So I was in a good mood today so I decided to update just a day earlier. :D
Ooh~ it's the next part.
Yeah, once again, if you don't want to go through reading stuff about their thoughts, feel free to wait a few weeks and then read again :D (I just need something to get rid of all this shortness.)
Today ish Shinn's turn, yay =3
You know you all love Shinn ;D
By the way, if any of you realize mistakes in typing or something is missing something. Blame me and .
So…I would type (for example) :3, but then it turns into just a 3. Yeah, weird I know.
Errors with grammar is mah fault though.
Anyways, thanks to everyone who's still reading this. I thank thee~ So enough talking for nao on continue onto da story.
Today's song is "Down" by Jay Sean. ;D
Disclaimer: I don't own GSD (nor the song.) cuz if I did, I would've kept Stella alive, brought Arisa to life, and killed off Luna. (sorry to those who like Luna. D: It's just that their age difference really bothers me, and the fact that she's kinda annoying to me)
Chapter Bonus [Shinn]
A family.
Maybe that's what I craved for.
Or maybe someone who could say.
"I love you."
That the thing I was searching for. A special someone who would love me and take good care of me, to let me forget of my past, to let me not reminded of painful things.
But everything was taken from me anyways.
Mayu, my parents and then even Stella.
Thinking about it now, I was nothing more than a kid begging my parents to buy me the latest video game that just came out. I wanted to spend all my time out with friends, to go to an amusement park, to go to a gaming convention, to do whatever I wanted.
I remember they would always scold me when I did something bad, to came home with bad grades. They would be upset with me and I would always storm off into my room as a result. I remember how angry I was too back then.
I remember the day when I wanted to run away, because I got into a fight with my parents.
I remember the day I apologized, when I said sorry and they would have open arms towards me, giving me forgiveness and we would make up with a delicious dinner.
Now that I realize that I should've spent more time with my own parents, it's too late.
Mayu.
Thinking about her makes me tear. Mayu was a brat, an annoyance, but she was still my younger sister. She would always be playing pranks on me, always bugging me to no end. Sure it got on my nerves for a while, but it was a daily routine.
I remember that laugh.
I remember that voice.
And her face haunts me to this day, that smile would always appear to me in dreams, and thoughts.
I should've been nicer to her.
But then, when they died, it was as if my whole world fell apart. That battle in Onogoro, I will never forget it as long as I live.
Seeing Mayu's detached arm, my parent's bloody bodies, I swore to protect everyone else who was precious to me. Never again, will I let someone important to me die.
A hurting pain.
All I had left was nothing more than Mayu's cell phone, my only possession relating to my family now.
Pictures of my mom, my dad, and Mayu were stored in there.
And her voice, through the speaker for voice-mail, always made me become sad. I was selfish, I admit now. I know the feeling of not having someone look out for you. Of not having family anymore. So sad, and so upsetting, it makes you clench with the thought.
That object is one of the sole reasons for fighting.
That's also where I've sworn to defeat that pathetic leader named Attha. A person I hate with all my heart and soul. It was all her and her father's fault for killing my family.
A person I never will forgive.
But because of that incident, I am now in ZAFT, a soldier, a fighter piloting my own machine. The Impluse, my own weapon that I am to use against Orb, and the Earth Alliance.
All I seek is revenge though.
The Impulse, and now even the Destiny. Mobile Suits with similar capabilities, with even similar looks. Both were built for me and me alone. Two machines equipped with the best armour, the best weapons, and just simply the best around.
Chairman Durandal building these weapons for me meant the world. It allowed me to do what I wanted in battle, to fight, to destroy, to protect, and to live.
A privilege many wished they had.
But if I can't win, what would I need for these things then?
Power is what I seek.
Strength, power and glory.
Or so I had thought at the beginning.
Nothing else mattered, as long as I had my revenge on the killer of my family.
My life meant nothing to me at that point.
I still remember that day when I first entered the academy. All eyes were fixed onto me, I would sit nervously at an empty seat (with students sending occasional looks at me), and learn about something completely new.
But there, I had made good friends.
Lunamaria, Meyrin, Rey, Yolant, and Vino. As well as few other of course. But these were the only ones that I could call my best friends. I was free to tell them whatever I felt and not be judged. They would accept even if I had done something completely stupid and rash.
Others thought of me as nothing more than a brat. Not that it mattered to me even in the least.
All that I sought for was that sweet thing called revenge.
But thinking about it now…The academy was probably the only place where I was truly at peace, and was able to relax and do what I wanted. No one could yell at me like they did now. I was still free to do what I liked, as long as my grades were kept in order. Even if I got into trouble, it was nothing major, nothing that could get my reputation soiled and ruined for life.
I was free then.
Now I am a caged bird, taking orders.
But that was all of my own personal choice. Not my parents, not my friends, no one. Mine and mine alone. But without that death, I would still be just a regular citizen, still living in Orb.
Not being able to see the truth of that place for what it really is.
Lies.
That was the turning point in my life, when I finally did change everything.
I tried to forget everything.
It only worked for a while.
Only few people ever trusted me. The only 2 people that I could ever think of is mostly Lunamaria or Rey, as seeing we had the most classes and hung out more so than with the others.
Although their first impression of me wasn't that great, there's nothing else to say about it.
I could rely on them for tests, quizzes, and studying.
I would copy my homework off Rey and ask him for additional help all the time. Besides, he never minded it, I think. He would always just hand his work to me willingly, without a single objection. He would help me out a lot on tests, and would always cram with me whenever I was desperate for the help. That's probably the reason why I even made it onto the Minerva in the first place.
It's not like I didn't know the answer.
I just wasn't that bright.
Nor was I really that great of a student when it came to academic studying.
My grades were decent, but not really the best. It's not I failed right?
School was nothing more than a way to forget my past, to stop reminding myself of the tragedy. To finally let go of everything and start anew.
Then, when I received that mobile suit, I remember that special racing feeling in my heart. The feeling of when your heart pounds across your chest excitedly. Getting out of that academy was already a happy thing for me, as I would not have to study anymore.
A good thing.
But still, being able to fight, being able to help others, and finally able to get my revenge.
Ever since I arrived on the Minerva, that's when everything began, my goals, my aspirations, and everything else. Everything was set.
Well, almost.
On that ship, I met Captain Gladys, a trustworthy but strict captain. She was nice towards everyone, as well as fair. Sure, maybe she was a bit too strict for my liking, but still, she was a captain. I had to listen to her right? There's nothing else to do.
On that ship, my friendship with everyone rose. We became better friends.
Luna and I got somewhat closer, but of course every now and then, we would make rude compliments of each other.
Meyrin and I always had a mutual conversation, our usual times conversing would be around her own sister, Lunamaria. Nonetheless, we were still friends.
Yolant, Vino and I came onto the Minerva together, out heads held up high. Hoping that everyone would have a good impression of us.
I was a red coat.
They were a green coat.
Rey and I had always been friends; he would look out for me. He was always helping come up with battle strategies and plans to help me win. I just needed to go through with that plan.
That's how I beat the Freedom.
I envied that pilot in there. He was an amazing pilot; his speed and control were almost inhuman. If only whoever sat in there would join ZAFT. ZAFT would then become unstoppable.
Beating him that day was like a dream come true.
Too bad he fights for Orb.
But the person I blame the most of course was Attha. Everything was her fault and her fault alone. I couldn't even understand why someone like Athrun stayed with her all that time. Why would someone of his status, his caliber, want to protect that pathetic Attha?
Cagalli Yula Attha is the one individual in the world I would never give a damn to. I hated her with all my guts, I wanted to yell at her, and rip her of her status. I hated that last name.
That's why I never trusted her after that day.
Even her father, was an idiot.
Athrun protecting her made me angry.
So, so angry.
But even still, although he got on my nerves a lot, I admit that I respected him.
After all, he fought in the Bloody Valentine War, he helped win that war. He was one of the best pilots at that time, aside from the Freedom and Miracles. Three machines when fought together would be unstoppable, even if they were enemies from the beginning.
A war that would be in favour for Orb.
Athrun, the pilot of the Freedom, and Arisa.
Arisa…
I never knew that I could actually like a person after that event with my family.
We didn't know each other for too long, yet everything about her intrigued me. Although when I first met her, I thought of her as just an idol, a pretty picture, with a beautiful voice.
Yet, when she spoke to me that first day, she seemed so strong, so different, and a much better person than I thought she would be.
I've met some idols before, and under that surface was someone completely different. Not who they were supposed to be, an exact opposite. They were rude, picky, and very demanding. That proves that they really were nothing more than a pretty picture.
As kind and gentle as they appeared.
I couldn't help but begin to feel hate and resentment later on.
But she was different.
Her real self was someone gentler than shown on TV. She knew how to speak well in front of people. Even by just having her say a few lines, my interest in her grew. And when I saw her battle in just simply a Zaku, that's when I knew I really liked her.
She knew how to fight well. Her skills in battle was outstanding, a feat that no regular (14 year old) girl could do. It was as if she was some kind of different coordinator. A special coordinator.
She knew how to sing and speak well. Her singing voice would captivate me and throw me off into some kind of dream world, full of happiness. I would lose myself. I could listen to her speak and sing all day.
She had a lot of friends, as well as made friends easily. Everyone loved her, everyone respected her. Maybe I was even jealous of her a little bit too. No one ever thought of her as annoying or a brat. She was mature for her age, possibly because of the event's of the past war.
She was pretty too. Prettier than Lacus Clyne, the pop princess of the Plants, but that's only in my own perspective. One might argue Lacus is better though obviously. Although younger than her by a measly two years, that hardly ever made a difference, all that mattered was who she was on the inside.
Gentle and down-to–earth.
And she had a tragic past. Death of all those she loved. Something that I could relate to myself.
I was so happy that day, the day we got together. My face was flushed as she smiled sweetly, her eyes gazing out onto that beautiful ocean. That picture was so beautiful, so perfect, as if it was something that was written into our genes. That perfect moment of just the two of us.
Like a perfect melody.
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
Down, down
Even if the sky is falling down?
Down, down
You oughta know
Tonight is the night to let it go
Put on a show
I wanna see how you lose control
So leave it behind
'Cause we have a night to get away
So come on and fly with me
As we make our great escape
So baby, don't worry
You are my only
You won't be lonely
Even if the sky is falling down
You'll be my only
No need to worry
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
Down, down
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
Down, down
Even if the sky is falling down?
Just let it be
Come on and bring your body next to me
I'll take you away
Turn this place into our private getaway
So leave it behind
'Cause we have a night to get away
So come on and fly with me
As we make our great escape
So why don't we run away?
Baby, don't worry
You are my only
You won't be lonely
Even if the sky is falling down
You'll be my only
No need to worry
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
Down, down
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
Down, down
Even if the sky is fallin' down?
Down like she 'posed to be
She gets down low for me
Down like her temperature
'Cause to me she zero degrees
She cold, over freeze
I got that girl from overseas
Now she's my Miss America
Now can I be her soldier, please?
I'm fightin' for this girl
On the battlefield of love
Don't it look like baby cupid
Sent her arrows from above?
Don't you ever leave the side of me
Indefinitely, not probably
And honestly, I'm down like the economy
Baby, don't worry
You are my only
You won't be lonely
Even if the sky is falling down
You'll be my only
No need to worry
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
(And the sky is falling down)
Down, down
Baby, are you down, down, down, down, down?
(Are you down? Are you down?)
Down, down
Even if the sky is falling down?
(And the sky is falling down)
And the sky is falling down
But I was foolish.
I had sworn to protect her, and yet I already broke that promise. She even said she hated it when someone broke a promise, because all her life, everyone making her unfulfilled promises. That leading her to not trust anyone ever again.
I even told myself not to break that promise.
But I did anyways. And now, I regret it more than ever.
She left ZAFT, she left me. All because of my ignorance and selfish mistakes.
Isn't that why Stella died too?
When Arisa and I found her falling in the ocean that day, I honestly thought she was an idiot. Who would go near an ocean and dance…on a cliff? A cliff! She wasn't even watching. If it weren't for us saving her, she wouldn't even be alive.
Yet, I was so glad when I found her there in the Gaia, glad I got to see her again. Not only that, glad to see Arisa was alive even though she was kidnapped. There were worse things that could've happened.
But she died. I couldn't protect her either. Isn't that why I took revenge on the Freedom?
But that proved to be a thing that I regret now, something I shouldn't have done.
Arisa
All that I know is that parting hurts.
And that's all I'll ever remember now.
I know full well where she headed off to. I just didn't want to believe it was true. After all, how could I? I really loved her…a lot. All those sweet and silent conversations we would have. Those were the perfect days.
Now I'm alone all over again.
Tired of everything.
Seeking revenge on anyone who gets in my way.
Will I get to see her again?
If at the end, there was stuff you didn't get, it makes sense. Everything is coming up eventually, as the story unfolds. I must finish a chapter with Lacus, Kira, and/or Athrun.(not in order)
That last bits are foreshadowing...ehehe ;D. I'm sure you can guess what happens though.
It will all be revealed in due time.
I plan to finish this series before summer, at the very latest. Which means, at the very most, there's gonna be like 10~11 chappies.
OHHH~ If any of you lovely readers have an idea you want me to put in, feel free to PM/review and post your ideas. I'm always willing to put in a radom chapter (which will NOT affect the storyline what-so-ever, and will serve as just an insert chapter. Unless of course, it will follow through the storyline in Gundam Seed Destiny.o-o) I'm always willing for new ideas to throw in here, to maybe make a chapter longer too. (course you'll get credit for it ;D
TalesOfLegendia Fan
Yush, I know, a lot of broken promises neh?
But remeber, that is the title of the story ;D
Arisa: *hugs back* Thank you :]
*Arisa and Shinn are thrown into a closet.)
Shinn:......huh? WHAT? er.... *blushes*
Arisa: .....It's really really cramped Shinn D;
Shinn: cramped... err...Arisa?
Arisa: Huh?.....oh....OH! (O///////O) -*blushes*
Misha:Do you admit it was wrong to kill Kira?
Shinn: ....Kira? Who? o-o?
Misha: *smacks forehead.* The pilot of Freedom dummy! D: How can you not know that? Having you heard Athrun or Arisa talking about him like what? 24/7. You should've heard his name from Arisa at least once since you spend soooo much time with her.
Arisa: Kira...(TT_TT)
Shinn: O_O I...I DON'T KNOW. STOP MAKING ME SEEM LIKE A VILLAIN ALREADY. Geez, aren't I the main character in GSD anyways. (Although HE keeps stealing my spotlight.... )
Misha: Oh hush! You're fault for turning partly into a villain, stop being so attached to your family. Stop thinking of revenge and I'm sure your life will be FABULOOUUS (okay, maybe a but exagerrated). Stop blaming others and being a brat D: Besides, everyone loves Kira :D
Shinn: .............
Arisa: I miss Kira.
Shinn: When can we get out of this closet?
Misha: Not till TalesOfLegendia Fan, or another reviewer says so ;D
*insert Shinn's angry & frustrated scream here*
Misha: Now Arisa?
Arisa: Yeah. Please R&R to free us ._.