"How did the two of you meet?" I looked between Adrain and Rose as they took the approach of looking anywhere but at me. I had no idea why they were doing this, but it only further peaked my interest in the subject.
"Here." Rose answered and I could not help but roll my eyes, they had both been acting strange since the moment they had walked through the door. Rose had been firm with Adrian, making sure every time he spoke up he said nothing about her, or them.
"I know that much, what I was asking was how you met, what brought you two together?" Adrian's head shot up and his eyes lit up as he was about to say something, but one elbow to his ribs from Rose stopped anything he was going to say.
"We met when Adrian was being dragged in. He was throwing a fit and I told him to shut the fuck up." Rose stared right at me her head cocking slightly to the side, she was lying, though I had no idea why.
"I thought we were trying to make some progress here." Rose looked my way, looking more like a pissed off teenager than I had ever seen before.
"I'm fucking trying here what the hell do you want?" She stared me in the eye, her brown eyes wide, arms crossed over her chest.
"He wants the truth DAMN IT!" Adrian yelled out loud and stood up, quickly sitting back down and shaking his head.
"Somethings are better off being left unsaid." Rose looked away just as Adrian started to cradle his head.
The entire session had been this way. I had thought having the two in here would give me some insight. So far it had given me a headache. Rose was the reason though, she was stopping anything from being said and I had no idea why. When I had asked her about the joint session she had been happy, she had been so excited to have me finally see them together. But something had happened between yesterday and today, and I had to figure out what it was.
"I don't know why you just don't tell him." Adrian had let go of his head and was staring at Rose, all signs of his disease put on hold as he looked at her through caring eyes.
"You know why I can't." Rose's eyes softened as they left me and focused on her friend.
"I trust him." Rose looked shocked as the words left Adrian. Hell they had even shocked me. I knew Adrian refused to talk to others, and had in a way made a soft spot for me, but gaining his trust had not been easy. "I saw it from day one, you were right, he's good."
"Once he knows everything will change." Her voice was still a whisper, and I could see Adrian about to cave to her needs. Whatever it was he would not say it if Rose did not want him to.
"It is nice to see how close of a friendship you two have developed." They both looked my way as I changed the topic, well knowing I was going no where and fast. "It's good to form these bonds."
"Do you have friends?" Adrian threw out the question, and studied me closely. I had no idea how to answer the question.
I had gone out with the guys on a number of occasions, but would I call them friends? I never talked to them other than when we went out, and those moments could be counted on one of my hands. I shifted in my seat slightly uncomfortable when it hit me that I actually did not have friends. That the two people I enjoyed talking to the most were in front of me, and my patients. A sudden emotion filled me, I was pathetic, no wonder Tasha had cheated on me.
"I have friends." I left it there and looked down at my paperwork, I could not look them in the eye. Though I held out a lot of hope for them, and I believed they could get better, how could I admit to them, to anyone that they were the closest to friends I had.
"It's OK if you don't. We only have each other. And you." I looked up and found myself lost in Rose's brown eyes. Again so caught up in how beautiful she was, especially in moments like this. Moments when she would push aside her problems and comfort me without even knowing it.
"Then why won't you tell him?" Adrian had jumped out of his chair, and was pacing now, Rose immediately shifting knowing something was up with him. "Why can't I just tell him. I mean come on its not like we did anything wrong."
"No Adrian please." Rose had stood up and was frantically trying to make Adrian sit back down.
"What we did was not wrong, what was wrong was what that mother fucker did. I don't regret my choices, but you, you had no choice Rose!" Adrian's voice was rising and Rose started crying slowly falling to the ground.
"Adrian I don't want anyone upset." I had stood up as well and made my way closer to him, hands out in a surrendered position. I just needed to reel him in.
"We just need to calm down, calm down and start over. This can be a good session, a time to talk about everything." Adrians eyes met mine and I knew he was lost somewhere in his own mind.
"No, its never going to change unless the truth comes out." He shook his head a few times his fists clenching. " I slept with her. I had sex with her because, because she was fucking afraid that he would take it from her. She can't get over it because she wanted to love the first man she had sex with. And it wasn't like that, I took something from her Dimitri, I took it but we had no choice."
I froze in place just as Rose let out a loud and painful scream. Had he just told me what I thought he did? Had Rose asked Adrian to have sex with her because she was afraid someone else would take it without her consent. Rose had been so scared of someone raping her that she had given something so valuable to her to someone, the only person she trusted.
"You fucking promised!" Rose suddenly stood up and launched herself at Adrian. Her small fists beat against his chest and I stepped forward pulling her away, I was still in shock, but I had to start acting now.
"Rose calm down, its OK." I whispered into her ear but the only thing I managed was to make her let out an even louder scream. I watched as Adrian found a corner, where he retreated to. His hands around his head, as he rocked back and forth.
"No! He promised. You're never going to look at me the same way Dimitri, never." I pulled her closer to me making sure to turn her around so she could see the truth in my words.
"This doesn't change anything Rose." Her screaming stopped as she looked at me. "I promised you before that I was not going anywhere, that I was going to help you. And I promised that well knowing there were a lot more secrets, a lot more things to learn about you. Nothing and I mean nothing will ever change the way I think or feel about you."
The weight of my words fell upon me. And suddenly everything became clear. I would have laughed if the situation was different, I would have probably, and probably still should, turn myself into Alberta. I had crossed the line that I was never suppose to. In the months I had spent helping Rose I had let myself fall under her spell. I was slowly falling for this woman. I was falling in love with my patient.
I would truly be there for her no matter what. I had tried to tell myself over and over again that I would do this for any patient, but I was not so sure it was true. I would do everything in my power to help a patient, but I would never cross lines, never break rules. For Rose, I would do it all, including losing my job.
"Why? How can you want to help someone like me?" I studied her, well knowing I could not tell her what I had just realized, she was not ready for what I wanted to say. I would wait, and when the right time arose I would tell her, but for now she needed Dimitri the doctor, she needed me to stay professional. When the time came I would know.
"Because Rose everyone deserves a chance at life. Someone took that away from you. And I won't let it stay away from you any longer."
"I should say sorry to him huh?" She looked behind her where Adrian had started crying.
"I think so." She smiled, and I slowly, almost reluctantly let go of her and watched her walk over to Adrian.
I pressed myself against the side of my desk trying to breath normally. I could not believe what was happening to me. For years I thought I loved Tasha, though recent events told me I had been right. I had never loved her, I held affection, and was loyal. But I had never truly felt love for her, or anyone. Not the way I found myself thinking and feeling for Rose.
I barely knew the woman, but I knew there was something about her that was special. Something about her that was strong. But it did not make me falling for her any better. I debated quickly whether or not I should transfer her to another doctor, but quickly pushed that aside. I couldn't give her up, I wanted, needed to be the one to help her.
"We can talk about it." I looked up startled to find Adrian and Rose sitting on the couch again, both looking calm and collected. Ashamed I sat up, with shaking knees, and made my way back to my chair.
"Where would you like to start?" Rose's shoulders sagged as Adrian draped a reassuring arm around them.
"I met Adrian two and a half years ago. He found me in a corner hiding." Rose's eyes glazed over but I could tell she was fighting back the tears. "I had just had a session with him. He got mad because I refused to talk, so he... he came up to me and touched me."
"Where did he touch you?" I wanted to ask who, but knew she was avoiding who the person was on purpose. I just hoped my patience would win out and she would tell me.
"In my private area, he touched me and told I deserved it. That I needed to learn that I would never be in charge." She breathed in deeply wipping away the one stray tear that managed to words seemed to evade her.
"He told her next time he wouldn't be as nice, that he would take her innocence for certain. I found her crying hysterical." Adrian pulled Rose closer to him, as she turned her face to his chest. "She begged me to help her, but I didn't know how. So she asked me to have sex with her, so she would not have to be a virgin when it happened. I tried, Dimitri I tried to find another way, but there was no one here to help us, no one listened."
Adrian pleaded with me, his eyes wide. I could tell he wanted to help Rose. I knew that they both saw this as the only way to help Rose. It was sad, sad that they had to resort to something like that in order to save Rose. It also angered me that in a place where they were both suppose to be safe neither had been.
"Do you know who this doctor was?" Rose pulled away immediately from Adrian and stood up her pace quick as she made her way to my side.
"I don't know how he made it here Dimitri. I had been free of him for over a year, and suddenly he was here, and so was she. They thought this would be perfect." I held my breath hoping, begging that she was not about to tell me what I thought she was.
"Who were they Rose?"
"My parents. They somehow got in here, took over the staff, and made everything hell for me again." This time her tears were not able to be held in, and I again found myself comforting her.
I stood up and pulled her into a tight embrace, one she returned with no hesitation. I watched over her as Adrian sat still shaking, with obvious anger. I just hoped he was not made at himself. This whole situation was just fucked. There was no other way to put it. I now knew who had been here, why the staff had just disappeared. The only problem was no one was going to let me pursue this with just Adrian and Rose's word. Sadly they were too unstable.
"I tried, I tried." Adrians desperate voice had me pulling away from Rose.
"Adrian, you did what you had to. Though I do wish there had been another way, neither of you, and I mean it, neither of you did anything wrong. You're not in trouble." Green eyes met mine full of relief.
"You can do something. You can help us." I nodded at his comment. I sure could do something, and I planned on it.
"We will get through this. Together. Just know I am not the only one on your side. This time you have an entire team, we are here for you." Rose shook her head as Adrian stood up and came closer.
"You don't understand Dimitri." Adrians words startled me, and I tried to speak but Rose brushed a finger against my lips to stop me.
"You're the one. The only one." Before I could question this Rose's head started twitching, her words now on repeat. The session had been too much for her, and I watched as she quickly got lost to me, to Adrian and the world.
"Session time is over." I once again was startled as Christian opened the door wide smile on his face. Rose and Adrian turned to him without a look back my way.
As Christian came and ushered them away I stood there still shocked. Was I truly listening to two insane patients. Would in the end I need to do this myself. I never in a million years would have thought I would do this, that I Dimitri Belikov, king of following rules would break every single one, just to help out my patients. But I knew from now on there was no turning back. I made a promise, and I intended on keeping it.
OK I know I know, its been too long. I have no excuses though other than every time I picked up my laptop to write I would just put it back down. SOrry!
So what did you think? I know some of you will hate that I had Adrian and Rose sleep together, but it had to happen. Rose thought she was going to be raped, its sad, but part of the plot... What did you think of the ending? what did they mean by he was the only one? Should he listen? AND AND did we all catch that Dimitir is falling in love with Rose! What do you think of that!
Ok well thank you all who have been so patient, thank you guest reviewers, reviewers, followers and faves! You are all amazing! Give me some more love!