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Chapter 11

Another wonderful day in the world of me.

Right? NO! Wrong, I've been stuck in this hell hole for over 4 days now. White, White and more White. Might just redecorate my room when I get home. Sarcasm.

My lungs hurt, my head hurts, my skin hurts and I feel the need to be grouchy and get away with it, Alicia is due a visit in 5 mins, she will be my first victim mwahahaha. I think all this hospital food is going to my head..

I was about to turn on my iPod and have a nap when unexpectantly my nurse came in with a worried look on her face, she's usually such a happy character, one of those people you could tell the world was ending or she was on fire, and she'd still have a smile on her face, I immediately went tense.

"What's up? I know my burns can be ugly but I've never seen you make this face before."

I coughed and she hesitated, looking round it had become awkwardly silent and I made an attempt to try again,

"Nurse? What's wrong.."

"There's a young man outside and he says he would like to see you, I said it was only one visitor a night unless you are a family member but he is insisting, im sorry miss but I need my job and his family have great influences on my pay and-"

"Its fine, calm down, whoever it is you'd better send them in and say nothing of this to your boss." She bowed slightly and left the room.

Out of all the people that had crossed my mind this was the biggest shock yet, fear filled my body and I wanted to run.

"What the hell are you doing here. Get out, now."

His arrogant vibe seemed to be lacking yet the confidence in his face didn't falter. He took a minute and let his eyes roll over my injured and pathetic form before replying.

"Im sorry."

I was livid, how dare he.

"What and that makes it all miraculously better? Who the fuck do you think you are coming to see me after what you did. I can't even look at you, what you did makes me sick, I've never been so scared in my life, you're crazy, fucking psychotic."

The tears began rolling down my eyes and I could feel myself shaking, losing it. My heart monitor increased rapidly and its steady beeping was no longer there.

"Get out, please just leave."

His face twitched slightly and I thought I saw remorse in his eyes,

"Hiwatari Im practically begging here, do you get off on this? Is me being here, stuck in hospital making you feel better, or have you come to finish me off?"

Again he twitched and his face cracked.

"Look I didn't mean it to go that far, I was would have tried to get back in and let you out but everyone was made to go and line up, im here now aren't I, surely that says something Steele."

"Bullshit, what the hell is your problem? I've never done anything to you; you shoved me in there and left me, you knew exactly what you were doing, what if I'd had a panic attack? I could have died Hiwatari. Does that not say anything?"

Tears were streaming down my face; I found it hard to breath.

"I didn't mean it."

I started choking, didn't fucking mean it, and is he serious? Alicia walked in, instantly apprehensive she turned accusingly at Kai,

"What the fuck have you done to her."

She ran over to my bed and pressed the buzzer to alert the nurse something was going wrong. "Get him out, please." I wheezed.

The nurse came in, horrified, she made them both get out and that's all I can remember.

By the time I had woken up it was dark, I could feel more wires in me and breathing was even more difficult, a man in a white (funny that) suit was checking my test result and signing my papers at the bottom of the bed, at my movement he looked up and smiled.

"Hey, how you doing?"

I tried to answer but it came out in a hushed whisper.

"Been better."

"Aha, I bet you have, gave us all a fright earlier, we nearly lost you." I had no words. I practically died.

This struck a new feeling in me, a feeling id never encountered before, my life had basically ended and my being would no longer have existed.

A new start.

~ A week later~

Grey clouds filled the sky in attempts to block out any sunlight, the rain had long gone by now and what was left was just a misty air that belonged more to a summers storm than a mid winters afternoon. We had yet to have any snow and it was nearing to my birthday, 6th of December. The day after my little brother's birthday, and still no word. My hand ran up and down my arm, feeling the small scabs from the multiple wires that had kept my weak body from shutting down. The hospital hadn't completely left me though; I was allowed to leave on condition that I used my crutches no matter what and took my medication.

I was staying at Ryan's he was looking after me until I was up and on my feet, I hadn't been to school since the fire and the buildings were mainly out of use because well, there wasn't much left of them in the first place, Alicia had rang me constantly the moment she knew I was home, the school had given everyone work for all their subjects to be completed for a month's time. So in simple terms, no school.

I missed being able to walk around freely, dark circles had formed a semi permanent home under my eyes and my usual tanned skin looked practically white. I hadn't got any sleep over the last week and a half, as soon as I closed my eyes all that fills them is darkness, the empty cold feeling of being trapped, and then suddenly the serial recognition of smoke, working its way around me, squeezing the life from me. And then I wake up, panting and sweating heavily, screaming the room down until Ryan rushes in and calms me. I pity him, I really do. Must be awful having to live like this.

It's just the beginning.