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Chapter 11: Heal My Heart
When you feel cold and warm at the same time,
when you read over the same line for the tenth time,
when your heart and thoughts somehow appear to rhyme,
and when a simple name conquers your whole mind,
then you are in deep trouble my friend… you are in what they call, "love".
~ Philippos Aristotelous
A woman was standing naked near the bed, looking down at the floor. A small candle, placed on a night table nearby, was lighting her beautiful curly body. A naked mad came from behind her and touched her left arm slowly. She flinched and sighed as she felt his touch.
"Tell me that you want me," whispered the man in her ear.
"I want you," said the woman, staring at the floor. The man moved his hand slowly from her arm to her left breast, touching her and making her flinch. He got closer and wrapped his hands around her hips, then he slowly bended her body and placed her hands on the bed. She only moved her head, her eyes staring at the bed now. He kissed her neck slowly, while his hands were gently squeezing her beautiful round breasts.
"Do you want me to continue?" asked the man, whispering in her ear.
"Yes, don't stop," she whispered back. He moved his hands on her naval, bending her further. He placed himself behind her, searching for her entrance. She moaned as he gently pushed his hard erection into her.
Then, he moved his hands to her breasts and squeezed them slowly, while he was trusting harder into her. She closed her eyes and made a deep moan.
"You like it harder?" he asked while he was trusting into her faster.
"Yes, harder," she said between two moans.
"You like it rough, my naughty little whore?" he whispered in a husky voice.
"Harder!"she screamed moaning louder, her breath getting faster.
"Beg me," yelled the man, slowing down his thrusts into her, almost stopping.
"Please, harder! Harder!" screamed the woman.
He smiled wickedly and pushed into her with all his power, holding her hips with both his hands. The woman moaned loud, leaned open her elbows, her nails holding the bed's sheets tight, trying hard to withstand his fast and powerful thrusts.
"Yes!" screamed the woman as she felt the pleasure of her release overwhelming her. He groaned loud and pushed one last time into her with all his power and then he stopped.
"This was very good," said the man as he kissed her neck and slowly releasing her from his arms.
"Very good, indeed, " said the woman smiling and turning her body to look at him.
"Too bad you have to leave, Elissa," he said smiling wickedly.
"We could have had so much fun together!" said the man as he searched for her lips, his hands grabbing her jaws and kissing her passionately.
"You're a married man now, Alistair!" said Elissa as she returned the kiss and bit his lip.
"It doesn't matter!" said Alistair as he bit her lip too.
She stopped and pushed him away, her face turning suddenly all sad, her eyes trying hard to hold back the tears. He was married now, she was just his mistress, his pet, his toy, his... whore! She felt ashamed, thinking about what her parents would have said! She knew that it was not right, she needed to end this!
"Or I could tie you up to the bed right now and never let you go," said Alistair as he grabbed her wrists hard.
"No, I must leave now!" said Elissa crying. She needed to run away from him and never look back. Fergus had been right, she had to move on!
He started to roar with laughter. His eyes suddenly turned dark and dangerous.
"You're not going anywhere, Elissa! You're mine!" he said and kissed her passionately, his face changing suddenly into something not human, a creature full of desire…
"NO, get away from me!" yelled Elissa at him, trying to escape from his arms.
The demon sensed her change of mood; it knew her inner weaknesses, but it had lost its power when she had started to realize that she was doing something against her moral principles, against what her parents had taught her. It had accidentally revealed its real form to Elissa.
"What's the matter? You don't like me anymore?" said the entity "I can transform into somebody else, anybody else," said the demon laughing. "How about me? I know you want me too!" said the entity as it started to transform into Anders.
Elissa slowly backed up from the entity; her face was full of surprise and fear. "NO!" she yelled.
The demon, now shaped into Anders's form, started to laugh at her "You want me. Don't try to fool me, Elissa! I know your inner desires. I know you want him: Anders! I can give him to you, I can be him for you, I can give you unimaginable pleasure." said the demon in Anders's voice.
"NO!" screamed Elissa as she ran away from the demon.
"NO! Get away from me, demon!" screamed Elissa as she woke up from the nightmare.
'A desire demon! That's what all these strange dreams I've been having since the Blight ended… that's what they mean… Holy Maker! 'thought Elissa to herself.
She got up from the bed and threw up in a bucket nearby.
'It's been a month since his wedding and I still had dreams about him! And now this shape-shifting into Anders… Holy Maker! This is really scary! I'm no mage, why would a desire demon want to torment my dreams? I must ask Anders about this! But I'm too embarrassed to tell him!" she sighed and took a deep breath.
'I must do it, I can't let this continue!' thought Elissa and started to dress herself quickly in a simple red dress that she just happen to find on a chair nearby.
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Elissa was standing in front of Anders's room knocking hard.
"Anders! Wake up!" yelled Elissa.
"Hey, stop yelling, I'm coming! You'll wake the whole Keep up!" answered a sleeping voice from behind the door.
Elissa stopped the knocking and yelling and waited. After a few minutes, a sleepy Anders opened the door.
What is it, Commander? If the keep is on fire again, I didn't do it! I was sleeping, Ser Pounce-a-lot here is my witness! Must be Velanna's doing!" said Anders.
Elissa smiled. "Nothing is on fire, Anders! Calm down! I need to talk to you, can I come in?" she said.
Anders stopped for a moment thinking hard, then he pinched himself. "Sure, come in, Commander."
Elissa entered Anders's room and waited for him to close the door.
"Here, have a seat," said Anders pointing to a char nearby.
"Thanks," answered Elissa as she sat gently on the char.
Anders looked at the beautiful woman in front of him with a suspicious look on his face. She was wearing a simple red dress, a little too tight around her breasts, revealing their beautiful round shape. Then, the mage pinched himself again, harder this time. He decided that it was not a dream and took a seat on a chair near Elissa.
"So, what's with this strange visit in my bedroom in the middle of the night? Not that I would mind your presence here... " he said, trying hard not to stare at her perfect round breasts.
"I … I need your help, Anders," she said in a worried voice.
"Oh… of course. Anything for you, Commander," said Anders looking at her with suspicion in his eyes.
She stared at him, thinking hard, not knowing how to proceed further. He stared at her suspiciously, thinking hard too.
"Meow," said Ser Pounce-a-lot suddenly, interrupting both their thoughts.
"Hungry, little fellow?" said Anders looking at the cat. "Well, I guess we should feed you, my little friend. Maybe we should continue our discussion in the kitchen then?" he said looking at Elissa. 'I feel safer there', he thought.
"Good idea," said Elissa and got up from the chair. 'Damn it! I've just invaded this man's bedroom in the middle of the night! Smooth! Very smooth, Elissa!' she thought to herself.
They both walked to the kitchen, followed by Ser Pounce-a-lot.
"Here you go, kitty!" said Anders as he put a bowl full of milk on the floor in front of Ser Pounce-a-lot. Then, he took a seat near Elissa, who was already at the table, eating some cookies.
"Milk?" he asked, pointing to the bottle of milk in his hand.
"Sure, cookies?" she said pointing to the plate full of cookies on the table.
"Hmm, cookies! My favorites!" he answered happy. Then, Anders poured Elissa a glass a milk.
Elissa took a deep breath and decided to start the conversation."So, Anders, what can you tell me about desire demons?"
Anders flinched and got all serious. "Hm, desire demons! Nasty wicked creatures! I can tell you many thing about them, what do you want me to start with?" he said looking at Elissa who seemed very nervous.
Elissa sighed, took another deep breath, then continued. "What do they want from us, mortals?"
Anders sighed too. "They feed on the mortals most powerful inner desires and usually try to possess a mage and experience the world of the living through his body, transforming him into an abomination."
"So they are interested only in mages?" asked Elissa.
"Sometimes in templars too, if their desire is strong enough," said Anders raising an eyebrow,"So this is... is this the reason we're here? You've been having some strange dreams lately, Commander?"
"I… yes. I think… I've just woke up from this dream... and I'm sure that I saw a desire demon in it," she said with worry in her voice.
"What was the dream about?" he asked.
"I… I really cannot tell you this," she said blushing and avoiding his eyes.
"I see… it must have been something pretty nasty..." he said raising an eyebrow.
"Well… never mind," she said embarrassed. "How do you make it stop?"
"There are two ways. The easiest way is to confront it and kill it, but only a mage can do this. I can enter your dreams and wait for it to interfere. But it is not easy to kill, it can escape if it senses danger. I need two flasks of your blood in order to proceed with the ritual," said Anders getting very serious.
"Wait! You want to enter my dreams? You need my blood?" she said worried. "Is this a blood ritual you're talking about?" she asked, raising an eyebrow. 'He wants to enter my dreams! I cannot let this happen! It's too embarrassing to share my naughty dreams with him! What if the demon takes Anders's form now... not that in Alistair's form would be less embarrassing either! No! Stupid plan!' she thought and said "No! Blood magic is forbidden, Anders!" with full determination in her voice.
"But you agreed when I saved your life that time using my blood… " said Anders. 'I bet she's dreaming about him.' he thought.
"That was different! We were in an extreme situation!" she protested.
"What's the matter? You don't want a handsome mage in your dreams, Commander?" joked Anders.
"Stop it, Anders!" yelled Elissa. 'You have no idea what you've just said.' she thought.
"Uhhh… I bet the Commander has some pretty naughty dreams she wants to hide from me." said Anders grinning from ear to ear.
"Drop it, Anders! NOW!" she yelled jumping from the chair. 'You'll pay for this, Anders!' she thought.
"Fine, sorry!" said Anders making a sad puppy face. 'Damn! She's so hot when she gets angry!' he thought looking as she calmed down and gently sat back on the chair.
"You said that there are two ways. What's the other way?" she asked in a calm voice, looking at the man with the sad puppy face in front of her. 'Maker! Leliana was right, he is sweet!' she thought.
"Well, the other way is to stop the source of desire to which the demon is linked to. But it's not an easy way. There are some tricks I could teach you, but they will not kill the demon, only make you realize the difference between the demon's illusion and the reality. If you have enough willpower, you can resist the demon's illusion and maybe, in time, it will lose interest in you," said Anders all serious.
"Alright, teach me!" she said.
"Let's see. My best trick is to pinch myself pretty hard whenever I found myself in an oddly and almost impossible situation. I mean when something looks too good to be true. Like when you showed up at my door in the middle of the night wearing this dress… " said Anders blushing. 'Maker! There! I've said it! Damn!' he thought.
"Oh, I see," said Elissa blushing too, trying to hide her breasts with her arms. 'Damn!'
"But in order to eliminate the desire for a thing or a… person, you need to make the impossible dream a reality… I mean to experience in real life the thing you desire so much, " said Anders blushing harder and looking at the floor.
"I see, I think I got the idea," said Elissa blushing harder too. 'He's so sweet when he's bashful! Maker, am I really falling for him?Was the demon right? I want… Andraste's flaming sword!'
There was silence for a few moments, both of them eating cookies, drinking milk and thinking hard.
Elissa decided to break the silence : "So, Anders, did you enjoy Leliana's company at the celebration? " 'Let's tease Anders a bit now! Pay back time!' she thought smiling.
Anders choke on a cookie and started to cough. 'Maker! She can't be asking me about THAT! Can she?' he thought as he tried hard to recover after the choking.
"Well, yes, but she's not my type," he answered.
"Leliana is a good girl," continued Elissa smiling.
"Well, I don't think 'good girl' is the right term to describe her," said Anders. 'Sexy, seductive, hot, naughty… any of these words, but not good girl. I bet she could make even a desire demon blush.' thought Anders. "Why? Do I sense a bit of jealousy in your words, Commander?" he said raising an eye brow.
"I just wanted to say that she has a good heart, Anders," said Elissa blushing. 'Dammit! I am jealous!'
"Oh, that… yes, she does. She tried to help me… " said Anders blushing, thinking about his conversation with Leliana.
"Help you with what?" asked Elissa curiously.
"Mmmmage sssstuff ..." he babbled trying to lie. 'Should I tell her now? No, I can't…' he thought getting very serious.
"But she's a rogue, not a mage!" said Elissa with suspicion in her voice realizing his lie.
"I… I think I should go back to sleep, now. That is… if you've done asking me about demons, Commander," said Anders as he jumped nervously from his chair.
"Right, I'm coming too," she said as she got up too.
They both left the kitchen followed by Ser Pounce-a-lot.
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"Good night, Commander," said Anders as soon as they arrived in front of Elissa's bedroom door.
"Good night, Anders," said Elissa after she opened the door.
As soon as Elissa opened the door, Ser Pounce-a-lot jumped quickly into her bedroom.
"Ser Pounce-a-lot! Get back here! No, you cannot sleep in the good lady's room," yelled Anders after the cat. But the cat didn't return.
"Come here, kitty, kitty!" tried Anders again.
"Maybe I have a mouse in my room," said Elissa in surprise, as she opened the room for Anders to enter.
"Come here, Ser Pounce-a-lot!" yelled Anders, but the cat did not obey him.
"Well, cats are like that, they are independent creatures, they don't obey their master, not like dogs do," said Anders smiling. "We should get him. You don't want to be awaken at 6 o'clock in the morning by him asking for food," he said smiling again. "Come here, kitty! You cannot sleep here with the beautiful lady! Naughty, naughty kitty!" yelled Anders again.
The cat jumped on a high book shelf behind Elissa's desk. It was looking curiously at the two humans that were calling it to get down from there.
"I guess he's not going to get down, does he?" said Anders after a few moments of yelling at the cat.
"I'll get up on the desk and try to make him jump off the shelf. You stay down here and try to catch him," ordered Elissa.
"Yes, Commander," said Anders in an obedient voice.
Elissa got on the desk quickly, but the cat climbed upper on the shelf and she tried to get to him and got on the edge of the desk, on her toes.
When Elissa finally reached the cat, Ser Pounce-a-lot jumped off and made Elissa lose her balance. She fell directly on Anders, who tried to catch her in his arms, but failed.
"Ouch, that hurt," said Anders after Elissa just fell on top of him. "Well, at least you're not hurt, are you, Commander?"
"Sorry about that, I'm fine, thanks for catching me, by the way," said Elissa smiling at the man under her.
"Well... I've always dreamed about this... but it was the other way round... you on the floor and me on top… " said Anders smiling and blushing "So what are we going to do about… this?"
"I don't know... get up or something ?" said Elissa blushing too.
"Yeah... but I don't thing I want to get up so soon, do you?" said Anders blushing harder.
She smiled and whispered in his ear "And what else do you have in mind?"
"Well... my heart is really telling me to kiss you right now… but my head is screaming something like 'Oh NO, Anders! Don't do it! She's going to kick your mage ass so bad that you won't be able to walk for a whole week!' What should I do, Commander?" he said looking into her beautiful green eyes.
She smiled, bit her lip slowly and said: "Well, I think that sometimes the best decision comes from the heart, don't you agree?"
"I think I like the sound of that..." he said looking into her eyes, searching for permission to kiss her, then, he gently touched her lips with his lips, while he was closing his eyes.
She kissed him back, slowly, then opened her mouth, letting him deeper the kiss, his lips were attracted to hers like two magnets; the sensation was hot, almost electrical, sending shivers on her spine.
He stopped, opened his eyes and said "Wow, that was better than I ever dreamed of!"
"Why did you stop then?" she asked.
"Oh, I need to pinch myself hard… you know… make sure you're not a demon… sorry," he said smiling and then he pinched himself hard.
"Oh, right, I guess I should pinch myself too," she said and pinched herself.
"Really?" he asked surprised.
"Yeah, let's just stop talking now,"she said and kissed him slowly.
They kissed on the floor for a few moments, then Elissa got up and helped Anders get up too. She started to undress him, but he stopped her.
"Commander, are you sure about this?" he asked worriedly.
"Yes, Anders, and I think it's time for you to stop calling me Commander," she said.
"But what… how should I call you, then?" he asked.
"Try Elissa," she said and kissed him, then took his mage robe off.
Ser Pounce-a-lot was sitting on Elissa's desk looking at the two humans and thinking.
'Well, well... you finally got your female agree to mate with you, my human friend! Glad I could help! I expect an extra bowl of milk each breakfast, as a reward from now on!'
The cat looked closer to the two humans making love in bed. 'Now, now, why is he washing her like cats do? Don't humans wash themselves with that awful thing called water? Is that a human mating thing? And why is he sucking on her nipples? Doesn't he know that females only lactate when they have kittens? And what is it with all that mouth in mouth licking? I swear these humans are so stupid sometimes! Wait... what is he doing now? NO! Must I teach you THAT too, my stupid human friend? Not like that! You were supposed to bite her scruff and… I see, so it works THAT way for humans… interesting! I wonder if that piebald beauty from the village nearby would agree to this position next mating season when I visit her… no, maybe not. Cats can't do that… only humans… I definitely want to be a human now … in my next life!'
"So... I think I should leave now, " said Anders looking at the beauty he was holding in his arms.
"No. Please stay... and never leave me," she said looking into his eyes, then she smiled wickedly and said: "And I think I need a handsome mage in my bedroom from now on, to protect me from bad dreams…"
"Sounds good enough for me!" said Anders and kissed her gently.
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