Gandalf sighs. "Can he be trusted. Yes, he can be if you are forthcoming him. If he smells a lie, he will never aid you again. He is quite loyal to fault, but does not tolerate dishonesty of any kind."

Thorin nods, satisfied. "Very well. Go and tell him our need, and if he has need of more answers we will provide them."

Gandalf left at once. Balin looks between Thorin and Billa and then to where Fili and Kili are sleeping. "Dori and I will take first watch. The two of you and Dwalin will need to be rested enough in case either of them need you in the night. Please try to Rest."

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Night had fallen and the stars and moon were bright, even though everything in camp was shadowed by the trees of the large forest clearing the were camping in. 160 feet feet away from Fili and Kili, Oin, Gloin, Gimli, Bifur and Bombur lay trying to sleep on the farthest side of the camp, by where Bombur had cooked what little supper he could over a small fire. 145 feet away to Fili and Kili's right Billa and Thorin were dead to the world asleep. 150 feet to Fili and Kili's right Bofur, Nori and Ori, and 175 feet straight ahead from Fili and Kili, Balin, Dwalin and Dori set in quite conversion. Balin sighs as Dwalin look back Fili and Kili and then Bofur, Nori and Ori. "Nadith, Fili is not going to let you comfort her, so if you want to comfort someone go help Bofur and Ori comfort Nori. Who knows what horrors are swarming in her mind right now, with all that she suffered in silence with all those years."

Dori stops Dwalin before he gets up and Dwalin glares at him but waits. "Look out for Nori and Ori for me in the way I can not. They are my sisters but your ze and third. I do not completely understand things of mates and their bonds, but I know they both need you and Bofur... and each other. Please, keep anyone else from hurting Nori.."

Dwalin sigh and nods. "As Eru and Mahal will it, I will do it. Beg Eru for us all the both you.. But if you hear things tonight from our side. I need you to understand... Bofur and Ori will not let Nori break just, because all of you are around to hear.."

Dori and Balin both pale and nod and turn to keep watch once more.

Later that night while most of the other slept Nori could not rest for nightmares and when she woke it was to flashbacks of dwarves, men and orc, rapping, useing and beating her all the while threatening Dori and Ori, if she fought back or did not give them what they wanted how and when they wanted it.

Bofur and Ori were holding Nori between facing each other sitting cross legged, as she trembles, shakes and whimper, as she relives not only what happened with Kili, but all those years of be used and rape by men, dwarves and orcs. Dwalin wraps a blanket around them, and sits down. "Has Nori said anything yet?"

Ori looks at him with tears in her eyes, closes them, shaking her head. "No not since we stopped for camp. Her mind is in turmoil, Memory upon memory of all those years, hitting her..."

Nori whimpers and bury her face Bofur chest. "Bofur, please make stop. I don't want, Ori to see..."

Ori nuzzles her neck. "Let me see and take it from you... Your pain is my pain, our pain.. Yes, that is it.. All that and all this... We will overcome it, Eru is will us.."

Nori starts breath easier and shake less. Bofur presses his lips to Nori forehead. "That's over, my Dove, and we will find away to keep you and others safe.. Kili and the twins are alright, Fili is with her.. He hasn't reject her, and we aren't goin ta reject you or Kili."

Nori begins breathing hard. "What about Dwalin, he hasn't seen.. "

Dwalin pales as Nori looks up at him wild eyed and broken. "Nori, no.. why would I reject you.. Ori, Bofur..."

Bofur and Ori look at him pained and a bit cold. Nori takes a deep breath closing her eyes. "Ori.. Let him see as much as he can handle.. If he is willing... Bofur.. lover mine.."

Bofur kisses Nori gently letting her deepen the kiss and gasps into the kiss Nori guides Bofur's hands to touch her under her clothes as she leans back in Ori arms. Bofur pulls back a bit and looks around seeing that Dwalin, and their pack are blocking any possible view, and whispers. "Nori, do you need this, my dove.. with Dwalin and Ori's eyes on you."

Ori close her eyes as she feels her body react to Nori's, taking a deep breath to keep from making a noise, and Nori presses back into her. "Nori, sis.. make sure of this, because the others may hear."

Nori takes a deep breath feel Ori's reaction. "I'm sure, let them hear.. We have nothing to hide. I need your hands on me, instead of feeling there's... Bofur.. please.. "

Dwalin looks shaken. "I will turn my back and keep watch.. If Nori needs this then don't deny her.."

Bofur and Ori search each other's eyes and nod. "Keep watch, we're only needin to touch her, nothing else."