I feel the life oozing from my body. I know my soul will not go to a pleasant place. I have done too much wrong. I've tried to make up for my sins against Lily by preparing her son.
I have failed to prepare him fully there is information hidden deep within my mind he needs and now the dark lord has killed me and I will not be able to pass it on. It is the finial failure that I will need to atone for….I have eternity.
As my last grasp on life is slipping away he is suddenly here. I look in to those eyes, his mother's eyes and give all I have left to give. I die staring in to her eyes.
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The pain is gone. I am cold and naked. I slowly open my eyes. What is this! I am looking in to her eyes! Oh please against all that is holy! He can not have died. He must succeed! He must make her sacrifice worth it!
Suddenly I realize it is not Harry who stares at me, it is Lilly. She wraps me in clean warm robes.
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I am not in hell. Lily explains this is the place where we wait to see where we are to spend our eternity. She can only stay for a moment. She must go to Harry to help him face his death. She does not explain.
Albus arrives I assert that I know my sins are too great that I must spend eternity paying for all those I wronged. He asks about those I protected and aided, what of them? I know they were too few, too late.
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It is time I must face the list of my transgressions. I walk toward the door to the chamber. I walk toward my fate.
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I am astounded. I have not been sent to hell. I will not burn forever. The tally of my life has been done and the master accountant has found the books of my life to be balanced. The pain and suffering I have endured, along with the good I tried to do has redeemed me.
I walk through a shining door toward a group of people. Lily walks toward me, James holds out his hand. He asks forgiveness, as do I. My soul quiets.
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I have but one question. Did Harry succeed?