The last time I had heard my angel's voice I felt her pain as well. I understood with great clarity the depressing hole that she was sinking in. I am not sure how much time had passed. All I know is that we had continued driving, stopping every so often for gas. At one point, I recall Emmett dragging me out of the backseat and through the wilderness. He had brought a few deer to my mouth and forced me to feed. The instinct came and went. The blood flowed freely down my throat. Yet, I had felt no satisfaction. My salvation was crying and I couldn't find her. All I knew was that I had had a glimpse, a moment to actually see my Bella. I am not sure what caused it or how it came to be. All I can fathom is that my love for Bella was and is so strong that perhaps I had been given a chance to understand her better. This vision or whatever it was, seemed so intense. It appeared to be so much more than what Alice saw in hers. It felt like Alice's, Jasper's and my power all in one. It was as intense as people's thoughts were when I first gained my ability to hear combined with Alice's ability to view a picture and magnified with Jasper's sensitivity to feel other's emotions.
However, this time, this vision, had really jolted me. I had seen my Bella again. She appeared almost as if on fire. She had a brightly lit orange ring surrounding her body, thickening around her hands and feet. It was as if a wind had been blowing her hair back. Her eyes burned a deep red and her face blushed a deep burgundy. Her eyes were frightening, they were squinted in a venomous way. Her lips were thinly curled up at the edges. But her look wasn't what had spooked me at first. Bella had always been an innocent and reserved individual. She spoke her mind when necessary and she had her moments when her temper would flare but never like this. I was beginning to wonder if I was going crazy. This time she had a rage about her that made me, Edward, a century old vampire, shiver.
I curled up tighter and was "awakened" by Emmett. Apparently he had been shaking me for a few hours.
"Edward, snap out of it! This is enough! Edward!" Emmett's eyes were filled with concern.
"Look at Jasper. Just look at what you are doing to him!" He shouted.
Somehow I managed to step out of the fog long enough to see Jasper hiding on the floor in front of the passenger seat in the car. He had his hands clasped over his head and he was knocking his head on the dashboard. A huge dent existed where his head had been colliding for probably the better half of the past few hours.
Reality came and hit me upside the head.
What was I doing to my family?
"What has gotten into you? Edward, you need to talk about what happened. Did you hear something? What!!!? Tell us. Do something. Do anything, but don't just sit there feeling sorry for yourself. Or God help me I will drag you back home!" Emmett was glaring at me as I slowly looked up and met his stare.
"I am sorry Emmett. Jasper? Jasper? Jasper I'll stop now. I promise." I looked over at Jasper and then at Emmett and then hung my head back down in shame. I was so overwhelmed by this agony that I couldn't bear to speak of it. It spilled out of me in waves of despair, flooded Jasper's senses and stimulated Emmett's helplessness.
"It is hard to explain. But I think I can tell you what I saw." Jasper's jaw dropped as he stopped banging his head, to hear my story.
"You saw something? What? I don't get it. Are you feeling OK?" Emmett quizzed me.
"Maybe we should call Carlisle." Stated Jasper with a raspy voice.
I started to open my mouth but instead of my voice I heard the familiar jingle coming from my cell phone. I looked down and saw Alice's face on the face plate as I reached for it and opened it. She must have instantly known that I was there.
"Edward! Are you OK? I had the weirdest vision. I saw Bella on fire. She looked different. She was angry. I mean not just angry, but enraged. It was too much. Edward?"
"I am here Alice. Hey, Alice? Did you see anything else? Besides Bella angry? I had the same vision and I couldn't tell where she was. It looked like the woods at the edge of a mountain side. It could be anywhere. I don't know what is going on but I need to find her. I have a very strong feeling about this." I spoke into the phone as clearly as I could however my voice was still shaky. I felt so helpless and out of sorts.
"Well I did notice that beyond the green of the mountainside there was a river. I think she's in Colorado. It's so bizarre, I could only see Bella then. How strange that it was the same thing that you saw. Whenever I try to see her all I get is fuzz. I hope that helps." Alice sounded pleased with herself.
"I may not know where she is but I do know that she is not in sunny Florida. I need to find her and I need to find her now!" I announced with determination.
"Is Jasper there? I keep seeing him upset? Have you been the cause of his pain? You need to snap out of it and go talk to Bella. Find her! And put my husband on the phone!" Alice could get very influential when she wanted to be.
I reached over the car seat and passed the phone to Jasper. He spoke to Alice with his hoarse voice for about 10 minutes as I collected myself. I stretched and got out of the car. I ran towards the nearest gas station and washed up. I splashed cold water on my face and hair gliding my fingers through its tangled mess trying to make sense of this disaster and gave up after several strokes. I stared back at the reflection in the mirror and thought to myself.
I have to be strong.
The bond that I have with Bella is so strong. It can't be undone.
I must find her.
She needs me.
Where can she be?
But what really scared me is this anger. What had happened? Why could I sense her so? Maybe she truly is an angel, my guiding light towards salvation, towards my Bella.
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A/N: DON'T WORRY! This is a story about the bond of love. Love is a journey. Life is roller coaster. Is what Bella and Edward have truly love? If so can it survive the test of time? Can their love grow? Or has Bella moved on now that she has awakened to a new existence? Keep reading to find out!)