Everything's Changing Chapter 11: Face Down, a mortal instruments fanfic

I'm so sorry. I really wanted to upload sooner but it was the last week before vacations and yeah lucky me I was stung by a bee and well, the next day my foot was really swollen. Therefore I was at the hospital and they told me that I have blood poisining. But enough with the rambling. Here's the next chapter. I hope you'll like it and review.

And thanks to all who have reviewed you make my day much brighter. Hahah :)

Here it goes:

Previously:

Arms wrapped around her and she immediately knew who it was. She leaned in to his touch. Absorbing the security she felt with him. She didn't care to wipe away the tears that were still rolling down.

"You have a beautiful voice, my angel." Jace whispered emphasizing the word 'angel'. He had listened to the lyrics and he hoped that she meant him.

"Jace?" Clary asked shyly.

"Yeah?"

"Will you be my angel?" He nodded, pecked her lovingly and said. "I Love You."

Clary stared at him. Did she hear him right or was she imaging things?

"What?" Clary stuttered.

"I know we don't each other that long but the first time I saw you I was mesmerized and when Jon said you are his sister the only thing I could think about was how can I get this girl to like me. And I…" Jace stopped when he saw that Clary was trembling.

"Clary…?"

He pushed her inside the car and climbed on her immediately and kissed her hard on the mouth biting on her lips so that she had to open her mouth. He pressed his tongue inside her mouth. His right hand started to unbutton her jeans and the other hand squeezed her left breast. He pulled away from her mouth and whispered.

"You don't know how long I've wanted to do this." He tore apart her shirt and Clary whimpered.

"Please, don't ...don't do this."

"Tsk…tsk doesn't Clary want to this?" He laughed but stopped abruptly and his eyes were black more black than usually.

"Well, sweetie" he stroked her cheek." I don't care."

And then he pushed away her jeans and her undergarments. Without warning he entered her. Clary cried out and sobbed. She couldn't believe that this was happing to her. She wanted her first time to be magical and a boyfriend who loved her and now here she was and nobody could save her. She…

"I love you, babe." Sebastian whispered in her ear and she sobbed harder.

Love doesn't exist anymore for her. It just couldn't bring people to do this. Sebastian told her that he loved her and how did it end. Clary couldn't think clearly. Tears were streaming down her cheeks.

"Clary..?" Clary flinched when Jace touched her shoulder.

She looked at him with eyes and realized what she had done. She jumped from the bank and stormed out of the room leaving a confused Jace behind.

However, he immediately followed her but lost her due to the fact that lunch was over and students were going to their rooms.

Clary ran through the hallways. She just wanted to forget. Suddenly she bumped into someone. It was her brother.

"Clary..? What happened?" Jon asked in concern.

She didn't answer she turned around and escape through the door. For a moment she couldn't find her bike but then she found it and sprinted towards it.

She could hear her new friends calling her name but especially one voice stuck out. It belonged to Jace.

Clary put on her helmet and jumped on her bike. Tears were making it difficult to see where she drove but she didn't care.

Just as she was leaving the parking lot a car surprised her and she almost crashed with it but she was able to swerve although she was in panic for a moment.

"CLARY!" Jonathan shouted.

Clary accelerated and disappeared in the traffic.

Jace sprinted to the gate but he couldn't see her.

"Jace, what happened?" Isabelle asked curiously.

"I… I…I said something I shouldn't have said." Jace tried to explain.

"What did you say?" Jonathan asked.

"I told her that I love her, okay? I know I'm stupid and I shouldn't have said it but I couldn't stop myself and first I thought she was saying it back but then suddenly she totally changed and I had the feeling that she was afraid of me or something. I'm such an ass." Jace hit a tree and was repeating to himself what an ass he was. By now his hands started to bleed but he didn't care.

"Jace stop it." Izzy commanded. "Jon, do something he won't stop!"

Jon pushed Jace away from the tree and tried to calm him down.

"Calm down, Jace. You didn't know that she would react like that." Jon argued.

Jace was breathing heavily and asked. "What are we going to do now?"

Clary arrived at home and ran straight to her room knowing that nobody else was home.

She locked herself in her room so that nobody could barge in.

Thus, she pulled off her school clothes and slipped in to a short sweat shorts and a grey cropped pullover. Although it was warm outside Clary put on her fluffy slippers because they were really comfortable and cozy.

Then, she lay down on her bed and tried to sleep but after an hour and sleep wasn't finding her she stood up grabbed her iPod and put it into her docking station.

Music filled the room and Clary turned up the volume so that the whole room was vibrating.

Hey girl, you know, you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my hand
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's goin' down

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you

Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well, I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
As your lies crumble down, a new life she has found

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
Every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down

I see the way you go and say you're right again
Say you're right again, heed my lecture

Face down in the dirt she said, This doesn't hurt
She said, I finally had enough
Face down in the dirt she said, This doesn't hurt
She said, I finally had enough

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
It's coming round again

Face down in the dirt she says, This doesn't hurt
She says, I finally had enough

While she was listening to the lyrics memories flooded her mind.

"Daddy?" Clary walked around the house. She just came from school and looked for her father. He probably was in his office so Clary made her way to it. It had been a month since her mother and brother left and Clary already missed them but she didn't want to leave her father alone.

She didn't bother to knock she just entered the door. The room smelt of alcohol and smoke. She didn't feel really comfortable but well she needed to ask something.

Then, she saw her father lying on the couch. She walked over to him and touched his shoulder.

"Daddy?" Clary asked timidly.

He stirred but didn't open his eyes. Therefore, she shook his shoulder and then he opened his eyes.

"Hi daddy. We are going on a trip tomorrow at school and I wanted to know if you could give me the money for it…? Please?"

Her father sat up slowly and watched his daughter. She looked exactly like her mother. Red hair, green eyes just like her mother. His wife or rather his ex-wife who had left him alone with this brat of a daughter.

"Excuse me? You don't get anything from me." He slurred at her, he was still drunk.

Clary was shocked. She stepped back. Her father had never talked to her like that. She watched him carefully as he stood up and looked at her.

"Don't look at me like that. You brat. Why are you even here? Nobody wants you here." He shouted at her.

"I…I…" Clary tried to form a sentence but she just couldn't.

And then, suddenly she was pushed to the ground. She cried out she had hit her head at the desk.

"You're weak. Can't even defend yourself. And nobody is there to help." He kicked her in the stomach.

"What a pity."He kicked her again. And again.

Since then Clary had never entered the office again. However every time her father got drunk he let out all his anger towards her. In the beginning it was once a month. Then once a week and eventually twice a week until Clary could help it anymore and defended herself.

The only one who knew what really had happened was her father and Clary. Oh and Sebastian, as well. He was the one who found them.

Clary cried and sobbed. She was barely able to breathe properly. Her head was pounding but she couldn't stop. All her emotions were breaking free and nothing would stop them. She curled herself in the blanket in a fetal position. Her bed was vibrating because she listened to the song repetitively.

School was over and Jace, Jonathan, Isabelle and Simon drove to the Fray's house hoping to find Clary there.

As they arrived they could hear loud music. Isabelle turned to Jon questionably.

"Clary has the thing with music. She always listens to music whether she is upset or happy or whatever but I guess she isn't happy so lets go talk to her."

Without a word they entered the house. Jace was the first one to reach her room. He knocked at the door but didn't get an answer.

He looked to Jonathan and asked. "Maybe we should switch off the power?"

Jon nodded and 2 minutes later all they could hear were someone sobbing on the other side of the door.

Jace knocked again. "Clary?" He asked carefully.

The sobbing became quieter but it was still there. Jace knew that the door was locked so he didn't care to grab the door handle. He turned to Izzy.

"Izzy do you have a clip?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Just give it to me, will you?"

Isabelle grabbed in to her purse and handed the clip to Jace. He immediately fumbled with it and tried to open the lock. And then they heard a click and Jace opened the door but not before he turned around and said.

"Can I talk to her alone?"

The three nodded and left him alone going downstairs.

Jace entered Clary's room and his heart broke when he saw his girlfriend lying broken on her bed. He carefully walked over to her. "Clary?"

Clary hiccupped and felt that someone was sitting on her bed. Then, a warm hand brushed away her hair and caressed her cheek.

She turned around to be met with golden eyes staring at her.

"Hi?"

"Hi." Her voice was hoarse from all the crying therefore, she cleared her throat.

"You're okay?" Jace asked although he knew the answer to it.

"No I'm not okay and I'll be never okay." Clary whispered.

"What happened?" Jace asked.

"What do you mean?"Clary wondered

"Something must have happened I mean you can't be that upset about me saying I Love you. Something must have happened."

"It's just I…I…" Clary was near tears again.

"He... said... he ...lo...loved me, too, but he…" Clary wasn't able to formulate what she wanted to say.

By now he was confused. "Who?" He asked.

"Seb...Sebastian." Clary stuttered.

Jace tensed he could feel he would hear something he wouldn't like.

"What did he do?" Jace asked carefully.

"He...hehurtme." She said fast.

"He what? What did he do?" Jace demanded.

Clary looked up to him, begged him not force her to say it out loud.

"When?" Jace asked angrily.

"I don't know." She replied timidly.

"What how can't you not know."

"It happened more than once okay. More than once. Are you happy now?" Clary shouted at him and tears were streaming down her cheeks again.

Realizing that he was the one who upset her Jace cradled her in to his arms and apologized.

"I'm so sorry. I'm gonna kill him."

Clary calmed down and put her arms around his neck and relaxed.

"Shh…" Jace caressed her back. Suddenly, Clary looked up at him. Her eyes were staring at him as if she could see trough his soul.

"I love you." Clary whispered. Jace begun to smile and asked.

"Really?"

Clary started to laugh and replied. "Yes, I do."

Jace leaned in and kissed her gently on the mouth. "Good, I love you, too."

Both leaned in and met each other in the middle. The kiss was differently than the others. Both were kissing with all the love they had not wanting to let go of each other.

Clary pulled away to breathe and Jace kissed along her jaw line and stopped when he reached her neck. He gently bit her and caressed it with his tongue and sucked at it again. Clary enjoyed the pain and pleasure and moaned.

She grabbed his hair and pulled him towards her and kissed him. Things were heating up. Clary's hands wandered to the hem of his shirt and grabbed it so that she could feel his abs with her hands.

She slide over his stomach to his strong built back and with her finger nails she draw circles on his back making him shudder under his touch.

Suddenly, the door burst open and Isabelle stood there looking at them mischievously.

So, here ends the chapter. I'll try to upload the next chapter during the week but I can't promise anything but maybe I'll start today.

Okay, what do you think Jace should do now? Talk to Sebastian? Fight with him? And why is Isabelle looking at them mischievously?

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And tell me if you have any wishes how I should go on. It really would help me because sometime I'm a little bit torn between some things and if you tell me what you want to happen then we are both/all happy.

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