One more short chapter before I head to bed

Hey guess what? I still don't own Criminal Minds.

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It had been a month since my date with Kevin and things were going great. We would meet up every morning, talk every night, and he would try and see me at least three times a week, wither it be for a date, lunch, or him coming over with dinner for me and Penny when the team had a case. He was such a great guy. He was even joining me on my horrible diet Morgan had me on. I wasn't allowed to eat any added sugar, which meant no coffee. I was not happy with that one and on some days, I was ready to give in and just quit. But then someone who calm me down and bring me back to my goal. I was so happy to have the team. I knew I wouldn't be able to do any of this without them.

I was having lunch with Spencer and were talking about the PFT. "So you think you will be ready next week?" He asks me.

"Yeah. I have been in the FBI standards for the last week so Morgan told me that tomorrow we would do the whole test and see if I was able to do it all together." I tell him.

"That is great Gwen." He says with a small smile.

"What is wrong Spencer? You haven't been acting the same in a while." I ask him and place a hand on his hand.

"I've been having these dreams, Gwen." He starts off.

"What are they about?" I ask.

"I've talked to Rossi about it if you don't want to listen." He says.

"Spencer. I want to listen to what has been bothering you." I tell him. "Please tell me."

"Well it has been three months and seventeen days since Maeve died." He starts off. "I haven't been sleeping because she has been in my dreams. She is there and I am so relieved. I see her and it makes me so happy. She asks me to dance and I can't dance and I never touched her so I can't dance. I wake up and I'm not sleeping. I don't want to go back when I know I can't dance with her." He says and looks down. "Rossi says I should just let the dream play out and go from there but I'm worried if I do then I will either lose myself or lose her. I don't want to do either. I want her to be here with me."

"I'm sorry you have to go through that but I think you should follow Rossi's idea. I think it could help you." I tell him. "You will never forget her Spencer. Even when you don't have a memory like yours, you remember those dear to you who have passed on. It is a blessing and a curse."

"I just don't want her to become a distant memory that only comes into my mind when I think of death." He says.

"I don't think that will happen Spencer." I say and rub his hand. "If I could trade places with her, I would do it just to know that you would be happy."

"Don't say that Gwen. I would be like this if you died. I don't want you gone either. Don't say that." He tells me, grabbing my hand.

"Sorry." I say and look down.

"Gwen, I would never want anyone in our team to be gone for Maeve to be back." He says. "You guys mean as much as she did."

I look up and nod. "Sorry. I was just trying to make you feel better." I say.

"Well I would hate to see a world without Gwen in it." He says.

"It would be the same world." I say softly and eat my lunch, not knowing Spencer heard me.

The next day, Morgan tests me in the PFT and I get a 14 on it, when all you need is a 12. "You are lying to me. I did not get a fourteen." I say to Morgan.

"I'm not lying. You did great Sweet stuff." Morgan tells me. "And since I am a trainer for the FBI, I can officially say that you have passed the PFT and you are ready for basic training."

I look at him and grin. "Holy shit. No way!" I say.

"Yes way." He says and grin. "We are shipping you out."

I run up to him and hug him. "Thank you!" I yell.

He hugs me back. "No problem. You were easier to train than pretty boy." I back up and smile. "He still doesn't like when I train him for the retests."

"He doesn't?" I ask.

"Nope. He complains that I push him too hard. That's what was nice about you sweet stuff. You took what I was telling you and pushed harder." Morgan says.

"I just want to get on the field." I tell him.

"Let's go back to the BAU and take a shower. We can tell Hotch that you finally passed your test." Morgan says.

"Finally? What do you mean finally?" I ask.

"I'm messing with you girly." Morgan says as we get into the car. "You did good. You trained in a good amount of time. You are going to do good at basic training."

"Okay, thanks." I tell him. I close my eyes on the way back. Morgan made me get up at seven to get ready. I was so tired and ready to be able to have coffee again. We get back to the BAU and I start heading to the showers. "Don't you want to be the one to tell Hotch that you passed the test?" He asks me.

I stop and turn around. "Yes." I say and run up to Hotch's office. I rush in but no one was there. "Where is he?" I ask Morgan as he walks up.

"Maybe the conference room?" He asks.

I nod and run into the room and am suddenly surprised by a group of people yelling "Surprise!" I look around and see the team and Kevin smiling at me.

"Guys, what is this?" I ask, looking at them.

"Well, Morgan told us that you were going to pass the PFT today and so I set up a little party to celebrate it." Penny explains.

"Oh guys." I say and rush to Penny and hug her. "You are the best!" I look at the table and see cake. "Is that cake?" I ask.

"Yes and we even got you your coffee." Spencer told me.

"Oh you guys." I say and smile. I rush over to Spencer and he hands me a large cup of coffee. I take a big gulp out of it and smile. "Perfection."

I go to Kevin and smile. "You were in on this too?"

"Of course. I want to celebrate my girlfriend's accomplishments." He tells me.

I freeze. "Girlfriend?" I ask, looking at him.

"Um, yeah. Do you not want to be my girlfriend?" He asks. "Should I have asked?"

"Um, no. I just didn't… um." I look at him. "I'll be right back. Please don't go anywhere." I say. He nods and I look at him and nod. I run to Penny and pull her out of the room into the hallway. "He wants me to be his girlfriend. I don't know how to do that." I tell her as soon as we are alone. "I'm going to mess everything up. I am freaking out. Help me."

"Winnie. Take a deep breath and hold it." She tells me. I do what she says. "Okay, now let it out and listen to what I am saying." I let my breath go and nod. "You like Kevin right?" I nod. "You like what you do with him?" I nod again. "Then you are his girlfriend. It isn't any different from what you are doing now." She tells me.

"What if he wants other things." I say softly, looking around.

"Oh sweet child." She says and sits us down. "Sweetie. I can't tell you when you will be ready but just listen to gut."

I nod and sigh. "I should probably get back to him. He is probably getting flashbacks to when you turned him down." I say and get up.

"Let's go calm that poor man down." She says and we head back into the party.

I go over to Kevin, who was sitting down on the couches. "Hey Kevin." I say as I sit down.

"Gwendolyn, if you don't want to be my girlfriend, I understand. I just need you to be honest." Kevin says softly.

I kiss him softly and pull back. "Does that feel like I want to break up?" I ask with a smile.

"Nope." He says and smiles.

"I was nervous. I've never been anyone's girlfriend. I just needed Penny to calm me down." I explain.

"I understand Gwendolyn. Thank you for being honest." He says and leans his forehead on mine. "I'm going to miss you."

"I will too. It's going to be weird to not see you every day." I tell him. "It will be weird not seeing any of my family every day." I say and look out at the team. I was nervous about leaving. I get up. "Let's have fun and think about that when I leave."

I spent all of Saturday and Sunday with the team and Kevin. Monday morning, Penny, Rossi, Spencer, and Kevin take me to the academy. Penny and I cried while the boys just look sad. "Rossi, you are the closes thing to a dad and I'm going to miss you so much." I tell Rossi.

"Gattina, you are just like my daughter. I'm going to miss you too. I'll be here when you graduate and there will no one more proud than me there." He says.

"Oh Rossi." I say and hug him.

"Gattina, make me proud okay?" He asks as I back up.

"Oh course I will." I tell him. I move to Penny. "Oh Penny. My first friend. My mentor. My sister from another mister. I'm going to miss you so much." I tell her and hug her.

"It's only five months." She says, crying again. We pull back. "It will pass like nothing."

I nod. "Yes. You won't even have time to miss me." I tell her.

"I'll call if I need your help on a case." She tells me.

"You better." I tell her and move to Spencer. "You mister better call if you need to talk. I don't want to come back and see a half asleep Spencer zombie." I tell him.

"I will Gwen." He says and hugs me. "I'm going to miss you."

"I'm going to miss you too." I tell him and close my eyes. "Make sure you text me with my daily fact. I don't want to get stupid without them." I tell him as we pull back.

"Did you between 30%–38% of psychopaths show abnormal brainwave patterns, or EEGs." Spencer tells me.

"I do now." I say and smile. "Call me." I tell him and move in front of Kevin. "Are you going to miss me?"

"Is that even a real question?" He asks.

"Make sure to not watch any of the new Doctor Who episodes till I get back. I'll know if you do." I tell him.

"I already said I wouldn't Gwendolyn." He says and smiles.

"I'll know." I tell him and hug him. "Call me tonight."

"Was already planning it." He tells me and kisses my head.

I pull back and smile at the four of them. "I feel like I'm a kindergartener with my parents dropping me off." I laugh.

"Have a good day sweetie." Rossi says.

"Don't fight with the others." Spencer says.

"Don't eat the paste." Penny says.

"Make friends." Kevin says.

"Thanks guys. At least I finally got my kindergarten send off." I tell them. I look at the building. "I should be going."

"Do you have everything you need?" Rossi asks.

"Yes, dad." I say and roll my eyes with a smile on my face. "Bye guys. Tell the others I say bye."

"Will do." Penny says and I walk into my home for the next five months.

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-Five months later-

-Spencer's POV-

Gwen has been gone for five months now and it was like a hole was in each other team's heart. We finally got the replicator but we were all missing Gwen. Kevin was hanging around us more than usual, usually with Penelope. They would have a call from Gwen after a case and they would be telling her about it. I really didn't like to see Kevin around. I didn't think he was right for Gwen. I tried to talk to Morgan about what I was feeling, but he just kept saying that I was jealous, but that was stupid. What was I jealous of? I just knew that Gwen deserved someone better than Kevin. I know Rossi was talking to Gwen a lot, more after Strauss was killed. I knew that Rossi wished she was here when the replicator was out there to keep her safer, but we all knew that her safest spot was at the academy. I talked to her a lot too. I would call after a bad case or if I had another Maeve dream. It was a long time since Maeve had been in my dreams. In the last one, Maeve was telling me to move on with my life. She told me that I would love again but I didn't want to believe that I would find someone as special as Maeve.

It was drawing near to when Gwen would graduate from the academy and we were all planning to go together. I knew Penny was planning a party to celebrate. I was walking into the office the Monday before the graduation, planning on doing paperwork. Hotch got the new director to agree to no cases until Gwen's graduation. It took a lot of persuading, but we got it. I sit at my desk and get my paperwork started. "Everyone in the conference room. Now." I hear Hotch say and I look at the others.

"We aren't supposed to have a case this week." I say to the others.

"Maybe it's one that can't wait." JJ says as we get up. We walk into the room to see Kevin pacing. Penny was almost in tears.

"What is going on?" I ask Hotch.

He looks at us and sighs. "Gwen has been taken."