Chapter 11
Shanice's POV
Louis and I had been dating for just over a month now. I was falling for him pretty hard by now but all we did was constantly fight about stupid little things.
"I can't believe you refuse to watch grease with me" Louis said furiously as we both stormed through the front door to the hotel suite the boys were sharing while visiting Leeds.
I groaned "We have watched that fucking movie the last 4 nights in a row" I shouted as five pairs of eyes looked over our way.
"Firstly, language missy" Louis said pointing his finger at me like I was a little kid. I rolled my eyes still unaware of the people watching us. "Secondly it's a classic" Louis stated while sighing.
"There's only so much Summer Loving I can take" I told him in frustration.
"Fine" Louis shouted turning his back to me.
I let out a scream in frustration turning to face the wall that was directly behind me.
Okay I have to admit that now I was being a little childish but he started it.
I was only standing there for a second before strong hands forced me face to face with Louis again, and the fight ended the way it always did.
"You are so fit when you are angry" Louis said breathily crashing his lips on to mine.
I couldn't help what happened next, my body just took over me. I jumped on him wrapping my legs around his waist as we both frantically tried to get closer to each other even though we both knew it was impossible while still fully clothed.
I happily allowed his tongue access as my hands tangled in his hair and my back hit the wall. I heard some fake dry reaching coming from the couch "Can you please get a room?" Harry's husky voice asked.
My face went bright red as Louis set me back on the ground. I let my hair fall into my face hopefully hiding my embarrassment.
"So.." Zayn said breaking the silence "Who's up for clubbing tonight? Simon's got us into an opening of a new club"
All of us shot up our hands with wide smiles. I was always up for a party, I just loved the atmosphere.
"Then lets got ready, we have to be there in an hour" Zayn said smiling and we all went to our rooms.
Melissa and I were sharing a room of course while the rest of the boys all had their own room. Our room basically ended up being the storage room anyway because I always slept in Louis' room with him while Melissa stayed in Harry's room.
I looked around the room for my suitcase and spotted it under a football and a bunch of random clothes. The boys were honestly the messiest people I had ever met, not that it bothered me because I was pretty messy myself. Mum used to tell me to clean it and I would tell her that it was an obstacle course to keep me fit.
As I pulled my pink suitcase out and opened it up I was thinking of home. I missed the sunny days, the beach and my family. Sure we fought a lot but I really did miss them now that they were half way around the world. I hadn't called mum in a week and decided to give her a ring.
"Hey Mel I'm just going to give mum and buzz" I told her and got a grunt in reply as she riffled through her own suitcase and headed to the bathroom. I shrugged my shoulders and grabbed my phone.
I pressed the call button on my HTC and placed it on loud speaker on the bed as I pulled out a dress that I had brought with me.
After three rings I heard a bunch of noise on the other side of the line.
"It's your sister so shut up. Hello" I heard mum scream at someone in the background and had to laugh.
"Hey mum how's things going down under?" I asked her as I pulled off the jeans I was wearing and my shirt.
"Yeah they are okay. Your sister has found her own place so dad is over there helping them move right now. Your brothers are, well, as normal as they can be, going to school and all that jazz" She told me which made me smile.
I picked up my dress and was getting ready to put it on when Louis peeked into the door. "Well that's good" I said making hand gestures for him to get out as I tried to cover myself up. He gave a small laugh and closed the door. "We are just in Leeds right now about to hit up the clubs"
"Who was that Shanice?" she asked me and I gave a small sigh.
"It was Louis, he was just telling me that I have 20 minutes" I told her. Okay so it was a little white lie but I wasn't ready to tell her that I had a boyfriend, she would just make a big deal about it because of everything that has happened.
"Oh right, the boy band you guys have made friends with. I'm glad you're having fun darling." She told me as Melissa walked out of the bathroom and I had just finished getting my dress on. "You are taking your medication right? Both of them?"
"Yes mum I have been taking my medication I promise" I told her in a bored voice rolling my eyes which caused Melissa to laugh.
"And you haven't done anything stupid?" she asked me knowing that I knew exactly what she meant by it "Still keeping the diary that you won't let me read"
"No I haven't done anything like that and yes I have been keeping my diary. Plus I got Melissa to watch over me" I reassured her smiling at Melissa and she gave me a thumbs up.
"Alright well I'll let you get ready, email me some pictures when you have time and call your father tomorrow or something. He's missing you" she told me and I felt a twinge of guilt for not talking to him. "I love you"
"Love you too mum, I'll talk to you soon" I told her and hung up.
So I should probably explain all the cryptic messages in the phone call. I suffer from Depression and Anxiety which used to be really bad. I used to drink my problems away, self harm and all that jazz but since going on Medication it's been about 6 months since I did any of that. I still drink but it's controlled and my cuts are all healed up now only leaving almost invisible scars on my wrists. None of the boys know about it of course because I don't like to broadcast my past.
I also take medication for Arthritis that I have had since I was 15, gets bad every now and then but recently it has been fairly under control.
25 minutes after leaving the boys Melissa and I walked back into the lounge room to find four of the boys sitting around.
Melissa was wearing a blue tight dress that reached to an inch above her knee with black heels. Her hair was down and she had on minimal make up. She didn't really need a lot of it because she was stunning. As soon as Harry saw her he got up and wrapped his arms around her waist giving her a light peck on the cheek.
I had opted to wear a baby pink dress that had a silk corset up the top but flared out into flows of tulle. The hem fell about 3 inches above my knee. My hair was tied up into a side ponytail leaving only my bangs to fall across my forehead and the ends of my curly ponytail to tickle at my neck. I was wearing white heels and only foundation, eye liner and some light pink lipstick.
Louis wasn't anywhere to be seen in the lounge room with the rest of the boys. I looked around a little and was about to ask where he was when I felt arms go around my waist and a kiss planted on my temple. A smile spread across my face and all memories of the fight earlier erased "You look gorgeous" he whispered in my ear.
I pulled away from him and turned to face him. He was wearing a black and white stripy shirt of course and a pair of red jeans. "So do you, but you missed" I told him with a smirk.
"What do you mean?" he asked with a confused look and I gave him a quick peck on the lips.
"You missed" I said simply and put on my leather jacket heading for the door. I turned back to him and he smiled at me. I could tell he was looking at my legs but his eyes quickly flashed back to my face cheekily. "So you guys coming or what?" I called to them with a massive smile.
The boys let out a quick shout in excitement and jumped up from their positions walking past me out the door. Harry walked out holding Melissa's hand and before I could leave Louis grabbed hold of my hand.
All seven of us piled into the minivan we had hired to transport us around. Liam was designated driver of course; he didn't like to drink too much because of his kidney problems. He turned on the car and headed off.
The club wasn't really that far, maybe a few blocks away and it looked like it was going to rain soon. The man at the door recognised us right away and let us in without showing our ID's probably already aware that we were of age.
The club was packed full of young faces and all of them had their eyes on our crowd as we made our way to the VIP section. It was less crowded in there but I knew that the other boys would let some of their fans in. It was just the way they were.
I didn't let go of Louis' hand the whole time, large groups of people made me nervous for some reason. "Want a drink?" I heard Louis ask me. I just nodded not wanting to shout at the top of my lungs.
He dragged us both over to the bar and ordered two Vodka and Lemonades. I took a sip of mine and smiled at him seeing him do the same thing.
I looked around the VIP section and sure enough Liam and Niall were there letting some fans in. Everyone knew they were all taken and that the boys weren't going to try anything but they just wanted to get close to the boys and the boys loved their fans.
"I'm going to the bathroom" I announced to Louis and walked away after leaving a kiss on his cheek.
Louis' POVShanice had just left to go to the bathroom and I was now seated by myself at the bar. I looked around and noticed Harry coming over with someone who looked vaguely familiar.
"Hey Louis, this is Becca, she said you guys were friends back in school" Harry told me and I looked at the girl in front of me. She was pretty, blonde and her eyes were a very light green. That's when it hit me. I knew her.
"Becca Miller? The girl who dumped me?" Louis asked her incredulously. "I dated her before Hannah, she said I was cool enough to be with her"
Harry looked at the girl questions waiting to erupt. "Please Louis, all I want is to talk" Becca said and I rolled my eyes.
"Fine but my girlfriend is coming back in a minute and when she comes back we are leaving the bar" I told her and she sat across from me.
"Just call if you need me" Harry whispered to me before walking away.
"I don't like how I left things I want us to be friends" Becca said and I scoffed.
"You only want to be friends because I'm in a band now" I told her.
"Look just give me a chance and I'll show you that I've changed" Becca said standing up "I can tell this talk won't change anything but if you decide you want to just call me"
She wrote her number on a napkin, folded it up and handed it to me. She looked around then back at me, grabbed my face and pushed my lips against hers. It happened so fast that I didn't have time to register. She pulled away and walked out of the club. I looked around just in time to see Shanice turn and run from the scene.
Liam's POVShanice was just standing there before she turned and ran. I saw the whole thing and ran after her hoping to calm her down.
"Shanice wait!" I called out and saw her stop and turn around
"What Liam?" she screamed. Tears were running down her face, her make-up was smudged on her cheeks.
"I'm sure it wasn't what you saw, there has to be more too it" I told her trying desperately to get her to come back with me.
"I fell for him, I love him and he doesn't love me, he's off making out with fucking skanks" Shanice shouted at me trying to hide the sobs "I know we have only been dating for a month but I fell for him fast and hard, and this is what I get, this is always what I fucking get. I get hurt"
I walked up to her and gave her a hug, wrapping my arms around her fragile frame. "It'll be okay love, it'll be alright" I whispered. Shanice was like a sister to me now after all this time; I never wanted to see her get hurt.
Shanice pulled away and I looked at her, I couldn't see any emotion in her eyes whatsoever "Shanice look at me" I told her and she did but it looked like she was looking right through me.
"I'm just going to go home" she told me then took off her shoes and turned away walking off into the night.
I shouldn't have let her go but I had to get the boys. I ran back into the club finding all the boys with Melissa all sitting together.
"Guys, we need to go home now" I told them no question in the statement at all. It was an order and they all knew it.
"Wait, I have to get Shanice" Melissa said looking around.
"She's already gone, she saw the girl kiss Louis and she walked off heart-broken" I told her and gave Louis a glare.
"She kissed me, I didn't kiss back, I didn't even know what was going on" Louis said defensively holding his hands up.
"How was she when you left her?" Melissa asked frantically.
"Upset, then she kind of shut off like a robot" I told her trying to remember "When she looked at me it was like she wasn't even there"
"SHIT!" Melissa screamed and walked away hastily, we all frantically tried to keep up "We need to get to her now, before she does anything stupid"
"Like what?" Louis asked a little confused.
"Like tries to kill herself again" Melissa shouted back at him ending the conversation as we piled back into the car.
Shanice's POV
I stopped at the bottle shop on my way home and grabbed a bottle of vodka. Now I sat on the bed in the spare room the empty bottle laying next to me. I had tried to drink it away like I used to but it didn't work. I looked at the bottle and my head was screaming at me.
I picked up my diary and wrote a quick note:
"I'm sorry I was enough for you, so I'm done"
I smash the bottle and ran a shard of broken glass across my wrist three or four time before I started to feel dizzy. I looked around me and I was sitting in a puddle of my own blood. I laid down, curled up in a ball and prepared for the end.
Just before I fell unconscious I heard what sounded like Melissa screaming at someone to call the ambulance.