"Wait! What do you mean that you guys have to go into Alec's subconscious mind?" Clary asked.
"Alec was trapped inside his own subconscious mind. So, Magnus suggested we may try on this method, send someone who has certain common links with Alec, then we can talk with Alec inside his mind to wake him up!" Jace explained.
"Yep, that's right. But the most difficult part is we're not sure what exactly inside Alec's mind. There is another world and maybe looked like a maze too. What we will see inside, there are all within Alec's mind. It could be a fighting scene, full of demons or anything that Alec think of. And, we also can't take it too long inside his subconscious mind, or else we might get into troubles and lost ourselves inside, can't find our way out later." Magnus said.
"Sound complicated." Clary still looked confused.
"It seems quite dangerous. Magnus, you and Jace… What if you guys can't find Alec in time, then what will happen the next?" Isabelle asked.
"Izzy, please don't say something like this!" Jace frowned.
"Come on, I'm just saying the truth. This is likely to happen, doesn't it?" Isabelle replied.
"Izzy is right." Clary nodded. "Magnus, you guys could be in danger too, right? Just now you said that Alec's subconscious mind world may be related with some demons fighting scenes. So, my question is, if you guys get injured inside, will you feel pain or… die?"
There was a short moment of silence. Then, Magnus nodded slightly, which made Clary and Isabelle gasping at the same time.
"Anything could happen. But if we do not try on this, then how can we rescue Alec?" Jace sighed but said in a firm tone. "No matter what, I'm in. I am Alec's Parabatai, he and I have a certain close bond. I believe that I can get him out successfully."
Magnus sighed. "We need to find him. Even we can't, I will also try to figure a way out, or just maybe try to do something get his attention and attract him come to us by himself."
"Magnus, are you sure this plan can be worked?" Isabelle asked again.
"I don't know, but I'll try." Magnus made eye contact with Clary and Isabelle. "Clary and Isabelle, I need both of you to help to protect us from any unwanted disturbance. Can you do it?"
"Sure, no problem. But please… make sure you guys need to come back safely with Alec." Isabelle said.
Magnus smiled softly, he was trying to ease the girls' worries. "Isabelle, you have my words. I will ensure your brothers come back in safe."
"Not only their life important to us but you too, Magnus." Isabelle narrowed her eyes on Magnus.
Magnus nodded.
"Okay, we should stop wasting time. Alec is waiting for us!" Jace touched his Parabatai rune gently. "It's weird that I cannot sense anything from him."
"That stupid spell on Alec must block the link between you two." Magnus walked to the bed and then he gazed at Alec's sleeping face.
There was a moment, nobody talking anything else, only a silence.
"Shall we go now?" Jace moves forward to Magnus, finally broke the silence.
"Yeah," Magnus answered, determined to bring back Alec with a strong will.
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[Alec POV]
Alec wrapped arms around himself, sat on the staircase in a daze. He was not sure what's the time now, because everything surrounded him always looked like the night time. He felt that since he reached here, the time seems had stopped. It felt like the time he was being here alone in this world longer than a century, which made Alec was losing the concept of the time gradually.
'This world may look exactly the same with the normal one, but it still not the real world. There is no living person other than me, only the endless demons moving around and chasing after me. I can still get injured by demons, but my stele was missing and don't have any weapon by my side.'
Alec had no idea what had happened. How come he ended up at here? Such a weird place.
There were some demons groaning voices appeared from not far away suddenly. 'Oh, not again please…' Alec sighed tiredly, then he stood up quickly and hissed in pain when he accidentally touched his bleeding wounds on his abdomen. This was the injuries caused by the demons a not long time ago. Alec looked nervous, he felt hopeless and trying to find a place to hide. After that, he ran up the stairs and reached a department's entrance door.
Magnus's loft.
Alec's right hand frozen in the mid-air hesitated to open the door. This is a world without Magnus. But it still hurt him so much whenever Alec thinks of Magnus or see anything that related to Magnus.
Alec stopped and sink in his memories for a short moment. But the demons never wanted to give Alec any thinking time, they came very quickly and almost tearing Alec apart before Alec finally made a decision and walked into the house.
Alec slammed the door, then he locks the door up. But this was still not enough. The demons kept knocking the door, trying to come in. However, Alec not really gave up that easily. Alec pushed everything near him to the door in fast moves. The couch, the table, chairs, and the antique vase… Almost everything that he saw became his final blow as a defense.
Then, Alec curled up himself at the corner of the wall, looking at the door with an uneasy feeling. The demons still knocking the door, it seemed they also not giving up that easily, they tried so hard want to come in to get Alec. The demon claws broken the door all in sudden with a loud noise. Alec was panting tiredly, wrapped his shaking arms around himself. He looked totally a mess and his abdomen wound was still bleeding.
'There's no another way out, maybe I should just give up on the fight and let them get me.' Alec looking around the living room. Everything at here looked so familiar, it was exactly the same as that real world which Alec from. But in this world, there are no other living people other than Alec. Alec was all alone. He got no choice but have to stay at here lonely with these ugly demons.
Or…not.
Alec glancing at the demons for a short while, then a thought flashed across his mind. Maybe…He still has another choice. It should better than welcome the death at the corner of the wall in the living room.
Alec stood up and ignored the demons…He walking to the bedroom directly.
Even in this world, everything inside the bedroom is the same as the other world.
'It's good.' He thought. At least he can die at a place that he was longing the most. Alec smiled at the very first time after he arrived this hell world. He wondered what Magnus was doing right now in the real world? Oh, Angel, he swore that he missing Magnus's scent so much!
It's been over a week that he did not saw Magnus yet. He wondered did Magnus missing him as he did? Or Magnus was still hating him so much and never want to see his face anymore, like what Magnus told him in their last meet. But no matter how Alec very sure that none of the Magnus wish to get closer to him again in both worlds. There is only one similarity in both worlds, that is the owner of this house will no longer be here for Alec anymore.
"Magnus…" Alec touched the bed sheet gently. His sad smiling face was soft, even when he noticed that breaking door sound and those demons' howling voices. When all the demons' voices were getting closer, Alec closed his eyes and gripping the bed sheet firmly.
'Finally, it's the time. Everything should be over now…' Alec took a deep breath to calm his mind and heart. Then, he got ready himself for welcome the death.
Alec thought everything should be ended here. However, there's a familiar voice appeared in the house. Someone was calling his name loudly in an eager tone. "ALEC!"
"Jace…" Alec opened his eyes suddenly. He saw the demons were coming after him in the bedroom, and the Jace was standing around the bedroom door with the shocked widen eyes, Magnus together with him.
"Magnus…" Alec smiled foolishly, calling his ex-lover with whole his heart and love. Then, the next moment, a demon claw was ripped into Alec's chest unmercifully.
"NO!" Magnus screamed out loud with painful tone, then he tried to summon his power but there's nothing happen. Magnus just realized that his warlock power is not working in this world. This place was Alec's subconscious mind. Alec is his own master who has full control over it, and he might be the one who able to save all of their lives at last.
"ALEC!" Jace rushed to Alec's side recklessly. He took out his blade and tried to fight with the demons, but what made him surprise is those demons that attacking Alec were disappearing together after that.
"What had happened? Where are the demons?" Jace asked in a confused tone and he checking on Alec immediately.
"I don't know." Magnus also rushes to Alec's side. "How is he?"
"He is dying," Jace answered sadly while he hugging Alec into his arms.
"Jace…Magnus…" Alec said in a whisper voice. "Why you are so real to me…? I can touch you…"
"Because we are real, Alec. Come on, stay with us, I know you can do it." Jace sobbing.
"Alec." Magnus holds Alec's hand tightly.
"I'm sorry…for everything I did to you…" Alec closed his eyes slowly and his voice was cracked.
"Stay alive for me, Alec. Please don't leave me like this, or I will never forgive you." Magnus caressing Alec's face gently.
"I love you…" Alec said the last words to Magnus before he finally closed his eyes.
Magnus looked in a daze with watery eyes. He knew that he was missing Alec so much after they broke up, but he never thought that the familiar touch in his hands could become lifeless like this.
"Magnus, do something! His breathing was stopped!" Jace looked panic.
Magnus took a deep breath, then shaking his head slightly when he noticed that Alec's body was fading away.
"What the…" Jace looked confused. "Where did he go? How come he faded away like that? This should be impossible, right?" Jace asked. The room was left behind Jace and Magnus two persons only after Alec disappeared.
"This world is in Alec's subconscious mind," Magnus said when he looking around the place. The surrounding looked stand still and do not have any changes, even after Alec's death.
"Everything happened must have a reason. These are what exactly in Alec's mind now. Everything that we saw here, they could be Alec's wishes, hopes, worst nightmare, and memories. Alec might die in front of us, but technically, he is not really dead yet." Magnus pointed to the surrounding. "Look, we are still standing at here, and the surrounding does not have many changes. That means Alec was in safe, he is still alive! If Alec really died, then we must already wake up in the real world."
"What do you mean? Are you try to say that the earlier Alec we saw is not the real Alec?" Jace still can't follow Magnus's thinking speed.
"No, not really, the earlier died one, he might be the real Alec too," Magnus said. "In a simple explanation, Alec is still alive and breathing well, because everything at here looked so fine."
"You made me confused." Jace sighed. "If the earlier one is the real Alec, then how come he died and disappeared?"
"I don't know. It might be something that Alec's most fearful thing or … anything… I don't know." Magnus shrugged.
"And now, we must try to find Alec again to wake him up in the real world, right?" Jace asked.
"Yep." Magnus nodded.
"How should we find him? Make a billboard announcement?" Jace faked a smile.
Magnus rolled his eyes. Then, before he started to talk, there are some noises coming from the staircase side. "Did you hear that?"
Jace nodded firmly, he took his blade on hand for defense purpose. When Jace and Magnus tried to check on it, both of them heard the demons growling sound. And then, there's a familiar guy rushed into the house and slammed the door.
"It's Alec." Jace wished to call Alec loudly, but Magnus stopped him in time.
"Wait." Magnus reminded in a soft voice and pulled Jace to aside.
They stayed aside in the bedroom and tried to watch what Alec was doing. They saw Alec moving everything around him to the door, he tried so hard to stop the demons from coming into the house. Then, they saw Alec curled himself up to the corner of the wall. After a moment later, a devastated look Alec was walking slowly to the bedroom from the living room.
"Come, hide first." Magnus pulled Jace to an antique wardrobe.
"What? No, we should talk to him! This is our chance and purpose of coming here, doesn't it?" Jace replied.
"NO!" Magnus said. "Listen to me, I will explain to you later. There's something I need to double confirm. If I'm not guessing wrong, I think I know what's is going on now. This is an endless loop of hell, it also called as Alec's personal hell."
"Endless loop of hell?"
"Yes. That is better that we do not interrupt anything and let it follow its flow. So, we can find out what exactly in Alec's mind, and what caused him trapped in here. After that, we just figure a solution to untie the knot in Alec's heart." Magnus explained.
"Then, we can wake him up and save his life!" Jace continued with a happy tone.
"Yep!" Magnus nodded and pulled Jace into the wardrobe directly when he noticed that Alec was coming here closer.
[To Be Continued]
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